HnH: Before 20? Okay, I can do that. I'll make it 20 by babyangelwintergirl's request. Thanks to her, kingdomfantasyanime453(thanks a lot!),lenne291, and myxbeautifulxlove! I'll TRY to make it 20, anyways...if I make this one 20...I have to make the next one 34...-speculates about nonsense-

Roxas: -is on the edge of his seat right along with myxbeautifulxlove- AM I GOING TO DIE?

Naminé: Will Roxas somehow turn into Reno? -wishful thinking-

Roxas: -points to handbook- By rules and regulations, Naminé, HnH can't make me into that IDIOTIC, HIDEOUS MONSTROSITY unless she is Tetsuya Nomura or another part of Disney/ Square Enix staff that has the authority to DO SO!

Angels In Flight

Chapter 6: Imagine a Life Without Love

(Naminé's POV)

After what seemed like forever,(I could've sworn someone had entered the room a couple of times, but I didn't dare find out) silence began to drape over the place. Was it over? I didn't hear any footsteps, so I decided it would be okay just to take a little-

Crash. Since the closet had those little slits, I could see through the spaces. The thing that had made that noise was the door breaking open. Well, it was actually Roxas getting thrown into the door with such force that it must have made it break open. I bit my lip to keep myself from saying anything. I had to stay in my hiding spot.

Then, another figure stepped in the room. I tried to see who it was, but I couldn't see his face. It looked like Seifer! "Tell me where she is." It was Seifer! I can't believe he...I wish I could've just kicked him in the face right about now, but I knew better than to give away my location. Roxas shook his head and got up.

"No." He said, still wielding only Oblivion. I frowned. I knew how much damage the Gunblade could do, I just hoped Roxas would be smart enough to know, too. Seifer pointed the gunblade at Roxas and narrowed his eyes.

"Tell me or you die." Seifer commanded, rushing forward with the gunblade ready. Roxas dodged, and used his keyblade to sweep his legs out under him, so Seifer was now on the floor.

"She'll never forgive you if you kill me. She'll hate you for the rest of your, and her, life." Then, he bent down and whispered something that couldn't quite reach my ears. Then, he stood up and backed away. "You certainly wouldn't want that, would you?" Seifer immediately rose and slashed Roxas across the chest with it.

"I don't care about her feelings. She doesn't even care about me, so why should I care about who she loves?" Seifer yelled. I was confused with who they were talking about. It was probably Umiri, since I knew that he didn't like her at all. "At least I won't break her heart, like I know you will to Naminé." He smiled, and Roxas tensed up.

"What do you mean? I..." Why was he pausing? He knew I was in the room, so maybe that was why? However, Seifer I knew did not know I was in here. "I would never break her heart! I don't know about you, Seifer, but I don't enjoy toying with girls' feelings. Just because you-" Roxas didn't finish his sentence before Seifer came charging at him again.

"SHUT UP!" He roared, plunging the Gunblade - right in Roxas' heart! I gasped. There was no way he'd live through that!

"ROXAS!" I yelled, opening the closest and running over to him. Seifer snickered and grabbed my arm so I couldn't check to make sure that he was actually alive. "Let me go!" I yelled, but his grip just tightened. I struggled and struggled, I would not go out without a fight. Just as Seifer was about to open the door, the Oblivion struck the back of his head. "Roxas?" I asked hopefully, looking in the direction the keyblade was returning to. Indeed, it was him! Seifer looked surprised.

"How did you survive? You don't even look like you've taken a hit!" He pointed out, and it was true. Roxas was wielding both Kingdom Key and Oblivion, and he was wearing a yellow Organization Cloak with a different colored cross(or 'x' shapes) design along the hem, the sleeves and from what I could see, the hood. Also near the neckline there were 'x' shapes. What I really noted was that he not only was wielding the Oblivion telekinetically, but there were no visible scratches or anything on him. No wounds. Nothing. Roxas smirked and stepped to the side.

"You see, Seifer, you forgot one VERY important thing about me - I control the element of light." I guess I should've said that it was not uncommon back then to have powers like that. It came as no surprise to me that he had a power such as that, but what was a shock was that he had control of an element like light. I bet the other Organization controlled other elements, too. I should've mentioned that the Tsugare Kingdom is notorious for our 'weird' powers that other Kingdoms lack. "What I did was I killed a soldier, then altered the light coloring around him to make him look like me. I was sitting on top of the beam there and putting my otherwise useless ventriloquy skills to use." He pointed out the strings on the soldier, then the beam.

Seifer just tightened his grip on my arm, and I whimpered again. His grip was so tight, it was really starting to hurt. "Please, Seifer, let go of me...you're starting to hurt me." I begged, hoping he would just leave me alone! He shook his head and used his other hand to shove me behind him, rather roughly, so I fell to my knees. He let go of my arm as his Hyperion(I heard him bragging about the model name of his gunblade one day) appeared in his hands.

"Okay, Roxas. You wanna dance? Well, let's just see how better you've gotten at the waltz!" He shouted. I made sure I was out of the way of their fighting, I didn't want to get in the way. The Hyperion and the Kingdom Key met as Roxas made the Oblivion...disappear? Whatever the case, he was still in his yellow outfit, now only wielding the Kingdom Key.

"I just hope you know how to tango, Seifer!" Roxas shouted. I mentally jumped up and down and(mentally) started to cheer. They both jumped backwards and then rushed towards each other. Seifer slashed at Roxas, but he ducked, and used the Kingdom Key to bring Seifer down to the ground. However, before Seifer actually hit the ground, Roxas hit him with such force I could've sworn the floor almost cracked. Almost.

Seifer quickly returned the favor by swiftly popping up and sending his elbow into Roxas' jaw. I didn't make a noise because I knew that I would distract them, so I mentally imaged the fight that was going on and me on the sidelines cheering my head off. I tried not to image the sickening crack that went along with his blow, though. Seifer jumped back again, Roxas taking time to crack his jaw back in place. Maybe he was double-jointed in that area?

Now Roxas got the upper hand as he ran towards Seifer, jumping up so he would miss the hit aimed for him, and Roxas struck him in the ribs diagonally upwards so it sent Seifer flying. Roxas kept up with him, though, as he aimed the Kingdom Key for Seifer's shoulder, then sent him downwards. Oblivion made it's appearance by hitting his ribs again. Then, Roxas handled both of them as he made two diagonal slashes which sent Seifer into the floor. Now it cracked.

However, as Roxas came down ready to bring the keyblades right down on him, Seifer popped up again and slammed the gunblade into Roxas' shoulder, sending him right into the closet I had previously been in. "Looks I'm a step ahead, eh, Roxas?" He asked, laughing. "If you get down and beg, I'll just take Naminé and let you live...maybe." Seifer was too busy taunting that he never noticed him quickly run behind him. As he brought down both keyblades, Seifer whipped around and brought his gunblade up with such force it knocked away both of them. "What're you gonna do now? Game over, loser."

"Always have to have a back-up plan, Seifer." Roxas smiled, holding out his hands as they both came back to him. Roxas was just so cool! I bet Seifer didn't have a back-up plan! They both jumped back. Seifer held out his gunblade as the first part of the compound weapon began to take place. The 'gun' part. He shot those little homing shots of fire at Roxas, who tried to dodge them all, but got singed once or twice.

Then, when the last shot of fire raced towards him, he held up Kingdom Key and it...absorbed it? Well, it did, and the originally silver keyblade got tinted red. Roxas pointed it at Seifer. "Firaga!" He shouted, the blast coming back at Seifer ten times bigger than the blast had originally been. The Key went back to it's original color as Seifer(somehow) dodged it. Now the wall had a giant hole burned in it.

"I'm tired of this." Seifer said, and gained an evil glint in his eye as he held out the gunblade. "Time for my finishing move!" Roxas got ready. I saw him tense up. It was like a big gamble. All or nothing. But what happened next surprised me. Seifer ran behind me and placed the gunblade to my neck. I was about to shout something, but I knew better than not to move because I didn't want my old wound to open up again.

"Coward." Roxas said, glaring at him. I looked at him pleadingly, begging him to just hit Seifer over the head or something. But I knew he couldn't do anything or else he risked hurting me. But I believed in Roxas. I thought he was perfect. I thought he could do anything...then, the realization dawned on me. I depended too heavily on him. I wanted to get out of my situation myself to show him that I could actually do something on my own.

"Seifer..."I grabbed onto the arm that he had wrapped around my waist. How DARE he even TOUCH my waist! He had some nerve, you know that? Seifer didn't answer, I assumed he was waiting for some words of praise or a victory kiss or something. With all the strength I had, I pried his arm off of me, then bent it as backwards as I could with one hand. With the other, I tried to knock away the Hyperion as I twisted around and kneed him in the stomach as hard as I possibly could. "...Don't ever try to hurt Roxas ever again!" I finished. In reality, the move I had just performed took less than five seconds.

Roxas grabbed my arm(very gently, as if he were grasping a million dollar fragile doll) and(also very gently) pushed me behind him. "Naminé, stay back. I don't want you to get hurt." I smiled. It made me feel so important when he wanted to protect me. Not anyone else, just me. Imagine a Life Without Love...that life must be so sad, lonely, and untrustworthy. Maybe that was why Seifer was so stuck-up. Maybe he just wanted attention because he wasn't loved. Maybe, just maybe...

What broke my thoughts was Seifer's maniacal laughter. "Oh, this is just too good. I hope you BOTH know I can kill Roxas just like that." He snapped his fingers. He was really aiming what he said at me, not Roxas. "Ever wonder how the Organization disappeared? Well, that was my doing." He held out a round object and when he flipped the top of it, it had a mirror with a gray arc over it, so it kind of looked like a gateway to something. Of course, the object itself was no bigger than the palm of Seifer's hand. "The Eien no Tobira - The Gateway to Forever. If the user is able to unlock it's full potential, it can trap anyone inside this mirror right here, inside the Eien no Tobira."

"The Eien no Tobira is a forbidden artifact - no one's allowed to use it, Seifer! It's dangerous! You could lose your life!" I shouted. The two sacred relics of the Tsugare Kingdom, The Towa no Shirube and the Eien no Tobira. Or, otherwise known as the Guide to Eternity and the Gateway to Forever. In the middle of Elle Ciel(well, somewhere inside it, it's a giant capital) I know for a fact there's a big cathedral named Yume Cathedral, and in it is where the Kingdom's 'guardian' rests - The Towa no Shirube. People suspect it is that relic that grants the Tsugare Kingdom's people with special powers.

The Eien no Tobira, however, is a completely different story. It is very, very, very dangerous. Like Seifer said, it has the ability to send anyone inside the 'Gateways to Forever'. Only powerful black magic or extremely holy white magic can get the person out, or maybe there's another way to get a person out. I'm not too sure, but it's said in legends that the Eien no Tobira was once used to wipe out an entire Kingdom...and then the own user got trapped inside it as well. Ever since then it's been in the undergrounds of the capital that only the royal family knows about, so how would Seifer get his grimy little hands on it? Besides, it had been chained up!

"Like I care if I lose my life. Besides, that could never happen to me. I'm too great to die." He then cleared his throat. "So, Roxas, take another step and I'll trap you inside of it, too." I smiled. This is where Seifer's blown-up ego left out the details sometimes.

"You can't do that, Seifer. The Eien no Tobira cannot trap anyone with pure hearts. Since Roxas wields keyblades, he must have a pure heart." I said confidently, crossing my arms and looking at him with a smug look. Beat that, Seifer!

"You're right, Naminé, I don't need the Eien no Tobira as undeniable proof that I can totally own this lamer. Just watch and see! You'll be begging to even get close to me after I whip Roxas." Seifer said, returning the look. Then, Roxas' Organization cloak transformed back into it's normal black color and the Oblivion was no longer floating, but back in his hand. "I've noticed that whenever his cloak changes color, he gets stronger." I noted that, too. When his cloak had been silver, he totally kicked some Organization members and then some. So he had a...Silver Form and a Yellow Form? Silver Form was more powerful than Yellow Form, at least to my knowledge. "And whenever it reverts...he gets weaker."

"You're actually paying attention to something, Seifer?" Roxas asked, making a mock-surprised look. "Wow, I'm surprised. The only thing you've ever paid attention to is that pretty-boy face of yours." The recipient to that message growled.

"I guess you want to die, then? Well, I'm more than happy to oblige, but I feel I should just take Naminé now and leave you alone." Seifer said, and I could see that he didn't want to attack in risk of hurting me. "I don't want her to hate me forever if I hurt you too bad."

"I guess you're gonna have to, Seifer, there's no way you're taking her as long as I'm alive." Roxas said, looking at me and making sure I was safe. He really...he really did care about me... "Are you alright, Naminé? You're not hurt, are you?" I shook my head and he smiled. I took a step back, knowing that they were just going to get into another fight again. It wouldn't be too long now.

"I'm sorry, Naminé. You're going to hate me after this battle, because there's only going to be one of us on the victorious side. That's going to be me." Seifer said, and smirked to himself. "You see, Your Highness, there's a detail your love forgot to tell you. Roxas and I were friends when we were little so I know everything about him.. And...there's also that other thing...the reason why you'd break her heart...Sora." I looked at Roxas with a confused look. Sora...? Why did Seifer call Roxas 'Sora'?

"Roxas...?" I asked, my voice being a bit shaky and almost...afraid. I was scared. By what Seifer could mean by that, he was looking very proud of himself and Roxas looked really ticked off. "...Why did he call you Sora?"

"Oh, that's right! You don't know, do you, Naminé? I guess he never told you because he didn't want you to know the truth. Because deep down inside...he knows that no one can ever love him for what he truly is." I grasped Roxas' arm and tried to look at him, but he refused to look back at me, and found the direction opposite of me suddenly more interesting.

"Please tell me, Roxas...I-I...don't care if you're actually an assassin sent out to massacre cities and towns...or if you're actually..." It was then that I remembered my dream. "...a fallen angel..." Seifer and Roxas both looked at me, and I smiled at him. "I don't care what you are, Roxas, it matters on who you are...if you're some murderer from a faraway country, or some angel fallen from grace..." Very slowly, I wrapped my arms around him, "...or even the poorest peasant on the streets...I'd still love you."

"Well, Thirteen, I guess she figured it out, eh? You really couldn't keep anything from her, could you?" Seifer asked. Roxas pushed me away and turned around.

"Yeah...she didn't figure out...all of it, though..." He said, crossing his arms. I looked at Seifer, then back at Roxas, slightly hurt. He just rejected me...why? I wanted to know!

"Then tell me! I have the right to know!" I shouted, getting a little impatient. I wanted to know what was going on! I wanted to know what they were talking about, why Seifer called Roxas 'Sora'...but, most of all...why Roxas rejected me...that had really hurt, like he was treating me as though I were some terrible monster. I bit my lip, trying not to cry, but I couldn't help it.

"Are you really sure you want to know the truth? You probably will hate me." He said, still not looking at me. "I really didn't want to lose you, again, either...but I suppose I'd rather have you hate me for who I really am than love me for who I'm not." I didn't hear his 'again', he had whispered it. How did I know he said it, then? Well...

"I don't understand why you think I'd reject you. Just because you think I wouldn't love you if you're some kind of...I can't even think of anything I could hate you for! If it's anything that I hate, it's that people make assumptions of me!" I just wanted him to understand that I'd love him no matter what!

"You might want to sit down, it's a long story." Roxas said, finally facing towards me. He had that...sad and lonely look again. Seifer smirked and laughed.

"You thought you could keep it from her? Well, I guess that all changed." He said, as I sat down on Roxas' bed(remember, we were still in his room...though most of it was broken or burnt, the bed still was in tact) and he sat on one side of me, and then Seifer on the other. "Say goodbye to Naminé, Roxas. She won't want a part of you anymore." I glared at him, but I wanted Roxas to tell his story so I didn't say anything.

"My mother was an angel. One day, she forgot to protect a child since her duty was being a guardian angel, and the child wrongfully died in an accident. The Authority - that's what everyone calls Him - sent her down in earth cursed with no wings at all, to look like a normal human. But all angels have the purest of hearts, which is why they become an angel in the first place. Of course, what my mother knew and the Authority didn't know she knew is that there is a black wing and a white wing disguised on this Earth." My face lit up and when he saw it brighten he nodded.

"Oblivion and Oathkeeper!" I shouted. Of course, it made sense. The knight's pure heart had made the Oathkeeper, and only angels had the purest of hearts, so it must be able to transform itself into a white angel wing. Then the knight's older brother was so dark it created the Oblivion, and angels who had did wrong in the past always had the black wings(a lot of storytellers tell stories about angels, which is how I know this information) so it would be able to transform itself into a black wing for an angel.

"Right. So, when she was on Earth she tried to find the Oblivion and Oathkeeper, and when she found the family in possession of it, she begged them to give it to her, and they refused, saying that only members of the Hikari family could see it. She asked for a way she could get into their family, and it turns out they were the family of the little girl who my mother had been guarding. So, she knew all their names and everything by heart. Of course, the Hikari family immediately took her, a complete stranger in, because she knew everything about the child. They never even asked how she knew, they must have assumed she was heaven-sent to them. Which isn't too far off..." This story was getting interesting, but I really wanted to know the part about Roxas/Sora and why he had...dual names and was keeping secrets from me. That I really wanted to know, but I didn't want to rush him so I let Roxas continue.

"Upon further inspection, my mother did indeed find out that the Oblivion the Hikari family had was the true thing - the black wing. If she found the white wing, the Oathkeeper, she would be able to fly back to Heaven. Instead, she found my father - Cid. Soon, they fell in love...kind of the way you and I did, Naminé. Though...less complicated. Then, they found out that my mother was pregnant...and that was when she remembered that the Hikari family would not accept anyone without the last name of Hikari, which would mean her children would never be able to get the Oblivion. So, she insisted that our last names would take after her last name. Cid, my father, agreed and then we were born." This is the part where I placed my hand over his and squeezed it lightly. He looked at me, I smiled and nodded to him as a signal to go on.

"She wanted our names to mean 'Sky' the very place she fell from. Of course, our father agreed, he really didn't care what our names were as long as they weren't girly. So she named my brother Utsuho, and me...Sora. So, my brother and I were identical twins - the only thing you can tell us apart by is the color of our hair. If we both wore the same clothing and the same hairstyle, you'd have trouble telling us apart. As identical twins, we had a very strong bond. If he felt one thing, I'd feel something like what he was experiencing, too." Roxas laughed a little. "One time I hit my head and he hit his elbow on something. My head AND elbow hurt, and his head AND elbow hurt. You see what I mean?" I nodded, I had the same kind of connection with my sister. Obviously Seifer didn't know since he was an only child(a self-egotistical, greedy one at that) but I didn't care about what he was doing right now, he was silent so I didn't care. Even if he was making a racket right now I still wouldn't care. I never had a thing for cocky jerks.

"Since our mother was a full-fledged angel and our father one hundred percent human, we inherited traits from both. Utsuho inherited the pure heart of my mother and I inherited the wings she used to have. Of course, the only way I can call them out is if I'm wielding both Oblivion and Oathkeeper, or if they're anywhere near me. Watch." Roxas held out a hand and Oblivion appeared, then disappeared as he sprouted one black wing that, at the tip, was kind of purple and blue.

"But...you also inherited her pure heart, right? Or else you wouldn't be able to wield the keyblades?" I asked. I got some of the story down, but I thought some of it was downright confusing.

"I did, but...disaster," He glared at Seifer who merely shrugged, "struck soon after. Since my mother passed down her pure heart to us, she...died. She left all of the memories of herself and what we both really were in the Oblivion. That way, when I was old enough to wield it, I'd know the true story. That's how I know all this, but I still don't know what she looks like. The first time I experienced this flashback her face was darkened out and I couldn't even tell her hair color." He sounded so sad...it depressed me the way he sounded. I placed another hand on top of the one I was already grasping and smiled.

"At least...when your mother died, she returned to Heaven, didn't she?" I asked, trying to cheer him up. He looked at me, his face completely blank. He looked so sad, I could have sworn his eyes turned gray.

"That's the scary thing...I don't know where she is. I don't know if Heaven accepted or rejected her...if the Authority rejected her, where would she go?" Roxas sighed, then smiled weakly. "Thank you for trying to help, Naminé...it means a lot to me."

"Anyway...where was I? Oh, disaster...well, I grew up without a mother, that was tough. I didn't even know who she was at that time, either, or why she was gone. Our father was trying our best to raise us by himself, but it was difficult, we could even see. Well, one day...I befriended Seifer, and he was actually nice back then. I...I'm not sure if there's any easy way to say this..." Roxas gulped then removed his hands from mine and looked back down at the floor.

"Maybe I should just say it for you, Roxas. After all...I know everything." Seifer said, and I looked a him and back at Roxas.

"You'll screw up the story, Seifer. You screw up everything! I can say it..." He took a deep breath then forced a smile. "I think it'll be easier for me to just tell you what I am...then I'll tell you everything afterwards if you're not scared of me by then..."

"Alright, whatever's easier for you, Roxas. Tell me what you are." I said, bracing myself for anything. It couldn't be too horrible, right?

"I became a genetically configured government weapon with the ability to alter light. They 'codenamed' me Roxas - an anagram of my real name with an 'x' added. I have four different programs 'installed' in me. Two of them you've already saw. My 'yellow' program is the Master Form, the 'silver' program is the most difficult program to activate, also the most powerful, the Final Form. I have two others, too, my Wisdom Form, and my Valor Form. The reason why Organization XIII hates the royal family so much is because they made us what we are. To keep it a secret from the public, they called us 'Nobodies' instead of weapons. They also...messed up our hearts. They made sure we would feel no remorse if we killed someone, so they made us unfeeling - for the most part."

"That's why I feel lonely and empty all of the time - I don't have a heart. Of course, I know I love you, Naminé, I know what I feel for you, but I'm not actually experiencing what I should. There are Twelve Nobodies other than me, and together we made Organization XIII, of course we wanted revenge against the people who did this to us, even though it's irreversable."

"After you...they stopped making these 'Nobodies'? How come I didn't know about this? That's so terrible..." I shook my head. So, my parents ordered thirteen people to be genetically altered so they could serve as weapons? That was so - I couldn't even believe my parents could do something so horrible.

"Well, you knew about it...but you forced yourself to forgot everything after the 'accident' happened. I only told you four of my programs...but I do have a fifth one. They uninstalled - or at least attempted to - my last one. Of course, I still have it. Doubt I can use it any more, though." He said, holding out his hand.

"I made myself forgot something? What did I want to forgot?" I asked, as Roxas started to recreate the 'accident' by altering the light fixture in front of us. He hesitated before answering.

"You wanted to forget me."

HnH: I bet NONE of you suspected that. Well, I was listening to 'Sakura Drops' by Utada Hikaru and that influenced some of this.

Sora: Wow, this is getting deep! Why did she want to forgot Roxas?

Kairi: Yeah, I can't believe this! This is complicated stuff! Roxas is a half-angel government weapon? That's so confusing! How the heck did they do that to poor Roxas?

HnH: It reveals all in the next chapter! For those of you that are confused, it's ok. You're supposed to be. If you're not...congratulations, I guess.

Reno: So, guys, review! HnH wants four reviews this time, but she needs at least a review before she write the next chapter, so it shouldn't be that hard to manage.

Roxas: Well, I didn't die, that's good...I feel sorry for myself, though. -pats self on back-

Sora: You totally violated my copyright, though! STEALING MY FORMS! I SHOULD SUE YOU, ROXAS!

Roxas: Well, since we're the same person...you'd be sueing yourself, so go ahead.

Sora: Kairi, be my lawyer!

Roxas: Yeah, Naminé, be my lawyer!

Kairi: Sorry guys, since we're both the same person and we both want you to win, we're not taking sides this time.

Naminé: -tries to be helpful- Why don't you ask Reno? -voice rises to fangirl squeal- HE'S THE BEST AT EVERYTHING!

Roxas: -starts to have a convulsion at the mention of 'you-know-who's name- Everything...but...making people review!