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Chapter 5 : Confusion, uneasy thoughts

Misaki POV

I heard Usagi's voice, it didn't sound like normal however, it sounded so very sad.

Why are you sad Usagi?

I slowly opened my eyes to see Usagi's lavender eyes peering at me, they were filled with sadness and his tears were dripping down his face onto me. Usagi was holding me and we were on the ground.

I reached up my hand that wasn't covered in blood and wiped away Usagi's tears.

"Why are you crying Usagi?"

I had forgotten what I was doing before I fell asleep.

"Misaki why?..."

Usagi's voice sounded like it was about to break.

I don't want to see you sad Usagi

I tilted my head sleepily, very confused about what was going on, all I knew was that Usagi was really upset and that I felt so warm in his kind arms.

"I don't understand Usagi, please tell me why you are crying"

My voice was calm, I was elated from a perfect nap and by being held so preciously by Usagi.

"Your wrist..."

Usagi's voice was filled with such sadness and sorrow, he gently picked up the wrist I had bitten. He moved it gently into my sight, it was covered in blood.

My eyes went wide as I remembered my craving for blood that resulted in me biting myself.

He must think I tried to kill myself...

No Usagi you're wrong! I'd never want to kill myself! It would mean I would have to leave you!

I was now wide awake, I moved out of Usagi's hold and grabbed his hands. I pulled them towards my chest and looked him in the eyes.

"Usagi, if you think I tried to kill myself, you're wrong! If I did I wouldn't have done it where you would find me!"

I'm sorry I can't tell you that I was craving blood.. But at least I'm not lying

Usagi POV

I had picked up my precious Misaki, his body was as cold as ice and he was still so pale. I couldn't bare the thought of what would have made my Misaki want to die.

Misaki did I do something to make you sad?...

I noticed, Misaki start to stir, my heart skipped a beat.

He's not dead!

My Misaki opened his beautiful emerald eyes slowly, they were full of life but drowsiness. I couldn't stop the tears from flowing down my face. I was so happy he was alive but so sad at the same time.

Oh Misaki... You scared me to death..

Misaki reached up his hand that wasn't covered in blood to my face, he had such a peaceful expression as he wiped away my tears.

"Why are you crying Usagi?"

Why wouldn't I be crying?

"Misaki why?..."

My voice felt like it was going to break, I just couldn't understand why he did that to himself.

Misaki tilted his head, he seemed very sleepy and confused.

Does he not remember?

I wanted to know why, he always seemed so cheerful around me.

was it just a facade?

"I don't understand Usagi, please tell me why you are crying"

My Misaki's voice was so calm, it made me anxious.

Does he not care about what he did? Please Misaki..

"Your wrist..."

I could barely stop my voice from trembling, I gently picked up my Misaki's bloodied wrist. I put it into Misaki's view so he could see what he had done.

His eyes went wide in shock, as if remembering something.

Misaki...did you do it unknowingly?

We're you so sad that you didn't realize?

My heart felt like it was about to fall apart.

How could I let my Misaki get so sad...

Misaki's eyes opened fully, he was now wide awake. He moved out of my hold and grabbed my hands with his own hands.

They are so cold Misaki...

He brought my hands to his chest and looked at me with his emerald eyes, they were glimmering with worry.

"Usagi, if you think I tried to kill myself, you're wrong! If I did I wouldn't have done it where you would find me!"

Those words Misaki said made me so happy.

My Misaki doesn't want to die!

I then realized that he mentioned not being found by me.

If you decided you wanted to die you would hide from me? If so, I'll never let you out of my sight!

I just love you too much.

too sappy... Anyway hope ya enjoyed this ^_^