It was pouring rain. I lay on my bed staring at the ceiling of the cabin, listening to the patter of the raindrops. I was alone for the moment, since Tanya went up to the house. Try as I might, I could not escape the anger that consumed me every time I thought of my last encounter with Leah. I thought that I would be distracted enough with Tanya being here to forget my whole infatuation with Leah completely. However, I underestimated the depth of my feelings for the shape shifter. She more than intrigued me. She more than inspired my lust. I never actually had to pursue a woman before. Not even in my human life. I guess you could say I was spoiled where women were concerned. It was almost funny that the one woman I did want didn't want me.
However, when I replayed in my mind what happened between us in the tent, I just knew she had to be bluffing when she said she wanted me to leave her alone. I closed my eyes to better visualize the scenes replaying in my mind. As I held Leah in my arms, she clung to me like she would never let me go. When she looked into my eyes, I saw adoration, not disdain. As much as I wanted to make love to her, I knew I didn't want our first time to be when she was in heat. I wanted her to want me in mind as well as in body. So, I gave her orgasm after orgasm with just my hands and my mouth. After each orgasm, I held her and soothed her. Those moments meant more to me than anything else in my life so far.
When the fever in her blood diminished, I assumed our relationship would change for the better. I wanted her with me always, and I was ready to declare myself. I also assumed she felt the same way about me. However, I did not expect her hostility and anger. It was like a slap to my face. I stormed out of her tent angry and confused.
I went up to the house to talk to Carlisle. I liked talking to him because he was so compassionate and wise. When I arrived at the house, I was completely surprised to find Tanya there. Apparently, she was bored, so she came down from Alaska to visit. As soon as I saw her, a plan began to form in my mind. Maybe if Leah saw me with Tanya, it would force her to realize she had feelings for me. It was a childish plan, but I was so angry with Leah that I didn't care.
So, I spent every moment I could with Tanya, hoping Leah would see us. Tanya even stayed with me in my cabin. The first night with Tanya was awkward because she assumed we would just fall back to our regular routine. She was a little hurt that I didn't want to have sex with her. I explained my situation to her, and she seemed excited that I had found someone to love, though I could see in her eyes that she was sad. I must admit that it never occurred to me that I would be able to make Tanya sad because I knew how much she loved Edward. I supposed that she loved me too in her own way. Nevertheless, she understood what I was trying to do with my plan, and she was willing to help in any way she could. Unfortunately, after the one time Leah did see me and Tanya together, she never came around again. I don't know why, but this made me even angrier. I had never met anyone so stubborn.
I sighed. Maybe it was time for me to leave for a while. Maybe if I was gone long enough, my anger and frustration would subside. I tuned into the sound of the patter of raindrops again. I don't know how long I listened to the rain before I detected the sound of a heartbeat. I knew who it was. I was intimately familiar with this heartbeat. I lay on the bed, letting my feelings overwhelm me. All of my hurt, anger, frustration, confusion, and desire filled my entire being. Then I was out the door in a flash. I was going to hell anyway. Might as well have fun along the way.
I was in complete predator mode. She was my prey. As soon as she heard the door to my cabin open, she bolted. I tracked her scent easily. She was fast, but I was faster. I caught up to her before she reached the river. She was in her wolf form, but I didn't let that stop me. I immediately attacked. I grabbed a hold of her, and like our first meeting, she phased into her human form.
"Let me go!" she screamed.
I decided not to answer her. Her naked body was slippery because of the rain, but I kept my grip on her, though she tried to wriggle free. I ran back to my cabin with my captive, and roughly threw her on the bed. She lay stunned.
"Go ahead . . . scream" I said menacingly.
With her eyes still on me, I slowly undressed.
"What do you think you're doing? Have you gone crazy?" she gasped as I approached her. Once my weight hit the bed, she bolted to the other side. I quickly grabbed her ankle, and dragged her body back to the center of the bed.
"We have some unfinished business" I said as I grabbed her wrists and pulled her arms over her head. Her legs were thrashing, so I quickly clamped her legs with mine.
"If you're doing what I think you're doing, you're going to have to rape me" she yelled.
"Do you think I won't?" I laughed mockingly down at her.
She tried to twist her body away, but without the use of her hands and legs, she had no leverage. I lowered my face to her neck, and kissed her there. Her body became still. I kissed along her jaw line, down the column of her neck, and across her collarbone. Slowly, I shifted both of her hands into one of my hands, so I had a free hand to touch her. I traced my hand down her face, over the curve of her breast, and along her stomach.
"No! Don't!" she yelled again as my hand started to trace the shape of her femininity.
Then it became clear to me. Her resistance was an act. I chuckled as I felt the wetness between her legs. She wanted me.
"You're such a little liar" I said as I released her hands and legs.
She lay there motionless for a moment, and then to my great surprise instead of fleeing the cabin she reached for me and kissed me. Her hands were gripping my head and her fingers were threaded in my hair. I kissed her back with all the passion that had been building up inside me. She spread her legs, and her thighs cradled my body. I broke off the kiss and stared into her eyes. Then I slowly thrust myself deep into her core, never breaking eye contact. Her flesh tightened around my cock, and she was so warm. I had never felt warmth like this before. Once I was fully seated within her, we both groaned.
"Long and hard" she whispered.
"What?" I asked confused.
"I want you to make love to me long and hard" she said simply.
Without bothering to reply, I started to thrust into her, slowly at first, than harder and harder. She met me thrust for thrust, and soon we were both panting harshly. The pleasure was unbelievable. I felt venom flood my mouth, and I felt the urge to bite her. To control myself, I concentrated on my rhythm. In, out, in, out . . .faster, harder . . .
All too soon, I felt her body start to contract and I knew she had reached her climax. The feel of her throbbing around my cock was almost unbearable. The sensation was incredible. Before I could reach my climax, I pulled out of her, stroked myself once, twice, and a third time before I erupted on the sheets of the bed.
I lay next to her, listening to her heartbeat slow down. I was euphoric.
"That was amazing" I said.
"But not without a fight" she whispered. That was when I realized she was crying.