Track 2: Just A Kiss - Lady Antebellum
Lyin' here with you so close to me
It's hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe
I'm caught up in this moment, caught up in your smile
Her breath hitched as she laid down on her bed, only a few centimeters away from him. Her heart beat grew fast at the thought of sharing the same bed with him. The anxiety was in a way, exhilirating, disturbing yet, comforting. It was weird like her relationship with him. They'd been together for quite a long time, but still, everything is just really awkward between them. Though at times she feels like she doesn't know him, she enjoys his company, afterall he IS her boyfriend. She flinched at the word, boyfriend. She didn't know what to call him, sometimes she doesn't feel like she's his girlfriend. She figured, they don't really do what normal couples do. Her students and friends noticed and told her too. At first she didn't seem to mind, but she thought about it and it had started to bother her a bit.
She realized that somehow they're a bit slow. Very often, they'd visit each other. At times they stay at his house, sometimes at hers, but nothing really happens.- Well, not that she's complaining. They have dinner, sure. They talk, but not that much. There isn't much to talk about. Often times they just sit next to each other or lie down next to each other and say nothing. They were always silent, just anticipating each others' actions, just contented with the thought that they're together, even if they're preoccupied with different things. They just figured out for themselves that it was their usual, bonding time. It could be boring, for others, but for them it was always a comfort.
Kakashi was a man of few words. He's just like that to everyone, to his students, to her. Kurenai knew he had a different language and she understood it quite well through all those times they'd spent together. Kakashi need not to say much and neither did she. They just understand through actions, through looking into each other's eyes, through watching their every move. That's just how their relationship works.
Kurenai was fine with everything, just until she had that talk with her students and some of her peers.
"You're a bit quiet today..." He spoke, breaking the silence between them as he shifted his position to face her, making her snap out of her thoughts. She turned her attention to him and caught him smiling timidly at her. She was silent for a while as she looked at his face. He didn't wear his mask that moment. He doesn't wear it when he's with her. She'd seen his face many times, but she just couldn't help but still get astonished when she sees him maskless. She took a few seconds to stare at him. She looked at his eyes, colors mismatched, a scar right above and below his left eye. Her eyes travelled down to his lips then to the evident dimple right at the corner of it. She figured, he looked really child-like with out the mask. She can't help but feel giddy at the sight of his obstructionless face, but first thing's first. He asked her a question.
"We're always quiet..." She simply pointed out as she looked away from him. He chuckled at her answer, before averting his gaze from her then to the ceiling of her room.
"Well, your silence right now is different. Is there something bothering you?" He asked, making Kurenai smile a bit. She figured that this was one of the reasons why they need not to talk that much. They understood each other well with out saying anything to each other. Kakashi was a keen observer he had sharp senses, good instincts. He was sensitive to his surroundings. Kurenai didn't need to tell him anything. He'd just figure it out.
Kurenai didn't say anything. Instead she just sighed. She didn't know how she should tell him. She tried to avoid his gaze. She attempted to lie, but shook the thought away, since she knew he'd notice. She had always been a bad liar.
I've never opened up to anyone
So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms
We don't need to rush this, let's just take it slow
He froze as soon as she snuggled closer to him and rested her head on his arm, using it as her pillow as she wrapped an arm around his waist. She moved her head up to face him. He unconsciously looked her way. He tried to keep his breathing slow and steady as he looked into her ruby-like eyes. He tensed as she came closer, her face just a few inches away from his. Everything just seemed to stop right before him as she inched closer. It just seemed tempting for him. Kurenai was so close to him and they were all alone. It felt right, but he was restraining his urge to touch her. They've been together for a year now, but they haven't done anything but hold hands and hug. Kakashi felt guilty that in a way, he was rejecting her.
It doesn't always show, but he loves her trully. She was the only one who knew his deepest and darkest secrets. She was the only one who knew the real him and despite all his imperfections, she loved and accepted him still. At times he'd wonder what he did to deserve such a wonderful woman like her.
He loves Kurenai, but he had a hard time showing her. He just wasn't used to being too attached to people. He was, in away, afraid of intimacy for a reason. The thought of being too close to her makes him nervous.
"So, are you gonna tell me?" He asked, clearing his throat as he scooted away from her, breaking free from her embrace, which disappointed her in a way.
Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
And I don't want to mess this thing up
No, I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby, I'm alright with just a kiss goodnight
"It's not important..." She lied in reply as she looked away from him, feeling dejected. "You can sleep here if you like. I still have work to do."
With that being said, she left him lying on her bed astounded as she went to her study to make the list of new teams that weren't due until next week. She decided she needed a distraction, but things weren't going the way she planned. She sighed as she stared at the stack of papers on her desk. She wasn't really thinking about work. She was just staring at it as her mind drifted to the events earlier.
'Like you didn't know that was going to happen... ' She thought to herself as she shook her head, feeling like a fool, ashamed of her actions earlier.
She hated how he'd always move away from her whenever she's moving closer. She hated how she'd always reach out to him, but he just seemed unreachable.
She had begun to notice how everytime she'd hold his hand, he'd pull it away whenever his students came by. He hated being hugged in public. He hasn't even kissed her yet. She had begun to think if there was something wrong with her...
-Flashback-
Kakashi went out with the guys, so Kurenai figured that it would be just as fine if she'd attend the girls' night out that her student, Hinata invited her to. They went to a simple restobar to have dinner and sake. They spent some hours eating, drinking and talking about their lives.
Kurenai was put to a hot seat when she was asked about her love life, her relationship with Kakashi. Everyone in the village knew about them, though they have been very private about their relationship and though they weren't very vocal about it.
Kurenai's cheeks were already crimson due to the alcohol intake, but when asked about her relationship with the Copy Ninja, her cheeks grew a darker shade of red.
"Well, there isn't really much to tell..." She said in a shy manner as she fidgeted in her seat.
"Oh come on, sensei! We would really like to know... How's Kakashi-sensei as a boyfriend?" Sakura asked curiously. The rest of the girls grew curious as well. Kakashi had always been very mysterious. Sakura, being one of his students knew him as a sensei. He was intelligent, had a lot of insights that he shared with them due to past experiences. He treated everyone in team seven, including Sai, like family. Though many have viewed him as cold, mysterious and awkward. Sakura acknowledged that her sensei had a funny side too, but she can't help but wonder how her sensei acts in front of his girlfriend. Sakura got really excited when she found out that her sensei had started dating Kurenai, one of the most beautiful kunoichis in their village. It really surprised her when she found out that the two senseis had romantic feelings for each other, considering that she had almost given up on trying to find someone to pair up with her sensei since he seemed too focused on work more than anything else, but nervertheless, she was really happy for them.
"Yeah, tell us, Sensei..." Hinata encouraged as she herself had started to become interested in her teacher's love life. Hinata was among the people who witnessed how sad Kurenai was when her past lover, Sarutobi Asuma, passed away on a mission. She was glad when she found out that Kurenai had moved on and it seemed that she happy with Kakashi.
"I'm actually quite interested too, Sensei. Have you seen his face?" Ino mused, being the student of Kurenai's past lover got her interested too.
"Gai-sensei was really happy for the two of you, you know, sensei?" Tenten added. "He started saying stuff about the power of youth and such after he found out that his eternal rival had you for a girlfriend.
"Well... I don't really know where to start..." Kurenai said, feeling a bit awkward.
"Well, how far have you guys gotten too, eh, Kurenai-chan?" The fifth hokage asked in a straight-forward manner, since she was already drunk. Kurenai blushed furiously upon the question.
"Oh my gosh! Have you kissed?" Ino squealed.
"If you guys have kissed, then for sure you have seen his face!" Sakura added and she squealed with Ino in excitement.
"You guys, aren't we making sensei feel uncomfortable?" Hinata reminded as she was looking after her sensei. "How about we start with something simple like...how you guys got together..."
Kurenai was silent as she thought for a while before she started narrating.
"Well, it was a long process. I've known Kakashi ever since we studied in the academy. We weren't really that close, since he was advanced. He graduated ahead of us, since well, he's really gifted... I never really expected that I'd be in a relationship with him. We weren't really close before since he had always been so distant. But time came and the Lord Third assigned him to be a jonin sensei, the four of us, Gai, Asuma, him and me became principal senseis and through that I got the chance to talk to him from time to time, but still we were very awkard. But when Asuma died, he looked after me. We'd visit the cenotaph together and I learned that he understands the pain I'm going through because he himself went through it a lot of times... It didn't take a lot of time and we just, found love in sharing each other's pain I guess..."
"Well, tell us how he asked you out..." Sakura asked.
"Well, let's see..." Kurenai thought clearly. "He didn't really ask me out. He visited me from time to time. His visits became more and more frequent. We shared some stories with each other and then it seemed like we just had this understanding. We didn't have to talk about it, we just know that we had the same feelings for each other. It isn't like any love story, actually..."
"Well, that's something extraordinary..." Tenten remarked. "It wasn't cheesy and mushy, which is quite nice... Some couples are just too cheesy and it creeps me out."
"But part of being romantic is that cheesy and mushy stuff... Do you have moments like that?" Sakura asked.
"Tell us what base you're in..." Anko asked in a frank manner.
"Base? What base?" Kurenai responded cluelessly and Anko sighed.
"You know... The four bases... French. Feel. Finger. Fuck." Anko shrugged as she took another shot of sake.
The younger kunoichis gasped at the sudden question. Tsunade laughed and Shizune sweat-dropped.
"I don't think that's really a proper thing to discuss, especially among the young girls. Besides, we haven't done anything..." Kurenai replied.
"But he stays at your house. You mean to say, he hasn't done any move, yet?" Tsunade asked asked between her hiccups as she swooned in her drunkeness.
Kurenai just shooked her head in response.
"He's an after-marriage guy! " Hinata figured as she smiled. "He must really seem like a gentleman."
"I'm quite surprised, considering his novel preferences..." the senju princess remarked, laughing real hard. "At least we can all see that Sakumo-kun taught him well..."
It took a while for them to register in their minds that Tsunade is quite old, despite her really young look. They were surprised for a moment that she knew Kakashi's father, until they remembered the genration she belonged to.
"Has he kissed you yet?" Ino asked for the nth time. "I'm really dying to know!"
"Well he hasn't..." Kurenai said as she bit her lower lip. "We haven't kissed..."
The others gasped hearing the unexpected.
"But I have seen his face..." Kurenai continued. "No scars or blemishes except for the one near his sharingan eye. He has a dimple on his left cheek that shows whenever he smiles. He really looks like a kid when he smiles. It's a shame that he keeps the mask. He looks handsome without it..."
"Oh my gosh... You're really lucky sensei... I'm his student and he hasn't even showed me his face..." Sakura said. "I hope team seven gets to see his face too. We've all been dying to see what her really looks like without the mask."
"I'm starting to get real bored though, Kurenai." Anko stated. "I mean, your relationship with him seems a bit off. You've been together for one year already, right? How come he hasn't kissed you?"
Kurenai thought for a while and she figured that her friend did had a point.
"Well, we don't need to rush right?" Kurenai asked hesitantly as she turned to Hinata who smiled encouragingly at her.
"Love isn't just about those. As long as he cares about you... Then it's alright, sensei..." Hinata said as she comforted her teacher.
"Oh come on, but isn't that part of how he should show you how he truly feels. Isn't he man enough to freakin' kiss you?"Anko asked. "I mean, has he even told you he loves you?"
Kurenai tried to recall the last time Kakashi said "I love you" to her, but it seems as though she had no memory of it.
"Well... Yes..."She half-lied.
"You hesitated quite a bit..." Anko pointed out. "Has he or hasn't he?"
"He says, 'ditto.' " Kurenai replied.
"What does that even mean?" Anko's tone raised all of a sudden, feeling worried about her friend.
"It's the same thing..." Kurenai argued. "I say, 'I love you' and he replies, 'Ditto' "
"That's bullshit! My goodness, Kurenai, I thought you knew better." Anko bursted. "Does it take too much effort to say 'I love you' back to you? Is he even treating you right? I'm sure Asuma wouldn't like it if-"
"Kakashi loves me. He just... He just doesn't know how to show it. We love each other, and that's what matters. How we show it isn't important... " Kurenai said, feeling a bit hurt because of her friend's words. She felt a few tears brimming in her eyes as she stood up and got her shoulder bag and walked out of the bar. Hinata and the other girls went to follow her.
"Sensei, I'm sure Anko-sensei didn't mean to hurt you." Hinata said as she handed Kurenai her handkerchief. "Her words may have been harsh, but I'm sure she only means you well... It's probably just the alcohol, that's why she's acting like that."
"I'm sorry I ruined the girls' night out kids... I just couldn't sit there while she judges him... She's my friend but she doesn't know anything about him." Kurenai sobbed.
"I believe, Kakashi-sensei loves you. He was with us when we avenged Asuma-sensei. " Ino said as she held Kurenai's hands. "If anyone were to love you besides my sensei, I'm glad it's Kakashi-sensei."
"Also the fact that he showed you something he has never showed us, goes to show that he trully trusts you and loves you. Kakashi-sensei isn't really vocal about things, even with us. He has that special language, which I assume you've begun to understand, since you've been standing up for him from the very beginning. I'm really glad sensei had you for a girlfriend. If it bothers you that he doesn't hug you or kiss you, I can always talk to him about it..." Sakura said as she smiled at her sensei's crimson-eyed goddess. "I'm quite the only love expert in our team you know."
"Thank you girls. I appreciate your kindness, but you don't have to do all this for me. I'm fine..." Kurenai begun to smile at how thoughtful the young kunoichis were. "This incident shouldn't hinder you from having fun. You should go back to the restobar..."
"At least, allow us to walk you home first, sensei." Tenten suggested. "We'd be really worried if we'd let a pissed off, not-sober woman like you go home by yourself. I mean, you're a full-fledged kunoichi, but it's still dangerous."
With that said, Kurenai couldn't refuse. She was glad that she had such kind kids look out for her.
When they've reached her house, she turned to the girls to bid them good bye, but as she was about to do so, she sensed Kakashi's chakra. He'd had gotten into her house since she gave him a spare key. She was worried that if she'd enter, he'll find out that she'd been upset and that she had been crying. She didn't want him to worry. But she knew he is smart enough to find out and she felt a bit worried.
"He's here." Kurenai whispered cautiously to the girls. "Do I look like I had just cried?" She asked in panic as she fixed herself, wiping her face with the handkerchief Hinata had given her. She took out a mirror from her pouch to see for herself. She quickly reapplied her light make up and took a deep breath.
"You look fine now, Sensei. I'm sure he wouldn't notice." Sakura said encouragingly as Kurenai put on a smile on her face and opened the door to see Kakashi in his undershirt and blue sweatpants, sitting on the couch as he went through some of important files for work.
"I see you're home... Finished early?" Kakashi asked as he turned his gaze to her and the youngsters. He blushed when he realized that he isn't wearing the mask in front of them.
"Woah... So this is the face you've just told us about..." Sakura said in a daze, still in shock that she saw her sensei's unmasked face for the first time.
"So... You girls are here too? It's too dangerous out night for young ladies like you to be out this late. Your parents could be worried." Kakashi said, changing the topic.
"They just walked me home." Kurenai said with a smile. "You're home early too. I thought you spend some time witht the guys?"
"Well... you know me..." Kakashi simply responded, smiling sheepishly, revealing that dimple of his. " I don't like getting drunk that much, especially when I have work tomorrow."
"Oh my gosh it's that dimple you said!" Ino blurted making Kakashi feel awkward. Kurenai blushed in embarrassment as the girls are starting to reveal to Kakashi what they had been talking about during their girls' night out.
"We should go home, now since it's late. Good night Kurenai-sensei, Kakashi-sensei..." Hinata said as she gave them a polite bow.
"Good night kids!" Kakashi said. "Go home safetly."
"Thank you for walking me home, girls..." Kurenai added before she watched the girls leave, thinking about what they had told her earlier, weighing them with Anko's words.
-End of Flashback-
Kurenai snapped out from her thoughts as soon as she witnessed a coffee mug get placed on her desk. She turned to see Kakashi next to her, smiling as she looked at him in a quizzical manner.
"I made you coffee..." He explained. "I hope you don't take too long. You need to rest too..."
"Thanks..." She said. He left and she touched the warm mug, smiling as she looked at the note he sticked to it.
Ganbatte ne! :)
I know that if we give this a little time
It'll only bring us closer to the love we wanna find
It's never felt so real, no, it's never felt so right
After placing the mug on Kurenai's desk, Kakashi went back to her room and laid down on her bed. He stared at the ceiling and sighed, wondering about what she had been thinking. He felt that for some logical reason, she was upset with him and it frustrated him.
'I shouldn't have pushed her away, I guess..." He thought to himself as his thoughts drifted to the events that happened earlier during the guys' night out that he went to.
-Flashback-
Kakashi flinched as he held the shoulder that the Gamma Sennin had just punched. The old, drunken sage had a violent habit of hitting people next to him as he laughed while telling stories about his life and experiences.
The Copy Ninja, just nodded and tried to laugh at everything that the old man was saying, despite not paying attention to him. It took awhile before Jiraiya spoke,
"Anyway, enough about me... Let's talk about you..." He turned to Kakashi with a mischievous grin on his face. The silver-haired jonin looked at Jiraiya in a clueless manner, having no idea what to talk about, considering that to him, his life isn't an insteresting topic to discuss. The only interesting 'thing' in his life that he'd consider is Kurenai, which he had no intention of talking about especially when he's with a pervy old man. Favorite author or not, he had no intention of telling him anything.
"Me?" He asked, chuckling nervously.
"I heard a lot of interesting things about you, lately, eternal rival! I heard your flames of youth have been burning with love!" Maito Gai, exclaimed before taking another gulp of sake. Kakashi figured that his friend is way more hyper and more intolerable when drunk.
"Ne, tell us how you tricked our Kurenai-sensei into dating you..." Kiba said as he raised an eyebrow skeptically, making Kakashi a bit nervous. Kakashi knew the kid was only looking out for his beautiful sensei, but he figured,there was no need for him to answer to Kiba. Apparently, the Copy Ninja of the Leaf had his pride too.
"If you'd ask me, I think Kurenai-sensei was the one who made the move on my sensei first. Am I right, Kakashi-sensei?" Naruto bragged, rooting for his bias.
"What did you just say?" Kiba asked furiously as he set his bottle of sake with an angry thud. Naruto stood up, giving the Inuzuka boy a smirk of challenge. Kiba was about to stand up, when Shino stopped him.
"Oi, calm down, you guys..." Lee said as he held Naruto's shoulder, making him sit down. Choji looked worriedly at the two and Shikamaru shook his head as he muttered, "This is so troublesome... What a drag..."
Neji gave Naruto and Kiba a strict glare while Sai just put on his usual weird smile.
Kakashi sighed at the scenario before him. He couldn't help but agree on Shikamaru's remark that the guys' night out was actually troublesome. He pushed his bottle of sake away as he fixed his mask.
"So, back to the topic. Tell us about Kurenai-chan..." Jiraiya said with an excited look on his face.
"I have no intention of telling anything. Our relationship is between her and me." Kakashi simply replied.
"Awww come on, eternal rival! You don't have to be shy!" Gai persuaded, but Kakashi shook his head stubbornly.
"You know, boy, I actually thought that you'll end up a bachelor like me. Bet your dad would've been thrilled you finally got yourself a girl." Jiraiya said. Kakashi couldn't help but feel his heart sting a little at the thought of his father. He remembered how his dad had always wanted him to find the right woman and settle down. He was silent for a while as he thought about how his father loved his mother up to her last breath.
"Anyway..." Jiraiya continued, before taking another shot of sake. "Tell us about how she pleases you. How does she satisfy your needs, huh? I kinda need an inspiration for my new book. Ne, don't tell me that you're an after-marriage guy like you father..."
The vulgar statement suddenly made Kakashi choke on his last sip of sake. Yamato gave his senpai a pat on the back as he tried as much as possible not to spit out the alcohol inside his mouth. Kiba and Naruto stood up from their seats as they shouted, "You sick, perverted old man!"
The two were about to hit the Gamma Senin, when Neji and Shikamaru, two of the most matured boys in their batch, stood up to interfere.
"Oi, you two, you can't just hit one of the Legendary Sannin. Perverted or not, you should still pay him respect." Neji hissed as he struggled to make the two hot-headed boys to calm down.
"I can't just let him talk about my sensei like that!" Kiba protested in fury. Kakashi gave the boy a pat on the head as he stood up, preparing to leave.
"That's enough boys." Kakashi said calmly. "Maybe we should all just call it a night... Naruto, please escort Jiraiya-sama home..."
Naruto could only nod at his sensei's orders. He stood up to help the drunken Gamma Sennin stand up.
Kiba turned to follow Kakashi outside the restobar.
"Kakashi-sensei!" He called and the silver-haired jonin turned to give him his attention. "You better not hurt Kurenai-sensei's feelings or I'll rip you to pieces."
"I won't, Kiba. I guarantee you that." Kakashi said in a calm manner before he disappeared in a puff of smoke.
-End of Flashback-
Kakashi snapped out of his reverie as soon as Kurenai entered her room. She halted on her tracks as soon as she noticed that he was still awake. She stood in front of him for a while and he watched her as she crossed her arms in front of her chest. He looked at her from head to toe and noticed how beautiful she looked in her nightwear. Her pink, satin night gown stopped about three inches above her knees and hugged her figure perfectly. He couldn't help but get a little distracted.
"You're still awake." She spoke.
"I wouldn't sleep unless you tell me what's bothering you..." Kakashi said in his usual calm tone as he looked her in the eye.
"I told you there's nothing to tell..." Kurenai protested in a stubborn manner as she looked away from him and went to lay down next to him on her bed. She shifted her position, her back facing him.
"If there really is nothing to talk about then why are you acting like this?" He asked as he sat still on the bed, waiting for a response from her.
"I'm tired, Kakashi..." She simply said. Kakashi wondered if she's just really tired of work or she's tired because of something else. He sure hoped that she was just tired of work, but he hightly doubted that.
"Kurenai, can we talk about this?" He asked, worriedly as he place a hand on her shoulder, which she shrugged off of her as she sat up straight and turned to him.
"So you finally decided that you want to talk?!" She said in a tone full of sarcasm, her voice slightly rising, over-powering his usual calm tone.
"Why are you so mad, all of a sudden?" He asked cluelessly, trying as much as possible to maintain his calm tone, as he didn't want to do anything that would add up to her anger.
"Why don't you find out for yourself, since you're so intelligent." She bursted and took a deep breath, as she can't control her emotions anymore.
"Kurenai, I can't play charades with you..." Kakashi coaxed, trying to handle the situation in a mature way. He tried to get in control of the situation, since it was their first fight. He had no idea of what else to do, but he figured, he didn't want it to end badly.
"So, you've finally decided to stop playing charades with me! -That's good because I'm so damn tired of playing charades with you!" She responded with tears in her eyes. Kakashi was left speechless at the sight of her crying. He watched as the beautiful, heart-breaking, crystals fell from her ruby eyes. He remembered how he was the one who used wipe her tears away, but now, he's the reason for her tears and he hated himself for that.
"Just tell it to me straight, Kakashi. Are you ashamed of me?" She asked as tears continued to fall from her eyes. Kakashi slowly and cautiously lifted his hand up to her cheek to wipe her tears away. He couldn't understand why she would think that way. To him, Kurenai was the most beautiful girl in the world. In his eyes she was perfect and truly unfit to be with someone like him. He loved her too much to be ashamed of her.
If he were to be ashamed of anything in their relationship, he'd be ashamed of himself, thinking that he didn't really deserve someone as lovely as her...
"How did you come up with that idea, Kurenai? I would never be ashamed of you..." He said as he looked into her crimson orbs, undecided if he were to hug her or kiss her. He didn't really know what to do.
Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
No, I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby, I'm alright with just a kiss goodnight
Kurenai knew he was sincere as she looked into his eyes, but she needed answwers.
"If you aren't, then why is it so hard for you to say you love me? Whenever I'd reach out to you, you'd go away. You won't even let me hold your hand in public or hug you or...kiss you..." The last words came almost inaudible from her, but her heard her. His mouth went dry at the sudden question. His breathing became irregular and his heart beat fast against his chest. He kept his gaze on her. She looked beautiful, really really beautiful...
He looked at her lips and wondered why hadn't he dared to kiss her in the first place? He felt stupid for making her feel less beautiful. Perhaps he was afraid...
He knew she was a strong shinobi, but as a woman she was just, different...
For some foolish reason, he was afraid that if he'd touch her, she'd break. He was afraid that darkness inside him would destroy the light and warmth which is her. She was too precious for him to handle.
It hurt him that his own fear had hurt her...
His own intention of protecting her from himself had crushed her...
But now, he decided to do the right thing.-What he'd always wanted to do. He decided to let go of all the fear in his heart.
He painstakingly reached out to her and ran his fingers through her hair. He took time to observe her beautiful features in the moonlight and slowly, he made his move...
He did the unthinkable as he gently and softly met her lips with his...
No, I don't want to say goodnight
I know it's time to leave
But you'll be in my dreams
Tonight, tonight, tonight
Kurenai was astonished at first. She never expected Kakashi to kiss her right on the spot, but she let all of her worry and anger subside as she responded to his kiss and gently brushed her lips against his.
She slowly wrapped her arms around his neck as soon as she felt him wrap his arms around her waist. She rested her head on her pillow as he laid her gently on the bed, with him on top of her as he deepened the kiss.
In a short while he pulled away from the kiss to take in some air as she had made him breathless. He closed his left eye as she gently touched his scar with her finger, thinking to herself that she loves him, flaws and all...
"It took long for me to say this..." He said as he inched closer, looking into her beautiful crimson eyes. "I love you... I don't say it all the time, but I do..."
Kurenai felt her heart skip a beat as soon as she heard him say it to her. He had finally said it. She couldn't help but let her emotions take over her as she pulled him for another kiss, wanting to make the moment last longer.
Oh, let's do this right with just a kiss goodnight
With a kiss goodnight, kiss goodnight
She let out a soft sigh as soon as she felt his lips travel from her lips to her jawline and then to a soft spot on her neck.
He pulled away seconds later to gaze at her beautiful face. He gave her a soft kiss on her forehead, before lying down next to her.
As tempting as it seemed and as much as he wanted to continue, he decided that he didn't want them to rush, but rather take things step by step. He figured, he wanted to do it the right way at the right time, at the right place...
He didn't want to take her forgranted...
He loved her... He respected her...
And Kurenai understood that as she rested her head against his chest whispering, "Goodnight" to him, thinking, 'Baby, I'm alright with just a kiss goodnight.' before she drifted to sleep.
A.N. It was a bit hard for me to write this. I wanted to make it romantic without making Kakashi to cheesy or he'll be OOC. haha... I hope I did well in this and I hope you guys like it.
I first heard the song, "Just A Kiss" from Boyce Avenue featuring, Megan Nicole as I was browsing their covers. I'm a big fan of Boyce Avenue. I love all of their covers. haha
I listened to the original after having listened to the rendition done by Boyce Avenue. I liked Lady Antebellum as well. Both had good versions of it.
I loved the song so much, especially the message of it. So, I decided to use it this SongFic collection 3 haha...
If you guys haven't listened to the song copy the link below:
Just A Kiss:
Lady Antebellum: watch?v=v_yTphvyiPU
Boyce Avenue feat. Megan Nicole: watch?v=P6nCb-MOr0w
With love,
~Kei-chan 3