Disclaimer – Reality sucks, its like some big ugly dragon that breathes fire that smells like garlic and I don't own CCS because of it.  Good thing I don't believe in dragons. 

Now to answer some of the questions which have been plaguing my review box.  This story is and AU fic so  the hold card capturing story doesn't have much to do with it so that means the whole clow reincarnation thing is gone to even though I may mention clow so basically the book has nothing to do with it and their powers aren't found in some magic card or incantation, they have real powers like astral projection, telekenisis, invisibility, prophetic vision, time freezing, healing and the sort of thing you would find on shows like Roswell and Charmed.  Eli isn't her father or anything like the weird stuff in the series, the girl with Sakura/Lilly is Rita which is one of the characters from the anime series, I think the one who's marrying the teacher, and the rest of the answers would just ruin the story.  I don't actually have answers yet myself but it won't be this chapter or the one after it but eventually.

Now, on with the story.

Queen of my Heart – Hoping For Hope

Syaoran Li sighed.

He did that a lot lately.  Actually, to be more precise he had been doing it for 2 years, 1 month, 7 days and approximately 10 hours.

He just wanted to have her back.  He missed Sakura more than he had ever though possible.  He wanted to hold her in the arms just for a second more than he had ever wanted anything else in his life.

Before her he thought he only had one purpose, to be king, so that was all he aspired for, all that he wanted.  Then she came into his life and all he ever wanted from the moment he saw her was her.

But then Syaoran had never been one to get what he wanted.  He didn't have Sakura, the one dream that he wished would come true.  The only thing that he really had was his crown and that was at the expense of losing his father.  He would have preferred to give up his title, crown and kingdom than loose his father.

Syaoran felt like some kind of jynx.  All the people that he even remotely cared about seemed to be dropping like flies.  He loved his father, and he loved Sakura more than life itself, and seemed that both of them had been stolen away from him in the blink of an eye.

It didn't seem fair.

Sakura had been so kind, so beautiful, so caring, so perfect; she shouldn't be gone.  She should be sitting in the throne beside his own smiling at the people below them.

But she wasn't and it made him want to just curl into a ball and die.

He didn't though, because he was still clinging to the hope that Sakura was still alive, that she was somewhere out there searching for her family, maybe even for him.  He didn't know, but it was all he had left to cling to.

So he just carried on clinging to it.  The last bit of hope he had left, the only thing that stopped him from just giving up then and there.  The hope that maybe, just maybe she was out there, alive, looking up at the gray blue sky above him.

So he just kept wishing, kept hoping and kept dreaming of Sakura.

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I know that was really short but it just seemed wrong to continued from there and if I'm going to be really honest I couldn't think of anything to write and I didn't want to make you all sit here waiting until I got over my writers block.