Here for you (2/?)

You know what your seeing is special, what he has allowed you to witness is something that very few if any have seen. Greg cradling little Erin in his arms and making cooing sounds to put her to sleep. If he knew you were there standing watching him, you know you would not get a chance to see his soft side. Erin's been slightly anxious since you and Greg brought her home. Which is something which you both expected would happen. You agree that as Greg will be a big part in her life that he spend most of his time at your apartment so she gets used to seeing the both of you together. But you now realise that it won't be big enough for the three of you and Greg's house only has one bedroom, but your to afraid to bring up the moving in together and buying or renting a bigger house conversation up with him. He has been great with everything that has gone on so far, you can see that he is beginning to become attached to Erin as Erin is to him but one thing at a time is what you say to yourself, let him settle first then you talk to him.

Erin's now fast asleep in his arms, she looks so peaceful, Greg is looking own at her adoringly, why is it that he is so afraid of anyone seeing him like this, you say to your self.

"Finally" you here him say as he carefully stand up and places Erin in the crib besides him which the two of you brought only yesterday and spent four and a half gruelling hours to put together. You walk up behind him and place your hands around him while taking in his sent closing your eyes for it to take it full effect on you.

"were pretty good at this, don't you think?" you here him say.

"it's been two weeks, lets give it some time" you reply. He doesn't say any thing but hold your hand, the warmth of his finger's on you make you open your eyes. You know he wants to say something but you also know it's hard for him, you wait.

"want some coffee?" you say

"sure" He says

It's almost two weeks later until you think about it again, when you buy a few things for Erin and realise there is not enough room for it all. But it's Greg that brings the conversation up not you.

"this is pointless" he says totally out of the blue, when you were both trying to fix a chest of drawers together. You just look at him waiting for the rest of what you know he's going to say.

"What's the point putting this together when we both know there not ever going to be enough room for it" he's annoyed but why, you can't think of why he would be angry at you.

"What do you suggest we do. Keep all her clothes in our room for the rest of her life" you say just as annoyed as he sounded.

"That's the point it isn't our room its your room. I have my own room in my own place" he shouts as he gets up and leave you in the room. You knew this couldn't last. Your angry and follow him out.

"then why don't you just go back to your own room in your own place and leave me to get on with this myself" you regret it, as soon as it comes out you regret and that's not helped by the fact that you see the hurt almost instantly on his face.

"That's not what I meant" you see the look of frustration on his face

"Well want exactly did you mean?" folding your arms you step closer to him. He starts to panic turns his face from you, put his arms up and rubs the back of his neck, typical signs that his is frustrated.

"what I was trying to say is that we should think about looking for a bigger place. Your apartment just isn't big enough to house all these things and well my place isn't that much better" he still not looking at you, and you take another step closer so that you can lean into him he puts his arm around your waist.

You should have known he wasn't ready to leave you yet.

"I'm sorry" you say, he holds you tighter.

"I'm not going any where any time soon. So next time don't just assume I'm going to walk out" he's still angry, you don't blame him. You would have been just as angry and just as upset if he thought so little of you. He takes his arm from around you and walks to the kitchen without once looking at you.

Erin starts crying making it clear she wants to get up, you walk to the bedroom and greet her with a smile as you see her standing up her arms stretched out with her chubby hands grasping open and shut as if to say there was an urgency to get her out, she stopped crying as soon as she saw you. She immediately put her thumb in her mouth and played with a lock of your hair as soon as you held her out of he crib and sat down on the bed. You hold her close to you tightly, frightened of letting her go, she was the only thing you had left from your bother and you wanted to give her everything you could to make up for the fact that she was never going to be able to see her father nor her mother again.

"you'll smoother her like that" you hear Greg say from the doorway. Erin sits up as soon as she heard his voice in search for the owner. Her eyes lit up as soon as she spotted him and struggled to get of your lap and runs towards him.

"dotterr" she said as she ran putting her arms up to be picked up as Greg eagerly lifted her up into her arms.

It had been less than four weeks and the bound that those two had already made you so happy. Erin was always so happy to see him, and he her (although he would never actually admit it) he loved the way she always called him (or tried to) call him doctor after he brought her to work with him one day

"guess what aunt Ally brought for you?" he tease's showing her a pink rabbit, keeping it just out of reach from her. She tried to catch it without avail.

You walked up to them feeling a little left out from there relationship and help Erin get the toy from house and has a giggling fit when she finally gets it Greg puts her down saying "no far you cheat". Erin runs of into the living room leaving the two of you alone.

He stands watching you waiting for you to talk.

"I'm sorry" you say finally "I'm just ….it's allot to deal with." you don't look at him. It's like you both just changes roles an now your the one afraid of saying what you feel.

"When we started this it was just you and me. We were happy…"

"Are you saying your not happy now?" your eyes snap up to meet his almost instantly.

"Of course I'm happy" you reassure him "it's just that I don't know what's going to happen next. If your happy with sudden change of circumstances, if you want to be a father to Erin,…."

"I've already told you I'm not going anywhere. If I wasn't happy you would have probably have known by now" he tells you as-matter-of-factly.

"I know I'm just scared." you wrap your arms around him needing him to know that you really are sorry.

"so….to looking for a new place, should we?" he asks. You answer with a nod of your head.

"I love you soo much" you say instead and move closer into him allowing him to over power you with

his stronger larger structure. He doesn't answer and you don't need him to.

HCHCHCHCHCHCHCHCHCHCHCHCHC

The warm soft rays of light gently touches yours eyelids cruelly pulling you into wakefulness after such a satisfying sleep. You stretch over the other side of the bed hoping to find the warmth of Greg but find nothing. You open your eyes which confirm that he is indeed not there, it was unusual for you to sleep longer than House and if you ever did he was still laying in bed refusing to get up until you made him. When you are just about to get up and investigate you here the sound of laughter which sounded more like shrieking from little Erin followed by a shhhhh from House, which only followed more laughter this time a little muffled.

You think that maybe he got up to give Erin her breakfast or maybe their watching television, but you were shocked to find Greg kneeling by the bathtub with a towel trying to get a wet Erin out of the bath only to have her splash water over him and laugh as he made a face at her.

"Oh you think that funny do you,?" he said as he wiped him self down, Erin just laughed and splash more water. You try not to but you can't help it as you laugh causing House to turn around. Erin see's you and stand up and puts her arms out to you House takes the opportunity to grab her and to get her out of the bath.

"How come you guys are up so early?" you ask as House hands over the towel wrapped toddler into your arms.

"Erin got up early and started crying, when I went to see what was wrong with her she handed me a very dirty diaper which by the way was soiled, that she had taken off, which is why we are in here hour of the morning" Greg looked horrified as he recalled the morning events, but as he looked down at Erin you could tell he wasn't really bothered that he had to clean her up.

"Why didn't you wake me" you say as you start to walk out of the bathroom in search of some clean clothes and fresh diapers for Erin House follows you and pulls out the changing mat.

"Allison I am capable of changing and washing a toddler, they gave me a doctor certificate and everything"

" I didn't mean it like that you don't need to be a doctor to change a diaper" you snap

"I know your capable I was just asking why you didn't wake me, you never get up before me and if you do you always wake me up" House handed her some clothes form the drawer.

"you haven't been sleeping well since your brother. You looked so peaceful… you didn't even wake up when Erin started crying soo…" you lean forward and brush your lips on his letting them linger for a few minutes as Greg cups your cheeks and pulls you in for a proper kiss gently biting your lip as you pull away in the interest of your little audience.

"what me to get breakfast ready?" he already leaving the bedroom before you answer. "sure"

TBC…