A/N
WOW!! I love you all so much. I was hoping for 40 reviews and I
got (drum roll please) 64! 24 more than I expected you are all so
awesome. I have been told not to apologize
for my age. So I am not sorry that I am 14, I've also been told to
say it needs work to be better not it's not good. Hope that pleased
you, Kuanta. Now, I didn't realize this till someone mentioned it
by Jacob's hot body I meant temperature wise not to do with looks.
But Taylor Launter is pretty amazingly HOT. Also I got wondering:
Do
you want Edward to come back?
Are you team Edward or team
Jacob?
Would you hate me if I brought Edward back?
I think my
decision is pretty much made and I'm not giving anything away but I
really want to know what you think. Please say in your reviews.
I hope this chapter is more spaced out. I've been trying to make my chapters longer but I always get to a really good place to stop, I hope you're not finding them too short. I will have a lot of chapters so it should be okay. Plus it takes me ages to write them so if they were longer than you would have to wait more. I'm sure you don't want that so far I have been managing a chapter a night.
Let's try and get … 80 reviews, is that too
ambitious?
And for the couple of people who want me to write my
own story I will but my mind is blank, I'm busy with this anyway.
Though I do have one very bad idea which has been done a thousand
times before but I thought I could make it my own. What do you ask?
Well I was thinking of a student- teacher affair. Rubbish right? But I thought I could make it interesting, probably not. What do you think, review review review! By the way I have a cold, sore throat, headache and runny nose so you should be happy getting this chapter so soon because all I want to do right now is curl up in my duvet. If there are gaps where the story doesn't really flow (I hope there isn't) It means I sneezed.
Also you know the song Love Story sung by Taylor Swift well I
thought this one line went really well with New Moon. It is…
Romeo
save me I've been feeling so alone. I keep waiting for you but you
never come. Do you agree? Remember review.
I really should plan this chapter out but I'm not really sure where it's going. I will tell you when I get there. Anyway getting on with our story here is chapter 4.
Chapter
4:
Unwanted
Bella's POV
His hot body made me feel uncomfortable, I
couldn't stand it I wanted him,
his cold
and Jacob's heat just reminded me of it.
"Shh… baby"
I
wondered what he was on about until I realized that I was sobbing
into his chest. He scooped me up and ran home. The last thing I
remember was him placing me in our bed.
***
"Bella
baby, are you okay?"
I sat upright, looking in his eyes I saw
everything… he wanted the baby he hated how I hated it inside of
me. Right, then and there I hated myself so much.
"JJ-Jake, Jake"
The tears came streaming down my face once more. He held me but I think it was more for his benefit then mine. I hated all of this; I was hurting him all the time because I couldn't get over him. No matter how much I tried I still loved him and nobody not even Jacob could ever change that. I wish I could love only Jacob but I couldn't, I was the reason for Jacob's pain. Sometimes I wished Jacob would imprint because then he would be truly happy, I didn't deserve him. I didn't deserve his baby; it deserved a better mum than me a mum that wanted it.
"Jake,
I-I'm sorry."
My pathetic apology for all his pain was
unworthy.
"Bella" he paused for a breath, I couldn't read
his face I didn't have any idea what was coming.
" Bella" he
stroked my hair lovingly "I know you want an abortion"
His
words hit me like a thousand daggers, I had never even thought about
an abortion. How dare he even suggest something like that? Killing a
poor innocent baby was uncalled for (in my situation); even though I
didn't want it, it didn't mean it had to die. It was my fault, I
should have been on the pill but it just never crossed my mind.
I was absolutely furious at him for even suggesting something like that. He obviously read my expression.
"Bella, I just
thought that seeing as you don't want it that you would… you
know"
His soft brown eyes stared at me apologetically, all my
sympathy and hatred for myself rushed back.
"Jake, I don't I wouldn't"
I thought I saw a smile on his face, he had
interpreted my words incorrectly I meant I didn't want an abortion.
He thought I meant I wanted his baby. I didn't.
I loved him but
loving his child was something I couldn't bring myself to do. I had
to put him straight, if only I hadn't.
"Jake, I didn't mean I wanted it" I paused thinking of how I could explain myself without hurting him but before I got the chance he was out of there probably running through the forest somewhere. I crumpled on the floor, no tears came I was all cried out. I laid there distraught, I was the reason for Jacob's pain his sorrow; I had confirmed his worst nightmare. I was a terrible person.
Jacob's POV
I
thought I was being silly but she really didn't want my child, she
loathed it. I thought I was being ridiculous but I didn't know how
right I was. I couldn't stand to be there while she told me how
much she hated it I ran through the back door pulling off my sweats
phasing.
The whole pack then saw our conversation.
Go back to her Jacob you can't leave her like that
It's not fair on her Jake.
Leave me alone I need some time to think.
I couldn't deal with all there judgements so I phased back. Pulling on my sweats I walked back towards the house .I got into the rabbit and drove off on my way to nowhere but then I passed a children's playground. I couldn't help myself I looked right to see a small Quileute child playing on a swing. A tear escaped my eye.
Wow
I really didn't expect that!
Did you like it?
Was it
okay?
Spaced out?
Did you think, Jacob would have cried I
wasn't sure about that?
Was I being to girly by making Jacob
cry?
Best chapter yet?
What's your favourite chapter, so
far?
I will try to write the next chapter as soon as I can but I
have a LOT of homework, if it takes some time you can blame my
teachers.
Also
I would just like to say that that wasn't my view on abortion
sometimes there is no other option, I just thought that that's what
Bella would think about it.
