Shallow End
Author: Shadow Cloud
Title: Shallow End
Chapter: 10
The Final
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I
know the pieces fit cause I watched them fall away
Mildewed and
smoldering, fundamental differing
Pure intention juxtaposed will
set two lovers souls in motion
Disintergrating as it goes, testing
out communication
The light that fueled our fire then, has burned
a hole between us so
We cannot see to reach an end, crippling out
communication
I
know the pieces fit, cause I watched them tumble down
No fault,
none to blame it doesn't mean I don't desire to
Poing the finger,
blame the other, watch the temple topple over.
To bring the pieces
back together, rediscover communication.
Tool - Schism
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Cloud tensed, catching sight of a second Fenrir and a silver-haired figure ontop of it. His heart began beating wildly, pounding against his rib cage. It felt like it was going to explode, if he hadn't pressed his hand over it. Even when he did so, his heart continued to pound against his chest.
Cloud drew in a breath of air, holding it as he stared. Why was he here? Exactly why did Sephiroth come and what was he thinking. Nothing, probably... Cloud forced himself to relax and headed over to the front of the yard and there, sitting in the driveway, was the Ex-SOLDIER General. He paused, halfway through the lawn. He couldn't do this. He couldn't bare looking into those soft, green eyes. Well, they once were soft when he looked at Cloud. So lovingly, so... He shook his head, feeling every emotion he tried to force out rise up again and swell at the pit of his stomach. He couldn't do this. Cloud turned slowly, wanting to go back to the back yard and pretend that he'd never saw Sephiroth. But that voice, that voice was what drew him to his stop and stand as still as a statue.
"Cloud.."
Tears welded up in Cloud's eyes, body going completely numb. He wanted to collapse right then and there. He shut his eyes, allowing the tears roll down his pale, soft cheeks. A leather clad hand was placed upon his shoulder and the stiffened even more. "D--Don't touch me..." he forced the words out, because it was as if all the words that he'd ever spoken, ever known...were lodged in his throat and they didn't want to slip past his lips. It was as if he were making such a sacrafice to say such words. It was as if he were using up all the energy he'd ever had in those three words. That made Cloud even more tense, and his body become cold and numb. Like standing in cold rain for hours on end. His hands trembled, with the rest of his body and the hand that was once on his shoulder, slipped away. He bit down hard on his bottom lip.
"W--why
did you come here?"
"Cloud, please. Let me explain
myself."
"What's there to explain? You cheated on me,
remember? With one of my friends.."
"Yes. But it wasn't
intentional. I didn't mean for it to carry on."
"No?
Then why start, Seph?
Why? Do you not love me? What about Jay?"
Sephiroth was silent, he stared at Cloud for a while who didn't look at him, and if he did, he'd probably see right through him. Cloud's heart began to pound harder and he was more then certain the other could hear it because he definantly could. Sephiroth turned, facing the blond and lowering himself to the other's eye level.
"Cloud,
I do love you. I acted on impulse.."
"Impulse? You
cheated on me. You do
not get forgiven for
that.."
"I wasn't asking for forgiveness, because I knew
I wouldn't get it. I was asking for you to come back to me. I was
asking for us to be together again and I can slowly regain your
trust..."
Sephiroth placed his hand into his pocket and lifted a silver ring, Cloud's wedding ring, from is pocket. It was shiny, and the same little black stone stood in the middle. Cloud's eyes teared up even more and, with a shaky hand, he reached for it, picking it up. He wasn't sure if he should do it. He wasn't sure if he could do it. Once a cheater always a cheater...right? He closed his eyes, pressing the ring to his heart. What was he to do? What..was he going to do? He wanted to go home so badly, but then again there was the fact that Sephiroth cheated on him. No one was ever forgiven fro that. But Cloud truly loved Sephiroth, ever since he was in SOLDIER, he'd admired Sephiroth and loved him. ...Even if he did have his way with Zack and everyone else in the facility. Cloud could see why, too. But Sephiroth had chosen him, of all the people out there. Cloud, who thought he was nothing more then a face in the crowd with the same dream, same feelings as almost everyone else. But, his were so much more.. His ment something to Sephiroth. But now... now he wondered. Did they still count? He was sure of it, Sephiroth came back..
Cloud turned his head a little, but his eyes stayed on Sephiroth. He had to tell him one way or another. One way...
"I'll...I'll come home."
Sephiroth threw his arms around the blond, pulling him hard against his chest and all Cloud could do, was lift his arms arnd slip them around the silver-haired man. Cloud nuzzled into his shoulder and with a sigh, nearly passed out in Sephiroth's arms. It was so good to be back, against that warm body that kept him so close.
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Home was so different. It was cleaner then he thought it would've been and everything was exactly were it was suppose to be. He smiled, setting Jay down who padded happily around the living room. Walking, and being an evil brat. He had picked up on smacking and...hair pulling. More then he had.
Sephiroth picked him up, which was a bad thing to do because Jay reached for a lock of silver hair and attempted to eat it. But, he chuckled softly. "My hair is not for eating."
Cloud snickered, sitting on the couch. It was so good to be home, so nice to finally smell the frest scent of lemons and lavender. He looked around, noting that absolutly nothing changed. Not a thing. Nothing had been moved...nothing. This would be weird getting use to, but, he'd try it out and if the other over hurt him again, he'd KILL him.
-End
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So sorry for being SO slow about this. My life has been pretty busy lately. But, I'm glad to say that this ended! Buuuut! I don't think this is the END of Shallow End! I do believe that there's going to be a part two. Hope you liked part one!