author's note: ok sorry for taking so long but hey double update. this chapter's really really short, I apologize but the next one's longer. also screw me but I plan on starting another multi chapter (I've always wanted to write the soul mates prompt ok), I've already written the first two chapters so, I'll get to posting them soon I hope, anyway, enjoy these two chapters sorry for the long a/n.
I've been the hope, and the doubt
The fear of breaking down
These insecurities until there's nothing left
—Long Live The Kids, We Are The In Crowd
Hold On Till May: Chapter Four
Chloe avoided Beca after that afternoon. She didn't know why she's doing it, someone finally bothered about her and she's pushing her away.
Leave, Beca was going to leave. They all leave at one point or another, no one stayed long enough. Chloe figured the brunette would leave anyway, before she got further attached to the girl, she let her go.
Beca was annoying though, annoying in an endearing way. When Chloe avoided her in school, the short girl always finds her.
Beca found Chloe's hiding spot during breaks and as much as Chloe wants to push her away, she couldn't bring herself to do it. Chloe wants Beca in her life, heck she probably needs Beca, but no one needs her.
As hard as Chloe tries to avoid Beca, it's pretty much futile when she was her neighbor. Beca dropped things off at Chloe's house sometimes. A cup of coffee, a pack of Chloe's favorite chocolate, sometimes even flowers or small wrapped up gifts.
Chloe liked the gifts. She knew she should get Beca to stop but each time she tries, Beca brings over a bag of sweets, or a bouquet of flowers, and Chloe shuts up.
Chloe's been her own only hope in this world. She tries to keep her spirits up but she's slipping more and more often now.
It was a Tuesday evening, and with Beca sitting crossed legged next to her, Chloe suddenly realized that she hadn't touched her blade this week, that's an achievement for the redhead.
Chloe snapped out of her reverie when Beca bounced a little and passed Chloe her headphone. Chloe's lips curved upward unknowingly as she wordlessly slipped the headphone around her head. Beca hit the play button on her laptop and Chloe's eyes lit up.
Beca loved it when Chloe's eyes sparkle. It only happens when sees or hears something she adored, Beca noticed over the week. Chloe bobbed her head along to the rhythm and as the song faded out, a grin replaced the sullen look she usually wore. Beca mentally clapped herself on the back for making the redhead smile.
The brunette smiled at Chloe before quietly asking, "How was that?"
"That was amazing, Bec." Chloe paused and licked her lips. "One of your bests, I must say." She chuckled softly and Beca stared at her.
"You called me Bec." Beca said, a face splitting grin on her face.
"Uh sorry—" Chloe shuffled backwards on her bed. "It slipped out."
"No, no it's okay i—" Beca grinned at her. "I liked it."
"Yeah?" Chloe's posture visibly relaxed as Beca moved closer to her.
"Yeah." Beca whispered, slipping the headphones around her neck and letting her fingers fly across her keyboard again. Chloe loved watching Beca mix. It calmed her down, watching the way Beca shifted the knobs and blended the rhythms just with a flick of her fingers. She's been watching Beca mix for days, the brunette came over everyday and Chloe was actually thankful.
And this time, just this time maybe, Chloe let someone in.