Chapter Six:
E.P.O.V
I knew she would ask, I just didn't know when. I thought that maybe she knew, but it was obvious she hardly knew much about her.
"Where's mommy?" Renesmee asked as I sat her down on the couch. She didn't know that she was hurting me when she asked. She didn't know how badly it stung me to hear her say 'mommy'.
I looked up at the ceiling. Was there an answer to that? "Mommy is in a place where she can never come back." I whispered softly. It hurt so bad. It ripped a hole right through my chest, eating at the flesh, making me want to cry out in pain and agony. But how could she know?
"Can I talk to mommy, ever?"
I sighed. "Of course you can. But you won't get an answer Renesmee. She can't speak back."
She cocked her head to the side as if in great thought. She shuffled her feet around. "What if I made up mommy's words for her?"
I had to smile. "I guess you could."
"Renesmee!" Rose said, swooping the girl up in her arms and kissing her on the cheek. Renesmee squealed in response.
I stood up and nodded at Rose. "Make sure Carlisle sees to her later."
"Where are you going?"
"No need to be nosy."
She glared at me. "Don't do anything foolish Edward."
I glared back. "How could I?"
And with that I ran. I ran through the woods. Time and place didn't matter. I only knew that I had one destination. There was only one place that I wanted to be right now.
The place of Bella's final memories. The place that had forever seemed to hold the key to all the unopened doors full of pain and secretes. The meadow. Where I first realized, by looking into her eyes, that Bella was the love of my life.
Another spasm of pain rocked through my body, making me slow to a brisk, human-speek walk. I ran my fingers through my hair.
But, wait. Why was I feeling somebody's mind brush up against mine? In MY meadow?
I stopped walking all together. It was Jacob. He was in a serious state of mouring.
I wanted to join him, to share my pain. I wanted somebody to finally understand. I laughed without humor. Nobody could understand. But Jacob was as close as it would get.
For a fleeting second I thought about Alice. She must be pained. But I didn't know where she was, and for a while she wasn't my concern.
"Jacob." I said, seeing him in wolf form.
He looked at me with wide eyes. Why are you here?
"I would ask you the same"
I want to be alone.
"So did I. But that obviously isn't going to happen, now, is it?"
If you leave…
"Jacob. Please, don't play stupid. Your hurt, and so am I. I don't hate you".
He stared at me before thrusting his head up and howling at the moon. I miss that girl.
"You have no idea how I feel right now….."