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Chapter 4: The Confusion
Confusion…oh the confusion what do you do about it, you can see it in people's eyes when they are confused and their eyes pleading for an explanation but what if you don't have one. What if you think you have one but the other person who you share your secret with doesn't think that's what it is…oh god confusion makes me confused…and that really doesn't make any sense.
Ryan and Marissa were standing next to each other, with their hair messed up, their clothes not properly on and one of the most important things the glow on their faces. A glow that could lighten an entire street. Seth and Summer were still standing on the opposite side of Ryan and Marissa with quizzical looks on their faces. Summer could already make out what happened, but Marissa had specifically said that it was a one time thing and that it would never happen again, and by the looks of it, it did happen again more then once.
'So Dr. Atwood-Cohen thanks so much for your help you're really kind…but now I need to go so again a big thanks…bye' Marissa said smiling while doing so. She wondered if she was doing the right thing, she knew Summer would ask her a lot of questions but maybe this was what Ryan wanted to. It was probably just a mistake a heat of the moment kind of thing, but if it was a mistake why did it feel so good.
'Yeah no problem I should probably go to.' Ryan said feeling very uncomfortable. Why did she just say that did she have second thoughts and did she regret it now? Did she think it was a mistake…and if so why did it feel so good when they were together. Ryan turned around obviously confused and started to walk away, leaving an even more confused Summer and Seth standing there with now a slightly hurt Marissa.
'Okay so he really thinks it was a mistake' Marissa thought, she was beyond confusion right now, she couldn't even talk to him for he was already gone. Marissa looked up preparing to be overflowed with questions but all she got was a sympathetic smile from Summer. Summer alone, Seth had followed Ryan.
'So Coop want to go home?' Summer asked as she walked towards Marissa and linked an arm with hers. Marissa nodded and while they walked away she took one look back and now saw Seth and Ryan walk to the locked rooms. Seth patting Ryan's back as they did so.
'Okay man what was that all about?' Seth asked as Ryan and Seth made it to Ryan's apartment. Ryan turned on the lights and shrugged he then walked over to his kitchen taking out a beer for himself and for Seth.
'Still not much of the words?' Seth said it was always Seth's job to throw in a sarcastic comment; he didn't like it when things were too emotional, ironic huh he didn't like emotional situations but he chose to be a doctor himself.
'I don't know what happened back there…I really don't Ryan said while letting another sigh escapes his still slightly swollen lips due to Marissa's nibbles. 'Before I started working I went to some local bar and I met her there I didn't even know who she was and before I knew it I was taking her clothes off. Then the next thing I know she is an intern at the hospital I work…and I don't know we just clicked or connected whatever again I see myself take her clothes off but this time it was much more passionate with much more feeling I just I really don't know what to do now…' Ryan said and leaned back against his couch.
Seth looked at him and smiled at him sympathetically. 'Woow I never heard you talk this much bro she must really be special…' Seth said again attempting to lighten the mood but all it did was let Ryan's thoughts wonder about how special she was…
'Yeah she is…she really is…' Ryan said, what was going on with him he hadn't even known her for a month and he was already falling for her. This was not the way he thought things would turn out, she was just a girl a girl he spend one night with and made love to a couple of times. 'Made love' Ryan said to himself. He never referred having sex with a girl to making love. And now he did, what was wrong with him.
'So uhm I hate to break it to you but what about Theresa?' Seth said. He didn't want to get into this right now, but seeing the state Ryan was in he knew he had to.
'What about Theresa?' Ryan asked doing his best to play dumb he never thought about it. He didn't want to think about it she was the reason he left his family behind and now he knew the truth and something that he really didn't want to see or know.
'Ry…look I love you and you're my brother, but you have to settle things with her first before you start this…' Seth said carefully he didn't want to hit a nerve. Ryan had been his brother ever since he could remember. Seth was 2 years old when his parents brought Ryan into their home and ever since Ryan had been his brother. Seth knew Ryan and knew better then to push things with him. Hitting a nerve was certainly not something Seth wanted to do.
'Look Seth just leave it alone okay, I don't want to talk about her.' Ryan said. 'So how's your love live been?' Ryan asked changing the subject; he knew that talking about Seth would definitely caught Seth's attention.
'It sucks dude…I haven't had sex since…' Seth said thinking long and hard since the last time he had sex and then looked back at Ryan. 'I don't even know bro it's been that long.' Seth said in utter shock making Ryan laugh at his brother, even though Seth could be annoying sometimes he always knew how to make him laugh and he truly loved him for that.
'Uhu so no one that you like…no nurses…' Ryan asked again smiling when Seth brought his hand up to his chin and began to rub it as if to look deep in thought.
'Well I there is someone but you have to promise you will not tell anyone.' Seth said Ryan nodded his head and listened to his brother waiting for the fire works to start and the never ending ramble that was going to come.
'Well today Summer Roberts and I had a moment…it was so freaking hot Ry, when our eyes locked it was as if their was a fire work, I mean my dark brown eyes melting with her big brown eyes soft ones. It was so hot I think that the universe is finally letting me use my charms again.'
'Uhu…Summer Roberts as in Dr. Roberts as in girl with the rage blackouts?' Ryan asked while laughing slightly.
'Yeah that's the one.' Seth said while taking a seat next to Ryan and taking a sip of his beer, while Ryan turned on the tv.
'Yeah that's the one' Summer said while taking a bite of her ice cream and staring up the ceiling while lying in Marissa's bed.
'So Seth Cohen huh, okay.' Marissa said taking a bite to. She was not really thinking about Seth Cohen she was more thinking about his muscular, blond hair, blue eyed, very gorgeous brother.
'But I can't believe you told me you two were over when you're obviously still going at it like rabbits.' Summer said, not even letting the subject slide. She looked at her now best friend Marissa Cooper who was smiling a little but also had a very big look of uncertainty written all over her face.
'Yeah well I think this was definitely it.' Marissa said, while closing her eyes briefly she wondered back to a few hours before and the way he held her, kissed her, felt inside of her, it all seemed so perfect.
'Well what do you mean with that?' Summer asked laying her head on Marissa's stomach while looking at her. Marissa immediately massaged Summer's head she didn't know why it was an instinct her mom always used to do it for her and she knew it felt really good, so now she did it for Summer and seeing Summer close her eyes, meant that it felt good too.
'I don't know I was just so confused, he is just so perfect and I'm not and I think I'm falling for him big time, and I'm just…so confused. I really like him and he's gorgeous, perfect, hot, smart and I'm just scared that if he knows me like really knows me he'll back away…I'm just scared…because I really like him.' Marissa said while images of Ryan kept flowing through her mind.
'Well sweetie there's only one way to find out…' Summer said trying to reassure her best friend. 'And don't forget you're gorgeous, breath taking hot, smart, and perfect too…by the way everyone has their problems…I'm sure Ryan has some skeletons in his closet as well.' Summer moved herself up and sat next to Marissa giving her a chance to take a big gulp from the Ben & Jerry's Chocolate fudge ice cream.
'Now lets take both our minds of off things with this awesome movie that never gets old…How to loose a guy in ten days.' Summer said while pressing play. Marissa nodded her head in agreement and smiled, taking another big bite from the ice cream.
If you don't talk about things then in the end of the day confusion still doesn't go away. Talking that's the hard part, so you post-pone everything telling yourself that giving each other time will make it much easier when in the end it only makes it more difficult to put yourself out there whether it is what you want to hear or not. My advice, keep your legs closed girls.
Okay so that was it I seriously hope you liked it. To fresh up everyone's memory, the words which are written in italics are Marissa's thoughts she's actually 'narrating' it but just see them as Marissa's thoughts. Review! I love your reviews! Love Noor