Chapter 10

Pocketful of Sunshine

There is this place that I go
That nobody knows
Where the rivers flow
And I call it home
And there's no more lies
And darkness is light
And nobody cries
There's only butterflies
......
The sun's on my side
Wave me for a ride
I smile up to the sky
I know I'll be alright

Pocketful Of Sunshine- Natasha Bedingfield

As I laid snuggled up next to Edward, my mind drifted into a very happy place that I hadn't been to in so long. I was vaguely aware of Edward's fingers tracing circles on my bare back.

"What was it like?" He asked me. I turned to look up at him.

"What was what like?"

"Finding out you were pregnant," I could see the curiosity dancing in his amber eyes. I bit my lip, thinking back to that day so long ago.

"Its was the scariest thing," I told him, unsure of how to go about this without causing him pain. "I was so afraid of what my parents and people at school would think of me." I wasn't looking at him anymore; I looked past him, remembering. "I had never cried so much in one day. I was crushed with the news. Here was me, this broken, fragile teenage girl, pregnant. But then," I paused.

"Then..." He motioned for me to continue.

"Then," I said in a rush of air, "I realized that I still had a part of you. Even if I thought you didn't love me, you left something behind when you promised that it would be like you never existed. I still had proof that you had loved me." I considered my next words. "I don't want to say I was happy...but I was...relieved."

He raised an eyebrow. "Relieved?"

"I didn't really have a future anymore. I truly didn't. I had to live one day, one hour at a time. I couldn't handle thinking about the next year, or month. It was just too painful, knowing that I was going to be alone. But finding out about Sadie and Noah gave me a better, brighter future again. If I hadn't gotten pregnant, I don't know what you may have come back to Edward." I winced as I saw the pain on his face.

"I'm so sorry, Bella. I truly am." He buried his face I into the crook of my neck. I ran my fingers through his hair, wrapping my arms around him.

"It's okay. I forgive you. You're back and that's all that matters." I comforted him. This was a major switch of roles. I made him look at me. I smiled and kissed him. "No more moping."

He half smiled. "No more, I promise." he leaned in to kiss me again. He pulled away. I opened my eyes and looked at the confused look on his face. Then his expression changed.

"Ahh," He muttered as if he was finally understanding. He looked at me and smiled. "I can hear them."

"Really?" I asked, amazed.

He nodded. "It's pictures though. Their minds are still a bit young to form real coherent thoughts. It's just their wants and needs. Though their dreams are interesting."

I sat up quicky. "What do they dream of?"

"You," He stated simply. "You're their entire world. They love you so much." He mused.

"Aren't you there too?" I asked him. He smiled widely.

"Yes, but they aren't sure about me."

"They haven't known you long enough. But they already like you." He was their father, of course they would love him.

"Hmm, their waking up." He told me. I got out of bed and pulled on a tank top and a pair of cotton shorts. Edward followed me by putting on his shirt and boxers.

"Three A.M. feeding." I explained to him as he followed me down the stairs and into the kitchen. I showed him how to make a bottle and he scoffed at the simple process. Then I set the bottles in a pan filled with water and started heating them.

"This is the hard part," I told him as I leaned against the counter. "Trying to make sure that the bottles aren't too hot or too cold. It's hard when all you are is cold." His arms were around me in an instant.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean-"

"I know. You have nothing to apologize for. I have gauged that it takes about three minutes. When Angela was over I had her make the bottles. She had them in there for about three minutes and they were okay." I pulled the bottles out and handed one to Edward. "You have to hurry so that your body doesn't affect the bottle." We both were in the room within half second, a baby in each of our arms. Once again they sucked the bottles down greedily.

Sadie finished first and Edward was unsure of what to do next. Noah finished and I showed him how to burp them. Edward followed and was soon enough cringing at the little bit of spit up that came from Sadie. He was going to have to get used to this.

We laid them back in the crib and went back into my room. On the night stand, Edward's phone lit up and vibrated. He picked it up and pressed the phone to his ear.

"Hello Alice," He greeted. A high pitched voice flowed out of the phone. She spoke quickly, excited.

"Edward. Finally. I was waiting for the, erm, right moment to call you. How's Bella? When are you bringing her over? I want to see her. You will not be hogging her all to yourself."

I laughed at Alice's command and Edward rolled his eyes.

"We'll be over in a few hours. She's...why don't you talk to her yourself," he suggested, annoyed at his sister. He gave the phone to me and fell onto the bed as if suddenly exhausted.

"Bella! I've missed you so much! For some odd reason I haven't been able to see you very clearly. Which is probably a good thing, consider you and Edward were getting-" She was interrupted by a voice in the background.

"Getting it on!" The low voice proclaimed, followed by a smacking sound and an "Hey! What was that for?"

I let out an embarrassed laugh, "Tell Emmett he better start running."

"Anyways," Alice drew out the word, annoyed. "I'll see you in a little bit. I can only imagine what you look like. You've been going shopping on your own and I can only think of the tragedies you call outfits, that you've been wearing."

"Hey," I started but was cut off by Alice's tinkling voice.

"See you soon!" the line went dead. I hung up the phone and tossed it onto the bed.

"Stupid pixie." I grumbled as I climbed back into bed with Edward. I climbed into his arms and sighed.

"She means well," He laughed and I joined him.

"Would you like to kill Emmett or shall I?" I asked him jokingly. He smirked.

"I'll do it. It's been awhile since I did some damage to him." He smiled and I kissed him lightly. He pulled me closer to him and deepened the kiss. Before I could get too lost in Edward, a thought floated into my mind. I pulled away.

"Alice said that she couldn't see me very well." I thought for a moment. "And she didn't say anything about the babies. How could she have not seen them?" I looked at Edward. He was thinking.

"I'm not sure," He finally said.

"I'd thought that Rosalie and Emmett would have told her." I mused. I looked up Edward and saw the question in his eyes. I sighed. "Rosalie stopped by when I was still pregnant. She wanted to see if I was doing well without you. I think her feelings for me changed when she realized that I was pregnant with your children. She came to the hospital to see the twins and me. Emmett came too." I waited for his fury. But instead he sighed and pulled me closer to him.

"Rosalie, the one who couldn't stand you," He smiled at me. "realized that I needed you. And she got to see my son and daughter before I did." He rolled his eyes. "Always having to out do everyone." We both laughed silently.

"She's has pictures. I don't have much from when we were at the hospital. Angela only had one throw-away camera." I snapped my fingers as I remembered. "I have pictures," I rushed downstairs and grabbed the two large photo albums. I was back and sitting up next to Edward in less than two seconds. I handed the first of the two and he flipped the cover over. He inhaled and let the breath out slowly.

"Wow,"

"Yea, I went kind of crazy with the pictures." I bit my lower lip. I had taken too many pictures of Noah and Sadie. There was one of each of them doing everything. I couldn't help myself. I wanted to catch everything and I found everyone of their expressions so cute and so funny that I had to take a picture.

"They have a lot of your facial expressions. Especially Noah," I pointed to a picture of Noah when he was angry. "Look at that one."

Edward pouted. "I don't make that face." I flipped the page and pointed to one of Sadie making the same face as Edward's. "Well, maybe I do." After Edward finished looking through both albums he took me into his arms again.

"So what time do they wake up," He asked, making a trial of kisses down my neck.

"Um, eight-ish." I replied, my breathing coming in short breaths.

"Perfect,"

As we pulled up to the large white house, I couldn't help but feel the nerves abounding in my stomach. It was like meeting them all over again. But this was my family, they were still the same. Well not all of them; Rosalie liked me now.

I smoothed my clothes down as I stepped out of the car.

"It's alright," Edward tried to calm my nerves. I lifted Noah out of his carseat, catching his hat that had fallen off, before it hit the ground. I put it back on him.

"I know," I took a large breath, taking in the fresh rain smell and the appealing scent of Noah. It always helped calm me. "Let's go." Edward wrapped his free arm around my waist and we walked into the large white house.

Waiting for us was the welcoming party, literally. There was a huge banner that read, "Welcome Home!" and standing in front of it was the family that I hadn't seen for so long. All of them had huge smiles on their faces. Esme rushed forward and hugged me. She pulled away and eyed Noah.

"He's beautiful." I held him out to her and she carefully took him into her arms. She cradlef him and Noah tried to grab her earrings. She laughed and shook her to greet me was Carlisle. He hugged me and looked me over.

"Remarkable," He breathed. "We'll have to talk later." I nodded and was suddenly being crushed.

"Hello Emmett," I laughed. His laughter boomed and he release me. I landed lightly on my feet only to be crushed again.

"I've missed you!" Alice cried. She looked me over, but not in the same way Carlisle had. "Ugh! A shopping trip is amust!" She walked back over to Jasper, beside herself. I couldn't help but laugh.

Rosalie walked over to Edward and carefully plucked Sadie out of his arms. She smiled at him and then walked over to me. She hugged me with one arm and then went to coo over Sadie. Edward came over to me and wrapped his arm around me. I leaned into him and looked out at the only family that I had ever had.

Carlisle and Esme, along with Emmett were with Noah and Alice was trying to persuade Jasper that he was okay to sit next to her and look at Sadie.

"It's good to be home," I whispered and they all looked up at me, smiling.

"It's wonderful to finally have you both back," Carlisle smiled.

"And with two more additions. What are their full names?" Esme asked.

Edward answered. "Noah Charles and Sadie Elizabeth Cullen," He smiled proudly.

"I like the number ten," Emmett chuckled and everyone else joined him. They all went back to admiring the only infants that will ever be in the Cullen family.

Finally, my family was complete.

HI!! So i know this is a short chapter, but it just ended there. Anymore and it would have been dragging. So i hope you all enjoy and y'all have the right to kill me for not updating for nearly TWO months. Someone slap me or something! So i went to the midnight showing of the Twilight Movie!! I am so totally pleased. I wanted to stay and watch it again. I hope y'all enjoyed or (if you haven't gone yet) will enjoy it! I did!