Hey guys thanks for the reviews once again it means a lot that you like my fic…I loved this! Anyways I'm hoping you will like this chapter it will be a two or three part chapter I'm not really sure…anyways see for yourself and let me know what you think. Love Noor
Chapter 9: Coming up for air (part 1)
Do you ever wake up with the feeling that you need to memorize everything and set everything straight with the ones you ever fought with. Apologize about every and anything of what you could've done wrong. A day that everything seems worth memorizing. Your sheets, your cushions even the way your PJ's fit.
Marissa sat up in her bed and looked around another bad dream, another one of him, another one where everything was going great between them and then he would just slip away; go towards something she couldn't go to. He was unreachable and she couldn't breathe whenever it happened so she sat up in her bed taking huge gasps of air.
Like something major is going to happen and you don't know if it is actually going to happen, you don't know if your mind is just playing tricks with you or if it is actually making some sense, trying to prepare you for the worst.
'Holy mother of hell…' she said while her breathing returned to normal and her hands had the sheets wrapped around her hands a couple of times due to the intensity of her dream. Marissa looked out at the window and shook her head she tried to clear her mind.
The feeling that the inevitable is coming…well that feeling I woke up with today.
'Marissa…are you coming?' asked Taylor as she walked into Marissa's bedroom and saw her sitting straight up in her bed. Taylor looked at her friend and she looked very scared, her head was all red but her lips were blue and her hands were a ghostly white. 'Marissa are you okay?' she asked as she moved towards the bed and sat on it.
'No I'm not okay…' Marissa said and lay back down her head was pounding and her heart beat was racing but that was just because of the nightmare she just had to relax a little bit.
'Look…Marissa I know we haven't really had a time to bond but I am your friend…and I'm here if you need me…' Taylor said as she looked at Marissa. 'I heard about you and Dr. Atwood-Cohen and I'm sorry…' she added.
Marissa nodded her head and sighed it seemed that everyone knew what was going on with her life except her. At one point she had been numb to everything she ignored him and pretended nothing was wrong when she saw him in the hallway, elevator, stairs she greeted him formally and walked of, but these last couple of days her anger had been craving, craving to give him a little piece of her mind. She loved him she told him she loved him and he didn't say that he loved her she asked him to choose her but he didn't choose her.
'Thanks…' Marissa said as she looked into her compassionate friend's eyes.
'Maris you really need to get changed we're going to be late for work, Dennis is already waiting and Summer is taking a shower.' Taylor said again.
'I don't feel well…I don't think I'm going to work…' Marissa said as she pulled the sheets over her slightly cold body and tried to sleep again.
'Coop you're not sick you're hurt…and that's normal but you can't hide from him or the issue…you just can't you have to deal with it and live in the now…and that sucks I know, but we're there.' Summer said while she was drying her wet hair.
'Who's presenting?' Seth asked as he walked into the room with one patient and four interns.
'Dr. Roberts.' Dr. Bailey said as she looked at one of her interns. Summer looked at the patient and nodded her head.
'Patient's name Travis Lorry age 42 has been complaining about chest pains, irregular heartbeats, dyspnea and dizziness.' Summer said as she looked at Dr. Seth Cohen who was standing in the room on the opposite side of her looking at the patients chart, and she couldn't be more attracted to him.
'Good job Dr. Roberts.' Seth said as he put down the chart of the patient who was lying helplessly on a hospital bed and who was trying to figure out what was wrong with him. 'Mr. Lorry...' Seth began but was soon cut of by the patient who told him in a really sweet but nervous voice just to call him 'Travis'. Seth smiled and nodded his head. 'Travis were going to conduct a test, which is called an EKG, it helps to see what exactly is going on.' Seth said again, Travis nodded his head and closed his eyes.
'My wife…she will be here soon…they said they called her, but…' Travis began this time Seth cut him off and put his hand on his shoulder. 'Travis don't worry if they said your wife would be here soon then your wife is going to be here soon.' he said nodding his head towards Summer who followed him outside.
Ryan walked through the halls where he saw his brother roll out a man in his late thirties begin forties, Dr. Roberts was walking next to him and looked back at the woman who was holding his hand and saying something that made him happy it was probably his wife. His wife who was standing next to him while he was sick, his wife who was there just like she promised she would when she took those vows, 'in sickness and in health', she was true to her word.
Ryan shook himself out of his daydream and saw Marissa at the end of the hallway he saw her standing there staring at him she was looking lost in thought until she snapped out of it and her eyes turned ice cold and filled with hurt they locked eyes and just when she could feel that feeling again the feeling she always got when she looked into his beautiful clear blue eyes the feeling like she was drowning, she walked away as fast as she could she started to walk away.
'Marissa…wait!' Ryan said as she followed her once again, chasing after her through the hallways.
'I have been waiting for you to choose for you to make up your mind…' she said while she looked at him. 'I love you…and you chose her…you don't have the right to ask me to wait…and you don't get to chase after me, I'm not just running towards something…I'm running away from you…because I can't be around you, I can't be around someone I love and who doesn't love me back, I can't be around someone who I was already picturing my future with…you broke me and I need to fix me again but I can't do with you chasing after me…so no I will not wait!' she added with a cold stare and walked away from him to the silent hall where she could think.
Ryan shook his head and leaned back against the wall he let out a sigh, things were really not going in his favour these previous days and he could only blame himself for it. 'Damn it' he said while bringing a hand to his tired face. He was tired of this, too tired of it but she was right, he had let her on they had been falling in love and he had let her believe he was in love with her too, which he still was, he just couldn't…just couldn't.
He watched her back one more time before regaining his composure and walking away, as Theresa once said it was what he did best. He walked through the halls and saw one of the other interns he believed her name was Dr. Townsend he walked towards her and tapped her on her shoulder she turned around and almost choked on her drink, Dr. Atwood-Cohen just tabbed her on her shoulder the most famous neurosurgeon there was and he tapped her on her shoulder. For a brief second she forgot he had been sleeping with one of her friends, and then he had crushed her but still he was her boss, her boss's boss.
'Sir?' she asked as she looked at him and he smiled he had his scrubs on meaning he was going to perform a surgery.
'Care to scrub in on an Aneurysm surgery Dr. Townsend?' he asked as he already started to walk to his OR. Taylor blinked a couple of times before shaking her head.
'Seriously?' she asked while still blinking repeatedly.
'Seriously, now come on before I change my mind I need to get my mind of off things and the best way to do that is to safe someone's life.' he walked away but Taylor never followed him he turned around and saw she was still in shock, he would have been too if someone like Dr. Purdy would've asked him to scrub in on one of his surgeries personally. 'Now come on Townsend I don't have all day!' he yelled at her.
Taylor got out of her trance and jumped up she laughed and the nurses looked up, she stuck her tongue out at them and walked away while mumbling 'jealous nurses'.
'Mr. Lorry the EKG showed us what is called an enlarged heart demand rapid follow-through' Summer began. 'It a type of a cardiomyopathy…' she added. Travis Lorry and his wife Catherine Lorry looked at her as if she was speaking Chinese.
'Travis what it means is that the left ventricle of the heart's main pumping chamber loses force and becomes stretched and enlarged the muscle becomes thicker in the left ventricle, which has more power, but it now can't pump the blood out as efficiently as before and the heart may stiffen in addition to undergoing outflow obstruction…which is why you have been having those chest pains…it's what we call a flabby heart.' Seth finished while holding his shoulder he still felt he wasn't good at this part of his job, even though he didn't make any sarcastic or ironic comments it was still very mind blowing to tell a person all these medical stuff.
'What does that mean exactly…I mean is it…fixable…?' Travis's wife spoke up for the first time since they had come into the room after they had rolled him away.
'Yes it is…I want to give you a pacemaker for many patients it's a lifesaver that can improve heart function.' he said.
'But there's a catch…right there's always a catch.' Catherine said as she held her husband's hand and let the tears roll down her tired and worried face.
'Yes there are risks but every surgery has risks, right now this is the best shot you got both of you.' Seth said. Travis looked at his wife and she looked at him they had a look of understanding they always did that with just a matter of a look. He looked at Summer and then at Seth and gave him a nod with a small smile. Seth nodded back and winked at them and then walked out of his room Summer followed.
It was late and both Summer and Seth were tired they had just preformed the surgery on Mr. Lorry which had been successful, but it didn't mean they weren't tired. Catherine was happy to hear everything had been okay.
'Dr. Cohen that was amazing I never saw a pacemaker so close to a heart…it was amazing!' Summer said as she was sitting in the small office with Seth he nodded his head while smiling.
'Yeah it always is…' they looked at each other and soon looked down both embarrassed.
'Well thanks for letting me scrub in Dr. Cohen.' She said while getting up and walking towards the door, but Seth stopped her with his hand and turned her around quickly, Summer didn't even had time to comprehend what was happening, she just felt his lips meet hers in a soft sweet kiss. His cologne was soft and sweet just like his kiss, but it faded away quickly when he retreated his lips away from hers.
Seth gave her a small smile and his thumb touched her cheek, he stepped back a little and Summer let her feet stand flat on the ground again. 'Your welcome.' He said and walked away, smiling to himself as he did.
'Sir I'm an intern I don't know how to do this I'm a student!' she screamed hysterically at the out of control man.
'You said you were a doctor!' he yelled back while walking closer to her and confronting her with the gun he had been holding the entire time.
'I am…I'm just a doctor in practice…I can't…' she said again while the tears escaped her eyes.
'Listen Dr. Cooper…you have to help my buddy the cops shot him and if you don't help him I'll shoot you…now HELP HIM!' he screamed while pushing the gun against her temple.
'Okay…okay…!' she yelled back while the tears kept streaming.
'What the hell!?!' the chief as he saw everything displayed in front of him because of the security cameras. 'What is he doing?' he asked one of his security guards they shook their heads. 'She is one of my interns…and she is now a hostage, call the police right now!'
Summer sat in the office still completely mesmerized by the kiss she just had her pager beeped frantically and she was shaken out of her thought looking at it she thought she was going to see 911 but what she confused her 'Code Green' it said what did that mean.
Seth was checking on Mr. Lorry to see if her was doing okay and if his body was not having any other negative side affects it didn't, so he too had done his job good today again, he smiled and shook his head it was again a very enthralling day he had kissed an intern one thing he never would've done a few years back, not because he was an attending and she was an intern but because it was so mind blowing and she was so breath taken beautiful he never would have thought he actually stepped the nudge up, but he did he kissed her. He looked at his pager which was beeping frantically along with some other pages which he heard in the distance and when he looked at the message it said 'Code Green' he had to breathe again, he saw other doctors run to the hallway so he did too he followed them.
'Dr. Townsend, could you get that?' Ryan said as his pager began to beep, Taylor nodded her head and walked away from the operating table and towards the little table with all the pagers, one was beeping it was Dr. Atwood-Cohen's one.
'And?' Ryan asked as he turned to her a little.
'Uhm they asked if you were almost done and when you are if you could come to the hall to see the chief.' She said while trying to think of something else they could have possibly said.
'Nothing more?' Ryan asked he knew no one disturbed each other during a surgery if it wasn't something critical or serious.
'No…but your pager said 'Code Green'…what does that mean.' She asked and looked around at the other doctors and scrub nurses who all looked at each other. 'Dr. Atwood-Cohen what does it mean?' she asked again.
'I'm almost done here…' he said while continuing to sew his patient up, Taylor looked at every other human being in the OR room, she didn't know what it was she was only an intern, and was it bad.
'Oh, God…I…I need a scalpel!' Marissa said while she put on her gloves, she grabbed the gloves and put the scalpel's sharpest side to the bleeding man's chest.
'Did you lock the doors!' the big man yelled who was still holding the gun against her temple, Marissa took the scalpel away again quickly.
'Yes I did!' she yelled back.
'If he dies…you're gonna wish you never woke up today' the man said in a dangerous scary low voice.
Marissa again put the scalpel to his chest just merely centimetres next to the bullet, she drew in a huge gasp of air, she tried to breath come up for air but the harder she tried the harder it got. 'Oh god…' she said while she cut into the man's chest with a gun pushed into the side of her head.
Sometimes you got to listen to that feeling to that little voice in your head that tries to tell you all kinds of things but you simply block it out because you think it's just your mind playing tricks on you. You notice when it isn't when it's already to late when there's no turning back, when there's no oxygen left for you to breathe, when there is just simply no air.
Okay I hope you liked what I did with this chapter just let me know what you think! Love Noor!