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"Leah, what's wrong" Jensen asked with such concern that more tears slipped from my eyes. I'm soo stupid! I berated myself. How could I have let myself go like that!?! I grit my teeth. Damn my traitorous body! I will make fucking sure I never slip up again.
I sighed, turned towards him and said, "There's nothing wrong. I guess I'm just a little overwhelmed."
Seeming satisfied with my answer, Jensen lay back down, and pulled me to his side. I was still angry at myself, but I knew better than to take my anger out on Jensen again. We were silent, just listening to the rain and wind. It would be so easy to just let go of my guard. But I knew how this would end, before it even began. I sighed again. I was so tired, so I closed my eyes, and slowly drifted to sleep.
I was so excited I could hardly contain myself! Emily was coming! I haven't seen her in so long, but we talked religiously over the phone. When we were younger people used to think we were sisters. I really wished that she were my sister. Instead I got stuck with Seth. Oh well, none of that mattered! All that mattered was that I was going to be seeing Emily today!
I heard the knock on the front door of my house, and I flew out of my room to open it before anyone else could. It wasn't Emily on the other side of the door, but it was my most favorite person in the whole world, so I couldn't be disappointed.
"Sam!" I said, right before I launched myself into his arms.
He chuckled and said, "Wow, I should come over more often."
Because I couldn't help myself, I grabbed a hold of his face, and kissed him. I loved his bottom lip, so I immediately claimed it and sucked it into my mouth.
"Ew! Gross! Get a room" I heard Seth say behind me.
I broke off the kiss, spun around, and glared at my brother.
"Mind your own business, twerp."
Seth rolled his eyes, and sauntered into the kitchen.
I pulled Sam into the house, and we sat in the living room. I was still so excited; I was practically bouncing on the couch. Sam, Emily, and I were going to go down to the beach and meet up with some friends. Sam promised he would show us how to cliff dive. I had seen Sam and his friends doing it, and it looked exhilarating. I knew Emily would have a good time.
"So, when's your cousin supposed to get here?"
"Any minute now. I'm soo excited, Sam! Now, we have to remember not to make her feel uncomfortable. I don't want her to feel like a third wheel, so we have to calm down on all the PDAs, okay?"
Sam saluted me and said, "Aye, aye Captain!"
At that moment, the front door swung open, and a familiar figure came into view.
"I'm here!" Emily yelled.
I jumped off the couch and practically tackled Emily. "I'm soo glad you're finally here!"
Then we stepped back from each other and just stared, looking at the changes the years had made to our bodies and faces.
"Wow, Em, you are gorgeous!"
"Jeez, Leah, I don't know how you can say that when you look like a supermodel! How tall are you anyway?"
"I know, it's shocking. I must be 5' 9", but I hope this growth spurt stops. Luckily, my boyfriend is tall too. Which reminds me . . . " I turned towards Sam, and was startled to find he was right behind me. He was staring at Emily, and he had a strange expression on his face. He looked dazed. To snap him out of it I introduced him to Emily.
"Um, Sam, this is my cousin Emily. Emily this is my boyfriend Sam."
Emily blushed and looked down from Sam's intense stare. "It's nice to meet you Sam" she said, and peeked at him from under her lashes.
I stared at the two of them wondering at the sudden electricity that filled the air. What the fuck is going on?
"Hmmm, okay . . . why don't we go to the beach? Sam promised to teach us how to cliff dive. Come on, I'll show you where you can put your things, and we'll head on out"
Suddenly, Sam snapped out of his daze and said, "Leah, I have to go. Sorry" and ran out.
What the hell? I stood, staring at Sam's retreating back. I could feel myself flush, and I turned towards Emily to see her reaction. She, too, was staring at Sam's retreating back.
"Um, sorry Em. I don't know what Sam's problem is. We could still go to the beach, if you want."
"It's okay, Leah. I'm fine just hanging out here at your house. Let's go to your room and catch up" Emily said quietly.
The next day was the worst day of my life. I slept in because Emily and I were up late talking. When I woke up, I realized Emily was gone. Thinking she was already in the kitchen eating breakfast, I headed that way. Seth was there as usual, but no Emily.
"She's not here" Seth said.
"Where did she go?"
"I don't know. Someone knocked on the door, and then she grabbed her jacket and took off."
A suspicion crept into my mind, so I turned to the phone and dialed Sam's number. The phone rang a couple of times, and then I heard Sam's mother's voice when she picked up.
"Hello"
"Hi, it's Leah. Can I talk to Sam?"
"Oh, Hi Leah. Sam's not here. Do you want to leave a message?"
My heart sank into my stomach, and it was suddenly hard for me to breath. I took a couple of deep breaths to make sure my voice sounded steady.
"No . . . no message. Thank you" I said and hung up the phone.
I stood there, with my hand still on the phone, and my mind racing. Sam and Emily couldn't be together. They just met yesterday! Sam wouldn't do that to me. Emily wouldn't do that to me. I slowly walked out of the kitchen and back to my room. I got ready for the day and refused to entertain my imagination. When Emily still had not returned, I decided I would go and look for her. I walked around the reservation, and when I didn't see her, I decided she might have gone down to the beach. As I got closer to the beach, I noticed a couple sitting next to each other on one of the driftwoods that littered the coast. Even from a distance, I knew it was Sam and Emily. I stopped walking as my heart started to pound and my breathing started to come out in gasps. No! No!!! This had to be some joke! After a few minutes of staring at them, I became filled with determination. I ran the rest of the way to them, and they glanced up when they heard my approach.
"What the fuck is going on?" I yelled at them. I knew I was flushed from my anger, and I could feel myself breathing harshly. I stood aggressively with my hands clenched at my sides, ready to do battle.
Sam stood up, and he had an anguished look on his face. He stepped towards me, and when it looked like Emily was going to stand too, he turned towards her and told her to stay.
"Leah, we need to talk" he said calmly when he was facing me again.
"No Shit Sherlock! What the fuck do you think you're doing?!"
"Leah . . . can we sit down and talk like adults?"
"Don't use that fucking condescending voice with me! Just tell me what's going on?"
"Leah, I'm sorry but we're over" Sam said bluntly.
Suddenly, my bravado wavered. My eyes started to burn, and I could feel the tears threatening to fall.
"What!?! Why?? How can you say that? We love each other!" I practically whimpered.
I could see the pain on Sam's face, and I felt a flicker of hope. Maybe this was some sort of misunderstanding!
"I was in love with you Leah, but something happened to me that is more powerful than love. I can't explain it to you, but trust me. We are over." Sam quietly said, turned, and sat down next to Emily again. She looked at me, and for a second I thought she was going to get up and come to me, but then I saw Sam's arm around her, keeping her seated.
I stared at them for a moment, while Sam's words registered in my mind. Then all I wanted was escape. I turned around and started running. I had no destination is mind. I just kept running until I had no more strength to run. I finally tripped and fell. I didn't even bother to get up. I curled into a ball and cried where I lay. I must have cried for hours because when I finally picked myself off the ground I realized it was dark and raining. I was numb, and the only thought I had was that no one even came to look for me.
"Leah, wake up. You're having a bad dream."
I softly moaned as the angelic voice filtered into my sub-consciousness, but then someone was gently nudging my shoulder, and I woke up. I blinked a few times wondering where I was. Then it all came back to me. I was in Jensen's cabin, and I had fallen asleep.
The dream was still lingering in my mind, but that was because it wasn't just a dream. It was more like a memory because that is exactly what had happened on that fateful day that Sam had imprinted on my cousin. I didn't know at the time that Sam had imprinted, but since I had imprinted I could now understand how he was able to break up with me.
It still didn't mean that I was ready to let Jensen know I had imprinted on him. I never wanted to feel the pain and anguish that I had felt the day that Sam broke up with me. Jensen seemed to like me enough right now, but Sam was in love with me and look how that turned out. Besides, vampires didn't imprint and they were easily distracted. No, I couldn't let him know he was my soul mate, but I was self-fish. I would take what he wanted to give, and try to be strong enough to let him go whenever he decided to leave.