Hey guys, I know I haven't posted in a while but with this story I always need to draw some time out…and seeing as I didn't have a lot of time these last couple of weeks I couldn't write more…believe me it was not my choice! Anyways here is a post and I hope you'll like it! Love yah all Noor! Thanks for the awesome reviews!
Chapter 5: Signs.
Denial…is one thing I really don't like to do…deny and lie yeah I definitely don't like lying but even so I keep getting myself into situation where I need to lie…or deny something. Stupid yeah I guess you could say that again…I just don't know how to get myself out of them, and whoever said that the truth is the best thing for anyone clearly didn't have sex with their McBoss and then got caught after having more sex, by their best friend and their other boss who also happens to be the McBoss' brother...lying and denying I think I just have to stick with those!
'Coop!' came Summer's loud voice from behind Marissa, while she was trying to catch up with her.
Marissa came to a halt and turned around only to face her very curious best friend. Marissa smiled when she saw her, she looked excited and that always made Marissa smile.
'Hey Sum what's up?' She asked while she continued to walk with Summer by her side.
'Uhm Coop what's up? Did you seriously just ask me what was up?' Summer said but before Marissa could interrupt with a 'huh' or a 'yeah' she continued. 'How can you ask me what is up…this is the first day back with you and Ryan both back, have you told him yet.' Summer said.
'Told me what?' Ryan asked as he took the charges of his patient and smiled at Marissa as he did so.
Marissa glared at Summer who was still looking at him with udder shock, Marissa then poked her in her side to let her know she was going to do the talking. 'Uhm…' Summer started Marissa again looked at Summer with wide eyes and Summer shrugged and gave her the most innocent look.
'Uhm…' Seth said as he joined them also picking up some charges and taking a sip of his morning coffee. 'You hear that Ry she said uhm, doctor Roberts the one with the big mouth who has always something to say is now not so talkative…' Seth teased and received a glare from both Marissa and Summer, which made Ryan chuckle and Seth smile.
'Nevermind I'm sure I'm the morning topic of everyone.' Ryan said teasingly while eyeing Marissa while he did so.
'Arrogant.' Marissa said in between her fake coughs. She smiled at Ryan innocently and he winked at her, Marissa felt as if she was going to pass out when he did that, and if she wasn't feeling weak already he had to give her his half smile. Marissa held the reception desk for support while she inhaled deeply, and got quizzical looks from both Seth and Ryan, while Summer just smiled and knew exactly what her friend was now dealing with.
Ryan completely oblivious walked over to Marissa and put one hand on her back to support her while all it did was make her knees even weaker. 'Are you okay?' he asked innocently and Marissa nodded her head.
'Yeah I'm okay…I'm great…I'm fine.' She said while smiling at him and standing on her own again, Ryan still looked worried, and Seth had long stopped looking at her, he was now eyeing someone's donut very dangerously.
'Cohen!' Summer said while she saw how attracted he was to someone else's food, making the person eat it very uncomfortable.
'Yeah' Ryan and Seth said in unison. Summer looked at the two bewildered and then pointed her finger at Seth; Ryan smiled and looked at Marissa again.
'Stop looking at that poor boy's donut…he's not going to eat if you keep doing that you know.' Summer said which made Seth smile even more.
'That's exactly my point dr. Roberts!' Seth said, his mission was accomplished and their lay a lonely donut on a table while the boy was nowhere to be seen. He walked over to it and made sure nothing gross was on it, and when he couldn't find anything on the service he took a big bite making Summer and Marissa 'ugh' in disgust.
'Poor boy…I'm sure you were the biggest bull in high school.' Marissa said, joining their conversation. Ryan just laughed as Seth did what he did.
'Are you kidding me Seth was the biggest geek in Newport…kids used to pee in his shoes.' Ryan said while Seth looked at him as if he was hurt.
'So that's why he is so…deranged!' Summer smiled at Seth and poked him with her finger, it was weird really Ryan and Seth were supposed to be their bosses but Summer felt very comfortable with both Ryan and Seth although she couldn't deny that with Seth she felt something, that's why she loved to tease him.
Seth felt a little spark when Summer smiled at him and when her finger collided with his chest and he didn't like it at all; he took some steps back from Summer and cleared his throat.
'Right…well this was all fun but we need to work now Dr. Roberts I want you to check all the patients and keep me updated.'
Summer looked at Ryan who just shrugged, she then looked at Marissa who did the same thing. 'Okay' Summer said as she saw Seth walk away.
'Marissa you can come with me.' Ryan said as he started to walk towards his patient with Marissa trailing behind him, while she looked back at Summer who was picking up every little charge she could find of Seth's patients. She mouthed and 'I'm sorry' and continued to walk away with Ryan.
'Great this is just…great' Summer said while letting out a huge sigh she had been holding ever since Seth told her she could do rounds probably the entire day, no surgeries, or watching some, or even a fun case she had to find a solution for…she was going to do absolutely nothing but make small talk with all Seth Cohen's patients.
'Complaining are we Dr. Roberts.' Dr. Bailey asked Summer as she took out a charge of her patient, Summer turned around immediately and shook her head no in a very fast madder.
'No I wouldn't dare to do that…I…I…NO!' she picked up all the charges and walked away pretty fast, with a simple and loud 'close' as she did so.
'Dr. Cooper this is Mrs. Bricks.' Ryan said as he pointed to the old lady that was lying in bed, she smiled at both of them and Ryan smiled back at her as did Marissa. 'Now would you like to tell me what is wrong with Mrs. Bricks?' Ryan asked and Marissa nodded while looking through her charges.
'Well Mrs. Bricks suffers from a tumor called Agraphia, it's a loss of ability to write and is common to tumors of the parietal lobe of the dominant cerebral hemisphere.' Marissa said while smiling reassuringly at Mrs. Bricks.
'Very good job Marissa, you did your homework.' Ryan said while giving her a brief smile. He looked at Mrs. Bricks again and was hoping she understood everything Marissa said. When she didn't ask anything he assumed she did and continued.
'Now Mrs. Bricks, Dr. Cooper here is going to prep you for surgery and then we're going to dig in there and get that nasty thing out of you.' Ryan said.
'First of all stop with all this Mrs. Bricks nonsense I'm not that old…well technically I am but no one has to remind me of it…so just call me Nancy and second yes Dr. I understand everything perfectly, I have been to several doctors before and they told me what I had and what would happen and they suggested I'd come here to Seattle Grace Hospital and be operated by the famous Ryan Atwood Cohen.' Nancy said while smiling at the young couple in front of her.
'Well I'm flattered thank you very much Mrs Br…Nancy.' Ryan said and then turned to Marissa he didn't no what possessed him but while he turned around to face her his hand instinctively moved to her side and gave it a light squeeze as if to tell her if she could do everything on her own. 'So you just have to prep Nancy here and if you're done page me.'
Marissa could have sworn the wind was knocked out of her when Ryan laid his hand on her side, and her knees buckled when he gave it a light squeeze. Why was she being so ridiculously shy around him, she was blushing when she was facing him and when he looked at her with those ocean blue eyes her words were caught in her throat she just merely nodded when she heard what he was saying and before she knew it she was left alone with a eye brow raised Mrs. Bricks.
'Ooh honey you're in love with him aren't you.' Mrs. Bricks said in her thick southern accent.
'Who?' Marissa asked nonchalantly while she was lying Mrs. Bricks down, and changed her out of her hospital gown.
'Dr. Atwood Cohen, I don't blame you he's definitely something. That boy is candy to the eyes, and you're in love with him.' Mrs. Bricks said while smiling a toothless smile at Marissa, who put her most innocent face on.
'Psssh…NO…goodness, I couldn't…NO! No way! Me in love…haha funny girl!' Marissa said, too bad her innocent plan didn't work and really confirmed what Mrs. Bricks was saying and Marissa was feeling although she would never say it out loud, not now anyway.
'Honey I've been living far too long and I have had my experience with guys…and I think you should just tell him that…' Mrs. Bricks didn't finish her sentence she started coughing very loudly and the machines she was hooked on made very fast noises, which made Marissa more nervous.
'Mrs. Bricks! Mrs Bricks can you hear me!' Marissa asked anxiously, she shone her little light in Mrs. Bricks eyes which were wide open as she continued to cough, she coughed up scarlet blood. Marissa held her hand on Mrs. Bricks face and tried to calm her down, Mrs. Bricks held Marissa's hand with her one hand and looked deep into her eyes.
'It's time…' she said through her coughs and Marissa couldn't help but let a tear escape her eye.
She ran to the side of the door and pushed on the white button that would let the nurses know she was having a code blue. And before she knew what was happening nurses were in Mrs. Bricks hospital room with the peddles.
'No Nancy don't do this to me!' Marissa said while more tears were now streaming down her face she couldn't help but be so emotional. When she was younger she had seen her own grandmother die like this and it was not going to happen to this woman. 'Nancy come on! Has someone paged Dr. Atwood Cohen?' Marissa asked and she got a 'yes' in response.
A nurse was going through Mrs. Bricks charges to see if she was allergic to anything, but found something else. 'Dr. Cooper she's DNR!' he said while walking towards Marissa and tried to hold her back.
Marissa shoved him away and looked at him with the iciest glare she could muster. 'I do not care what it says! She is my patient and I will not stop!' Marissa said while getting the peddles and putting them on Mrs. Bricks now bare chest.
'Come on!' she said to Mrs. Bricks. 'Nancy please…' Marissa looked at the nurse who was standing next to the machine of the peddles and looked at her. 'Charge again.'
'No…I'm sorry but no...' and with that the three nurses walked out of the room. Ryan came rushing to them in a hurry. He saw them standing there and looked at them and when he saw their faces all his hope was gone…flushed away in a single moment.
Ryan followed the nurse's gazes and they all landed upon Marissa who was in charge of everything on her own. She was now stroking the peddles together once again and put them on Mrs. Bricks' chest making her limb body jump in the air again, with yet again no sound other then the monotonous beep that was heard throughout the entire room.
Ryan shook his head slightly and told the nurses to go while he made his way into the room closing the door behind him as he did so. 'Marissa stop it!' he said but she continued. 'Marissa no DNR means Do Not Resuscitate…it's for a reason.' But yet again Ryan was not heard.
Marissa had given up on the peddles and was now pushing her shaky, numb hands in and out of the old woman's chest furiously, while tears streamed down her face and fell on Mrs. Bricks' chest. 'Come on Nancy!'
Ryan couldn't take this any longer it broke his heart to see her that way he moved over to Marissa and did the exact same thing one of the nurses had done to her only minutes ago, but he actually moved her away from her and before he knew what was happening she had collapsed in more tears and sobs in his arms, her head resting on his chest while she cried.
'Shhh, it's okay…it's okay.' Ryan said, while his hand stroked her hair. He kissed the side of her temple affectionately.
'No it's not…it's not okay…I let her go…' Marissa said, and somehow Ryan knew this had a lot more to it then Mrs. Bricks but he let it slide.
Marissa and Ryan stood like that for a while until her sobs, turned into heavy breaths, and until they turned to normal and tears were no longer pouring down her face. They released each other and she smiled shyly at him. 'Sorry…I didn't mean to…go crazy…' she said while she was looking down.
Again Ryan's hand miraculously found its way to Marissa's side and the other hand did to, he rubbed his hands against her side and they locked eyes. 'It's okay really…'
With that both Ryan and Marissa walked out of the hospital room together, walking their separate ways as they did so.
Marissa sat in her room alone watching reruns of Gilmore Girls. She didn't really listen to what they were saying, it was just the fact that she heard some noise that comforted her, making her feel a little more comfortable and didn't make her go completely crazy while she thought of Mrs Brick and more so her words. 'Honey I've been living far too long and I have had my experience with guys…and I think you should just tell him that…' and that's where it stopped, she knew what she was going to say though. Tell him that you have feelings for him.
And why shouldn't she? If an old lady was telling her what to do while dying shouldn't she just embrace that and make her proud, let Mrs. Bricks feel like she accomplished anything, but then again…she was trying to say something to her and she died while she was saying that, there were just too much mixed signs. She died while proving a point…karma really does suck!
'Ugh Coop!' Summer said while barging into the door with a plate of food in her hands. She put the plate on the bedside table and fell on the bed with a loud sigh escaping her lips. 'I have never smiled so much my entire life…I trained my cheek muscles too much I tell yah! I wouldn't be surprised if I couldn't talk tomorrow.' She said while eating some of the garlic bread she had brought in. 'How was your day by the way…did the nasty nasty again?' Summer asked while Marissa choked in a chocolate bar.
'No not in the least.' Marissa said while putting the chocolate bar back down and getting up abruptly. 'But I have to do something so see yah…don't wait up!' she said and practically ran out of her bedroom before Summer could ask questions.
Ryan just came home and flopped down on his couch while turning on the tv. Today had been a very rough day, he had lost two patients…and he hated losing patients but he had, one during surgery and one didn't even make to surgery…and his intern had gone all crazy while trying to save the one that didn't make it to surgery…Mrs. Bricks had died and Marissa had tried to save. Ryan really couldn't blame her though he was something too when he was trying to save his patients.
Ryan heard a loud knock on his door and looked at the clock. 23.00 PM, he raised his eye brow who was coming to his house this late, probably Seth he thought. Ryan opened the door and looked at the beautiful, shy yet confident girl that was standing in front of him. Or woman she was definitely a woman…a woman with a mission. Marissa.
'Well you're definitely not Seth…' Ryan said. 'Hey' he added Marissa raised her hand and gave him a slight wave. 'Come in.' Ryan stepped aside and let Marissa in. He closed the door and both looked at each other. Green/Blue eyes locked with deep ocean Blue ones.
The little white lies have to be forgotten when a certain someone tries to give you a sign or a certain something; which only confirms what you were thinking and feeling, because then there is no point in denying or lying. Then you are a person with a mission and the mission is to tell the truth even if it will bite you in the as.s later on.
I hope you liked this! Let me know what you think! Love Noor!