I haven't had chance to proof read so if there's loads of mistakes I apologise! Thank you for all of the feedback that I have received, it would be great if that could continue, much love x
No one's POV
Selena had to fight the tears that were begging to be released from her eyes as she finally took her seat beside Ryan.
"What was that?" He questioned.
The two women had momentarily paused in front of the class, due to the shock, but luckily they'd quickly recovered and only Ryan had noticed.
"Nothing." Selena lied.
"Sel, I can tell that's bullshit." Ryan, being her best friend, knew her like the back of his hand.
"I met her at support group." She whispered, afraid that somebody would hear.
"What, Miss Torres?"
Selena's eyebrows knitted together with confusion before she released that he meant Demi. She slowly nodded and the fear returned tenfold.
"I don't get why it's such a big deal?" He admitted.
"No one knows, Ry! Not even school and I need it to stay that way and now she knows that I have a child! What if she says something?" She panicked.
Ryan reached out and soothingly stroked his best friends back, trying his best to calm her breathing.
"Talk to her, it will be okay."
The second that Ryan had finished speaking the bell rang and everybody began to leave the room. Before Selena even had a chance to move one inch, Demi was calling for her to stay behind.
Demi's POV
How on earth is Selena in my year eleven class? She has a daughter for Christ's sake. Why didn't Madison tell me?!
"Selena please could you stay behind?" I called out.
She looked terrified at the proposition causing me to feel guilty for even having to ask. I just didn't understand.
"Yeah?" She asked, as she hesitantly approached my desk.
"Take a seat."
I watched as she carefully pulled out the chair beside mine and cautiously sat down.
"Do you want to explain everything to me?" I suggested.
She looked horrified that I'd even thought to ask such a thing and she immediately started shaking her head but it was important for me to know, as her form tutor and due to us meeting the previous day.
"How about I ask you questions and you just try your best to answer them?"
"Alright then." She finally agreed.
No one's POV
Selena's heart was now hammering in her chest, she knew that everything was about to be revealed and she hated the lack of control she had.
"Okay so, Lea is yours right?" Demi checked.
At first all Selena did was nod but then she decided it was best if she was honest and descriptive, if it was all coming out she wanted it to be accurate and some-what on her terms.
"Yeah, she's my everything." She smiled.
"How old were you when you had her?" Selena didn't think for one second that Demi was judging her and it made the whole ordeal so much easier to cope with.
"I was thirteen." She murmured. She didn't have chance to stop the lone tear that trickled down her face as all of the pain hit her like a ton of bricks.
"Hey, it's okay." Demi's hand rested on Selena's and her thumb drew patterns along the younger girls skin.
"How about you go to your lesson now and you can come back here at lunch and we'll talk all about it." Demi said.
Feeling more at ease with the suggestion Selena nodded her head and smiled slightly.
"But wipe those tears away and show me that smile I saw yesterday." Demi grinned.
That was all it took to momentarily give Selena a little happiness and also a little embarrassment causing her to blush a light pink.
"Thank you." Selena appreciated the way that Demi was dealing with her past and showing her the understanding that she needed.
"It's not a problem. I'll see you at lunch and if you need me at all before then, you can come and find me." Demi offered.
Selena shot her teacher one last smile and then got up and left the room.
Selena's POV
It's only first period and I already feel completely overwhelmed and exhausted. Demi, well Miss Torres, had made me feel a lot better about everything but I was still terrified to tell her the truth.
As I eventually reached my classroom, I simply told the teacher that I had been speaking to my form tutor. She shot me an annoyed glance and then instructed for me to take a seat.
"You alright?" Ryan murmured.
Not trusting myself to speak, I simply gestured that I was and then returned my focus to the teacher at the front of the class. English never was my favourite subject but I'd focus on anything if it took away all of the thoughts in my head.
The rest of the morning sped by ridiculously fast, meaning that it was now lunch and time to go and talk to Demi in her classroom. I felt my heart plummet with every step and more tears threatened to decorate my face, as the thoughts clouded my mind.
Once I got to her door I lightly knocked and almost immediately she beckoned me in.
"Hey Selena." She greeted.
"Hey." I went and sat in the exact same seat behind her and waited for her to start.
"Want me to ask the questions again?" She inquired.
"Please."
No one's POV
"Why did I see you at support group yesterday? Is it you that attends?" Demi asked Selena.
The student could hardly think straight as the pounding in her head intensified. She was petrified but she knew that she had to come clean.
"Yeah, I've been going there for about two years now." She admitted.
"What do you go for?" Demi wasn't fazed about learning Selena went to therapy, after all her sister Madison went too.
"I was a drug addict, an alcoholic and I used to self-harm pretty bad. I suffer with depression and I go there to help aid my recovery." Selena looked down feeling ashamed at her confession.
Noticing the look of pain on Selena's face, Demi gently placed her hand underneath Selena's chin and hesitantly aided her to look up, into her eyes.
"Don't worry; you have so much strength for having gone through that and for telling me now. That gives me so much respect for you." Demi admired.
Tears poured down Selena's face at the words of the teacher, and she couldn't be more grateful for her praise.
"I don't want anyone to know, I'm scared of the judgement and what people will say. That's why I didn't want to tell you. I have it under control and I'm clean now, I go to therapy and all of that and there's no need for people to know. I have Lea to look after now and I know more than anything that she is my main priority. I would never screw myself up because I need to be there for her." Selena couldn't stop all of her fears and thoughts from leaving her mind and even though she was horrified at having revealed so much, she couldn't deny that she now felt so much better.
"It's going to be okay, I won't tell anyone! Just as long as you promise that everything is alright, and I know that you're going to your regular sessions, there won't be a problem." Demi reassured.
"You don't know how grateful I am for that, so thank you so much!" Selena sighed, feeling the tension leave her body.
"Anyway, how about you tell me about Lea?" Demi voiced.
Selena felt her face light up at the mention of her daughter.
"She is literally the best and cutest thing to ever happen to me. She's so smart and she is doing so well! Her words are brilliant and amazing and she can say so much and understand so much! She makes me feel happy and complete and gives me hope which is exactly what I need. I love her so much!" Selena gushed.
Demi felt her heart skip a beat as she looked at the pure happiness plastered on the other girls face. She knew that she shouldn't admire Selena or have feelings for her at all, it was wrong now, but she just couldn't help but acknowledge her passion and beauty.
"She sounds amazing! So how do you cope with all the looking after and everything?" Demi wondered.
"My mom works full time so that she can financially support me and Lea, so I don't have to worry about money as much I just focus on the care. Lea goes to a pre-school all day from 8:30 till 4:00, not that I ever manage to get her there for that time." Selena chuckled.
"Anyway, while I'm at school I don't have to worry because I know she's safe and being cared for and then when I finish school I go and get her and then bring her home. I do everything a mother should; I feed her, bathe her, play with her and do everything she wants. As long as she's happy that's all that matters." She continued.
"So do you get to see your mother much?" Demi queried.
"I mean sort of, she works from 6:00 to 7:00 every day, other than Sunday. I'll give her a hug and we talk about our days when she gets home but then she'll have dinner and go to bed because she's exhausted. Sunday is our bonding day; me, my mom and Lea will do something altogether for the whole day. I love for those days, with my two favourite people, it's always so much fun and it's great to spend time with her and then I go to support group with Lea, so that my mom can have a bit of alone time in the house." Selena explained.
"That sounds so cute! What do you do on Saturday, and what do you do about making time for friends?" Demi was honestly and genuinely interested in Selena's life and that made the teen feel amazing, yet she didn't quite know why it made her so happy.
"I work at Jenson's theme park on Saturday's, it was arranged through this organisation called 'help the children' which enables young parents to work and have a small amount of free time. While I'm working, Lea goes on trips with 'help the children' which she absolutely loves; they go swimming, they go to the zoo and just general stuff like that. The time varies but it's usually for around 9 hours and I get around £50 every Saturday which I use to treat my mom and Lea. As for friends, I only really have Ryan that I'm extremely close to and then the rest are more school friends that I just text at home. Ryan usually comes over during the week and hangs out with me and Lea until my mom gets home and once every month he joins us on a Sunday." Selena felt strange accounting her whole life to someone but it also felt good to be able to reflect on everything she had in life.
"Your life is literally so packed, you do so much; I didn't think it was possible to admire you as much as I do." Demi admitted.
Selena felt a rush of pride knowing that Demi thought she was doing well. She wasn't sure why, but Demi's acceptance meant a lot to her.
"How do you ever have time for school?" Demi questioned.
Selena smirked as the teacher in Demi started to show.
"I make time, Lea goes to bed at around seven usually, apart from Sundays, so after I've spoken to my mom I go up to my room and spend a couple of hours a day on work." She reassured.
"Good because school is very important." Demi lectured.
"Alright teach, I get it." Selena grinned.
"Lunch is nearly over." Demi observed.
"So it is." I agreed.
"You can still text me." Demi blurted out.
The teacher knew that she shouldn't be saying such things to Selena, now that she knew she was her student, but for some reason she wanted to be able to talk to the girl still.
"Are you sure? Can't you get in trouble?" Selena worried.
"Probably but nobody will know and we can always just say you were messaging Madison. I want to be able to be there for you and help you." Demi shrugged.
Selena couldn't even explain the joy she felt knowing that Demi cared about her so much already.
The bell rang and Selena quickly stood up so that she wouldn't be late for her next lesson.
"Speak to you later, teach." Selena laughed.
Demi simply smiled and watched the younger girl retreat from her classroom.
Selena's POV
"How was your day, Lee?" I asked the child beside me.
"It was good mommy! I'm tired now though." She moaned.
I invited Ryan round so the three of us were currently on our way back to the house after having fetched Lea from school.
"Ryry, please can you carry me?" Lea begged, fluttering her eyelashes.
Ryan pretended to think and then quickly reached and lifted Lea up into her arms, tickling her sides as he did so. Ryan absolutely adored Lea, and she did him, which I absolutely loved – it was crucial that they got along.
"I'm gonna put you on my back, okay princess?" Ryan checked.
Lea simply giggled and nodded, causing Ryan to effortlessly move her onto his back. I laughed as her arms wrapped around his neck and Ryan ran off shouting 'Superman to the Rescue!'
"Superwoman!" Lea argued.
"Nuh uh, superman." Ryan replied.
They carried on going back and forth the whole way home, and only stopped when I told them they couldn't have ice cream if they carried on.
"Lea, you and Ryan can go start watching Frozen, like I promised, while I make us all ice cream, okay?" I suggested.
"Okay momma." I leaned down and she puckered her lips so that I could give her a kiss and then I left to go to the kitchen.
No one's POV
The movie was about half way through when I got a text from Demi.
To: Selena
From: Demi
5:30pm
Don't forget about getting your work done tonight! X
To: Demi
From: Selena
5:32pm
What work? It's the first day back I don't have any;) x
To: Selena
From: Demi
5:34pm
I'm sure I can find you some if you want?;p x
"Mommy, you're not paying attention!" Lea scolded.
"I'm sorry baby, I'll say good bye to them." I chuckled.
To: Demi
From: Selena
5:35pm
I'm good thanks! Sorry, I have to go… Lea is making me watch Frozen and she's mad that I'm not paying attention. I'll text you after x
The young child seemed a lot more satisfied that I was now focusing all of my attention on Anna and Elsa.
Around an hour later we had finished the movie completely and I had even made Lea some dinner, spaghetti bolognaise her favourite, so now all I had to do was give her a bath and put her to bed.
"Lea, you gonna say goodbye to Ryry?" I told her.
The toddler ran up to him and jumped into his arms, leaving a slobbering kiss on his cheek.
"Love you, bye." She beamed.
"Love you too, munchkin." He replied, as he set her on the floor.
"I'll see you tomorrow, Ry. Loves ya." I grinned as I hugged him close.
"Love you too and don't think you've gotten away with that texting thing, I wanna know who it was." He whispered into my ear.
"Bye." I rushed, as I took a hold of Lea's hand and rushed her up the stairs.
By about 7:15 Lea was sound asleep so, knowing that my mom was now home, I went downstairs to speak to her.
No one's POV
"Hey mom, how was your day?" Selena sweetly asked, as she pulled her into a hug.
"Stressful, how was yours?" Mandy politely returned.
"It was good."
Selena couldn't help but notice her mother looked extra tired today and she could feel the guilt creeping in.
"How about you go relax on the sofa while I draw you a nice, relaxing bath and then I'll make your dinner and bring it to you in bed?" I suggested.
"See, this is why you're the best daughter ever! I love you." Mandy pulled Selena into a hug and gave her a light kiss on her forehead.
"Anything for you mom, I love you too."
Selena didn't get into bed until 9:15 and she was extremely exhausted. As soon as she got comfy, she grabbed her phone and checked for any messages. She had put it there when she came up with Lea and hadn't actually checked it since Lea had told her off for texting during the movie.
To: Selena
From: Demi
5:36pm
She's so cute! Have fun watching the movie x
To: Demi
From: Selena
9:20pm
I'm so sorry for waiting so long to text! I had to get Lea ready and then I was making my mom tea and stuff, I'm so tired! X
To: Selena
From: Demi
9:22pm
I wouldn't worry, I was hanging out with Madison! You should get some sleep x
To: Demi
From: Selena
9:25pm
Do you still live at home? And I will get some just not yet, I usually go to sleep around ten x
To: Selena
From: Demi
9:27pm
Yes I do, don't judge! I don't want to move away from the nest yet haha x
To: Demi
From: Selena
9:30pm
Fair enough, I'd probably be the same. I don't think I ever want to leave my mom x
To: Selena
From: Demi
9:35pm
Just think, when you're older you'll be able to help your mom out and repay her for all that she's done for you! Even though I'm sure she doesn't want repaying x
To: Demi
From: Selena
9:37pm
Yeah that's the plan to be honest! My mother is a saint and one of these days I will get to show her how special she is:) But until then I will settle for making her dinner and running her baths lol x
To: Selena
From: Demi
9:40pm
Sounds like a sweet deal to me! Anyway, sorry but I'm gonna go to sleep because I'm literally so knackered! I hope you sleep well, remember that life is a miraculous thing and that you are a miraculous person. You are so strong and you can get through anything x
To: Demi
From: Selena
9:42pm
Thank you so much! That means the world to me, sleep well and I'll see you tomorrow! X
This was the first night in a while that Selena had fallen to sleep with a smile on her face. Yes, she had been happy lately and was truly doing well but there was something about Demi that really brought out the goodness in her.