Chapter 6

Memories

Together in all these memories
I see your smile.
All the memories I hold dear.
Darling, you know I will love you
until the end of time.

Memories- Within Temptation

"Hi Angela," I greeted her as she came into my house.

"So," she said, rubbing her hands together. "Where is everything?"

I motioned for her to follow me. "It's all up stairs." Angela followed me as I made my way up the stairs. I had invited her over to help me put together all the things I had brought online for the babies' nursery. I had decided on the moon and stars for the room. I opened the door to my old bedroom. It was now painted a soft yellow. All of my things had been moved out of the room and in the middle sat at least a dozen boxes.

I her eyes widen and I chuckled. "When you said put the nursery together, I didn't know you had bought half the store." She smiled and started opening a box. "Let's get started."

Six hours, a pepperoni pizza and fourteen empty boxes later, we were putting the finishing touches on the nursery. I was putting the crib sheets on while Angela hung up the curtains.

"Angela," I said, straightening the sheet beneath my hands.

"Yea," Angela moved on to putting the sheets on the other crib.

"Would you come shopping with me, on Saturday? I mean, as long as you aren't busy or anything." I asked.

She smiled. "I would love to come shopping with you. What are you going to be getting?"

I sighed. "Clothes, blankets, bottles, and all those little things."

"Alright, all done." She announced.

We both took a few steps back and looked at the room. The matching cribs I had chosen sat on either side of the curtained window in my room. Around the perimeter of the room was lined with a dresser, a changing table, a night stand with a lamp sitting on top of it, and another smaller dresser. My rocking chair sat in the corner, like it always has.

I was very happy; I turned and gave Angela a hug.

"Thank you!" I exclaimed.

She smiled, "Any time." She looked at her watch. "Oh, I have to go. I have to watch the boys tonight." She grabbed her jacket. "Do you want to come over?" she asked.

"I think I'm going to stay here. I'm pretty tired." I told her, a yawning escaping with out my consent.



She laughed. "Alright, I'll see you Saturday." She turned and left the room; less than a minute later I heard the door shut.

I took another look around the room and sighed. I wished that I had someone to share this with. Angela was a wonderful friend, but she wasn't the person I wanted here the most. I tried to come to terms with the fact that he wasn't probably never coming back; none of them were coming back.

I instantly felt bad for my children. They would have no family; I would be their only family. I mentally kicked myself. This was all my fault. I couldn't keep their father here; he was wonderful, beautiful, everything that I wasn't.

I let the tears fall. I had kept my self together while Angela was here, but now all the emptiness came crashing down on me. I had never felt so alone in my entire life. There was a knock at the door but I didn't answer it. Whoever it was would go away.

I backed up and came in contact with the wall; I let my self slide down. Sometimes, I wished that I wasn't pregnant, just so that I could end my life. But I would never do that; I couldn't do that. I had two very tiny and fragile people that would soon depend on me for their very survival.

I pulled my legs so that I was sitting Indian style and I placed both of my hands on my vast stomach. My long hair fell into front of me as I put my head down. I cried for my love, my father, my family and my children. It wasn't fair of me to do this to them; to breakdown and get my self all worked up. I couldn't stop the tears and the sobs that came with them.

I had completely forgotten about the person who was knocking at the door. But when I felt some one wrapping their arms around me, I turned and looked. I was completely stunned at who I saw.

"Ro-rosalie?" I stuttered. "What are you doing here?" I said my voice breaking.

She sighed, "Good question," She grabbed my hands and pulled me to my feet. She took a look at my stomach. "He has certainly made a mess, hasn't he?"

She pulled me down the stairs, very carefully and sat me on the couch. She sat down next to me. We sat in silence.

"Bella," Rosalie started. "How have you been doing?"

I sighed. "Honestly, I've been a mess." I stated truthfully. I looked at her. "Of all people, why are you here?"

She looked away and stood up. She walked over to the mantle that held my progression of school photos. "I wanted to see how you were doing," I was about to say something, but she continued. "But it wasn't because I was concerned about you. It was because I wanted to see if you were doing as well as Edward is." I cringed at his name and Rosalie turned back around, her golden gaze meeting mine. "I figured if I could show him that you had moved on, that he could too. Ever since he left you, he has been the same and neither has my family. Edward has always been the favorite of Carlisle and Esme; they love him like he is their real son. When Edward is off so is Carlisle and Esme, which causes the rest of the family to be off. Emmett misses his brother, Alice misses the human she considered a sister, Jasper has to deal with all these 

emotions and I have to deal with all of them being so sad." She gaze turned angry. "Unknowingly, you have thrown off my family. I want it fixed, I want my family back."

I was crying, but this time they were tears of anger. "And what would you like me to do about it Rosalie? Ed- edw- he left me, he doesn't love me." Even though I had known this for months, they hit me harder each time. I was crying so hard. I wrapped my arms around me the best I could; I needed to hold myself together. I slipped off the couch and onto the floor, hunched over on my knees. I could hardly breathe.

"Oh my god," Rosalie said slowly, as if she was finally realizing something. "The baby, it's his, isn't it?" Her tone was shock, glazed over with disbelief.

"They are his." I told her in a broken whisper.

"Twins," She said.

I was surprised when I felt her stone arms around me. I leaned into her and cried into her shoulder. I stayed like that for an immeasurable amount of time. I finally lifted my head and wiped away my tears. I brushed back my hair away from my face. I went to get off the ground, and with Rosalie's help I was able to. I went into the kitchen and got a glass of water. I turned back around to face Rosalie.

"I'm sorry for that." I said in a hoarse voice.

"I didn't realize that," she paused. "That you were in so much pain. I thought you would have gotten over him, us."

"Loving a vampire is not a fling." I took a breathe and then continued in a whisper. "It's forever."

I gripped the edge of the sink, my fingers denting the metal. "Ow."

"What is it?"

The pain was now gone, "Just a Braxton Hicks contraction."

"Oh, you should drink some tea." She said. I reached into the cupboard and pulled out a tea packet.

As I poured water into a mug and set it in the microwave, I asked. "How do you know that?"

As I turned to face her, I saw her faint smile. "I went to medical school."

"Oh," was all I said as I pulled the mug out of the microwave. I put in the tea packet and let it seep. I added some honey and took a sip. I went and sat at the table. Rosalie sat down next to me.

"I'm…sorry for getting angry at you back there. It isn't your fault. It's Edward's." She looked at me.

I sighed and rubbed the spot where I had been kicked. "You'd think they were training to become soccer players." I saw the interest in her eyes. I grabbed her hand and pressed to the spot where I was being kicked by my daughter.

I smiled as I watched her eyes widen. "What are you having?" she asked her focus on my stomach.

"A boy and a girl," I told her.



She place her other hand on my stomach. "Any names?"

"I have them picked out." I told her. "Noah and Sadie."

She looked up at me. "Those are pretty names." She then chuckled. "Is my name in there anywhere?"

I laughed with her. "Sorry, no. I picked out some more…sentimental middle names."

"Oh," She asked, interested.

I smiled sadly, "Noah Charles and Sadie Elizabeth."

"Are you going to use Swan for their last names?" She asked.

"No, I'm going to use Cullen."

She removed her hands and looked away. "He is such an idiot."

"How long are you going to be here for?" I asked, changing the subject.

"I only planned on staying a few hours. I could stay longer if you'd like me too." She suggested.

I looked away. "No, that's alright. I'll be fine."

"He's going to find out. I can't block him out with something like this on my mind." She placed a hand on my belly.

I shuddered. "It's not like he'll care. He doesn't care about me, why would he care-"

Rosalie cut me off. "I highly doubt that he doesn't care if he is in so much heart ache. I have never seen him so brooding and withdrawn before." She paused. "With his stubborn ass I think the hardest part will be to convince him that he is actually the father. Not that he doesn't want to accept them; it is just the fact that you being pregnant is not logical, at all."

I shook my head. "No, you didn't see him or hear him that day."

"Vampires are good liars. We have to be and with us pretending to be human, we have to do a lot of lying." She said.

"He's not that good an actor." I whispered.

She sighed. "Do you remember after Edward stopped the van from hitting you?"

"Yes," How could I forget?

"Well, that whole time afterward that you two didn't talk; he had to pretend like he wasn't interested in you, like he could careless. When he would come home, he would go hunt and then go to your house, to watch you. We all thought he was being ridiculous, but at the same time we could all see that he was falling in love with you. I thought that, for both of you, it was just something that would be over soon. I couldn't see what he found so interesting about you. You were just a human." She smirked. "But now I see that he really does love you."

"But why does he love me? Of all the people, the vampires that he would love, why does he love me?" I asked.

She shrugged. "I don't know. You'll have to ask him that."

That's when the tears welled in my eyes. "But, he said that he was never coming back. He promised that I would never be bothered again." I put my head into my hands. "There is no hope Rosalie."



I heard her sigh. "Bella, as much as I still don't like you I have come to realize that you were and still are an essential part to my family's happiness." I looked up as I heard her stand.

"Please, don't tell Edward." I whispered through the tears. I looked up at her. She looked torn.

Finally she said. "I won't tell him. Emmett and I will go on a vacation." She leaned down and gave me a hug. "I hope that everything works out for you."

I pulled away and smiled at her. "Thanks, Rosalie. I'm really glad you came."

"I'll tell Emmett his favorite blushing human said hi." She laughed and I did too.

Once she left, I had a lot to think about. What if, in some weird alternate universe, Edward did still love me why would he leave? After all we had been through with James and that one night in August that resulted in my pregnancy, why would he take away my life source, him?

I sighed as I stood up and went upstairs. I took a shower and slowly put on my cotton shorts and gray tee shirt. I crawled into my bed. My room was now Charlie's old room. I bought a new full sized bed and replaced Charlie's with it.

As I laid there I rubbed my stomach and let Edward pass through my thoughts freely; that was something I hadn't done in many months. I thought of the crooked smile that would always make me swoon, those golden eyes that would pierce through mine, and those kisses that would clear my mind of all thought and left me breathless.

I felt the hole in my chest nagging at me, begging me to stop thinking about him. But I couldn't help myself, once the thoughts started coming, I just couldn't stop them. Every moment I had spent with Edward passed through my mind. Our first meeting, the incident with the van, our first date in Port Angeles, the meadow, meeting his family, our first night together, the baseball game, everything that happened in Phoenix; my mind flipped though the summer and lingered on that night in August. It took me by surprise and, even now, I don't regret it.

I curled into a ball as the memories of my birthday, and the day he left me flashed through my mind. I cried until I had nothing left in me. I fell asleep with images of Edward dancing in my mind.

Rosalie's POV

"Hi Rose," Emmett's rumbling voice came through the phone. "When are you going to be home?"

I smiled as I heard the longing in his voice. "Emmett I need you to pack our bags. We are going on vacation."

I could almost see the frown on his face. "Why?"

"Emmett, sweetie I need you to trust me. I will explain everything when we get to the airport."

He sighed. "Alright, this had better be pretty good."

"Thanks. Can you put Esme on the phone?" I asked him as I sped down the highway.

"Rosalie, where are you?" I heard Esme say.



"I had to run an errand. Emmett and I are going on vacation." I said with out missing a beat.

"Where are you going?" she asked sadness creping into her voice.

"I was thinking France. We won't be gone long, just a couple of weeks." I told her, trying to ease her mind. We all hated making Esme upset, especially since Edward had gone on the fritz. "Can you pack my bag for me? Remember what happened last time I let Emmett pack my bag?" I chuckled.

She laughed lightly, "Yes, I think everyone remembers that. I'll give your bag to Emmett."

"Thanks Mom."

"Rosalie, when you get back, we'll be in Seattle." Esme told me.

"Why Seattle," I asked, even though I some what knew the answer.

She sighed. "Carlisle thinks if we relocate closer to Bella than that might push Edward to go back to her and end this."

"Oh," was all I could say. "Well, I have to go now. I'll talk to you soon."

"Good bye, Rose. Have a good time." She said.

I closed the phone ending the call. Within hours I was at the airport. I parked my car and went inside and saw Emmett waiting for me. I smiled when I saw him and his smile was just as big as mine.

He gave me a quick kiss. "I missed you."

"I bet you did." I said, taking my bag from him. We walked over and went through all the necessary steps before boarding the plane.

As Emmett and I took our seats he asked, "So why are we going on vacation?"

"I went to Forks." I stated.

His eyes brows raised, "But Edward-"

"Edward is going to be a father." I cut in. I took in his confused stare.

"Rosalie, you know that vampires can't have children. Plus, Edward never slept with Bella, not like that anyways." He stated. I gave him a look of disbelief. Understand flickered across his face. "Oh, they did." His brow furrowed. "Why didn't I know?"

I laughed. "We all knew of the torment you would have inflicted on Edward and Bella. Speaking of Bella, she says hi."

He laughed, loudly. "My favorite human, how is she?"

"Well she isn't really human anymore."

"What are you talking about?" he sputtered.

"She's part vampire. The pregnancy has something to do with it, I'm guessing. But besides being huge and basically falling apart at the seems, she is not doing well." I sighed. "She had a breakdown while I was there. Did you know that Edward told her that he didn't want her?"

Emmett looked angry. "He gave me the gist of what he said. He said that he said everything that was necessary to get her to let go. What an idiot!"



"Emmett, keep your voice down." Several passengers had turn to look at us." I sighed. "Bella hasn't let go, I don't think she ever will. She is still holding onto him with every fiber in her being even though she thinks he doesn't love her."

Emmett scoffed. "That stupid son of a…I'm so going to kick his ass when I see him."

I rubbed Emmett's arm. "Let's just hope he goes back to her."

Emmett raised his eyebrows. "You never liked Bella."

I sighed and looked away from him. "I realize that Bella makes him happy, I still don't see why, but Edward makes Carlisle and Esme happy and they in turn make the rest of us happy. As much as I hate to admit it, with out Bella this whole family is complete crazy."

He nodded. "So, Bella is pregnant then?"

"Yes, with twins. She plans on naming them Noah and Sadie Cullen." I told him, removing invisible lint from my black shirt. Emmett suddenly starting laughing loudly, causing more people to look at us. I elbowed him. "What?"

"You like Bella!" he exclaimed.

I crossed my arms. "I do not; I just realize her importance to Edward."

He smirked. "Sure Rosie, sure."

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