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Chapter One
BPOV
I am sitting on my bed staring out my open window at midnight. Oh how I miss him. I still leave my window open for him every night. I try to stay awake too just so I don't miss him in case he ever comes back. Who am I kidding? He isn't ever going to come back. He doesn't love me anymore. And if he ever does come back it will be too late and I will be gone. Ever since I found out about my cancer a few days ago I haven't done much else but just sit on my bed and stare off into space. I know that this will destroy Charlie to see me go like this, but I can't help but feel an odd sense of peace within me.
Renee didn't take it as well as Charlie. To make matters worse she demanded that I live with her and get treatment. She seems to think its Charlie's fault. But neither Charlie nor Renee seem to understand that I don't want treatment. It will only put me through a lot of pain and I already have enough of that because he left me. Jacob hasn't spoken to me since I told him my decision. He seems to think that I am waiting for them to come back and change me, when that is the furthermost from the truth. I don't know what to say to Charlie any more I can barley look him in the eyes anymore I just hurts so much to see him like this. I wish I could change something about what will happen to me but since I have came to terms with what is going to happen to me, it's only fair that everyone else should too.
For the past two days I have been trying to write my feelings down and compose a letter to him. I slowly get up off my bed and walk to my window and close it. While on the way back to my bed I grab an old notebook and a pen and start to write.
EPOV
I can't believe what Alice just said to me. She was supposed to be safe. This wasn't supposed to happen to her. It's my entire fault that she has no one. I took away my family from her when she needed us most.
I walk down downstairs to where everybody is assembled and I take notice of what is happening before me for the first time in months. Carlisle is cradling a sobbing Esme while being in anguish himself over the thought of loosing a daughter. Alice is just sitting, curled up in Jasper's lap. Jasper is trying to send calming waves out to the family but I know its not working. Emmett is frozen in disbelief; Rosalie is trying not to be affected by everything that is happening around us.
I look over at Carlisle.
"Why her? Why did it have to happen to her Carlisle?" I say to him in anguish.
"We don't know why these things happen, Edward. Nobody does."
I try desperately to block the thoughts of my family out, but a few still filter through.
Edward. I know I haven't always acted like I cared, and for the most part I admit I hadn't but she doesn't deserve this. Nobody does.
I look up at Rosalie and nod my thanks.
My poor, poor baby. How could this happen to someone like Bella. She's never done anything wrong to anyone.
Edward. We need to go to her and help her. She needs us.
"Edward if you want to go back I will calling in a few favors so I can get my job back at the hospital and take over her case if you like?" asks Carlisle.
I know he is leaving the final decision up to me. I just can't get the picture out of my head of her, my beautiful angel, on her deathbed. I need her. I can't live without her and no one else in the family can either. Alice can't loose her best friend. Emmett and Jasper can't loose their little sister. Carlisle and Esme can't loose a daughter. None of them deserve to. I look over my family.
"Let's start packing so we ca leave and go back. She needs us and we need her. She deserves to be saved."
My family looks upon me with relief. I just hope I am doing the right thing and it's not too late for her to forgive me.
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A/N: I would love some reviews to see how everyone likes my story. I don't have a beta and I am editing it myself so I apologize if the grammar and spelling are not up to standard. I will try to update again soon and thank you for taking the time to read my fic.