Chapter Eleven

Breakdown

"I could have tried and devoted my life to both of us.

But what a waste of my time when the world we had was yours."

That morning, Sesshoumaru pulling her into her college campus felt awkward. It was cold and she'd been wearing a thin jacket that didn't particularly keep her warm.

"Later, Sesshy." She said as she pulled the hood of her not-so-warm jacket over her head.

He said nodded and took off as normal.

She was soon tackle-hugged by Kouga who seemed all too energetic for eight in the morning. She laughed as he let go of her.

"Hey. Happy to see me or what?"

"Yeah." He smiled. "I didn't see you all weekend."

"Sorry."

They began walking to class and as they were, Amy felt uneasy as she just brushed past Inuyasha, who looked at her and walked on.

—

After class, Kouga and Amy started to the parking lot together. Among her acquaintances in their class, there had been rumors of them dating, but they weren't true of course, and them always being together didn't really help. Amy laughed on the inside as she thought of that.

"Amy!" Someone called behind them, jerking Amy out of thought.

They stopped and turned around.

"Inuyasha..." She stood frozen. She wanted to turn around and walk away again, but maybe... he wasn't the same person anymore. Whatever the reason, at least he was talking to her.

"Yeah, I saw you this morning and I was going to say something, but you didn't even look at me."

"Sorry, I'm just heading out, you wanna walk with us?" She offered gratefully.

"Sure." A small smile tugged at the corners of his lips.

The three stood in the parking lot and waited until Sesshoumaru got there for Amy.

When Sesshoumaru arrived, his eyes widened marginally at what he saw.

Amy, who barely let out a light giggle most of the time, was laughing so brightly that light seemed to radiate from her. When he caught glimpses of her face, her expression startled him. Again, the way that she'd looked over the weekend came to mind and he felt himself becoming utterly shocked that he was looking at the same girl. Her smile was wide and, even as the person hugging her set her on her feet. For a moment, she looked like she might fall but the guy holding her kept her steady, making Amy smile up at him. From where he stood, Sesshoumaru could only see the guy's back and couldn't tell who it was, and the fact that he was wearing the hood of his jacket over his head wasn't any help either.

Amy could see him and her smile and laughter all faded. She smiled fakely at the guy as he held his arms out for another hug before she had to leave, he picked her up but more gently than he had before, and his hood accidentally fell off the top of his head. Sesshoumaru got a good look at him and wanted nothing more than to kill him. It was Inuyasha and Sesshoumaru could feel his anger bubble and boil beneath his skin so heatedly, he thought he might get out of the car and kill him right there.

What the hell is she doing with him?!

Sesshoumaru was so busy glaring daggers at his younger half-brother that he hadn't even noticed that Amy was getting in the car. When she got in she was slightly beaming. He said nothing to her though and they rode in silence all the way.

When they arrived, Sesshoumaru still didn't talk to her, he just stormed up to his room. Amy didn't know what was wrong with him.

Moments later she heard glass breaking, and she ran up the stairs and opened his door to see pieces of mirror all over the carpet. Sesshoumaru's whole right hand was bloody.

"Sesshou...?"

Absentminded and furious he swung at her, but when he realized it was Amy, he directed his fist to the spot on the wall only centimeters from where she stood. Her blue eyes grew wide with fear her heart raced as she just stood there, unmoving.

"Amy..." He swallowed hard, and all his anger melted away.

She'd never seen him like this before. Sure, she'd seen him angry, but not to the point of breaking something or someone.

He sighed sadly. "Please leave."

She nodded shakily and turned slowly and left the room. She felt afraid and she wanted to scream so loud that the whole world could hear her.

--

Kouga and Inuyasha showed up minutes later, fortunately. She was crying on the couch when they came in. They were originally stopping by to ask her if she wanted to hang out over at Kouga's house, but now they were here for a different reason.

Getting her the hell out of there.

They sat on the couch on both sides of her and asked her what happened. Once she told them, Inuyasha stood and started to go upstairs, but Amy stopped him.

"No! If he finds you here I don't know what he'll do."

He instead helped her up and she looked up at him, seeing those bright, honey colored orbs that she could've sworn were made from the sun itself. Those that she used to love so long ago.

She sobbed quietly before pushing herself past his arms and to his chest as she grasped his hoodie tightly and cried into it. At first, he seemed shocked that she'd immediately grasped him over Kouga. But suddenly, and without hesitation, Inuyasha wrapped his arms around her in an embrace that made her barriers completely fall apart beyond repair.

For she also fell apart in that moment.

—

She stayed over at Kouga's house with them for the remainder of the day and just tried to get her emotions in check and put her fallen barriers back up.

"Amy," Inuyasha said after Kouga had left the room to go to the kitchen.

"Huh?"

"I'm sorry for all the crap I put you through. I'm not the same person I was before and now that I see how much pain you're being put through now, it makes me really angry at myself that I did that to you."

She smiled and gave a humorless laugh. "It's alright." She said and looked down at the beige carpet of Kouga's bedroom. Wether Inuyasha meant it or not, it was enough just to hear him say it.

Kouga came back and handed them both sodas.

Amy's phone began to ring and as if out of instinct Inuyasha asked who it was. She looked at it, "It's Sesshoumaru." She handed the phone to Inuyasha and watched him answer it.

"What the fuck do you want?"

"Where's Amy?"

"She's here with me and Kouga. Why do you care? You're the one that needs to back the fuck off."

"Why do you have her phone?!" He asked angrily as he thought about leaving and finding that son of a bitch.

"She handed it to me. She obviously doesn't want to talk to you."

Sesshoumaru felt gutted. He knew that Amy had been hurt and scared and it was because of him but he never in a million years would think that she would turn to Inuyasha for comfort. He had nothing left to say, he just hung up and threw the it at his wall.

"He hung up." Inuyasha flipped her phone shut and handed it to her.