Chapter 1. Crushcrushcrush

Bella's voice rang through Edward's basement as she finished the song, "That never happens, I guess I'm dreaming again. Lets be more than, more than this, whoa, mmmmm." They all smiled as they finished 'Crushcrushcrush', their new song, perfectly for the first time.

"This is my favorite one yet." Alice chirped as she sat down her bass.

Emmett laughed in agreement and Jasper nodded. Bella just shrugged her shoulders. All the songs she wrote were the same to her. They were just words on a paper. They didn't mean anything. It was what she actually said that mattered.

Alice linked her arm with Bella's and smiled. "What are you doing tonight Bella?" She asked.

Once again, Bella shrugged. She wasn't one to date. She was one of the most popular girls in school but she just pretty much kept to herself since her boyfriend James had broken up with her three months before and she had been a wreck afterward.

"Well, Edward has a date so you will be all alone at your house and I was thinking that you could come double with me."

Bella looked at Alice like she was crazy, which was very likely. "Um, with who?"

"Well, the guys' cousin, Jacob Black is coming to visit for a week. And I've seen him and if I weren't dating Jasper I would totally be with him. He is smoking hot." She looked at Bella with her well-known pleading look.

Bella thought about it for a moment. She guessed she could use a little fun. She smiled and nodded and immediately Alice squealed and ran off to tell Jasper.

-0-0-

Bella heard the doorbell ring and she raced down the stairs to get the door. She hadn't been on a date in three months and her hands were shaking she was so nervous.

Bella opened the door to see Alice standing there in a short mini skirt and a gray Hollister polo. Alice examined Bella; she was wearing gray skinny jeans, an All Time Low band T-shirt from Hot Topic, and her lime green high tops.

Alice shook her head. "I expected you to dress a little nice."

Bella smiled and Alice sighed. Bella found Alice's disapproval hysterical.

"Alice, you know me and you know that I would never dress up for a boy." Alice rolled her eyes and grabbed Bella's hand. She led them to the car where Jasper and Jacob were waiting.

The moment Jacob saw Bella Swan coming down the sidewalk toward the car he gasped. She was even more beautiful than he had imagined. Her eyes sparkled in the light of the sunset and when she smiled the whole world stood still.

For some reason being around Bella made people feel happy. Her eyes had a power on people that made them feel important. But her life was far from perfect. Her life was probably worse than any one of her friends could imagine.

"Um, hi, I'm Jake." Jacob smiled wide and shook Bella's hand lightly. She didn't look him in the eye, afraid of what he might see in her.

"I'm Bella." She said quietly. She didn't feel comfortable about people she didn't really know. She had had experiences in her life that told her whole body not to trust anyone.

Pregnant pause.

"So, where do you guys want to go?" Jasper asked, breaking the awkward silence.

Bella and Alice shrugged at the same time, but Jake had and idea. "How about we go to the beach up at the La Push rez. My old best friend Embry lives up there. You girls just need to get your swimsuits. It is August. You only have limited time to wear a bikini."

Alice and Bella laughed and nodded. "Can I borrow one of yours Bella?" Bella nodded once more and they ran back up to Bella's house to change.

-0-0-

When they arrived at the beach Bella jumped out of Alice's Porsche before she had stopped the engine. She hadn't been to the beach in years and she could wait to feel the water up to her waist. She wore a red strapless bikini and Alice wore the same in pink with rhinestones on the top.

"Oh, my God. I haven't been in the water in years." Alice squealed in excitement as she grabbed Bella's hand and ran into the water.

"Years?" Jacob asked with a mocking tone as he slowed strolled down the sand toward the ocean.

"I didn't want to mess up my hair when it was longer. It took way too long to blow dry." She said innocently with her lips puckered like a child getting a scolding.

Bella laughed but Jacob and Jasper just rolled their eyes.

"Yes of course that makes since Alice. Just sacrifice all the good things in your life so that your hair could stay dry. That is such a great way to live." Bella mocked sarcastically.

Alice glared at Bella playfully.

When Bella saw Alice's face she smirked evilly and splashed Alice in a big wave. Alice made a surprised face and did the same to Bella. And before they knew it they were actually having fun and Bella realized that Jacob was just the guy she was looking for.

Next Chapter: Bella did not smile. She did not rush over to grab a seat. She walked slowly to the table and sat down hesitantly. She wasn't going to eat lunch for the third day in a row because she knew what would happen if she gained any weight even though she was already down to a size zero.