Disclaimer: I don't own these characters.

Author's note: I'm posting this because someone wrote me and told me to write. I thought maybe no one was interested anymore. It's nice to know people are interested. That it why I have written this. It's very angsty I am sorry. But the next chapter will be up soon… and it won't be full of angst. It will be happier… And well yes… smile and dance!

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Josh arrived at his apartment more panicked then he had ever been in his life. He felt a rushing sensation of dread, like adrenaline pulsating through his heart leading to cardiac arrest. He ran up the stairs to his apartment, flying up the stairs like a twenty year old. He opened the door to his apartment ready to swoop Donna into his arms and carry her to the car.

"What took you so long?" Donna said throwing her purse at him as she made her way through the door. Being pregnant, six months pregnant with triplets had made Donna do things a little bit slower, with a sort of arched poster.

Josh tried to hold back a retort as he helped Donna to the elevator and into the car. "How are you? Are you okay? What's going on?" Josh asked when he finally got into the drivers seat.

Donna glared at him for a moment. "I don't know what's going on." She tried not to sound angry. "But I need to be calm." She stared at him with an arched eyebrow. "Can you do that?"

Josh stared at her for a moment. Then he started to nod. He helped Donna into the car. She didn't look like she was in a lot of pain. Usually when these things happened to women they were screaming or yelling or trying to kill their significant other, or at least that's what Josh thought usually happened. Donna seemed calm. She looked like she was concentrating. She held her belly with both hands. She was taking deep breaths. Was that right? Josh wondered. Deep breaths? Short breaths? Why couldn't he remember what that stupid lady had told him at those damned classes? If he hadn't seen the look in her eyes, the small glint of worry, Josh would have thought there was nothing wrong.

They reached the doctors office. It was quiet, there were a few patients sitting and waiting. Josh went straight the receptionist. "Where's the doctor? Why isn't he here? We called him? He said he'd be here… where is he?"

The receptionist smiled. "Which doctor are you looking for sir?"

"Dr… ummm…" Josh turned to look at Donna.

She walked awkwardly towards the front desk. "Dr. Swayed."

Josh looked at the receptionist and nodded vehemently. The receptionist clicked away on her computer, Josh became even more irritated. "Your Donna?" the receptionist asked Donna, almost completely ignoring Josh. Donna just nodded, biting down on her lip.

The receptionist smiled and got up. "Follow me please."

They followed the receptionist to a back room. She left a gown for Donna and left them there. Donna dressed and undressed, then sat down on the bed; Josh sat next to her. Alone again Josh stared at Donna. "How are you doing?"

Donna smiled. "I don't know anymore." She tried not to let him see the glint in her eyes. "Josh I'm scared."

Josh put his arm around her. "You know whatever's going on we'll be fine. We'll all be fine."

She grabbed the hand on her shoulder and held it tight. "I was wondering what you thought about Noah or Joan. I know it's cheesy, but their good names and we should incase…"

Josh smiled. "I love that. I was thinking about names… I think we should call them…" The doctor knocked on the door and came in. "Hello."

"Hello." They both chorused together. They looked at each other and giggled.

The doctor smiled at them and went looked over Donna's file on the computer. "Donna if you can lie down." He turned to look at them. "We're going to have a look around."

Josh got off the bed. Donna laid down still holding Josh's hand. The doctor said nothing trying his best not to get in their way. He breathed onto his stethoscope and placed it on her belly. He made a face as though he were listening very hard. "What kind of pain were you having Donna?"

She squeezed Josh's hand. "It's a sharp pain that comes and goes." She paused. The doctor lent into her belly. "Even if there was no pain… there's something wrong isn't there. It's not just false labour is it?" He moved the stethoscope around, but his face didn't change.

"Donna we're going to do and ultrasound." Seeing the look on their faces he tried to talk them back from the ledge. "I just want to get a good look at what's going on in there."

The doctor smiled and lifted the gown so Donna's belly was exposed. He reached over to the counter and got a tube. He squeezed some jelly on Donna's belly and started to look around. Josh listened to the familiar sound of hearts beating. Something was wrong. Josh looked at Donna. He saw it in her face; she heard it too. Something was off; something was missing. "What is it?" Josh hadn't realized how try his mouth was until he spoke.

The Doctor didn't say anything. He just kept looking, as though in desperation. "What's wrong?" Donna asked, almost calmly.

The Doctor sighed. "Donna, Josh. There's no easy way to tell you this."

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Josh left Donna at home yet again. Their routine was becoming something he almost looked forward to. Something that was reliable. He liked reliable now. No more chances. He couldn't take chances. Not with Donna.

He arrived at the White House and called her immediately. Calling her was something he did more often now. He made sure someone always did. He made sure someone was always there with her. He just wished she'd accept visitors.

He went to his morning meeting. "How's Donna?" C.J. and Sam asked instantly.

Josh smiled. "She's better." It was a small improvement, but it was something.

"Will you be ready for California?" Toby asked. He had became very business like these past few weeks. These past eight weeks.

Josh nodded. Donna hadn't let him get behind in his work. "We don't need the stress." She had told him.

Josh sat down on one of the couches. "I've got a clear head. Don't worry about it."

Toby just nodded, and looked away.

Leo came in from his office. "Did you see the polls?" Leo asked holding up a small pile of papers.

They all smiled. "They were okay," Toby remarked.

"Considering not that long ago we were looking down the barrel of a gun," Leo said, barely stopping himself from nodding towards Josh. "How's Donna?"

Josh smiled. "Her mom's been trying to get in touch. Donna still won't talk to her."

"She talked to Margaret the other day," Leo said waving towards his office. "Margaret said she sounded almost happy."

Josh almost jumped with surprise. "She talked to Margaret!" Josh looked like he was about to dance, except he was unable to lift himself from the couch. "That's wonderful. Amazing. I mean it's not… but she's… She talked to Margaret!"

Everyone stared at Josh. It had been a while since he had one of these outbursts of "happiness". "Maybe she'll be okay. I mean… I was never worried about her being a mother. After we lost…" he paused and stared off into the distance for a moment but he snapped out of it almost as quickly. "But she's been taking so much care. She's been so careful. She's been eating. She hasn't really been happy but she's been doing her best to look after…" he paused again… they still didn't have names.

They all gave knowing nods. All of them almost smiling with him.

"I'm going to look after these two Josh," Donna had told him. "I won't let anything happen to them."

Josh shook his head. "She feels so guilty." He stopped remembering where he was and who he was talking to. He hadn't talked this much about Donna since that fateful day at the doctor's office. Losing a child was a terrible thing. This was so much worse. Donna was in more pain than he could understand. He was in more pain than anyone would ever know. Josh shook his head again.

Toby looked at him. "I've been calling her every other day." They all stared at him now. His voice had been shy, almost ashamed. "She said not to say anything. I don't know why." Josh looked at him, Toby meet his eyes then looked away. "We don't say much. But she's sounding better…" There was a pause.

"Anybody else?" Josh asked.

The others shook their heads. Josh wasn't really that surprised. "Well," Josh said, feeling better than he had in eight weeks. He felt almost confident. "What's next?"