Shallow End
Author: Shadow Cloud
Title: Shallow End
Chapter: 7
Thoughts Of You
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Hey Miss Murder can I
Hey Miss Murder can I
Make beauty stay if I take my life?
With just as look they shook
And heavens bowed before him.
We're left to wonder why he left us all behind.
Hey Miss Murder can I
Hey Miss Murder can I
Make beauty stay if I take my life?
Dreams of his crash won't pass
Oh, how they all adored him.
Beauty will last when spiraled down.
AFI - Miss Murder.
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Cloud had settled into the spare room of Tifa's house. Jay was given his crib that Cloud had taken from his old home. Jay sat, playing with building blocks in the room as Cloud sat on the bed, a frown upon his lips as he stared out the window. He felt so empty inside. So...alone.
I wonder what Sephiroth's doing now...
He shook his head. Why was he thinking about him of all people? And why now? Cloud was missing him so badly. It hurt him to think of him. Cerulean eyes closed as he fought back tears. He needed to grow up. He needed to straighten out. If anyone saw him like this...well...who knew what would happen. Cloud layed on his back, his hand over his eyes as he allowed tears to roll down his cheeks. He heard a sturring and the sound of a rustling diaper. Something hit his thigh and he looked up. Jay was standing on his feet, his hand on Cloud's leg as he stared at him with cerulean and green eyes. A perfect color. Cloud's eyes winded. Did he walk? Did Jay actually get up and walk to him? Cloud smiled brightly, picking the boy up and setting him on his lap. He held him tightly.
"Did you just walk?"
Jay laughed, giggling and curling his fingers into Cloud's shirt. Cloud smiled, holding the boy in his lap. He smiled, setting the boy on the floor again. Jay got up, standing and walking towards the window. He placed a small, chubby hand against the window. Cloud smiled. He did walk.
I wish Sephiroth where hear to see this...
Cloud froze once more. Another thought of Sephiroth. Cloud was falling apart. He really was. He had never thought so much about the other for so long. He thought that leaving him would be so much better. But it wasn't. It was worse. Because Cloud couldn't take his mind off Sephiroth. He shook his head, trying to clear his head of the thoughts of Sephiroth. He wasn't going to let him back in his life. He couldn't. Sephiroth had cheated on him and there are never second chances. Ever. Cloud's eyes closed as he placed a hand on Jay's head. "I'm sorry."
"I wish Sephiroth were here to see this..."
I'm so sorry about the delay in this. I've been so caught up in things I kind of got lost. I'm going out with a 'bang' on this one!! What will Cloud choose? Snickers. Hope you enjoy these last chapters!