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Teardrops

Ally's POV

Sitting on the couch in my suite at The Marriott, I let my thoughts just run rampant in my mind. I stand up and walk over to my suitcase, and grab a bottle of white wine, open it with my travel wine key and find a glass in the room pouring myself a huge glass of wine all the way to the top.

I remember the very beginning of not only getting to know Austin, but us becoming friends. Even at the age of fifteen I'm be lying if I told you that I didn't think he was absolutely cute, because he was. The day I met him he was playing the drums in my store with corn dogs, while it was totally bizarre that he did that. There was just something about him. He was just so charismatic, that's when I knew that if I didn't keep him at arms length for at least a little while that I was in serious trouble. His charm, that Austin Moon irresistible charm that he has, not only that cute face but his smile. It made my heart race faster than I ever thought imaginable, but he wouldn't ever look at me that way.

Flashback

I'm sitting in the practice room at the age of fifteen when I still had stage fright. I was singing and song I had just written called You Don't See Me.

I'm the sun in your eyes

But you don't see me

I'm a total surprise

but you don't see me

I'm so agonized that you don't see me

You don't see me

I was interrupted by Austin clapping his hands, I'll just skip to the part of our conversation that stood out. Austin was asking me if I had a problem with not performing and not getting recognized and I told him no. He said, "Good, cause I could never do what I do without you. You're awesome." My heart swelled, that was probably the sweetest thing anyone had ever said to me at that point. "Thanks, Austin." Dez had then made his presence known aw-ing at us rather loudly, Austin asks, "Dez are you spying on us?" He said that he wasn't, he was actually aw-ing at a kid who had destroyed a violin, hey the instruments in my store were my responsibility.

End Flashback

Looking back, I think that's when Dez had secretly started shipping Austin and I as a future couple, but we all know how that turned out. I continue to sip on my glass of Chardonnay not wanting to get drunk, but just wanting to not feel so much pain anymore. Honestly, I'm not sure how many more flashbacks I'm going to have. I would attempt to get changed out of the dress I'm wearing, but it's just so pretty. It makes me feel pretty, desirable, and I have one of the best memories from the one other time I wore this dress, but you'll find out later which one I'm wearing.

Flashback

Prom was a week away and Gavin still hadn't asked me yet. I was downstairs in Sonic Boom as Austin for some reason needed my help and was practicing asking Piper to Prom while using me as his 'decoy'. To explain it a little better I'm going to use a hockey reference. Imagine all the players on the ice, there's the forward and his teammates, I'm considered the sweeper, and Piper is the goalie for an opposing team. Austin needs to score that goal in order to get her to go with him to Prom. Anyways, it was beyond totally awkward but since he was my best friend, regardless of my feelings for him, towards him, or whatever. Here I am once again I more than willingly I might add, but begrudgingly assisting him to the best of my ability.

I know that I was dating Gavin, but my heart was set on Austin actually asking me. It honestly hurt that he was asking Piper, even though yes I guess it made sense, but they weren't even dating that long. I tried to even distance myself from Austin when he and Piper started dating and it only worked for a little while.

Ugh, that was awful. But back to Austin and Piper. It's like he needed my approval on what he should wear on dates, where to take her, what they should do. I swear so many people assumed especially then, but for the longest time that I was Austin's girlfriend. He needed me to help him with basically everything, I honestly just didn't give a fuck. I didn't sabotage his relationship with Piper though. Ugh, I think this is worse then the time I helped him planned that picnic in the park with Kira. It ended up being a total disaster. He bought her a necklace like mine with her name on in it, I felt hurt. He ended up going to Dez's house playing video games with her and eating pancakes. He expected me to find out more about Piper her likes and dislikes and I had to pretend that I was okay. When a couple saw us while we were out shopping to buy Piper something, the woman said, "You two are the cutest couple." I shook my head, the lady looked at me and then at Austin like I had three heads, "Thank you, but we're not an item. He has a girlfriend, we're out shopping for her." The lady just looked at me with a that's a shame, smiled and put her hand on my shoulder telling me that everything would work itself out without actually saying it. It made me feel good that that's how people perceived our relationship, but at the same time it just twisted the knife in my heart a little bit harder. The reality was, Austin and I were not together. He suggested that we move on and date other people and that's exactly what they did.

We had just came back from shopping, I had Austin carry the shopping bags up to the practice room. Trish grabbed my arm, "Ally, why are you doing this to yourself? Austin's with Piper, isn't it hurting you spending so much time with him?"

"I've tried to keep my distance from him, but he's like a puppy he needs my help with everything."

"Why do you look like you're going to cry?" She asks me.

"It just hurts. I'm an fool for not just saying no to him, not telling him that I don't want to spend so much time with him because my feelings towards him just get stronger. He wants me in his life, but he wants to have a girlfriend too. He doesn't care about my feelings." Trish pulls me in for a hug. "I'll always be here when you need me."

"Hey guys! What did I miss?" Austin came bounding down the stairs.

"Nothing, you would care about." I muttered so low that only Trish could hear me.

Trish had made a huge deal about Prom and "The Big Ask" alluding to that was why I had scoffed and said the way that Austin planned to ask Piper was totally unromantic. So, what did Austin do to ask Piper to the Prom?

**THE AUSTIN MOON SPECIAL OF COURSE**

He wrote the shortest song ever. I was only thanking God that he didn't ask me to help him write it. It reminded me of a few years back when he asked me to write a song for Cassidy, he couldn't communicate his feelings, ultimately he would once again end up hurting my feelings.

Alright, so here goes. I'm at Shredders with my friends when Gavin shows up with my favorite flowers, turns out they were just for a fan. I thought that he was finally going to ask me to Prom, only to be disappointed. Austin comes out with a guitar and starts singing to Piper. It hurt more than words could ever possibly express. Here I was standing right in front of him the entire time and he couldn't even see me. I felt invisible, insignificant. Tell me what Piper did to deserve the same kind of romantic gesture Austin did for me, when the piano he bought for me fell out of the sky?

NOTHING.

She wasn't there when Austin needed surgery on his vocal chords, he was scared so I was the one he came to to comfort him. He came to me, not Dez or Trish. Me. She wasn't there when his dream came true and he performed in Times Square on New Year's Eve. She's not the one that was crazy enough to hold his hand and bungee jump with him off a bridge. She's not the one that missed him like crazy while he was on tour. She's not the one who helped him get every girl other than herself when we were younger. She's not his best friend. I was always there for him through it all, he just overlooked me.

In the lyrics to his "Big Ask" Austin even included the part where he wanted to ask her to the Prom at the place where they first met. Something about Please say Yes so I don't have to ask my Mom, I kept looking between Austin and Piper. I wasn't jealous not then, more like heartbroken. If anything I was envious, I couldn't be jealous because I had Austin before. I had finally had enough of all this fucking bullshit to be honest. To make matters worse, Dez being obtuse said that he would email me a copy of the video. Like I wanted that. I snuck out of the restaurant and went to my house to get away from it all, forget everything. Once Austin asked Piper to the Prom I just kept trying to pull myself as far away from him as possible. I mean literally physically and mentally, but he was either too blind to notice or he just was acting like a narcissist. Since I couldn't get away from Austin, I couldn't get away from Piper either.

Some time had passed and it was finally the day of the Prom. I decided that since I had rejected Gavin the first time I wasn't going to go at all. Trish was the one that came after me, the one thing that sticks out that I said to her was this,

"All I know is, I'd rather stay home, than go to prom with the wrong guy."

After talking to Trish, I went back downstairs to try and get some work done, but that was proving to be extremely difficult.

Picture this, Austin and Piper sitting at the piano downstairs and this is how the conversation went.

Piper saying to Austin, "I'm so excited about prom."

Watching as they were staring at each other seemingly in love, I rolled my eyes thinking she's such a..what's the word? Oh right! BITCH!

Oh, but it gets better not only were they acting like lovesick fools Piper was sitting in my spot on the piano bench. I wanted to get some songwriting done, but Austin wouldn't focus. I was beyond frustrated with him. It felt like Austin had replaced me completely. She literally took my spot.

Our Friendship, Our Partnership and she even took my place as Austin's girlfriend and Stole His Heart.

I couldn't help but roll my eyes and gag at their "affection" for one another.

Austin replied dazed, "I know. It's gonna be the most romantic night, ever."

The most romantic night ever, he's going to be with her. And everyone wonders why I want no part in it? Why would I want to watch the guy I'm in love with fawn all over his current girlfriend? Why would I want to watch him do things like hold her hand, slow dance with her, kiss her, with my luck confess in front of our entire school that he's in love with her? NO THANK YOU!

I seriously couldn't freaking take them anymore. I couldn't stand being around Carrie or Dez either. The only one that was still somewhat normal and not being a totally insensitive twit was Trish, at least she cared. Then again, she knew that I turned Gavin down because I really wished I was going with Austin. I didn't have to say Austin's name, but Trish just knew.

Everyone showed up, I took group pictures of them. Seeing Piper in that beautiful pink dress I felt like I was looking at Barbie and just a blonder version of Austin as a Ken doll.

Later after everyone had left, my dad had gotten me to change my mind and I ended up going to the Prom after all. I walked into the Prom just happy that I would get to spend time with my friends. I didn't need a date. Austin, Austin spent most of the night avoiding me and acting completely asinine. Shocker. Then, I walk up to him and Piper and he not only had Piper on his back, when she complimented my dress, Austin said,

"I've seen her look better."

Wow, then the lyrics to my favorite song by R5 played in my head, I could hear Ross's sultry singing voice.

You said what you said
When words are knives its hard not to forget
But something in my head my wouldn't reset
Can't give up on us yet
No, woah
Your love was so real
It pulled me in just like a magnetic field
I'd let you go but something's taking the wheel
Yeah it's taking the wheel
Oh, woah

My mind says, no you're not good for me
You're not good but my heart's made up on you

Austin, what a fucking jerk he was being. He's seriously the worst best friend and I should just tell him to fuck off right here and now. Tell him that we're no longer friends and that I don't even want to be his songwriter anymore. For those of you thinking that I'm overreacting, you try having the guy you care and have feelings for say that to you. I'm not overreacting, do you have any idea how much that hurt me? Well, let me tell you, that was only the first injury as an insult that night. It was Prom! Of course I wanted to feel gorgeous, be told that I looked awesome, what girl wouldn't? No, seriously can you think of one that wouldn't want the night to feel special? I can't.

Once I got over the initial hurt that he hurt my feelings. I decided to just go dance with a group of guys that didn't have dates. They have no problem telling me I was beautiful and saying that Austin's just a fool since he was staring at me. I didn't bother to look his way though, he didn't deserve my attention right away. I focused on the cute guys in front of me in the hopes that they could distract me from the pain. So I put on a smile for everyone, Shakespeare's "All the worlds a stage" came to mind, but I had to. One guy even asked for my number, but I just didn't see a point in finishing Senior Year with a boyfriend just for us to be torn apart a week, a month, or a few months later. That is of course, until I reconnected with Ethan, but that was shortly after Gavin and I broke up after he showed up dressed as my Knight in Shining Armor on a white horse.

Kimmy comes up to the podium, announces that Austin's our Prom King and I felt proud for him. I look up to see Austin talking to himself while the queen was about to be announced. That's when I read his lips, saw he was saying, "Don't be Ally." He's just batting a fucking thousand. huh? Just then my name was called, I was the Prom Queen. I couldn't have been any more excited. I had barely spent any time with Austin, he was my Prom King and I was going to get to do the spotlight slow dance with him or so I thought. Even though it seemed that he was repulsed by the thought of dancing with me, which I found odd because he's the one that taught me how to slow dance.

I run up on stage to hug him, he hesitates. I remember thinking seriously, what now? He resolves whatever inner battle he was having I guess for an albeit too short moment, melts into our hug and I can feel him smiling against my hair even though I'm not looking at him. I felt happy for just a minute, then that was taken away from me. We get off the stage, are about to start dancing, I couldn't even get his attention to focus on us, he just kept looking at her, then he leaves me to go talk to Piper.

That was the last time I was going to let Austin Moon make me feel that way.

Confused. Unworthy. Un-Desirable. FUCK YOU, AUSTIN!

I was again rejected by Austin. The worst part is that I had to pretend like I was okay. Dez came to the rescue and danced with me, saving me some humiliation. While it was sweet and I love him for being a great friend it should have been Austin that I was with. While dancing with Dez I was singing my lyrics to the song I wrote about Austin I Think About You in my head.

How long til I stop pretending what we have is never ending

If all we are is just a moment

Don't forget me cause I won't

And I can't help myself

I think about you

I'm surprised that I didn't start crying after being rejected publicly by my best friend. Seriously, fuck my life. I must have been a glutton for punishment. I should have just left when I felt like I had my heart ripped out of my chest and throw to the bottom of the ocean, but I didn't I stayed. I spent the rest of the night with my friends that actually loved me minus Austin. I slow danced with a few guys that actually thought I was beautiful. I went home alone that night and put the picture of Austin and I down that Dez snapped. The one where were playing Clarinet Golf and Austin had his arms around me while I smiled looking up to him and cried myself to sleep thinking...

I was never Austin's first choice.

End Flashback

Whoa! It's pretty crazy that I've had a few flashbacks already today. I thought I had forgotten about him and about that absolutely horrific experience of being in love with someone who didn't see me.

Just then I am interrupted by my conscience as if on cue,

You could never forget him Ally. You said so in the note that you wrote him the morning you left him.

I groaned starting that inner battle with myself which just happened, You can't blame me for leaving him. I had already given up MUNY for Austin. I wasn't going to give up my record deal and going on tour. He acted so in love with Piper that I just couldn't even be around them anymore. I had to get away.

I understand your reasoning, but Ally don't you think there's a possibility that when you left you broke more than just your own heart?

What are you trying to say?

What if you broke Austin's heart too?

Yeah, like that's even remotely plausible. He's engaged to Piper.

I look down at my watch, then out the window where it's so dark from it down pouring that you would think it's night time. It reminds me of the time when things got even more tense between Austin and I.

Flashback

Austin and I had just gotten into a fight because he lied to me. He lied to me to spare my feelings. This was shortly after Austin had finished his tour. He kept avoiding us talking about what was going on between us, that I shouldn't worry about it and that he really did care. I barely slept the night before because this is around the time that we were together... but not. I tossed and turned in my bed all night trying to figure out what the fuck it was that we exactly were. I could never get a straight answer out of him.

It was the beginning of September, we had just gotten out of school and I was so pissed at him that I was trying to ignore him .I had a massive fucking migraine thanks to him and lack of sleep. He said something of the lines of,

"Wow, you look really pale. Are you sick?"

Which set me off, "The only thing I am sick of is your shit." And for the record, no I was not on my period.

"Ally, what did I do?" He looks at me like he was oblivious as to why I would be even remotely upset with him.

"More like what did you just say? Austin, I spent most of the night unable to sleep because I was trying to figure out what the fuck is going on between us." I pushed the doors to our school open to leave, when of course it was raining and I didn't have an umbrella either. Frustrated I took my backpack off standing under the part of the building where I wouldn't get wet just yet. I bent down and made sure that my phone, keys and anything electronic was safe and completely zipped. I ran down the stairs with Austin calling after me. "Damn it, Ally just talk to me."

He just wasn't taking the hint. "What do you expect me to say? Just you know what, no Austin. I don't know what's going on with us and I just don't want to do this anymore. I don't want to be with you and not be with you."

I stopped as soon as I reached my car, holding my hand to my heart and just let the tears fall because it's raining, he'll never be able to see me anyways. "It's beyond ridiculous we're either getting back together or we're not. I'm under the impression that Everything is a fucking game with you."

"What are you saying? You think I'm playing mind games with you? Why would I do that to you..you're my best friend."

"I'm saying that we should take a step back. You know I guess give each other some space. I know that you have feelings for someone else so just go pursue something with her."

He look confused and hurt, "I don't want this."

"You're not giving me a choice, Austin." I had finally reached my car, threw my stuff into the car. I was about to get in the car, he threw his backpack into my car as well. "I'm not taking you home." The next thing I know he has put both of his hands on my waist, pulls our bodies flush against each other and he kisses me in the pouring rain in our school parking lot. He pulls away after our heated encounter, "I want this Ally. I can't forget about the kiss we just had. I can't forget about us. Now do you believe me?"

I was already in love with him and there wasn't a single thing that I could do about it.

End Flashback

A/N: Let me just say I'm sorry for not revising this in the very beginning I should have. I fixed it, so it should be much easier to follow. Also, I feel more comfortable writing Austin's POV so this will be the last time that you will be reading Ally's. There's a reason that I did it as it sets up the rest of the story.

Austin's POV is next. What are your favorite parts in this chapter? Review it up! XOXO