Disclaimer: Nothing's changed.
Thanks to Numina-Namine(you're right, you know? About the climax thing. Hehe. Also...-wonders- Where's Riku? Hmmm...I wonder...-evil laugh- We all need our daily dose of Riku, though I wish he was over-the-counter. Hahaha...anyway...they decide it by making all the Aeons(Relics) to play Kagome Kagome and 'it' is Towa no Shirube and if she guesses correctly, that's it! But they only try once) Chukobher(yes, very confusing. But in order for the sequel I have to set everything up like this...darn! I can't wait...-cries-), Koto-sama, Chibi Minomoto, Oathkeepera, Ellie, jennyz XxkunoichiXkh2fanxX...
Some of you are right...some of you aren't...you know, speculations make the world go round! But darn, some of your speculations are really good...I wish I could use them all...but the only thing I'm saying is that I'm saving our favorite un-mentioned characters for the best part...That's all you're getting out of me, I SWEAR. 'Kay? 'Kay.
And...-laugh- I guess you're right about the Roxiri. Hey, pure concentrated fluff is not my forté so I have to spice things up a little, eh? Also...no offense to emos and transvestites. Roxas is just being a little fickle because he's in pain seeing Naminé depressed and he knows he can do. Absolutely. Nothing. About. It! -friendly smile-
Kami-sama: Authority
Bold Text(In Naminé's POV): Echoes of what she's saying going on inside her head.
Bold and Italicized Text(In Naminé's POV): Phrases she's hearing inside her head.
I put that key there...so you don't get confused!...Sorry for the shiznickly-huge chapter! -smile-
Angels in Flight: Towa no Shirube
Chapter 17: Darkness...
(Roxas' POV)
"No one knows everything, Kairi. Get real." I said absent-mindedly, starting to walk towards Naminé's room. She followed me.
"But I do! Why do you think they let me guard those troublesome keyblades in the first place? Because I was an extra ghost just lying around? Yeah, probably. But! I know a lot of things you don't." She said. I shook my head slightly.
"Try me. Ask me anything." I said, looking down a hallway, and then another one. I decided to go down the right hallway.
"Oookkkkaaayyy...what's the meaning of life?" She asked. I hesitated. Meaning of life? "Huh? Huuuh?"
"Do you know?" I countered, not about to tell her that I didn't know anything about some meaning of life. She hesitated for a minute before thinking.
"Ummmm...Next question!" Exactly. No one knows the meaning of life. "How many Aeons are there?" Aeons? Oh right. The spirits of the relics. My systems didn't know that question, but I did. I learned back in school.(Yeah, I did go to school, but I only stayed in it until third grade. I dropped out because I knew everything due to my database)
"Let's see...Towa no Shirube is one..." I mumbled, trying to remember what I had learned. I didn't exactly have a photographic memory.(As you all can clearly see. If it wasn't for me being a machine, I think I'd still be in third grade)
"And their realnames, too!" Kairi chirped, and I was in such deep thought that I didn't hear her say my name. And she said my name because I was about to smack into a wall. Of course, me being the klutz that I originally was, I crashed into it and fell on the floor. I didn't accept her hand when she offered it to me and stood up on my own.
"Towa no Shirube is Shiva...Byakuya is Yunalesca..." I rubbed my forehead, where the wall had mostly impacted. I didn't smash my face into the wall. Lucky for me, or else I would have blood dripping all over and it wouldn't be pretty. "...Shizukana Yoru ni is the Magus Sisters..." How many more WERE there? I didn't really even know.
"Oh! Eien no Tobira is Bahamut..." I said, vividly remembering(like it was yesterday) when I fought and killed him. Aeons are eternal(as eternal can get) so they keep on coming back, I knew that much. "He was extremely tough...Kojou no Hachimenreirou is Ifrit..." What other Kingdoms were there? I mentioned the relics of Tsugare, Byakuya, and Destiny...oh! Radiant Gardens. Completely forgot that place. "Hanazono no Sora is Valefor..."
"Four more! You got Towa no Shirube, Byakuya, Shizukana Yoru ni, Eien no Tobira, Kojou no Hachimenreirou, Hanazono no Sora..." She said, and we reached stairs. Up or down? I went up the stairs, and she followed me.
"Oh! Tenkuukaikatsu is Yojimbo...who am I missing? I think I mentioned all of them!" I asked, deciding to use my sensors to locate Naminé's room. Once I did, I began my 'journey'.
"Couple more..." Kairi shook her head. I pondered for a moment, but didn't stop moving.
"Tsuki no Kage! That's the one! That's Ixion. Two more, right?" I asked, and she nodded. "Two more...who am I missing?" I asked for the umpteenth time. Kairi held up two fingers. "Yeah, I know...but can't you give me any hints?" She smiled and pointed at my heart. "...Me? I'm not an aeon!"
"You know someone who is." She replied, grinning from ear to ear. I already mentioned Yunalesca...and it couldn't be my brother, or my father. Honestly, I wouldn't be surprised if I was actually an Aeon, too. Might as well throw that in my genes as well, right?
"You know what? I don't know everything. I give up. Tell me." We were almost reaching her room. I could see that blue-skinned guy standing in front of her door. A wave of relief swept through me. Thank Authority Naminé wasn't harmed...
"There's the Hikarini Naritai, Anima. And the Mizu no Akashi, Tifa!" Kairi finished. I stopped and looked at her.
"So...my mom's an aeon now?" I asked, but Kairi shrugged. She seemed unsure of the information that she just relayed to me.
"I guess you could say that, since she inhabits the Mizu no Akashi. But no one can actually summon her, per se, so she's more like a semi-aeon. Besides, she controls an element like every other aeon. Obviously, it's water."(Heh, how ironic! My mother controlling my weakness. Go figure) She said, and we reached the door. I took a deep breath and prepared myself. Telling this all to Naminé would be difficult. Kimahri(or whatever his name was) noticed us and looked me up and down.
"Identification?" He asked blankly. Identification? Me looking like me wasn't enough? I wouldn't show him my dogtag or my barcode. Both were way too personal and I didn't even feel comfortable showing it to Naminé. I just hated who I was...who I've become...
"I'm not Seifer. You can let me in." I said, and Kairi nodded. But Kimahri shook his head.
"Might be disguise." Well, this guy obviously didn't speak English well. "Must prove." I looked at Kairi, and she looked back at me. I thought fast.
"Hey look!" I yelled, pointing down a random hallway, "A distraction!" Kimahri bought it and ran and looked down the hallway. I opened the door to her room quietly and we both snuck in as stealthily(as stealthily as a Ghost and a piece of metal can go into a room, anyway) as we had opened the door. Naminé was sitting on her bed and drawing, assorted colored pencils lying on the bedspread. "Naminé?" She didn't hear me, so I repeated her name. Still nothing. She was drawing as if she were in a trance. Kairi and I exchanged glances. "You try." I whispered. She nodded.
"Hiya Naminé! Guess who came to check up on you?" She asked, her voice full of spirit and enthusiasm. "Okay, you wanna guess? Alright, well, his name is an anagram of Sora with an 'x' added..." Nothing. Kairi waited for a moment of awkward silence. It wasn't really silence, unless you didn't count the sound of pencil hitting paper. "Since you don't wanna guess, I'll just tell you! Ittttt's Roxas!" She said.
"Naminé, don't you want to see me?" I asked, making my voice a little louder. Maybe she was going deaf and couldn't hear us.
"Not really." She spoke, and then glanced at me and returned to her drawing, shaking her head slightly. "I wanted to be alone."
"Oh." I rubbed the back of my head. That was awkward. "I was just checking on you to see if you were okay. You know, since Seifer might have-" She didn't look back up at us. She just continued drawing as she cut me off in mid-sentence.
"It wasn't necessary. I can handle myself. I have the Storm Sword." As if to prove it to me, the sword appeared next to her. Not in her hands, but next to her. Then, once she somehow knew I acknowledged the fact she had a weapon, she made it disappear. "You can leave now, I'm fine."
"I-I wanted to see what you were drawing." I shrugged at Kairi who gave me a look. Anything to get her to stop drawing and look at me.
"..." Naminé paused for a moment. She didn't look up, but she paused. Hey, that was good enough for me! "It's...it's not good at all. You won't like it."
"How do you know, Naminé? You can't read my mind." I replied, going over to her and looking at what she was drawing. She closed her book so I could only catch a glimpse, and it wasn't enough for me to register the information.
"But I can read your memories and that's the same thing, right?" She asked, then sighed. "What do you want from me, Roxas?"
"I just want to be near you, that's all. Nothing wrong with that, is there, Naminé? You're supposed to be close to the people you love." I said, and she shook her head. But she still didn't look at me! You'd think I had malaria or something.
"But you don't love me. You just want to protect me." I realized that Kairi had left the room. Great. There goes my support. After all, wouldn't a girl know what another girl was thinking? She could have at least given me a hint or something, considering I fail miserably when it comes to the opposite sex! Or...maybe...her leaving was the hint?
"Technically, Naminé, I don't want anything. And no, I wasn't made to protect you. I'm a weapon, remember. Not a bullet-proof vest." I decided to be just as difficult as her. She didn't say anything to that. "Well...I'm that too..." I mumbled. I wasn't exactly bullet-proof, but I could, approximately, lose 5.5 liters of blood and can still be standing. I can lose 5.6 liters of blood before I collapse. But if I let my machinery take over, I can go on. Just for reference, the human body holds 5.6 liters of blood. For those of you who are wondering, I said 'can', not 'always'.
"I'm...sorry." Naminé sighed, and I frowned. She was sorry? What for? As if she really could read my mind, she answered, "I'm just sorry for everything I have to put you through. You're a weapon, so the only you thing you feel is the lust for battle and killing and stuff. You were made for war. Even though you won't admit, I'm sure you'd rather be lopping some guy's head off and savoring victory than being with a girl who's hopelessly in love." I had to admit, she was right. I couldn't help it, though. I'm a weapon. It's what I was made for, it's what I'm supposed to do.
"You're right. But unlike every other Nobody, I don't like to kill people. Because I'm half-angel. I have two sides that are complete opposites. One wants to love and be compassionate and kind and save lives, and the other wants to kill and hurt people and lusts blood." That was something odd about me. Angels are supposed to be saviors to the people of the world, and weapons are supposed to act as grim reapers, taking people's lives. I feel like I contradict myself everyday. I could've killed that Kimahri guy and save Kairi and I all the trouble, but instead I distracted him.
"I love you just the way you are, Roxas." Naminé said after seeming to contemplate something, then opened her sketchpad and flipped to the page where she had been drawing. "This is what I drew." I took it and looked at it for a very long time.(Well, it seemed like that to me, but it was actually only a minute or so)
It was me, with two wings,(and two keyblades) standing protectively in front of her. There was a ghost-like Sora floating above me and seemed to be glaring at Seifer, who was holding out a gunblade to us. There was a ghost-like white-haired guy with aquamarine eyes floating above Seifer with his arms crossed. Axel(who would've guessed it?) was standing beside me with his chakrams out and fire surrounding them. Another ghost-like redhead who looked exactly like him(without the spikes in his red hair) was floating above him and was glaring down the white-haired guy.
In the back of it all, was Kairi, with her hands over her mouth like she was shocked. All in all, it was a very detailed drawing. "I drew another one just like it...but I wonder what it means? I didn't even realize I was drawing it."
"Hey, Naminé, are you alright? You've been acting a little strange lately." I handed it back to her. "Can you tell me EXACTLY how you feel? Maybe I can recognize your feelings as symptoms of something."
"I don't know...I don't know what to feel anymore..." She said, sighing and placing her hand on her forehead. "I just feel like a failure at everything. I feel so...unwanted, I guess. It's not your fault, Roxas, but I just love you so much and I don't get anything back in return. I mean, I don't mind it at all, but it just makes me jealous of Umi-uh, Kairi and U...ah, Sora. Everyone else who has love and is loved back...I'm jealous of that too. I think I'm turning a little selfish..."
I was about to say something, when a puff of black smoke just randomly appeared in the middle of the room. I thought it was Seifer making a flashy entrance, so I scooped her up and held her as tight as I could. Instead of Seifer was some girl wearing all black. She looked like some sort of ninja. The ninja-esque girl had lavender hair which matched her outfit nicely and really intensifying sea foam green eyes.
"Are you the Roxas that's..." She took out a piece of paper, "an angel and a weapon and a bodyguard and a boyfriend and a twin and a...huh. Can't read this smudged word! Anyway. You're that Roxas who's a bunch of things, right?"
"Um...who are you?" I decided that this girl was definitely NOT Seifer. I set Naminé down but slid my arm around her waist just in case Seifer decided to trick us by going transvestite.(Hey, he was emo for a long period of time and emo is one step below transvestite)
"I am the Great Anonymous Ninja Sakura!" She pointed to herself proudly and grinned. Naminé and I exchanged glances.
"Why do they call you anonymous?" I asked, "You just told us your name." Great Anonymous Ninja Sakura slapped her forehead and stomped her foot.
"Ugh! I can't believe I revealed my name AGAIN! Okay, you got me. I'm an Apprentice Ninja. But...don't tell Fran-dono I messed up, alright? She's the leader of A.N.O.N., otherwise known as Anonymous Ninjas Occupy Nothing. So...you can call me Anonymous-Sakura, alright?" Anonymous-Sakura said, and we nodded.
"But what do you want me for? And...how do you know all those things about me?" I asked, a little weirded out. Did word get out already? If so, I would've thought more people would be crowding around me and asking me if they were going to heaven or if they were going to die tomorrow or when the apocalypse was or any of those questions they think I know, and I could find out, but wouldn't want to answer anyway!
"I'm a Ninja, duh! Ninjas are supposed to do spy around and seek new recruits! Well, I was spying on you and I heard everything you are so I thought 'Hey! He's everything so why not make him a ninja, too?'." Anonymous-Sakura said. Well, she did have a point there. I mean, I was human, angel, machine...I wouldn't be surprised if I was half-carrot at this point.
"No thanks." I tried to politely decline her offer. I wasn't exactly the most stealthiest person in the world. Probably because I'm heavy(due to the metal and machinery that's in my body) and if you listen closely in total silence, you can actually hear my mechanics moving around.
"Well...I have this thing! I don't know what it is, but it looked real shiney so I thought I might use it for a bartering item! Look, see!" Anonymous-Sakura held out a hand and this keyblade appeared! I guess I HAD to be a ninja now. I needed that keyblade. Maybe not me or my brother, but someone at Mizu no Akashi needed it.
"Can I have it?" I asked. Maybe she would be dumb enough to let me have it and I would activate it before she realized her folly. She shrugged.
"Depends. Do you wanna be a ninja?" No. I didn't want to be a ninja! But I knew she would never let me have the stupid key if I didn't want to be a ninja!
"Not really. But I have to get that keyblade at all costs! Is there any other way I can get it? Like maybe...I don't know..." What could I give her? Maybe Anonymous-Sakura needed some weapons? "I can give you a gun or cannon or something..."
"Well...I was always a bit handy with machines. If you let me see what makes you tick I'll give you this shiney giant key-thing here as a participation prize! Deal?" It was much better than being a ninja. I nodded in agreement.
"Don't let her screw me up, alright?" I whispered in Naminé's ear. She nodded as a screwdriver appeared in Anonymous-Sakura's hand.
"Ooookay! You might wanna de-activate yourself or something. Believe me, I'm a genius when it comes to mechanics!" She seemed a little too eager to pick me apart. Naminé has already moved her art supplies from her bed(when had she done that?) and I assumed that's the place where I would die-I mean, get operated on! So I let go of her and laid back, not shutting off my systems but just putting them on stand-by, so I'd snap awake if my sensors sensed anything odd. I didn't trust this 'Anonymous-Sakura'. I mean, what if she was lying and was Seifer in disguise and kidnapped Naminé?
Yeah, yeah, call me paranoid for believing that but never say never because you never know.
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"You're dooone!" Anonymous-Sakura shouted in glee. I sat up and my systems revived from their stand-by mode. "I made some slight modifications so I hope you like it!" I ran a system check on myself. I seemed to be all in order. "Oh yeah...you know what these things do, right?" The keyblade appeared in her hand and I nodded."Well...I feel like this shiney key talks to me. I can hear it's voice in my head...it's saying...'I am the Mysterious Abyss Keyblade. Thank you, Princess of Heart, for retrieving me, but I need to get back where I belong.' Pretty enigmatic, riiiight?" Anonymous-Sakura shrugged and held it out to me. "Here you go!"
"So...you're a Princess of Heart? Interesting." I took the keyblade and activated it. It wasn't my wing, but somebody else's. "Well, thank you very much, Anonymous-Sakura."
"Ummm...okay...well, if you ever need to see me for whatever reason, just call for the A.N.O.N., okay? 'Cause remember, ninjas are always watching you!" With a puff of black smoke, she disappeared.
"Okay..." I said slowly, "That was very...random...and not to mention pretty odd." Naminé nodded her head.
"But remember what she said about the Mysterious Abyss talking to her? Maybe it told her to come to you when she found it, so she did. I'm not too sure, I was only a Princess of Heart very briefly." She suggested, shrugging.
"Hey Naminé...I have to tell you something..." I was ready to break the news to her. And for those of you who need a news flash, NO I am NOT pregnant and NO I am NOT an action figure with batteries that are sold separately...and...NO I'm not going to say I have some fatal disease! I am perfectly fine in health, I might add.
"No." She commanded, hopping back on her bed and taking her colored pencils and starting to draw again. Back to depressed mode.
"B-But...it's important!" I couldn't go against a command made by her. I just had to convince her that she needed to know what I was going to say! Because she did kind of need to know it and last time she was not very happy when I kept her in the dark.
"It's just going to make me more confused. I don't want any confusions right now. I like simplicity." She stated, and to further emphasize her statement, her tone of voice became lighter. "I hope you don't mind, Roxas...I trust you in whatever decision you make and the less I know, the better."
"Why do you say that? Knowledge is power." I hopped on the bed beside her and watched one of her amazing masterpieces in work. "At least, that's what Pops always told me anyway."
"I don't want to know anything else anymore. I'm fine with my current level of knowledge that I have." She said, and then sighed. "I'm being difficult again, aren't I? I can't help it...I just feel so..."
"You're not being difficult at all, Naminé. I'm actually glad you're being selfish and depressed. It's not normal for a human to feel happy all the time. Everybody gets low at one point in there life." I said, and I thought it was true. I mean, the only people who are all happy-go-lucky ALL THE TIME are either the people who have problems, or Sora. "You feel so what?"
"I just feel like I wanna scream my heart out and then cry until nothing is left. I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't even feel like I know myself anymore." She sounded lost, like she was a carelessly discarded piece of a jigsaw puzzle. I knew what that was like, to feel like you didn't even know who you were. It was terrible. But I remember was that all I wanted was for someone to understand and just tell me everything was going to be okay no matter what.
So I did just that. I hugged her close to me and I stroked her hair, whispering, "Everything's going to be okay, Naminé. I understand what you're going through. Anything you have to say, you can always tell me. You can always come to me to say anything, I'll listen." When she took a deep breath I could tell she was fighting back tears.
"Thank you...thank you so much, Roxas." It was bad to lose your sense of self. Really bad. It just felt terrible, like you were in the middle of a crossroads and four people were shouting four different names at you, and none of them were the one that you were accustomed to, yet the people were all people you truly knew.
"Hey Naminé, is there a reason why you like to draw so much?" I asked, though it was really out-of-the-blue. I just wanted to get her mind off the subject so she wouldn't be depressed anymore.
"I don't know if you knew or not...but yes, there is, actually, a reason why I draw so much. Not because I'm good at it, it was just luck that I was but only because I can't do anything else besides from read, and I've already read every book in the library so it's gotten quite boring." She said.
"Why don't you write? Writing is tons of fun!" I said, though my brother and I have only tried it once. Actually, we didn't even understand the concept of 'story' back when we tried to write one, we just jumbled together a string of sophisticated-sounding words that made no sense when you knew all their meanings. "Well...it's fun I-"
"That's just it. I can't write. I'm dysgraphic." She stated and broke off our hug. I looked up the definition of dysgraphia and my mouth formed an oval.
"But you can draw! That's a fine motor skill, isn't it?" I asked. I would never expect Naminé to have a mental disability such as something so trivial as that. I was just glad she didn't have bipolar or manic-depressive disorder or something life threatening.
"Nope, it's not. Ever wonder why I don't wear laced shoes?" She smiled, and giggled, "It's because I can't tie shoes!" True, Naminé normally wore sandals or the occasional high heels.
"So...you feel pain when you write?" I wondered, the symptoms showing up on my 'monitor' or my eyes. I don't see things like a normal person would. I'm slightly colorblind, if you will. Everything I see is dulled in color, but the reason is that it's my screen I see all my data with. Usually, all my data appears in my left eye, while I see and perceive things normally in my right eye. There are some cases when my vision is obscured when I look up information, but that's not totally important.
"You're not supposed to? I thought it was normal.." Naminé sighed, then stood up and stretched. "Well, let's not dwell on weaknesses, okay? So-" she was cut off by a call of distress from the outside of the room. Kairi burst in and started to pace. "What's up, Kairi?"
"I can't decide! I just can't! I mean, Roxas has his soul, but Sora is just much cuter than him and I've never met the actual HIM before and I don't what his personality is really like but-UGH! This is so mentally challenged! I can't decide!!!!" She whined.
"Decide what?" Naminé asked, and Kairi took a deep breath.
"You see, I'm in quite a predicament. You see, Roxas has the soul of my love, but Sora has the name AND looks of the old Sora! And on top of that, the person who originally inhabited this body loves him, too! Now I'm stuck between you two!" She said in one breath.
"First off, I'm cuter than Sora." I decided to just get that out in the open. Kairi rolled her eyes, but Naminé nodded in agreement. "Secondly, I seriously don't think you want to be under Naminé's bad side. If she has a grudge on you...don't get me started."
"It's true! Roxas is mine and mine only. The only way he can be yours is if you ask me for him and I will say no. Or, you can drag him to some market and use those scanners to find out how much he costs, because I'm sure he actually has a price and buy him and even then, I will buy him back because he is mine and mine alone." She said, crossing her arms.
"Well, you're sure possessive. Or are you just saying that because you couldn't get him back if I stole him from you and you're afraid I will." Kairi said, starting to stare at me which made me very uncomfortable. Naminé noticed this and once her ex-sister(you could say) started to walk towards me, that's where she blew up.
I have no idea where the HELL what she did next came from, but I thanked all higher powers in Heaven for her inspiration. Because she threw her arms around my neck and kissed me on the lips. Yeah, yeah, big deal you might say...but then she initiated what one might call a 'French Kiss'. I mean, you know, I never expected for it to go...that far... Once she started, however,(we had to ignore Kairi's 'oooohh...Is THAT what kissing is supposed to look like?' I took over from there. But you know...
...Now I loved jealousy! If this is what it did to girls, I hope Naminé would get jealous more often! Anyway, after we shared our Kiss of Passion, Kairi was staring at us with a gaping mouth. "Wow. I gotta try that sometime! I think I'll try it with your brother, though, I couldn't imagine kissing you! Hehehe, no offense! ♥"
"You've never kissed P.S. before?" I asked, and she shook her head.
"But we hugged several times and he always protected me from that nasty brother of his! I guess that counts." She shrugged. Naminé started to giggle. "What? Something funny?"
"Not really, I was just thinking about something!" Kairi prodded her on, and Naminé smiled. "I just learned what they mean when they say 'You kiss like an angel'. You have to tell me if Sora is a good kisser or not, okay?"
"Wait...You know, right?" Kairi asked. Naminé looked at me.
"Is that -" She started and I nodded. She looked back at Kairi. "Yep, I know all about it!" I blinked. How did she know? If she's psychic, I will stab myself right here right now with Oblivion and I am not even kidding. If she could read my mind after all this time...
"Wait - that's impossible! I never told you!" I blurted out my thoughts. Naminé laughed again and smiled.
"You're so forgetful, Roxas!" 'Great', I thought numbly, 'Naminé noticed too. First Kairi, now her. What's next? The whole female population?' "Don't you remember? I can read your memories! When I kissed you - I feel kind of bad about it - I looked into your memories and I know everything you and Kairi said to each other. So I know the whole story." She smiled. Naminé was right. The one thing about her I had forgotten. Me, the person who knew her better than anyone else.(After all, I was the only one who remembered her 'real' life and not the false one she created for herself)
"Okay, good! You know. Alright, now, here's how I remember it: First thing, I started to get these really weird thoughts that were actually premonitions, and then I started to hear a beautiful chime in my head. I thought I was schizophrenic so I became depressed for awhile. Three weeks and four days later, it happened. But I think step one has already begun because you, Roxas, told me that Naminé was acting strange. But there's only one person who can tell us what's going on." Kairi and I both looked at Naminé as she stared at the ground.
"Well...I..."
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(Naminé's POV)
"Well...I..." A chiming noise? I haven't heard that yet. I just felt like...like a piece of Talc! That Kairi was the main mineral, and I was just a shredding of it. They're supposed to love each other...Sora and Kairi. And Roxas has Past Sora's soul... "I..." they were both staring at me. Together.
I wasn't jealous, really. I just kissed Roxas so I could sample his memories. I just wondered what affinity he had with me when Sora is supposed to love her. Roxas isn't supposed to love me! I'm not even supposed to be here! Kairi never had a sibling that fell in love with Past Roxas! "I feel like..." Should I even tell them? Did they even care?
Where am I getting these thoughts from?
I didn't know the answer to my own question. I was just so frustrated right now! "...It's not like you two care. You, Kairi, are just concerned about Roxas' well-being so that you and your love can live together, and you're concerned about me because I'm the only one who can make it happen."
"Huh? I-I-It's not like that, Naminé! You and Roxas...you both are supposed to be together! I have his brother!" She said. Always upbeat and cheery.
"Just like..." I started, but then shook my head. No, I wouldn't drag my dead sister into his!
Just like...
My eyes widened. I just heard my own voice echo inside my head? "Kairi, did you also hear a voice inside your head?"
Naminé, did you also hear a voice inside your head?
"No...I didn't. I hear a chime, though! We're probably different though." She shrugged, and smiled. "Everything okay?"
"Yeah, Kairi, everything okay?" Roxas asked. I stared at him and frowned.
"Did you just call me Kairi?" I asked, enraged.
Did you just call me Naminé? Sora, is something wrong with you?
"N-No...I called you by your name. Are you sure you're fine, Kairi?" He asked again, placing a hand on my shoulder which I violently slapped away and I glared at him venomously. Who did he thing he was, calling me by Kairi's name? I had no time to ponder however, because then those voices took the chance to attack. I squeezed my eyes shut, fell on my knees, and clamped my hands over my ears.
I'm not Sora, I'm-
So you're stealing them for her?
Her soul's locked in here.
I'm just going to take back what's mine...
The last voice I heard was particularly loud, and I think I said it along with the voice in my head. "Are you that angel that saved me?"
I heard a bell chime.
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"Naminé..." I opened my eyes, and looked up. Just as I expected. Roxas' concerned sky-blue eyes, staring right back at me. The first thing I noticed was that there was cuts all over his face.
"Roxas...you're bleeding..." I lifted my hands(to make sure that this wasn't my imagination) when I noticed him wince, and I also felt...I looked down. My hands were wrapped around the hilt of the Storm Sword, which was sticking right through his stomach. I tried to back away, but he had his arms wrapped around me and he was holding me tight.
"Are you...okay?" He asked, not letting go of me. What had happened? It wasn't like I had some program to go berserk, either...I wasn't even a machine! I was completely and absolutely mortified that I had gone and hurt Roxas.
"I'm...sorry." I immediately took the Storm Sword out of him and made it disappear. "I was just...so scared..."
"Scared? Of what, Naminé?" He asked and I almost cried. His voice had cracked. It didn't possess that angelic quality he usually carried his tone of voice with.
"I was scared that you would forget me and go after Kairi since you possess the spirit of her love...I thought that Past Sora's spirit might take you over and just reject me." He opened his mouth to say something, but I placed my index finger over his mouth to silence him. "I didn't hurt your voice, did I? You sound more...human. Oh! And, Roxas, you can let go of me now." He did so, and I immediately pushed him on my bed. "Lay down, I'm going to treat your wounds." He obeyed and I went over to my closest and rummaged through it, looking for anything that would substitute for bandages.
"N-Naminé...I think the same thing's happening to you, but with that...alter ego of yours." Kairi appeared beside me, helping me looking for some First Aid stuff.
"Alter ego?" I repeated. "I don't remember anything...I just heard some people talking inside my head saying things that didn't really make any sense. I can't believe I attacked him..." I whispered, not wanting Roxas to hear what we were conversing.
"Well, first thing, you asked if Roxas was the angel that saved you. Then your eyes turned this eerie soulless grey...it looked like you were just an empty shell. Then that sword appeared in your hand and you attacked him multiple times, each time you said, 'If you weren't alive, this wouldn't have happened to me! It's all your fault!'" she said, and I frowned. I really...I really said that? "That's not all, though! You also said a bunch of really cruel things and then stabbed him. Of course, Roxas held onto you when you did so and it took you awhile for...well...you to revert back to normal."
"..." I didn't say anything as I found an old cloak that I could rip up to make for bandages. I ripped it up with much difficulty and then stood up, Kairi carrying half of the bundle and I was carrying the other half.
"Naminé... you shouldn't hurt him like that." she suddenly said in a low voice to me. I blinked. What was she talking about...? "Just because he can't piece two and two together doesn't mean you should take advantage of that..."
"What are you talking about...?" I asked. Did she...did she know? But...but how? Kairi shook her head.
"You know. Don't you remember what Roxas said to you? 'I'm not allowed to show that scene to anyone', and yet you still want to retrieve that memory? You know, the Authority won't take it out on you, Kami-sama'll hurt Roxas instead because the Authority knows he can get away with it because Kami-sama hates him. Roxas'll never blame you for anything, and you're just using that so you can get your fill of curiosity! That's why you heard those voices, because you tried to take his memory of that incident! Though the alter ego thing...I don't know why that happened..." She said, then added loudly, "I can't believe you'd do something to hurt him like that!"
"Hmm? Hurt who?" Roxas asked, and I bit my lip. He sounded human, just like I feared. He always sounded so angelic and pure and just...beautiful. Divine, even! More so than Sephiroth or his sons or anyone else I knew. Kairi glared at me. She knew. I couldn't take this! I knew I shouldn't have done that...and I knew, I just knew, that Roxas would hate me forever and ever if he found out I tried to open that memory...I think he will hate me for not respecting his wish...especially since I didn't even do it on accident.
I decided right there and then that I would rather disappear then have Roxas hate me. After all, it was my fault in the first place and I didn't want him to get hurt. He would be better off without me.. How would I make myself disappear? I thought for a moment...and came up with it! "I'm sorry, Roxas! Please don't follow me!" I dropped the make-shift bandages and dashed out of the room. I ran as far and fast as I could. When I heard Roxas' footsteps behind me, I knew he would catch up to me in no time. I went into the closest room I found and locked the door and slid down it, out of breath.
"N-Naminé! What's wrong? Why...why do you keep running away from me?!?" He asked, pounding his fist on the door. I drew my knees up to my chest and hugged them. I heard him sigh as he slid down the door as well. If there was no door separating us, we would be back-to-back.
"I figured it would be best for everyone if we just stayed away from each other. You have Kairi now. I mean, she loves your soul...and you can't love either of us so why not pick the girl that you're supposed to be with? Besides, Roxas..." I sighed, forcing myself not to cry. It hurt whenever I heard his voice that way. He sounded weak and powerless...he just sounded mortal. I don't know why I loved his regular voice so much...but I guess that's the only peaceful thing about him, really. I'm sure if he went on a battlefield with his wings and halo and everything and started to sing, everyone would make peace with each other. I bet they would never guess he was actually a machine designed to kill.
"Hmm?" He silently asked me to continue.
"Your voice, Roxas...I don't know if you noticed it, but your voice...something happened to it! I don't know what did, but it lost that gorgeous quality it used to possess." I explained. He sighed. We just stayed there like that, for who knows how long? "I think you should go..."
"Why do you think that? I want to be close to you, Naminé, but this is as close as I can go without unlocking the door. I know you wouldn't like me to do that so I'm not going to." He said, and he sounded crestfallen.
"If you know what I did, you'd hate me forever, Roxas!" I mumbled, hoping he couldn't hear me. But his reply told me otherwise.
"...What did you do, Naminé? I'd never, ever hate you for anything. Everyone makes mistakes. Even if you wanted to kill me, I'd understand that, too. I'm a monster. Who wouldn't want me dead or dysfunctional? Or if you wanted to run away with Seifer and marry him...I wouldn't hate you for that, either. Sure, I'd probably hate myself but I wouldn't blame you for anything." He said. Kairi was right...I was using his unconditional love for me...no, he didn't love, did he?
"No! I'm sick and tired of this!" I yelled on that thought. "Who the heck do they think they are, waltzing in on your life and telling you that you can't feel? Who decides that if you don't have a physical heart, you can't love? Who decides that because you don't feel regret for your actions, you don't have a conscious? Well, you know what I think, Roxas? I think that they're all just jealous because even though you're stupid, you're the most kindest and pure-hearted person in the world!"
"Does that mean I can unlock this door?" He asked, his voice hopeful and I smiled. His voice...it changed! It was all sweet and virtuous again! Deciding that he was right, I nodded.
"Yeah, Roxas, you can open this door."
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(Third Person POV)
"What? What did you just say?" Seifer was pacing back and forth in a carpeted room that was gray and incredibly dreary looking. He was glaring down this poor little Heartless that could talk(heh, fancy that?).
"I s-said, L-L-Lord Seifer, sir...that the darkness you manifested inside of that platinum blonde d-didn't have an effect o-on the angel...h-he still went after h-her..." The demon said shakily. Seifer clenched his fist.
"After I used all that power to make the darkness inside of her attack him? What WILL he hate her for? I need a time when Roxas isn't around Naminé so that I can take her...but they're around each other all the time!" He said, un-clenching and clenching his fists repeatedly. "I guess the only way to do things around here is to do them yourself!"
"Y-Yes, L-Lord S-S-Seifer..." The demon squeaked, backing away before Seifer grabbed one of the demon's wings.
"You! You're going to help me separate them. If you do a good job, I just might give you some of my control over darkness. " He said, and the demon nodded excitingly. Of course, Seifer wasn't really planning on doing that, he would just kill the poor thing if he got Naminé or not. Using his powers, he created an image of what was going on with Naminé and Roxas. But since his powers are technically the opposite of what Roxas' are, the image came out inverted.
"Perfect...it'll take Roxas a couple of seconds to unlock that door, anyway. He was always a little slow. But this is the perfect opportunity to take her! Entourage, let's go!" Seifer grinned maliciously, grabbing the poor demon along with him and disappearing in a portal of darkness.
Okay, I'll be gone(to the U.S.A!) for four days, so don't expect the next chapter for awhile...ALSO! Guys, I can make a bonus chapter! You know, an extremely fluffy chapter that doesn't really have anything to do with the plot but is so fun to read? Yeah, I wanna make one of those! But only...only if my review count reaches 100! It doesn't have to be on this chapter either...just in general! Oh...and...can you figure out why Roxas' voice 'changed'. Hehehe, it's a secret! ♥
Heh, I'm hyped! Oh, I didn't check for spelling errors ONLY because I have to leave, like, right now and I have no time to but I'll get to it later...REVIEW! -gets dragged off laptop by twin sister-