I lay there on the ground for a long time. I'm not quite sure when my weeping stopped, or when my brain shut off. All I could think about was Victoria. She had given me no choice. What if I refused? Then Charlie... I immediately became sick to my stomach when I thought about what they would do to Charlie. Just like that room full of people in the Volturi, I had no choice.
The next thing I remembered, I was in a foreign bed. I immediately opened my eyes, and sat up. A splitting headache rattled my head and pains shot up my back and arms. I fell back awkwardly and grasped my head, moaning painfully.
"Bella, are you ok?" I pushed the tears of pain away from eyes, and revealed Edward. He was kneeling at my side, his hands quietly stroked my back and my head. I closed my eyes and moaned in ecstasy as his hands magically caressed my headache away. "Oh Bella, we came back as soon as we could. Emmett caught a wiff of an odd vampire, and as soon as he told us, Alice had a vision of Victoria. By the time we got to your house...you were on the ground, unconscious. Oh Bella!" He choked on the last few words and gently nuzzled his head into my arm, and fell silent.
I looked up gently at Alice, tears forming slightly in my eyes, when I realized what I had to. "Edward," I croaked, "Edward, we need to talk." Edward looked up suddenly, and Alice froze in her spot. Edward turned slightly and gave Alice an emotionless look, and she disappeared through Edward's door.
"Bella, Bella, what did she do to you? You look terrible. Oh Bella!" Edwards eyes shone with grief as he grasped my hand and rubbed it gently. The coolness of his fingers spread through me and I treasured it. I studied his face, his arms, his fingers, his touch. I studied him, so that I would never forget him. I could never let myself forget him. I began to hate myself the moment I was forced to open my mouth.
"I can't do this anymore Edward." He immediately stopped rubbing my hand, and he became unusually still, never breaking eye contact. "No matter where I go, no matter what I do, someone will always be after me. The Volturi, Victoria, I just can't handle it. And you, we have too many boundaries. I need more! I need to be able to hold you, and kiss you, without having to be scared that you might kill me! We also have no future Edward. I don't want to become a vampire. I don't want to drink blood! I want to grow old with someone I can grow old with! I want children and a house, but you can't give it to me. I think we have to end it now, before we become too attached. I'm so sorry Edward."
Edward's hand retracted from mine, and he sat on the ground, not breathing or moving. I sat up a second time, and slowly moved my legs around to the edge of the bed. I eased out of the warm sheets and placed both my feet on the cool wooden floor. I stood up, but swooned and would have fallen flat on my face, if Edward had not caught me. He was standing up, his arms around my waist, his face close to mine. Suddenly, with no signs, he bent in and kissed me. His hands tangled themselves in my hair, and I rubbed his back. Slowly, his lips parted and our kiss continued. He then pulled away gently, but kept both of his arms around me.
"Bella..." he whispered softly. His face was full of an insurmountable pain. He inhaled deeply and closed his eyes. I walked back slowly, and his hands feel limply to his sides. I then turned my back on him. The one who I cried over for months. The one I need to survive, to be happy. The one to whom I had pledged my entire self to, and the one who had the power to keep us together for ever. I slowly walked out of the room, limping slightly, keeping a hand on my hip, and a hand on the wall to brace myself.
It was then that I walked away from life itself. I had nothing else left.
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