Pairings: This chapter contains Hisagi x Hinamori, Kira x Hinamori, Ikkaku/Yumichika, Renji x Rukia, and references to: Tousen/Hisagi, Hisagi x Matsumoto and Hisagi/Kira.
Rating: M
Warnings: There is also slight OOC, strong language, strong references to sexual material, and violence. Also: BEWARE OF ERRORS!
Disclaimer: I don't own Bleach, Tite Kubo does.

"You slept with Aizen?" Hisagi asked, shock filling his voice as she said those words.

He looked away form her and tried to take in everything that she had said to him, nothing made sense anymore. He thought back to that man and thought of seeing them together. Although some said it was obvious, he never connected the dots. He was like a father to her, the relationship between her and Aizen almost resembling the relationship between him and Tousen. This was a rude awakening.

"That's like me sleeping with Tousen-san…" Hisagi almost gagged, holding back as to not offend her.

"Did you?" she asked casually.

"No… No!" he shook his head. "Oh my God… Aizen?"

She nodded. "Aizen…"

"Aizen?" he shook his head. "I'm so glad you told me this before I slept with you…"

"Thanks for being mature about this," she scoffed.

"I'm sorry," he apologized as he watched as she stood up and start to walk to the door. "This is a lot for me to take in though. This man, he used you, manipulated you, and the only reason why you stood by him was because you thought you were in love with him? That's a lot to swallow…"

She turned around to look at him; there was no real disgust in his eyes, only confusion. Everything that she had said gave her a different reaction than she thought she would have, she thought that he'd turn away from her in disgust after hearing that, but still he sat there with that sympathetic look in his eyes. She knew that's why she loved him, no matter what she said, he never judged her, never held a grudge, he was always open with her. That in mind, she moved back to sit next to him again.

"Well I haven't heard of anyone you slept with… or are you a virgin?" Hinamori smiled.

"I'm not a virgin, that's for sure…" he answered with a nervous laugh.

"I knew you weren't. Abarai-kun said that you slept with Rangiku-san."

"Rangiku-san?" he asked with a laugh. "No… Rangiku-san in like a big sister to everyone, you don't sleep with your sister."

"Why didn't you sleep with Tousen?"

"You don't sleep with your father…"

"Kira?"

"You don't sleep with your best friend."

"Then who did you sleep with?" she asked. "I've eliminated half of the whole Soul Society…"

"You've only said three people…" he laughed. "That's not half, that's hardly a fraction…"

"Well do we have to sit here and no through every single person in the whole Soul Society?" she giggled as she watched his smile face. "You're just so mysterious; you were when I first met you too…"

"You remember that day?" he asked.

"I remember, everyone was talking about you. You were such a huge deal to all of the first years…" she smiled watching him gently bite his lip in embarrassment. "I thought you were special too… you were so…"

"Attractive?" he asked a small laugh coming from his lips. "It's okay, you can say it, I was attractive, everyone thought so. That was until…"

"The scars?" she asked, she didn't even need a moment to think about it, she knew what he was referring to. "I think they add character…"

"Yeah, character… if character means almost getting killed then I've got lots of character all over my body," he closed his eyes as the smile returned to his face. "If it weren't for you I'd probably be dead…"

She sighed as he took a deep breath. "I did think you were attractive… I still do."

"I still get that a lot," he chuckled as he looked away from her. "I hear how Rangiku-san talks about me, it's no wonder you all thought that we were together… but she's always been in love with Ichimaru, there's nothing that's going to tear those two apart."

"I've always envied Rangiku-san; she has someone who loves her so much. Even when I thought that he didn't, he still does. It's amazing how strong love is," Hinamori sighed as she closed her eyes. "It can even survive war…"

She felt a hand on her shoulder as Hisagi moved closer to her, her heart stopping in her chest. Everything that she had ever thought she wanted, everything that she ever thought that she needed she received when she got into that cell with Hisagi. And even when released she knew this was what she had always dreamed of. She had found a love that had finally matured into something unbreakable, a love that was going to stand up for her no matter what. She found someone who was a stronger person than Aizen. She found her Ichimaru Gin.

"I guess you'll just have to settle with me," he whispered as she felt her breathing become deeper and harsh. "I may not be what you asked for…"

"You are," she smiled as she moved to kiss his lips lightly. "You're so much more…"

She then moved in for another kiss, yet this kiss was different than the ones that they had shared before, it was the hungriest kiss that they had ever experienced. Moans bubbled from Hinamori's throat as Hisagi nibbled lightly on her lower lip, tears forming in her eyes as her hands moved to press on his shoulder blades, her fingernails digging deep into his haori. She never felt anything like this before, not even from Aizen. Aizen was different from what she thought, everything that they did was quick and detached, no emotion was ever added that didn't need to be. Every kiss with Kira was far too innocent and lifeless that there was nothing there either. Hisagi was different, it lit up her body in a blaze of emotion that she never thought she would experience or deserve. But as she felt his body so close to hers, she knew that she was wrong.

He fingers moved to pull the haori off of his body, his appearance looking like the lieutenant that she had fallen in love with. Her hands wrapped around his bare arms as more moans passed her lips, muffled by the pressure from his kisses. She closed her eyes tighter as her fingernails dug into his skin, hearing a slight wince from him. Yet her body was no longer listening to her as it had become stiff, only giving into the pleasure that it needed. Kira was as good as dead in her mind. Her fingers slipped to start to undo his keikogi, his lips leaving hers as he closed his eyes and shook his head.

He backed away from her, almost breathlessly. "I can't do this…"

"It's okay… I want you to…" she begged as she pulled him back.

"I can't," he panted.

"Kira?" she rolled her eyes at that name. "Is it because of Kira?"

"No," he shook his head as he tried to catch his breath. "It's not because of Kira, it's…"

"Aizen?" she asked as she tried to push him away only to have him not move an inch, her heart stopping as he shook his head again. "Than what is it?"

"The timing…" he finished as he backed away from her. "I mean I just got out of the hospital a week ago… don't you think it's a little too fast?"

She was surprised to hear it wasn't something that he would usually say; he said nothing about it being Kira. Timing? She never thought of something that was as mundane as timing. She looked into his eyes and saw the concern of what he was saying. He thought he was rushing her.

"What's the rush?" he asked.

"There is no rush I guess…" she breathed as she straightened her hair out. "I just… I really want you…"

He blushed at that. "I don't know if that's a compliment or an insult…"

"Compliment," she smiled as she looked at him. "Never take what I say as an insult, Hisagi Shuuhei."

He looked out the window and took a deep breath. "I haven't done this in a while…" he closed his eyes. "Not since I became a lieutenant. I got so caught up in the responsibilities and the work that everything else was thrown away."

"A man who loves work," Hinamori smiled. "I guess when Tousen went away you thought you were never going to have a life of your own again. And now that you're a captain…"

Hisagi looked as he watching her run her hands through her hair. "I never thought I would become a captain. And at the end of the last war… I thought I was a dead man for sure…"

Hinamori closed her eyes. "I thought you were too… I never thought I would have to depend on Aizen again after you broke me out of my trance. But he's the only thing that's keeping you alive right now."

Hisagi nodded. "It's not that bad, you get used to it. I mean Kurotsuchi and Zaraki hate me for it, but they hated me to begin with anyway…"

"I don't hate you…"

"You loved Aizen…"

"I love you more," she breathed as she placed her hand up against his arm, wrapping her fingers around it gently. "Nothing is going to stop that… I promise you…"

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Rukia walked away from the 13th Division without saying a word to Renji, walking as fast as she possibly could to a place where she could finally get some insight as to what was going on with her. She walked back and forth until a voice called out to her, taking her attention off of the road.

"What are you doing out here, Kuchiki?" she turned to look straight at the man who was speaking to her, everything stopping as she realized who it was.

"Ukitake-soutaichou?" she asked as she turned to face him. "What are you doing out here?"

"Just checking up on how all of the divisions are doing," he knew her better than that; Rukia always had a way to know exactly what her captain was doing. "You probably have heard the rumors that a war is about to break out… that's what I'm doing, seeing who is the most suitable to lead the troops into Hueco Mundo…"

"War?" Rukia asked as she looked at her captain. "Will the 13th Division go?"

"They might, Renji-kun is a very skilled fighter and leader, I have been considering him for a while to lead troops if war was ever to break out. Of course you would stay here… after what happened to you and your unborn child I couldn't…"

"Wait!" Rukia interrupted. "How do you know about that?"

"I'm the soutaichou, everything comes to me," he answered with a slight smile. "I know the pain that you're going through…"

"No you don't," Rukia bowed her head. "I can't do anything right for Renji anymore… there's nothing here for him. I look at him and I see someone, he's an amazing man and I'm just a weak woman who can't do anything for him. He's wasting his time…"

Ukitake sighed. "Kuchiki…"

"I watched Matsumoto-san for a while today. She looked so happy, so full. She's a strong woman. She is strong enough for Ichimaru to have forever. I can't be like that… I can't be strong… I can't be anything…" she bowed her head as tears started to fall. "I'm nothing…"

A warm hand touched her shoulder, the tears stopping as it did so. Everything was starting to fade away as she remembered that touch. Her captain was always there before to clear some of the cobwebs that plagued her soul when everyone else had given up on her. She closed her eyes tighter as she could feel that smile on his face. She could no longer cry.

"You're something, Kuchiki…" Ukitake breathed. "You're always going to be something…"

She moved to embrace her captain, feeling his arms return the embrace, all of the emotions in her body flowing out of her at that moment, tears falling uncontrollably. She closed her eyes as her hands tightened on his haori, feeling one of his hands moving to stroke her dark hair, trying his hardest to console her. There was no hope. She was inconsolable.

The more she thought about it, the more that it hurt her. Renji was a good man, Renji was her everything. All of her life, Renji had been thinking that he was never going to be good enough from her, and after her rise to nobility he didn't even have the confidence to talk to her. He was always the one who thought that he had to change, even now he was always trying to be the best man that he could be for her. He didn't have to try. He was the best man that she'll ever know for her. She was the one who was weak.

She had closed his out of her life all of those months when she was unknowingly pregnant, and she wished that she hadn't been. To not have him close to her for all of those months when she was still worthy now brought tears to her eyes. Now she could never go back, there was no more hope for them as a pair. His touched burned at her worthless skin, her lips killing him softly with her poison. She was never going to be worthy to even look at him again. She was nothing more than a silly woman now.

"Have you talked to him about this?" Ukitake asked as he continued to stroke her hair.

"I can't…" she breathed as she closed her eyes. "How can I?"

"He needs to know about what you're going through, Kuchiki. Abarai-kun is your fiancé," his words moved her if only a little.

"He'll hate me…"

"The wound will only be worse if you wait," Ukitake continued as he held at her closely. "We can talk more about this at the 1st Division…"

She followed Ukitake to his division, trying to avoid the 13th Division at all costs. There was nothing there for her but a captain who had nothing more than a weak woman for a lieutenant and fiancée. He could do so much better than her, and this was her chance to see if that's what she wanted him to do.

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Renji closed his eyes tightly as he sat in the corner on the floor of the 13th Division. He still couldn't understand what had happened to them. He tried his hardest to stop any sign of tears in his eyes as he thought about this. Abarai Renji didn't cry, he was too strong to do that. After all of the times he had given Kira a hard time for crying, he wasn't allowed to do it. As a single tear fell down his cheek he knew it was no use, his heartbreak was stronger than his pride.

"Renji…" a voice called out as the 13th Division captain looked up.

"Byakuya?" he asked. "What are you doing here?"

Kuchiki walked toward Renji, looking at him on the floor. "Look at you… what a mess you've become."

"Thanks," Renji answered, sarcasm thick in his voice. "You always did have a way of making me feel better…"

Kuchiki sighed as he moved to kneel on the floor next to Renji. Renji couldn't help but smile as the way that the Head of the Kuchiki Clan knelt on the floor, still trying his hardest to look pristine and proper. The silence filled the air, the only sound filling the atmosphere was the sighing of Kuchiki Byakuya.

"Do you do this all day?" the 6th Division captain asked.

"Lately," Renji breathed. "But usually with a little more booze…"

"Booze?" Kuchiki asked.

"Alcohol…"

"I know what booze is…" Kuchiki answered, slightly annoyed. "You're going to marry a Kuchiki and you just sit on the floor all day and drink… booze?"

"No," Renji answered. "Because I don't think I'm marrying a Kuchiki anymore," he looked at the confused look on his former captain's face. "Your sister hasn't spoken to me since she got out of the 4th Division, what am I supposed to think?"

"Ignoring you?" Kuchiki asked.

Renji closed his eyes tightly as he remembered that Kuchiki as in the room first. His heart stopped as he realized that Rukia might have told her brother something that she didn't tell him. His attention turned to Kuchiki Byakuya.

"Do you know anything about what's going on?" he asked, hoping to get some answers. "Did she tell you anything?"

"I know nothing more than you do…" Kuchiki answered, closing his eyes. "But I'll see if I can find anything else out for you…"

Renji closed his eyes as he smiled. "Thank you…"

0o0o0o0o0o0

Ikkaku walked into the 6th Division again. Everyday that went by; there wasn't a day when he didn't think about his former best friend. The day when Zaraki let him go was sill fresh in Ikkaku's mind, nothing of the moment ever going to leave him. He needed to get close to him again; it was like an itch that he knew he would never be able to get rid of unless he scratched it.

As he walked through the 6th Division, he saw some of them members look at him strangely as he moved closer to the office. He ignored all of them as he kept on his path. He knew that Kuchiki was gone, seeing him on his way to the 13th Division earlier, everything was going his way. He pressed his hand up against the door, only to have it not open.

"Go away, Ikkaku!" Yumichika called out.

"You called me Ikkaku," Ikkaku smiled. "You don't know how happy that makes me…"

"Go away!" Yumichika repeated again.

"Just let me in…" Ikkaku begged as he leaned up against the door.

"No," Yumichika answered.

"Alright," Ikkaku sighed. "But I'm not going to leave until you do."

Yumichika's frustration was obvious in his voice. "Why don't you just go away, Ikkaku?"

"You know I can't do that," Ikkaku ran his hand along the door, knowing that Yumichika was right behind it. "I don't want you to go away…"

"Where was that when I got kicked out?"

"I was scared," Ikkaku bowed his head.

"Bullshit, Ikkaku. You don't get scared of anything. Nice try," Yumicihka scoffed. "I just wanted for one moment to see you stick up for me. I wanted you to show that you actually care for me. I wanted to see you finally make it obvious that I'm not just your wing-man."

"You're not my wing-man," Ikkaku explained as he lowered his voice. "You're so much more than that…"

Ikkaku closed his eyes as he heard Yumichika speak again, his heart melting every time the man talked to him. Just one word, one utterance was enough to remind him of what he had thrown away. He touched the door harder as he closed his eyes. He couldn't let this go, even now as his fingers touched the wood, he was holding onto it as tightly as he could.

"I don't want you in my life anymore…" Yumichika breathed. "I can't let myself go through that pain again. I can't play your game anymore. You go off and do whatever you want while I'm just supposed to support everything you do and forgive you when you do something that I never wanted you to do. I don't want to be a piece in your game…"

"Well it shocked me that you don't have a direct attack zanpakutou," Ikkaku breathed. "But it doesn't matter to me…"

"Yes it does…" Yumichika breathed, his voice starting to break. "You're disgusted with me…"

Ikkaku's heart broke as he heard his friend's voice break. "I don't think you're disgusting," he answered softly. "You're still the same Yumichika…"

"Aren't you supposed to hate other divisions? You are in the 11th Division after all…" Yumichika whimpered. "Aren't you supposed to leave me alone? Stop torturing me…?"

"Torturing you?" Ikkaku asked.

"It doesn't matter anymore… but once upon a time, I had feelings for you," Yumichika's voice breaking as tears starting to roll down his cheeks. "I wanted to be by your side forever… but that day… that moment… that instant when you just stood there my heart was shattered. I was falling in love with you…"

Ikkaku's breath stopped as he heard those words. "What?"

"I was falling in love with you, Ikkaku…" Yumichika placed his weight against the door as Ikkaku heard the sound. "But I made a mistake…"

"Yumichika!" Ikkaku yelled as he knocked on the door.

"Don't ever talk to me again…" Yumichika whispered as he moved away from the door.

"Yumichika!" Ikkaku knocked fiercely on the door, his voice breaking with desperation. "Yumichika! Please open the door! Open the door!" he heard Yumichika crying on the other side of the door. "Yumichika! Yumichika!" his knocking slowed down as his energy started to deplete. "Y-Yumi… ch-chika…" he fell along the door. "Please…"

He knew that the door was never meant to be opened. He was meant to sit outside of the office for an eternity. But as he heard those tears within the office, he felt his own stone heart start to melt. Madarame Ikkaku never thought that he would ever feel like this: helpless, hopeless, and empty. As he looked at the door, it had all become obvious, all of the feelings in his body merging to form one thought- one statement.

"I love you too, Yumichika," he whispered as he heard the crying grow louder. "I love you too…"

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Hisagi walked by the 3rd Division, his heart starting to sink as he thought about what he had been doing to the captain of that said building. That man, that was a man that he had one called his best friend. They used to share everything with one another, there were no secrets, there were no doubts, but as Hinamori got into the equation, everything that they had together was destroyed.

Kira and he were always going to be friends, that's what they thought, but now Hisagi knew that dream was never to be, he had wronged him far too much. He started to walk past the building before the thoughts destroyed his sanity. That was until a voice called out to him.

"Hey Hisagi-san," it was Kira. "Where are you off to?"

"Just walking," Hisagi answered.

"Walking," Kira breathed as he walked down the stairs to Hisagi. "Walking is nice isn't it?"

Hisagi nodded. "I guess so…"

"I wonder if walking would be as fun if I break your legs right here." Kira asked as he moved closer to Hisagi.

Kira's hand made contact with Hisagi's neck, pulling him harshly, his body falling onto the stairs. Kira's strength pushed at him harshly as breath started to cease from his lungs, the 3rd Division captain's hand cutting off his supply. He looked into his best friend's eyes and saw something completely different, something that he thought that he would never see within him. Rage and disgust filled his eyes as he pushed Hisagi deeper.

"What game are you trying to play? What the hell are you trying to do?" Kira growled as he pushed Hisagi deeper. "Are you trying to make me miserable because you're jealous that I became a captain before you?"

Hisagi gagged as his vision started to cloud, Kira's words starting to become faint as his consciousness was fleeting. He weakly moved a hand to Kira's wrist as to try to push him off.

"I thought I could trust you, but I know what you're doing now! I know what you're doing! And it's got to stop…" Kira hissed venomously. "What? Did you think I was going to lash out at her? Get real! I can still make things work out with her! I can still get her to love me…"

Hisagi coughed again as his body started to shake in pain, water rolling down his cheeks.

"I will never forgive you if you touch her again…" Kira growled harshly as he pushed Hisagi deeper into the stairs. "I will never forgive you…" tears rolled down Kira's cheeks as his hand shook up against Hisagi's neck. "Touch her and I'll cut that bastard's heart right out of your chest!"

He released Hisagi's neck as Hisagi started to cough, clutching his neck as he remained laying on the 3rd Division steps. His eyes continued to water as he gasped for air, his body still shaking in pain as he looked up at Kira.

"You've lost your mind!" Hisagi winced.

Kira started to walk back into the division. "You better be gone by the time I get back out here…"

Hisagi closed his eyes as he tried to catch his breath, feeling the pressure of Kira's hand still on his neck. Was Hinamori worth this? Was this all worth all of the pain that he had gone through. It was worse that hate, it was worse that him being angry. He was now getting death threats from Kira. Tears rolled down his cheeks as he tried to take this all in. Nothing was worth it anymore.

This chapter really was to heat up the feud between Hisagi and Kira and there will be actions taken that aren't necessarily mature or intelligent, but hey, when men fight over a girl does anything really make sense? I also wanted to create more tension between Rukia and Renji, this is going to come up A LOT! And the Yumichika and Ikkaku relationship is going to be more important as this goes on as well.

The next chapter is going to be VERY dramatic.

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