My review numbers went way down, I saw. But anyways, thanks for the ones that I got. I can't promise you there will be a happy ending to this story, for those of you who asked. I'm going with what my heart says for this story.
Everyone sat around in the living room, contemplating what to do. Every so often one of us would open our mouths to suggest something, but shut it, knowing it wouldn't work. I sighed, making everyone's' heads shoot up.
"You guys, stop worrying. After all, I'm the one that has to make the decision. I'll…..I'll figure something out," I said, heartbroken.
"Bella, you don't have to do this alone. We can take on newborns. I won't let you make this decision by yourself," Edward said.
I broke at his words.
"No! NO! Don't worry yourselves about it! I'll figure something out. I know what's best for everyone in my heart, and I'll figure it out! Just don't talk about it. It's killing me!" I screamed. I had stood up while ranting.
I ran out the door and into the woods. Edward was running after me, and I knew that I couldn't outrun him. I sobbed while I ran. Even if I couldn't beat him, I'd keep going. He gained on me.
While I ran, I thought about my situation. I'd rather die than be without either of them: my kids or Edward. Wait a minute, that's it! I can save them both.
Oh, dammit. My shield was down.
"NO! BELLA YOU WILL NOT DO THAT!" My love roared behind me. He was just a hundred yards behind me, gaining with the second.
I jumped into a tree, in a desperate attempt to hide. I knew that he could smell me, but I hoped he would leave me alone to think. I quieted my sobs. The trunk of the tree went down, and I flung myself away from it, landing perfectly like a gymnast. Edward stood in front of me shaking his head. Just from the look on his face I could tell that so many emotions ran through him. Hurt, confusion, anger, sadness, hope, desperation (probably to stop me).
He walked slowly towards me, murmuring comforting words. I just could not talk about it, or be with anyone right now. I backed up as he advanced, making his face contort in hurt. He realized that his tactic wasn't going to work, and pounced on me, holding me down.
"Love, calm down, please listen to me, don't run, please," he pleaded with me. I still struggled with him, sobbing all the while.
"Edward, I can't lose you, or the kids. Please let me go. There is no other way to save all 3 of you. You know I love you, and that's why I'm doing this, to keep you alive," I cried. I broke free, but he caught me before I could get up. Holding my arms down, my lay down on top of me. I closed my eyes, trying to stop the tears from falling. He tucked his head into my neck, resting on my shoulder, also. I could feel him dry sob when his chest rippled against mine. I was stunned; Edward usually didn't break down like this. I tried to lift my arm to rub his back, to calm him down, but he mistook it or trying to escape. I silently shook my head, and he took what I meant, that I wasn't going to escape; at least, not right now. He slowly let go of my arms, and I wrapped them around him, softly going up and down his back.
"Bella, you can't leave me. I couldn't take it. It's not the only way. If you left, it wouldn't save me, it'd kill me. I live for you, and only you. If you left, I'd die. Literally, I would," Edward tried with me. His voice broke throughout what he said.
"You'd find a way. You'd move on. Edward I have to do this. I'm sorry."
He gripped my shoulders, fiercely telling me that he wouldn't take that for an answer. With my arms already free, I slowly flipped us over, to where I was on top. I moved my arms from around him, and that's when he knew. He knew that my mind was made up, and that I would see if this worked. I gently kissed his lips, got up, and ran back the house. This left us both heartbroken.
***
I spent hours up in my room, thinking, trying to find one more way to do this.
And after 3 days, I figured one out. It would kill Edward if I died. But the only way to keep all of them safe was to give in to Tanya, and give her the ring. And all it represented.
***
Everybody walked into me and Edwards's room, standing around the bed. Edward still sat next to me on the bed, but he still didn't know my plan. He thought it was the same, and that this was just the announcement. I waited as the filed in slowly, even for a human, and fiddled with my ring.
"So, as you know, I had two choices. I picked one. I dread both of them, and I wish I could avoid this whole thing, but I…I can't. I have my decision," I stated. I looked around, and could tell that they all feared the worst. I got up, and walked around to face Edward, who was still sitting on the edge of our bed.
"The only way to keep you all safe, is for me to leave. My choice of demise? The only rational one. Edward…I have to leave….you." I slid my ring off my finger and set it in his upturned palm, closing his fingers around it.
"I don't know what she'll do to me, but I can take it. Nothing is compared to losing you. I'm sorry. I love you, as I will forever," I said, directly to him. I hugged everyone. And with that, I left.
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-Katie
