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Chapter 13.
Hinata was running home, now more than ever she was happy her pumps were in her closet instead of on her feet. I wonder what happened to Temari-san and kankuro-san, they both looked pretty beaten up, and why did they stole their father's car. He didn't seem too nice on the phone, I wonder what happened… she ran past the post office and she could already see her house. Oh oh oh ! how do I get in there without anyone seeing me. Her eye fell on the fence I guess I can try getting up that tree and jump over the fence. Hinata walked up to the tree that she was planning to climb in.

"Hinata-sama?" she heard her cousin say.

Oh oh "Neji-niisan?" she whispered.

"Hinata-sama, what are you doing?" Neij asked, and walked towards the fence.

"Uhh, well.." she didn't know how to reply, she really didn't know how Neji would react.

"Why are you breaking in your own house?" he asked.

"Neji-niisan" she whispered. And looked to the ground.

"Dinner will be ready in a couple of minutes Hinata-sama" he said,

"Neji-niisan"she whispered again "P-please help me get in the house b-before father notices" she said.

Neji looked at Hinata's silhouette, he couldn't see her well in the shadows.

"Fine, I'll open up the front door, and you need to quietly run upstairs" Neji said and walked past her.

"H-Hai, thank you" She whispered. And quickly followed him.

The door opened and Hinata wanted to get in but she suddenly noticed Neji's body freeze up.

"Hiashi-sama" he said, and bowed his head, and making sure Hinata stayed behind him.

"Neji, is Hinata there?"

"H-Hai father" Hinata answered. And she looked at Neji's right hand he placed behind his back, it told her to follow him and take off her shoes

Neji stepped forwards, Hinata followed his movements and quickly kneeled down and took off her shoes.

"Hiashi-sama can I accompany you to the dining room?" Neji asked.

Hiashi looked at him, for a second with suspicion, but then he nodded and turned around. "Hinata, are you coming" He asked, without turning around.

"H-Hai father, I I need to change first" she said, which was true, she needed to put a special kimono on for dinner.

Hiashi nodded and turned around. Hinata quickly went upstairs, washed up and changed and went to dinner.

Kankuro, Gaara and Temari were eating. Suddenly Gaara put his knife and fork down.

"What happened" he asked

"What?!" Kankuro replied between bites.

"What did father do?" Gaara asked again, with his usual cold voice, but his eyes showed a bit of care.

"Nothing much" Temari shrugged, she didn't like to worry her brother. And especially because it was his fault, well he'd think that.

Gaara looked at his siblings, he didn't have much memories of the time that he'd live home. He was send here when he was 5, it was true that several periods of his life he lived in that house, with him, but somehow Gaara didn't remember much, expect the yelling, and seeing his brother and sister being beaten before his eyes for trying to protect him. He'd remember crying in the corner of the dark house. But he hadn't seen the place since he was 12, so that'd be 3 years ago. He started eating again.

Hinata waited impatiently for her father to finish his meal. Hanabi was telling something about a movie she wanted to see, and Neji was staring in front of him. Finally Hiashi finished. Hinata hurried upstairs, and filled up her bathtub. So many things have happened today, I am really glad that Gaara is okay now, I was so scared. What am I supposed to do when something bad happens again. The bath was filling itself with hot water and Hinata grabbed a hand full of flowers and threw them in the bathtub, it immediately started smelling like a flower bomb exploded, Lavender, roses everything and Hinata took of her clothing and neatly put them away. She stepped in the hot bath. I wish I could do more for Gaara, I wish I could help him, maybe I can help making him better, maybe we can just leave everything behind and live somewhere peaceful together, we could marry in a nice little church, with just us and we'd have two children first a boy, then a little girl. We'd be great parents, way batter than ours. And when they'll be grown up and move away… I want to be with Gaara forever, I never felt that before. Every moment I'm not with him seems like a waste of time… I love him so much…

Hinata sank away in her thoughts, dreaming of her wedding her future children, her future.

Gaara lay down on his bed he tried to recall everything that had happened today, but his memory gave out, he remembered being pulled out of the darkness because Hinata was crying, he wanted to help her. Hinata was too precious for him to cry. But what had happened before that it was all a blank. He began looking through his drawings, he had a lot of them, and never threw them away. He looked through the pages and suddenly stopped. He was standing there. Hinata lying on the ground. What is this, I don't remember drawing this he saw people tied up in the background, Kankuro, Temari, Inumi-san what is the meaning of this. I don't remember this drawing I don't remember this at all he started looking though other drawings, some he'd remember, others he didn't, pictures of people bleeding on the ground and his silhouette holding a knife, pictures of things, moments in time he never remembered what is this! Why is this, I I don't know this I, did I kill those people, what is happening, what happened with them, me. Why can't I remember. He suddenly saw another picture, Hinata smiling I I do remember that, she was posing for me, blushing like crazy she was. Man she is so beautiful with those pale eyes and dark hair framing her face.

I need to stay sane if I lose it again, I might hurt her, or Temari or Kankuro. I need to keep sane. He breathed in and out closing his eyes these pictures, they happened before I can feel it. Do I think, maybe, can they. They're pictures of what happened when He's in control. These things happened, when He takes over, I killed people, it was my fault it all was my fault. Wait, Keep calm, Hinata, I might hurt her, what if I kill her, I love her too much to just take that risk. Do I need to say goodbye?

A/N I hope Gaara wasn't too ooc with his thinking. I hope you liked it.