A/N: Here is Chapter 9. Like promised I updated. I may have more free time to update. I'm not completely sure. But I do have a beta! Yay.
Thanks Letravisty!
So here's Edward's point of view.
Every moment I spend with her I'm putting the both of us in danger. Her sweet flower scent pulls me in with every unneeded breath I take. But I know I have to stay strong. For Carlisle, for myself, and mostly for her.
"Edward where have you been?" Esme asked sweetly as I walked into the house. All eyes where on me and I immediately felt uncomfortable.
"I know where he was!" Alice smiled cheerily. I didn't attempt to stop her. Nothing ever does. "He was with Bella."
"Were you?" Esme asked curiously.
"I thought Alice was only suppose to see the future, not the past." I sighed and walked straight to my room.
Eddie's got a girlfriend. Emmett said mentally, knowing I can hear him. Eddie and Bellie sitting in the tree K-I-S-S-I-N-G. First comes love, then comes marriage, then comes the baby in the baby carriage.
Times like these made me wish I couldn't read minds. I turned up my radio and began looking through my cds. I thought about what happened the past few hours and scared myself.
How can you fall in love in such little time? It didn't make much sense to me but while spending so much time with Bella I learned that it isn't just the blood that lures me in. It's her amazing personality and the selflessness that makes me fall even harder for her. I can see myself spending eternity with-no. I will never be able to spend eternity with her. I refuse to turn her into one of us, a monster. I don't want her to go through a tremendous amount of pain just to make her an unforgiving killer. Like me.
How do I know if she wants that anyway? Would Bella actually want to spend eternity with me? Would she honestly throw her life away just to be with me?
I doubt it. I shouldn't even be having these feelings anyway. I'm just delusional and I'll spend every moment with Bella. As long as she wants me there.
Monday-
I wasn't anticipating going to school at all. I was just excited that I would see Bella again. The day after I told Bella our secret, Saturday, my family and I had to leave to do some hunting. There was an over population of bears somewhere in Canada. Emmett was over excited. We didn't get home until Sunday night and now I'm ready to see Bella again.
"I'm leaving early." I said before stepping out of the house. I walked to my Volvo and turned it on. The car started to purr and I pulled out. It took me 10 minutes to get to my destination and I knocked on the front door.
"Hello sir, I'm Edward Cullen and I'm here to take Bella to school today." I said to the Chief. He raised his eyebrow and at me and began to frown.
"She'll be down in a minute." He replied. He walked away from the door and called out for Bella.
A few minutes later the sound of her heart beat sped up and her overwhelming scent filled my nostrils.
"Hey Edward." She smiled. I reached out and wrapped my hand around her tiny warm one.
"Ready for school?" She smiled and nodded. I walked her towards my car after she said goodbye to her father.
The drive for school was fairly quiet. We talked about random things, just catching up on each others weekend. She stayed at home all weekend doing some unfinished school work. I drove into the school parking lot and noticed that it was five minutes before first period would begin.
"It's not much time before first period." I said while pulling the key from the ignition. "I'll walk you to your locker."
When I looked over at Bella she seemed a bit hesitant and unsure of something.
"Bella, what's wrong?" I asked lacing my fingers through her. I was immediately worried. What if she didn't want me anymore? I couldn't believe how selfish that sounded. Here I am worrying about my own feelings while Bella was upset about something.
"Edward it isn't a big deal." she blushed. "I was just worried about what people will say when they see that we're….together."
So that's what she's worried about. What other people will thing.
"It honestly doesn't matter to me what people think. I like you a lot and that's all that really matters." I responded. I didn't want to tell her how I really feel and scare her away. We've been together for a weekend and once she knows a vampire is practically obsessed with her, she'll be running for the hills.
"Okay," She smiled. "lets get to class."
Second Period…
Calculus had just begun and students were pouring in the door. I was sitting in the back, as usual, when I heard Mike down the hall. Apparently he had English with Bella this period and he was trying to help her to her seat. As if she needs his help. Where the hell is Angela when you need her?
"So Bella what are you doing this weekend?" The pervert asked her.
"I don't have anything in mind but-"
"Maybe you and I could go out or something." I looked in his mind and I could tell he was sitting next to her. And blatantly staring at her breast.
"Actually I might be doing something with Edward. I'm not completely sure yet." She replied sweetly, leave it to Bella to be nice to him.
"To be honest Bella, I don't think it's good that you hang around Cullen." My teeth clenched and my fingers dug into the desk. "In two weeks there's going to be a dance. Maybe you could be my date."
I completely forgot about that dance, not that I cared much when I found out. Now that Bella and I are together, I have to take her to the dance.
"I doubt I'll be going to the dance." Wait, what? "Probably going to Jacksonville that weekend."
"What's in Jack-" Mike began but was cut off by the teacher. I didn't notice that Mr. Kaufman started the lesson already and was expecting an answer. I took a quick glance at the dry-erase board and he was shocked when I answered correctly.
I'll have to ask Bella about Jacksonville later.
Lunch…
I walked towards Bella's Spanish class and found her on her way towards the cafeteria. I held her hand and she jumped slightly jumped. She smiled and relaxed when she noticed it was my hand.
"I always know it's you because of your cold fingers." She smiled.
"So what's in Jacksonville?" I asked.
"You heard that, right?" She blushed. "Jacksonville is where my mom and her husband lives. I wasn't going there at first but I don't thing I'd ever want to go to the dance with Mike."
"I understand." I shrugged it off. "Would you mind going to the dance with me?"
"Are you trying to ask me out, Mr. Cullen?" She smiled jokingly.
"Maybe, but would you really go?" I hoped she would say yes. This would be my first human experience and it would be nice to let her feel a bit normal when it came to having a vampire boyfriend.
"I'll think about it." She said. "Dances involve dancing and I've never been to one before. It's not the best thing for me to go to."
"Okay." She said she wouldn't go now but I knew I'd convince her.
"Hey Bella, Edward." Angela was standing by the cafeteria door with a smirk on her face. She was staring at our intertwined fingers and gave Ben a knowing look. He smiled too.
"So Edward, can we take your Bella away to sit with us or is she yours?" Angela asked smiling.
I didn't want Bella to have to choose between the two of us so I did for her. "You can sit with them. I plan on taking you somewhere after school anyway." I planted a kiss on her warm soft pillow-like lips. She blushed and walked inside with her arm linked with Angela. Angela was whispering to Bella but I ended up hearing her anyway.
"You better tell me what happened between you and Mr. Edward Cullen."
Unlike Jessica, Angela wasn't a gossip fiend and I was pretty sure she wouldn't tell the entire town of Forks that Bella and I spent all Friday together.
I walked to the lunch line and got some of that disgusting food. Today was Sloppy Joe day; Rosalie's least favorite day of the week. If vampires could vomit, I wouldn't be surprised if she did. I walked over to the table where all of my family sat.
"So Eddie, you and Bella huh?" Emmett smiled at me.
"You obviously know what's going on." I sighed while placing the tray of crap on the table.
"You should bring her over to the crib sometime, man."
"Yeah and then she can have a sleepover and do each others nails-" Alice began.
"You don't sleep, Alice." I smiled.
"It's good to know that the rest of you support this relationship." Of course Rosalie had to interfere. "I hope you understand that I don't."
"Doesn't matter to me." I shrugged. "I like Bella a lot and as wrong as this is I want to be with her as long as she wants me to be around."
Rosalie rolled her eyes and continued reading her magazine.
After School…
"Bella, what are you doing after school." I caught her in the hallway and held her hand. Many people stopped and stared, except Mike. He was burning holes in the side of my head since school began.
"I didn't really have anything planned." Bella replied.
"Well I want to take you somewhere." I stopped in front of my car.
"Okay, where?" She asked curiously.
"It's a surprise." I opened the car door and she slid inside.
"Edward, I'm telling you this now for future reference," she said. "I hate surprises."
"You'll most likely love this surprise." I replied and closed the door. I walked around to the other side since there were others watching. As I peeled out of the parking lot I didn't fail to notice the questioning looks from my family.
Edward, that's a lovely idea. Alice smiled. She ushered everyone else to go inside the cars to go home. Bless her.
About 20 minutes later we were passing the house. Bella must have notice we've been in the car for a while so she spoke up.
"Really, Edward, where are we going?" She asked.
"You'll find out in about 10 more minutes." I held her hand
After the 10 minutes I pulled over on the side of the road. I opened the door and put my keys in my pocket before I opened the door for Bella. I held her hand and she used her cane to feel around on the ground.
"Edward, what's with all the twigs and tree limbs."
"Well we aren't technically there yet but I need you to get on my back to get there faster." Reluctantly, Bella climbed on my back and I dashed into the forest. We passed numerous trees and never collided with one. We finally made it to my meadow. I never shared this place with anyone else and I want to share it with Bella. It's the place where I think and relax and I'm basically myself. I want Bella to share that experience with me. Bella slid of my back slowly and once again she felt around with her cane.
"What is this place?" She asked. "It feels much warmer here almost as if we weren't in Forks anymore."
"Well, we aren't actually in Forks. On the out skirts to be exact." I replied. "It's this meadow I found while exploring. I wish you could see how beautiful it is."
"I do too. I'm sorry." She sighed.
"Bella you don't ever have to apologize about something you can't control. Especially not to me. I love you the way you are."
"Y-you love me?" Damn. I knew I'd slip and say it one day. Now she probably thinks I'm crazy because I'm saying I love her after a few days. But maybe if I explain how I feel she'll run away. That's what she should do, it's what she needs to do. No matter how much I don't want her to leave me she needs to know the consequences of being in a relationship with my kind.
"I know it's too soon Bella but being a vampire some what gives you a new perspective on things." She began stroll around in the almost artificial-looking jade grass. She sat down in a small patch of daisies and at that moment she looked absolutely radiant. "I'm going to be living for eternity and I want someone that I can spend for ever with. I'm not the type of person that can stand being with multiple people all of my existence. Everyone else in my family has that person they stay with forever and I don't have that. Now that I'm in a relationship with you Bella, I want that too."
"So maybe you should change me." The mental image of Bella as a vampire took over my brain. Her skin would be a bit more pale and her eyes will change color but still hold that same Bella personality. She'll most likely gain her sight and I would love that-wait. I cannot do that. I can't change her into a monster. A red-eyed killer with nothing but blood on her mind. Newborns were crazy no mater how good of a person they were when they were human.
"Bella no, I can't do that." I refused.
"But why not." Her forehead began to form lines in the middle.
"If I change you it won't be very simple. You'd have to cut off all types of communication with people you know now. Knowing them would be putting their lives' in danger." I sat next to her in the grass.
"It's what you want-"
"Bella, it's not about what I want."
"I think I want that too." she replied. "Edward, I have stronger feelings for you than I've ever had for any other boy. Of course I had small crushes but this is different. You are different."
"So are you, but I can't take away your humanity." I rubbed my hand gently along her cheek. She leaned into my touch and sighed. "Let's not talk about this. We can just live in the present and not worry about the future."
"I think I'd that." She grinned and leaned back into the grass. I followed her lead as she plucked a flower from the ground.
"Describe this to me." She said holding the flower out to me. And that's what we did. We sat in my-our meadow and I described everything to her. I occasionally made her squeal when I said the bug was on her hand but other than that I enjoyed our time together. Even though I know we can't be together for eternity I know I want her as long as I can have her.
A/n: Not very long but I have a lot planned for this story. :P
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~Chynna