A/N: Finally I got the third and last chapter up, sorry for taking so long. There is a little fluff at the end, just a warning, but it's not bad. I am done with this story so I can work on my other stories. Go check them out!
ROY POV
I opened my eyes and immediately regretted it. The light was blinding, but I forced my eyes to stay open. Ugh, my head was killing me. Making to get up I then realized that I wasn't the only person in the bed.
"Riza?!" I choked out. What had happened last night? That I had gotten drunk was obvious but what… How and why was she here? Suddenly all the details fell back in a burst of intuition. Maes' funeral, getting drunk and Riza having to stop me from killing myself. I guess trying to drown my sorrows out didn't help at all. Nor did it numb any of the pain. I felt ashamed, for having Riza seeing me in the state I was in, and that I had hurt her.
At that moment Riza woke up, but I couldn't face her. I put my arm over my head and I heard her sit up. She must have been confused, but because she didn't have a hangover it didn't take her long to remember.
"Roy…"she murmured. Hearing her voice brought back our kiss and I blushed, but still didn't move. She gently pulled on my arm, removing it from my face. I turned my head then, and she sighed. I got up, moving till I was parallel with her. She looked at me concerned, and it sickened me. I didn't deserve anyone's sympathy, nevertheless hers. I realized I was crying when a tear fell down my cheek and she brought her hand up to wipe it and I turned my head.
"Don't…" I whispered. She stopped, and one look at her face told me she was confused and hurt. "It's not that I don't want you to…more that I won't let you. I can't have you liking me, you would end up hurt because of me and I don't want that." I said quietly.
"Don't say that. When are you going to realize that you're not the monster you think you are?" she said, a bit angrily. I stared at her incredulous.
"Well, judging by the fact that my friend is lying in a grave, because of me, I would say never. I don't know how you could say that. Of course I am." I said, glaring up at her.
"Don't you realize that it was his choice? He's the one that decided to follow you; you didn't force him into the decision. He knew what he was getting into and yet still he followed you." She said, almost yelling. I sighed; she wasn't going to be persuaded.
A little softer this time, she said, "You can't keep blaming yourself for something that is out of your control. If I may say so, you need to just let it all out; otherwise something like what happened last night will happen again. And I will not allow that." She paused here, taking my hands in hers.
"I can't afford to lose you, it would be unbearable and you wouldn't want Maes to have died in vain, now would you?" she asked. Another tear fell down my cheek, and then another. A wave of grief suddenly washed through me and I was crying. She pulled me into her embrace, holding me next to her. We sat there for about ten minutes until I stopped. I brought my head up slowly, and kissed her on her lips.
It slowly grew more passionate until we were kissing with no restraint. I brought my fingers through her hair, and she tugged at my still halfway unbuttoned shirt. Our tongues slipped together, fighting for dominance. Breaking our kiss, I found my way to her neck and nipped at the soft and smooth skin there. She groaned, arching her body towards me. I brought myself back up to her mouth, and softly kissed her, and we continued on, joining together as one.
Some of the time, well...most of the time actully, I wondered just how I had managed to make Riza fall for me. I could see no quality in myself, worth persuing, yet here she was. I knew that after today, and last night, I could deal with all my regret. As long as she was here, I could continue on living.