Feeling: Inspired

Eating: Nothing really

Drinking: H2O

Listening: anything that you normally hear…music, sisters yelling or laughing (depends on their mood), keyboards, breathing, outside, sirens (since I the highroad is right in front of me)

Watching: Computer screen…that leads to you

Date (right now): Friday, July 06, 2007

Time Started: 12:23 P.M.,

Time Ended: 1:04 P.M.,

Wearing: Black with very, very thin stripes of silver. Blue jeans black high heel shoes.

Chapter 4: Falling

As Crystal entered the front door that lead into the main entrance she saw one of her sisters lying at the foot of the mocha carpet stairs, sleeping peacefully. Crystal chuckled deep inside her chest, Courtney, why do you always sleep at the foot of the stairs when I'm not home? Crystal walked slowly to Courtney that was in deep sleep mode. As much as Crystal did not want to wake up her sister from her peaceful sleep she had to, she remembered a few years ago that Courtney never really was fond of sleeping there, but not knowing when Crystal would be back, she would stay there until Crystal had come back from wherever she was, a bathroom break here and there of course. Crystal walked slowly not making a loud noise that would echo into the hallways and into her family's bedrooms.

While Crystal was walking along the long corridor, to pick up Courtney, she looked at both of her sides that were covered with dark red paint with tapestries and old painting of her family's past hanging on the walls. Her favorite picture was the painting of her whole family, all of them looking like royalty with their warm smiles and the fancy clothes that they were wearing. Their clothes were filled with warm colors that had threads of real gold sown into their clothes. Crystal's family liked doing pictures the old fashion way, but for Lavender, Philip, Christian, Charlie, and Delilah, it was a torture, and as much Delilah was lady-like she hated these, and it was a good thing that her family only did this once a year otherwise, she would have explode, but she didn't complain, nor did she say anything with this, but her body said otherwise. Delilah was always fidgeting during these. All of her siblings were surrounded by a chair, and in the chair was her father resting his arms on the arm rest. All of her siblings had a warm smile. Courtney standing on the right of her father and Tony was on the opposite of Courtney. In front of Courtney was Christopher. At the foot of their father were Lavender, Phillip, and Charlie sitting, having a tad bit boredom look in their eyes. There was Cynthia, their mother, standing in a beautiful white outfit that was somewhat Victorian right next to her beloved husband; her warm smile that every mother that had a family that she cared so much about was filled with joy and love. Cynthia was right behind Tony, resting her hand on Tony's shoulder and William was sitting on their fathers lap playing with his outfit, just to keep himself occupied for that time being.

Crystal reached Courtney and sat right next to on the foot of the stairs and tapped her arms for her to wake up, lucky that she wasn't a hard sleeper otherwise Courtney would have to be carried her to bed, but it still took a couple poke for Courtney to wake up, but she did non the less.

Crystal bended down to her sister's ear and whispered, "Courtney…Courtney please wake sweetie," Courtney started to grumble stirring a little bit.

"5 more minutes…mommy then I'll get up"

"Courtney…" Crystal started to shake her gently for her to wake up fully.

"Courtney, come on..." Crystal's patients were starting to get thinner by the minute, for she was tired as well, for that, and just have this night, especially tonight, to go by as soon as possible. Finally Courtney woke up, almost jumped. Crystal sighed, relieved that she woke, but was wondering why she was all of a sudden jumpy, but she put that aside and just wanted to go to bed. "Thank goodness you woke up," Courtney looked over at Crystal as she was wiping away some bits and pieces that were in her eyes.

Courtney looked up and down at Crystal and saw her clothes tattered a little bit, "what happen to your clothes, it's all worn out and drenched a little bit?" still looking at Crystal's clothes not even seeing a hint of pain coming into Crystal's eyes. Crystal closed her eyes to get her to hold it in just a little bit longer. Hold in there girl, just hold on a little bit more, Crystal kept on saying to herself over and over again. She didn't answer her sister's question, but wanted to change the topic before it got to much for Crystal to hold inside herself.

Crystal finally broke the silence, "So…umm," trying her best to think of something to talk about, "Ho-how long have you've been sleeping here," Crystal asked trying her best to put a mask on, good thing Courtney wasn't able to see it, because she fell for her sister's mask.

"Stayed here till eight something…eight thirty maybe," Courtney stood and so did her sister.

Crystal sighed heavy again and looked at her watch reading it was 1:46 a.m., "Sweetie, how many times do I have to say this 'no more staying up late and waiting for me to get home,' I really don't want to mess up your sleeping system." Crystal shook her head even though I think it's adorable, Crystal thought.

"But I hate not knowing where you are," Courtney said raising her voice a little bit higher than she wanted, "sorry," Courtney whispered softly. Courtney got a chuckle from her older sister.

"It's fine," there was a silent for a moment or two. Courtney was still wondering why her clothes were tattered, but didn't want to press that forward. "So…let's go to bed," Crystal smiled and gestured her arms that led upstairs where their bedrooms were, "shall we," Crystal asked and Courtney nodded and walked up the stairs with Crystal following.

"So, rough day," Courtney asked, Crystal stopped immediately thinking that she knew what happened to her.

"What," Crystal asked trying her best to hide her suspicions

"Well, I mean you clothes are messed a little bit. Did you go running or something," Courtney asked as she stopped and turned looking down at her sister, "Hey…are you okay," Crystal put reached for her sisters to snap her out of her thinking, but before Courtney could touch her Crystal instantly took a step back and took a short breath, almost causing her to fall back, but didn't, she remembered what happened to her. She could hear her voice in the back of her head saying, "please stop...please." Crystal took note of this, "wow," was all Courtney could say, so far, "you okay?" Crystal snapped back into reality. Shaking her head a little bit to wake up a little bit.

"What?" Crystal looked at her sister with a what-happen sort of look.

"You seem…distraught,"

"Yeah…I mean n-n-o-o," Crystal began to stuttered. She was having a little bit trouble finding words to put in one sentence. "I'm just…I'm just tired that's all. Do you mind if just…umm…go upstairs? Will you be able to go to your bedroom before you fall a sleep out in the halls." Courtney chuckled.

"Yeah…Sure, but uh-ah—," Crystal cut her off before she could even finish the sentence.

"I'm fine. I really need to sleep, okay," Crystal's face was pleading at her sister to drop the subject. Which Courtney got the message and shut her mouth and nodded as an "okay" sign for her to go and rest.

"I'll see you later then," Crystal passed Courtney and walk towards her bedroom and looked back at Courtney, who was still standing where Crystal left her, and smiled at Courtney before she went into her room and locked the door.

Once Crystal got in her room she collapsed right where she was, in front of the door and wept. Still in her torn clothes that were filled with hot tears now, here eyes were bloodshot and puffy from all the crying. She finally realized that no one can help her go with though this, not even her own family. Okay your not going to tell anyone about this…forget about this…forget that this ever happened (even though she knows that that might not be possible) forget…forget…forget. After a few more minutes, maybe ten minutes, she soon fell to sleep right there.

Alright that's it for today…or maybe not…but now Crystal isn't going to be the same after tonight…please R&R you guys/gals. Thanks