Chapter Six

Lithium

"Darling, I forgive you after all.

Anything is better than to be alone."

She picked up the phone and called Sango. There was no answer and she just got the voicemail. She then hung up and called InuYasha. Again. No answer. She got his voicemail. She hung up and called Sesshoumaru. He answered, but when he spoke there was lots of static, and soon the phone died.

When she woke up, she was soon remembering her dream. She was a little confused about what it meant if it meant anything at all. She had to meet InuYasha today at Starbucks

When the time finally came and she showed up he handed her one of her favorite things ever. A strawberries and creme frappuccino. God, he knew her too well. "Thank you." She smiled and sat with him.

"Look, I know that we haven't been on the best of terms lately, but... I decided that what I did to you wasn't right at all. I want you back, Amy."

"What about Kagome?"

"I didn't care about her as much as I thought... She and I decided that we should break up."

"So, you want me back because you're lonely?"

"No. I love you, Ames."

He'd never been one to call her Ames. That was what Sesshoumaru called her. It felt... wrong hearing from him. "Don't call me that." She said gravely as she sipped her frappuccino. "I still love you... and... I don't know. I want to think about it."

"Why? If you still love me then it shouldn't matter."

"Well... it does. I just want to think about it."

"Is there someone else?"

"No." She lied somewhat. It wasn't as if she and Sesshoumaru were official yet. Not that they ever would be.

"Alright. How long, though?"

"A week at most. Maybe two. After what you've done to me... maybe longer. I don't know." She finished off her frappuccino and stood. "It's settled then." She kindly pushed her chair back and watched him as he stood. He gave her a hug. A warm, almost too friendly, hug. He kissed her forehead. He must've remembered how much I love that. Maybe he cares about me just a little. She thought as they pulled away from each other.

"Alright. Call me tonight. Or... I'll call you or something."

"Yeah."

She started to walk off until she heard him say that he loved her. She turned around and smiled before mouthing that she loved him too. She wanted to just walk out into the street and be run over by a car. She wanted to say that she wasn't happy, but... she couldn't bring herself to deny that she was. She was happy. That also didn't stop her growing feelings for the hunk of man that was like her brother. She smiled and nearly walked into a man. She apologized under her breath, and kept walking.

When she made it home, she had remembered the Sesshou was off today. That meant that he might be here... but she didn't see his car, so he was probably off getting lunch or something.

When Sesshoumaru got home, he saw Amy sitting on the couch on AIM with his laptop. He didn't mind of course, but she didn't look up.

"Ames?"

"Oh, hey!" She said, startled.

Wow, had she really not notice that he was coming in? "Hey. Listen, I... I know that I don't have control over you or anything. I have to ask though... Amy, what the fuck are you thinking?" He asked in an exasperated tone of voice.

"What? What do you mean?" She asked as she signed off.

"Oh, don't do that. Don't play dumb. You went to get coffee with InuYasha. You're with him after what he did to you..."

"Does it matter? It's none of your business."

"Yes! It does matter!" He half yelled.

He was scaring her a little, "Oh, well I suppose that it's okay that you change girlfriends like a man whore!" She stood, yelling and wanting to stand up for herself. She felt the anger bubbling beneath her skin.

He sighed, and sat beside on the couch. He was angry at her for the first time in a while. She'd really done it this time. She'd made him angry and he couldn't talk because all that would come out would be insults that would probably send her to tears. Then he would have to apologize and say that he didn't mean it, when at the time he did.

"What? Not talking to me now?!"

"Just... get the hell away from me."

His words prodded deep in her heart and stabbed at a very sensitive spot. She slowly walked up to her room, feeling gutted. She wanted to scream and cry and throw things at him. Couldn't he see how much she needed him?!

When she reached her room and before she could react, her knees gave out and Amy found herself on the ground. A horrible sinking feeling erupted in her gut, and the all too familiar sting of tears burned her eyes.

She'd rarely seen him like that, with his eyes so angry. She'd always known he held an angry soul, angry at the whole world it seemed lately. But very few times, less than she could count on one finger, had she'd seen that look directed at her. Did he hate her? If he did, then why would he suddenly hate her after being so...nice for the past three years? Why did he have to be so damned confusing?!

At that last question, Amy's dam on her emotions cracked and a piercing cry rose in her throat before she could stop it.

She slammed her door closed while she was still on her knees and she fell to the floor in wracking sobs. She didn't even know why she was so upset. It wasn't like he hadn't been angry at her before, it's just... she felt horrible this time.

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Sesshoumaru popped his jaw angrily. He always did that when he was trying to relieve anger. It never really worked. It just gave him a headache later.

He needed a cigarette.