IMPORTANT: The song interspersed throughout will be playing to set the scene. LISTEN I REPEAT LISTEN TO THIS SONG WHILE READING IN ORDER TO GET HOW THEY'RE BOTH FEELING! IT TOTALLY SETS THE MOOD TRUST ME! You'll see what I mean, but as you read I need you to visualize everything that is happening, so I will be as descriptive as possible.
Also, when reading the lyrics even though this is Austin's POV you should be able to tell who the lyrics apply to.
I LEGIT LOVE YOU GUYS! I'm soooo sorry the last chapter was short, but I'm crazy busy and will make time to write later-ish.
This story will be rounding out in a few chapters. There may be one more and possibly an epilogue, but let me know what you guys want.
Disclaimer: I don't own Austin and Ally or The Disney Channel. I don't own the song lyrics either.
Austin's POV
Last time on Teardrops...
I let my feet carry me the rest of the way and I finally reach her door and knock. Okay, not knock, more like bang on the door.
Now or Never.
As I bang on the door loudly I hear shuffling around on the floor and on the other side. There's music playing but it's certainly not her own.
She opens the door, before I know it there she is standing right in from of me.
She looks fucking amazing.
I take a minute, okay maybe more than a minute to take in her appearance and thoroughly check her out.
Whatttt! I have no shame!
She's wearing the same dress that she wore when we finally got each other after being apart for less than 94 days, but I'm not sure how many and it was actually during my first tour. Her gold sequined style dress resembles that of the 1920's flapper. This one of the maybe handful of dresses that made a last impression, one that I could certainly never forget. The only difference between a flappers dress and Ally's is that there aren't threads dangling at the bottom. She's still wearing her white denim jacket and the same pair of heels she wore back when we were reunited all of those years ago. I remember being elated and I ran to her with a smile instantly lighting up my world and feeling like it was just the two of us when I hug her and spun her around. The dress still fits her in all of the right places, the only noticeable difference is that her chest fills out the dress more. It looks fuller, in the dress there's a tasteful amount of cleavage showing. Needless to say the dress and Ally both made me do a double take especially since her legs look unbelievable and so long and sexy.
She looks at me and blinks like she's just seen a ghost. I look down to see that she has a glass filled with wine in her hand and it looks like shes been crying.
I used to think one day we'd tell the story of us
How we met and the sparks flew instantly
And people would say they're the lucky ones
Neither of us has said a word yet. We just stand there motionless and stare at each other taking everything in. As we speak, I see that her hair is down and she has curls, long chocolate curls cascading down her back.
How does she look this good? It's pouring out!
I used to know my place was a spot next to you
Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat
'Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on
The music is still playing in Ally's suite just loud enough for both of us to hear. Why am I still standing in her doorway and neither of us have said a word?
We're not speaking
And I'm dying to know is it killing you
Like it's killing me, Yeah
Then, Ally's the first to break the silence and the tension stifling the air around us.
"A-Austin? What are you? How did you? I must be seeing things."
She's already flustered and rambling. I chuckle inwardly to myself, "That's my Ally."
"No Alls, I'm really here." She flinches the moment she hears me use her nickname. I take her left hand and put it on my face which is dripping from being out in the rain, but her touch makes me feel instantly warm.
She looks at me with question filled eyes and downs the rest of her glass of wine. She closes her eyes for the moment, when her mind registers that I am not a figment of her imagination she opens them and says,
"You're soaking wet!"
Truthfully, I probably look like a drowned rat or even a wet dog.
She hesitates, "C-come on in. I'll grab you a towel from the bathroom. You're going to end up getting sickkkkkk.
Shit, is she drunk?
"What are you doing here?"
I walk into her suite, she closes the door and then she goes into the bathroom to grab a towel but also emerges with a fuzzy bathrobe?
"Um, here youuuuuuuuuuuuu go." Then she randomly starts singing N*Sync while Taylor's song is still playing in the background.
Here we go one more time
Everybody's feeling fine
Here we go now...Yessss, yesss, yes here we gooooo
N*Sync has got the flow
She hands me the towel and fuzzy bathrobe and motions me to change out of my soaking wet tux. "Why don't you go and change out of that tux?"
She pauses trying to figure it out.
I look at her, "A bathrobe? Ally, how long have you been drinking?"
She shrugs, "Eh, there are two of them. I guess the hotel assumed I would be staying with someone else. Why are you avoiding the subject? Austin, it doesn't matter how longgggg I've been drinking. You're wearing a black tux, white tie and an orange rose boutonniere. So, start talking."
And you're doing your best to avoid me.
I avoid any eye contact with her and proceed to look at the carpeted floor in her suite instead. "Thanks for this. I'm going to change out of my tux and be right back."
I'm in Ally's massive bathroom en-suite right now. She's definitely tipsy. I haven't even told her why I'm here yet. I stare at myself in the large mirror trying to collect my thoughts and figure out what exactly it is that I want to say to her.
Would you fucking get it together Romeo? This could be your last chance. Do not fuck this up! Or your love story is going to end up looking a lot like a tragedy!
But she's tipsy!
Well don't spend forever figuring out what to say because in case you didn't notice there was a bottle of wine sitting near the television in her suite.
I strip off my soaking wet tux and wring it out over the sink, just decide to leave it in there. I come out of the bathroom to see that the song is still playing. She's sitting on the King-sized bed until she notices my presence, and instantly stands.
"Austin. You were in a tux. If you were in the type of tux that I think you were in then what the fuck are you doing here?"
"A-Ally I can-"
Try to form a coherent sentence Austin!
She gasps, "OH MY GOD!" She stumbles as she tries to get up off the bed again and I catch her, but she pulls herself out of my hold.
Fuck.
I don't know what to say since the twist of fate
When it all broke down
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now
"Ally." I tried to get closer to her and she just backs away from me.
Next chapter
"W-Were you supposed to get married today?!"
She blinks rapidly while looking at me in disbelief, searching for answers, answers that she deserves. She starts to pull on and look at the sequins on her dress, trying to pull the bottom of it so it's not as short. Great, I've made her unsure of herself.
How'd we end up this way?
You see me nervously pulling at my clothes and trying to look busy
And you're doing your best to avoid me
"Yes, I was." She looks absolutely horrified, then confusion crosses her face and she looks pissed as all hell. "I was supposed to get married today. I got to the altar and let Piper walk down the aisle."
"I'm sorry? What? Did you just say-"
I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us
How I was losing my mind when I saw you here
But you held your pride like you should've held me
I cut her off, "When I watched her walk down the aisle towards me.. the only person, the only face and the only person I wanted to see was you."
"What do you mean supposed to?" She pauses, then it looks like a light-bulb has gone off in her head as she realizes I've said the only person that I wanted to see was her.
She blinks repeatedly obviously shaking out the thought of that even being possible let alone plausible."I don't understand. I haven't seen or spoken to you in almost what four years. We had a clean break. Why on Earth would you choose your wedding day to Piper to come seek me out?"
"I couldn't marry her." I say attempting to look in her eyes, but she just looks away from me.
UGH!
She tilts her head to the side, "You couldn't?"
I grab both of her arms and force her to look at me. "No. I broke it off with Piper. I told her that I loved her, but that it wasn't enough for me or for her." I gulp, hoping that she won't slap me. " I told her what I'm about to tell you. Ally, you're my soul-mate. I should have never ever let you go."
She pries my hands off of her and turns her back to me, "Austin, I can't. I can't let you hurt me again. This is so like you! I was finally starting to completely move on and get over you, now here you are!"
I wrap my arms around her from behind, pulling her close to me while leaning down to say, "Don't tell me that you're not still in love with me. I heard your song Teardrops On My Guitar on the way over to the church. The name you used was Drew. But there never was a guy named Drew was there? You know how I know, it's because I remember the time when I told you that my middle name was Monica. You laughed like most people do, but you weren't mean about it. Do you remember what you asked me?"
"So if you could change your middle name from Monica legally to a boys middle name what would it be?" I pause, "We went through a list of boys names or rather you guessed, then I finally told you. Drew."
"You had said, You mean like Andrew? In which my response was, "No, just Drew."
"Jett listed a ton of guys during that interview, but I'm smart enough to know there are only two real options here. So, am I right? Is the song about Ethan? Or is it about me?"
She turns her head to look up at me,"It's not about Ethan. It's about you. Now take your hands off of me!"
I let got of her and clear my throat, "Ally, did you ever think about our night after you left me?"
"Of course I did. All the time. I couldn't stop thinking about you. I couldn't ever forget you. I cried myself to sleep at night, even with lack of sleep just passed it off as me being homesick."
"You never said that you loved me. We had given ourselves to each other. You were my first-"
She cuts me off as the teardrops just cascade in a waterfall down her face. " I didn't think that I had to. You said to just give you one night and I did. It was what you wanted. That's all in the past. Why are we even talking about this? We've been over for years now."
I move towards her to comfort her, she's refuses to let me do so.
"I don't think that it's over because at least in my heart its always been you."
"YOU'RE LYING! WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?!" She yells at me while choking on sobs.
I walk towards her and put my hands in her hair so I'm as close to her as she'll let me be.
"Why would I lie about that? You don't think that it killed me being away from you?"
Her lips looks so kissable.
"Then why didn't you come after me?" I can see tears starting to well up in her eyes.
Damn it!
I used to know my place was a spot next to you
Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat
'Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on
Oh, a simple complication
Miscommunications lead to fallout
So many things that I wish you knew
So many walls up I can't break through
"You said you wanted a clean break."
Oh I'm scared to see the ending
Why are we pretending this is nothing?
I'd tell you I miss you, but I don't know how
I've never heard silence quite this loud
"Open your eyes Austin! What I was really saying was I want you! I wanted you to breakup with Piper and fight for me. Instead you stayed with her. God, Austin you almost married her. How is that supposed to make me feel? How am I supposed to believe any of this?"
Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah?
"I have been gone for three almost four years now. You let Piper walk up the aisle for Godsakes! Who does that? Who just leaves like that the person that they committed and gave an engagement ring to with the intention of marriage and backs out literally minutes before their wedding vows? This is insane! And I don't know if you want to hear this, but tough. I got pretty serious with Ethan." I groan and growl, but she ignores me and continues anyways, " He actually talked about us getting married. I'm not going to lie because I did consider it. There's no way that you were ever going to come back. Ever. At least in my mind, I still can't even believe that you're here. I wondered what it would be like to be married in general. I wasn't really thinking anything about him talking about marriage, but then when I figured out that he was going to propose to me...He got as far as getting down on one knee when I instantly pulled him up. I didn't let him say anything other than my name. I couldn't say yes to him even if I wanted to."
I don't know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all broke down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now
"Why not?"
This is looking like a contest,
Of who can act like they care less,
But I liked it better when you were on my side.
"Because, he's not you. I'd rather be a bachelorette the rest of my life than commit to the wrong person. Here I had a guy ready to propose to me and I could only see that with you. I thought it would have been our love story, our engagement story, not mine and Ethan's. That's the difference between us Austin."
She pauses, "You were engaged. For whatever fucked up reason you proposed to Piper. You chose Piper instead of me. You gave her the ring. You were actually going to marry Piper. I-I stopped Ethan's proposal when I couldn't even fathom a future with him and I wasn't going to marry him. I only want to get married once."
As I process everything that Ally's just said I look to see her face contorting in what can only be described as excruciating pain.
The battle's in your hands now,
But I would lay my armor down
If you said you'd rather love than fight.
So many things that you wished I knew,
But the story of us might be ending soon.
It looked like she was ready to keep going, but I stopped her dead in her tracks, stalk towards her. There's currently way too much space between us both. She gets off of the bed in her suite to stand and I back her up against the wall with one hand on each side of her head and stare into her eyes, " I need you to listen to me, alright." She looks down, "Ally, look at me. Please." We make eye contact and she's now hysterically crying. I'm sure the fact that shes been drinking isn't helping. "I have made a ton of mistakes. I know that I don't deserve you. But look at me Baby, I left my own wedding. I love you. I've always been in love with you. You're the one I can even see that with. I know that it took me years to figure this out, but please tell me that it's not too late. We belong together. I think that I at least deserve a chance. I can be everything you want. Just-"
She cuts me off smirking, "Just shut up Austin. I think we've done enough talking."
She looks at me with teardrops falling down her cheeks and her once hysterical sobs begin to cease. "Oh the hell with it!" I keep my hands and her pinned against the wall grinding our cores against each other, when before I have even a second to think she grabs me by the back of the neck and kisses me. We haven't kissed in almost four years and it still feels like the first time that I kissed her. Once I have time to react, I attack her lips just as hungrily. This kiss is almost bruising and our lips are definitely swollen, but now that I've had them again there's just no way I can stop kissing her. I pull away for a second so we can catch our breath, whisper into her ear, "Be mine, Ally. Please. I want you. I need you. I love you." I raise her leg and pull her a little way away from the wall so I can grab her luscious perfect ass. She moans in appreciation, our lips start working together in an even hotter searing kiss. I bit her lip, she gasps as I slide my tongue inside her mouth and massage it the way I would her hopefully soaking wet entrance.
"Oh Godddd, please just make me yours Austin. I- I love you more."
I pull away to say, "As you wish." She whimpers at the loss of contact, her cheeks rosy, flushed and I pick her up and she wraps her legs around me so I can move her to...
A/N: Who wants SMUT?! ;-) It's coming and I mean that literally and figuratively speaking.
I'm really exhausted but being that I had 12 people review one chapter, I pushed through. To clarify Ally's not wasted and by the end of the chapter her buzz is seriously wearing off. You'll just have to wait to see what I mean. Was this one worth the wait? I hope so, I hope it's not disappointing. REVIEW AND TELL ME WHAT YOUR FAVORITE PARTS WERE! :)
Those of you who are reading Careless Heart, don't worry that story will be updated next. I need to type it out, then be anal retentive with revision and when I'm thrilled with the way it is then I will post it. Please be patient! I'm crazy busy this weekend, I'll try to update that by Sunday if I can.
