Chapter 7

Unbreakable

Sometimes it's hard to just keep going
But faith is moving without knowing
Can I trust what I can't see
To reach my destiny

Unbreakable- Fireflight

"Hi Angela. I'll be out in a minute." I told her when I answered my phone. I hung up and threw my raincoat on. I had actually been thoughtful when I got dressed this morning. I put on a pair of black jeans and a navy blue tunic, which I paired with black flats. We decided to take my car; it was much more efficient for the drive to Seattle. I locked up the house and got into my car.

"Bella, are you sure you want to go all the way to Seattle? You are only a couple of weeks away from your due date, and twins usually come earlier and-" Angela babbled worriedly.

I cut her off. "Ang, stop worrying. You're going to give yourself gray hairs.. I feel fine. I haven't even had any BH contractions in a couple of days." I backed out and started the four hour drive. It was still dark as we drove. We decided to leave at six in the morning so that we could get there by ten and not being driving back too late at night. Angela insisted on driving for at least half of the trip; it was her one condition and I agreed to it. Angela slept most of the way until we reached our half way point. We got some breakfast at Mickey D's and then Angela took her turn at driving. She drove a little bit slower than me, so it took us a little longer to get there. This leg of the trip we talked, mostly about the babies.

"Have you come up with any names?" Angela asked me.

"Yea, Noah Charles and Sadie Elizabeth." I told her, looking at my hands.

She beamed. "Aw, those are so beautiful!" Then her brow furrowed. "I understand that Charles is from your dad, but where'd you get Elizabeth from?"

I bit my lip. "Elizabeth was Edward's mother's name; his biological mother."

"Oh." was all she said in reply. I took a sip of my coffee, my one and only cup of the day. I never use to drink coffee, but the long, sleepless nights of nightmares and tossing and turning, left me drained; I needed a pick me up.

"We're here." Angela announced as she pulled into a parking space. We got out and made our way over to the mall. It had been quite awhile since I had been to a mall and I had forgotten how many people decided to go shopping on Saturdays. We finally made it to the baby store and we started looking. Angela went crazy picking out cute matching blue and pink outfits. I went for green and yellow outfits that either of them could wear. We got bibs, bottles, pacifiers, receiving blankets, and these really interesting things called, Swaddle Me.

After getting them a closet full of clothes, we walked over to the furniture section.

"What do you need?" Angela asked as she messed around with one of the strollers.

I chuckled. "I need," I pulled out and scanned the list I had made. "a thing that goes in the bed, so that they can be in the bed with me, two infant car seats, and a double stroller." I looked up at her, she was sitting in one of the strollers. I burst out laughing, "Having fun?"

She blushed and got off. "Alright, I like this one." she pointed out the one she was just sitting in. I looked it over. I pushed it around a bit and got the feel of it. It wouldn't be too hard to turn and it had plenty of room to hold a diaper bag.

"I like it too." I grabbed a slip that had the number on it. "On to the car seats," Angela and I linked arms and started looking for the right ones. There were a ton of choices. Pink ones, blues 

ones, some with extra cushion; my mind was ready to explode. I picked out two of the same carrier and grabbed the ticket. We got the other item on my list, which was much easier to pick out.

I nearly fainted when I saw the final price. I shook my head and handed the credit card over to the cashier. All the sudden I felt a sharp pain in my abdomen and a trickle of liquid go down my leg.

Angela saw the look on my face and became concerned. "Bella what's wrong?"

"My water just broke," I told her in a calm whisper. I expected her to start panicking, but she didn't. She grabbed my arm and led me out to the car, where they had already loaded all of my purchases into. Angela put me in the passenger seat and started driving. She got on her phone and made several phone calls. One was to get directions to the hospital, the second was to my doctor and the last was to her mother. While she did all that, I breathed through several contractions.

"Your doctor said that she won't be able to make it up, but she will call the hospital and get in contact with one of her good friends. My mother said she wanted to come up, but I told her just to wait." she told me as she led me into the ER.

"Thanks, Angela." I said through my teeth as I got another contraction. I didn't squeeze Angela's hand because I didn't want to break it. I was put into a wheel chair and wheeled up to the maternity ward. There was flurry of activity as I was changed into a hospital gown and was hooked up to different machines.

Then we had to wait for the doctor to come in. I was very anxious because my doctor wasn't here and I wasn't sure if I would be comfortable with somebody else. I grunted as another contraction came.

"I'll be right back." Angela said as she gave my hand a quick squeeze. She rushed out of the room and I laid there. I closed my eyes and placed a hand on my rotund stomach. I heard the door open and I opened my eyes. I gasped as I saw who it was.
"Rosalie! Emmett!" I cried happily as they walked through the door. Emmett rushed over to me and enveloped me in a bear hug. "Emmett- too tight." I gasped. He carefully set me back on the bed.

He smiled sheepishly. "Sorry, I'm not use to you being pregnant."

"It's alright. What are you two doing here?" I asked them.

"We had to make sure at least two family members were present to see the new additions to the family." Emmett said. "Rosalie over here, called just about every hospital within four hours of Forks, to check and see if you had gone into labor." He pointed a thumb over his shoulder at Rosalie.

My eyes filled with tears. "Thank you Rosalie. I don't think I could do this alone." I grimaced and clutched my fists together as another contraction came. I tried to breathe through it, like the nurses said too, but I couldn't; it was just too painful. Finally, it was over.

"Are you alright, Bella?" Rosalie asked.

I nodded. "Yea, fine." I let my head fall back onto the pillow. "This is hard." They laughed.

We talked about various things until Angela came back. She looked surprised to see them there. They said hello and then we talked just about the babies. Several times a doctor came in and checked how far along I was. It had started raining. There were warnings for flash floods and severe thunderstorm warnings.

Finally after about twelve hours, the doctor said I was ready to push.

"Alright Bella, I need to take in a deep breath, hold it and push for ten seconds." Dr. Patterson instructed. Angela excused herself as did Emmett, but Rosalie stayed with me.

"Big push Bella!" I grabbed Rosalie hand and pushed with all that I had in me. I heard a nurse counting.

"Ten," she finally said. I was already exhausted.

"That was a really good push. Two more and the first baby will be out. Now push!" he exclaimed.

I screamed and pushed. As my scream ended another on began and I felt the tears run down my face. The room was lit up by a huge blot of lighting and a second later the huge crash of thunder filled the room.

"We have a little girl!" Dr. Patterson cut her cord and handed her off to a nurse who started cleaning her up. "Now let's get this second one out."

I was getting so exhausted.

"Just a few more pushes and he should come out." Dr. Patterson said hopeful. I started crying harder.

"I can't do it, Rosalie." I cried to her. She smiled down at me.

"Bella you can do it. I know you can." She leaned down and whispered in my ear. "Do it for Edward." Even though I stung my heart as she said his name, it was just the thing I needed to hear. I pushed with all I had left in me; a broken scream left my mouth.

"It's boy!" Dr. Patterson cut his cord, but the baby wasn't crying. He gave the baby to the nurse. Another blot of lighting and a huge crash of thunder came upon us; the light flickered.

"Rose! Why isn't he crying?" I started panicking. Then I heard the best sound in the world another cry. I was so relived. I delivered the afterbirth, was cleaned up and brought to the recovery room. My babies were taking to the NICU.

After twelve hours of labor and another hour of pushing, Sadie Elizabeth Cullen was born at 11:13, April 28th. At 11:20, Noah Charles Cullen, joined her.

"You did a wonderful job Bella." Rosalie told me. "He would be so proud of you." Once again her word stung me.

I was so tired and I drifted off to sleep.

When I opened my eyes, I looked around and saw Rosalie reading a magazine in the corner.

"Bella," I looked over and saw Rosalie walking over to me.

"I want to see them." I told her.

She smiled. "I can call the nurse and have her bring them in."

I gazed at the wall. "Please," Soon a nurse wheeled in them in. Sadie was wrapped up in a pink blanket and Noah was swaddle in a blue one. One was placed into each of my arms, where I got a good look at them.

They definitely looked alike. They both had Edward's features, but they had my lips. Noah had fine reddish brown hair, while Sadie had brown hair. They were sleeping, so I couldn't see their eye color.

"Bella," Rosalie said softly. "They're beautiful."

I sighed. "Just like their father." Emmett came into the room then. When he saw that I had the babies, he walked very slowly over to me. He looked over them and seemed afraid. "Do you want to hold them?" Rosalie and Emmett looked back and forth at each other. "It's okay. They don't bite, yet."

They both nodded their heads and Rosalie took Noah from me. I placed Sadie into Emmett's hesitant arms. They both seemed rather stiff as they held them.

"Relax." I instructed them. I saw Sadie yawned and open her eyes. She peered at Emmett, trying to understand what she was looking at. "Talk to her, Emmett. Let her get to know her Uncle Emmett."

He smiled as I said, 'Uncle Emmett', "Hi Sadie. I'm your Uncle. Sorry your dad isn't here. He's being an idiot as usual." He chuckled. He kissed her forehead. "No matter what, we'll always be here for you." He handed her back to me. I wiped away a tear and took her. We heard a whine from Noah. Rosalie looked over at me, nervously.

"Talk to him." I told her. I didn't know where that came from; maybe motherly instinct.

She rocked him. "Noah, I'm your..." she paused.

"Aunt Rose." I filled in for her. She smiled and continued.

"Your Aunt. You look so much like your dad. What ever you need, I'll make sure you get it." She ran a finger along his cheek. She gave him back to me. "We have to go now. But before we leave, we want pictures." She whipped out a disposable camera. She took several of me with the twins and then some of each baby.

"We'll come and visit." Emmett said as he gave me a hug.

Rosalie even gave me a hug. "Take care, Bella."

"Thanks for coming. I'm glad they got to meet you." I said. They nodded and then left the room. The nurse bought me a tray of food, but I didn't want it. It smelled horrible; I figured I was a full vampire now. But along with my food she brought two bottles of formula. She fed Noah and I fed Sadie. I tried to sleep, but I couldn't. Angela came in after my attempt at sleeping.

"Bella, they are so beautiful." she gushed. "Can I hold one?"

"Of course," I told her and she picked up Noah. Then the doctor walked in.

"How are we feeling?" He asked.

"Really good." I told him. I wasn't sore and my stomach was almost the way it was before I got pregnant; being a vampire had it's perks. He told me I could leave. I washed up and changed into some sweat pants and a shirt that Angela brought for me.

"Look!" she squealed when I got out of the bathroom. She had dressed Noah and Sadie in matching outfits, except Sadie's was pink and Noah's was blue. The newborn clothes were a tad big, but they would grow. We went to swaddling both of them. A nurse brought me a wheelchair; I rolled my eyes as I sat down. Angela wheeled me out and too the car. Luckily, we had already bought the car seats. I climbed into the middle of the two seats; it's a good thing I'm small. I buckled up both of them and Angela started the drive back home.

She looked like she had something on her mind. "Angela, are you okay?" I had one hand resting on the twins.

She sighed; that's when I smelt her blood. It smelled...like rust and salt, just like it had when I was human. I wondered about that then turned my attention back to Angela.

"I'm leaving, in a few days." She explained, looking in the rear view mirror at me. "There is this summer program and I was accepted. It would be really helpful for when I start school in the fall."

"Angela, that's great!" I was truly happy for her. "I wasn't expecting you to stay with me and two crying babies all summer. You have your whole future ahead of you."

Her brow furrowed. "Bella, are you sure? You'll be all alone with two infants."

I smiled. "I'll be fine. But what I do want you to do is to go home, pack and spend time with your family."

I saw her watery smile in the mirror. "Thanks for understanding, Bella. I'm going to miss you."

"I'll miss you too. But hey that's why there are phones. We'll keep in touch." I felt bad about saying that. I didn't know if I would talk to anyone much anymore. I was a vampire; I had to keep that secret.

"Right," she said. The rest of the drive was pretty quite. Noah and Sadie slept most of the way, only waking up when they wanted fed. When Angela pulled up to my house, I saw another car in the driveway. She pulled up next to it and I saw her mother sitting in the driver's seat. She opened the back door and took out a carrier.

"Hewwo wittle baby." she said in a tone that was laced with too much sweetness. I got the other carrier that held Noah and went over to Mrs. Weber. She turned and looked at me. "Oh, Bella they are beautiful." She looked me over, noticing even in my sweats that I was much thinner. "You must have been all baby." she muttered and started talking to Sadie again.

I lead them inside the house. Mrs. Weber looked around the nursery and nodded in approval. I went back out to the car and got the bags that were from shopping. I brought them in and took off the tags and threw the clothes into the washer.

I made two bottles and then took them upstairs. Angela was sitting in my rocking chair, hold Noah. Mrs. Weber was holding Sadie. I went and I took Sadie from her.

"Thank you, both for everything. I don't know what I would have done." I told them. They both smiled and then Mrs. Weber looked at her watch.
"Oh my, it's getting late. I haven't made dinner yet. Are you going to be okay?" She asked me.

I nodded my head. "I'll be fine." They both hugged me and Angela set Noah into his carrier. I put Sadie into hers'. I carried them into my bedroom and set the carriers on the bed. I sat down and fed them their bottles at the same times. They drifted off to sleep and I curled into a ball.

I wanted to cry, but I couldn't. I wanted him to be here so bad. I didn't want to do this alone. I didn't know when I would see Rosalie and Emmett again; I was alone. I wanted to have some one to enjoy all their firsts with me; their first smiles, their first steps, words, everything.

I sat up when I heard a whimper. It was Sadie and she needed a diaper change. I took them both into the nursery and changed Sadie. I checked Noah and he needed to be changed too. Soon they fell back to sleep.

Did he even think about me? He said he would be distracted, but after everything we had been through-. I shook my head, ridding myself of those thoughts.

I walked over to the getting two oneies out of the dresser when I noticed something. There was a loose floorboard. I stepped on it and I heard the creak it made. I wondered why I had never noticed it before. I reached down and was shocked when the board lifted easily. I put the board aside and reached inside. I looked into my hands and what they held; the CD Edward made me for my birthday and the pictures of him.

I let out a sob. Why would he leave these things, to torment me? I shook my head. Edward said that it would be as if he never existed. He took so many steps to make sure that that remained true, why would he go and leave the CD and the pictures where I could find them? Did he want me to remember him, give me hope that he still-? No. He didn't love me, but maybe just maybe. I ransacked my brain, trying to remember those days so long ago that I tried, but never could, forget. My birthday party, the last night Edward stayed with me- that's when it clicked.

I dropped the items in my hands and slowly brought them up to cover my mouth. That last kiss Edward gave me. He let it go on for much longer than he should have, he had only ever kissed me like that one other time; when we were parting and I was going to Arizona, when we thought we might not see each other again. That kiss was a good-bye kiss, but mingled with hope of reuniting. What was Edward always trying to do? He was always trying to make sure my life was as close to a normal human's as possible with him and his family in my life. But after what happened with Jasper, he must have thought that loving me and giving me a normal life was too impossible, even for a vampire. He left, not because he didn't love me or want me, he left because he wanted me to be another happy human, with a normal life. The only thing I wanted was him.

I picked myself off the floor and replaced the board. I brought the pictures over to Noah and Sadie who were both staring at me with curious eyes. I took a closer look at their eyes; Sadie's were brown but Noah's were hazel, the perfect mixture of brown and green flecks. Noah looked so much like his father. I held up the picture of Edward and me, albeit I looked horrible, but Edward still looked like a god.

"This is your daddy." I told them in a shaky voice. I picked up their carriers and brought them into my room. I took them both out and laid them side by side on my queen sized bed. I took off the outfits Angela had dressed them in and put almost identical looking pajamas; Sadie's was pink and Noah's was blue. I put on their caps and swaddle them both. I went and got my rocking chair out of the nursery and transferred it into my room. I put Sadie into her carrier and held Noah. I rocked Sadie using my foot, while I also rock Noah to sleep. Soon enough the both were and I laid Noah in the by the bed crib I had bought. I placed the carrier next to it. My children were in arm's reach.

As I laid there in bed, I thought about my epiphany. Edward loved me. He only left to protect me. But now the question was, is he ever coming back?

Flash Forward

The twins were now three weeks old and it was time for a doctor's appointment. I dressed them warmly because the weather in Forks had been quite chilly. I dressed the both in polo bodysuits, but they were different. Noah's was blue and brown; Sadie's was cream and had blue lines on it. Noah had on blue overalls, gray socks and navy blue shoes. Sadie had on the same overalls except in khaki with white socks and shoes. Noah wore a brown jacket and Sadie wore a cream colored one.

I was dressed in simple jeans, a gray shirt, black hoodie and converse.

I put the babies in their carriers and then snapped them into the bases. I sped off to the doctor's. I was glad my car could do ninety easily.

Once I had arrived, I grabbed both of the carriers and signed the twins in. I sat there, trying to ignore the stares that I was getting. Some people were nicer, but most still looked down on me. I looked down at my children and smiled at them. Sadie was sucking on her binky while Noah just held his in his mouth while he observed the room.

Sadie and Noah were both so much like their father. Noah had his facial expression and Sadie had his temper. Sadie would cry whenever I left her alone for too long, Noah was fine as long as he had his binky.

They had both changed since they were born. Noah's eyes were more green now, his hair a bit darker. Sadie still had my human eye color, but her hair was more reddish now. They both were pale with rosy cheeks.

"Sadie and Noah," the nurse called out. I grabbed their carriers and went into the room the nurse told me to wait in. I placed the carriers on the ground and laid Sadie and Noah on the exam table, the paper crinkling under them. I kept a hand on both of them and rubbed their bellies.

I heard the door open and Dr. Gerandy come in. He had two very thin folders in his hand.

"Hello Bella," He smiled and then came over. "So these are the babies, Sadie and Noah." He looked in their eyes with his light and did the same with their noses and ears. "Are you breast feeding them?"

"No, I'm using formula." I told him, crossing my arms over my chest which was bigger now. My stomach was flat but now I had hips and was a C-cup.

He nodded and the set each baby on the scale. He made a mark for each of them. "They have both gained a very good amount for being on formula." The way he said almost made me think that he thought badly of me for using formula. I brushed it off and listened to what he was saying.

"Noah is now six pounds and fifteen ounces, almost seven pounds. Sadie is our heavy weight," he chuckled. "She is at seven pounds even."

"That's good, right?" I asked.

"Perfect." He pulled out another folder this one much thicker; I could only assume it was mine. "How are you doing Bella?" He looked at me questioningly.

"Fine," I told him as I put the babies back in their carriers. I buckled them in.

"Are you sure? Raising twins is difficult enough, but doing it alone is even more difficult." He seemed so skeptical of my answer.

"Really, I'm fine. Yes, it's not easy, but I am managing." I took a breath. "I know what everything thinks of me in this town. I'm just some whore who got lucky with money." He was going to say something but I kept going. "But no one cares to see it from my end. I'm a single parent of two. If I had to work, I don't know how I could possibly take care of children. They are the most important things to me." I covered Noah and Sadie with a blanket. "Without them, I would have no one and nothing." I picked up the carriers.

"Morals are an important thing in this town, Bella." Dr. Gerandy told me harshly.

"Yes," I hissed. "But isn't treating people like they're human and not some out there alien, more important than your damned morals?" I walked towards the door. "I'll be finding a new doctor for the twins and myself." With that I slammed the door shut behind me and walked out of the office, not caring that I was drawing the attention of the nurses and other patients.

I walked out of the office cursing and mumbling to myself.

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