The first Soriku I've done that's actually about the pairing. It was hard to write from Sora's POV because I was trying to make it depressing while maintaining his constant state of hyper-happy. The lemon was hard too because in this he still has a semi-innocent mind. Come on, me being innocent?

Featuring: Nymphomania! Desperation! And… CANDY!

Morning. No, not morning, it's almost midnight and Riku's bed's still damp. I don't know where Riku is, probably at the store or something. You'd think he would've woke me up but it doesn't really matter. Or maybe he did wake me up and I forgot. That's probably what he'll say anyway.

After a while Riku shows up, smoking a cigarette and smirking because he knows I hate it. He shoves a Twix bar in my mouth and leaves. No explanation, he doesn't even say 'hi'. So I'm left in his bed that's still damp and I'm still naked, then I feel like a slut because I'm naked and his bed's damp and I don't even care because I'm used to it. I don't mind feeling like a slut though, I mean if I am one then that's what I am so what's the big deal?

When I'm done with the candy that Riku got me I get dressed and walk out to the TV room. His mom isn't there so I guess home yet, which is good because it's always awkward when she's home. It's not that she has a problem with us; actually she supports it and it's really awkward.

Riku's sitting on the couch playing some shooter; he doesn't react when I sit next to him, not even when I wrap my arms around his neck. I almost wish he'd push me off or move away, at least act like I exist but he doesn't. He did get me candy though. I stay wrapped around him until he starts to get up; he picks me up like a princess and carries me to his room.

All the work I put into getting dressed is wasted in a few minutes because Riku's so good with his hands. I feel good because now his eyes are on me again, seeing them focused on mine is enough to drive me crazy and I'm moaning for him the minute his fingers touch my skin. By the time his mouth reaches my ear I'm almost screaming.

"Sora." He says it in a groan. I'm glad I can still do that to him. I can make him look at me and want to look at me. Knowing I'm still something to him is almost as good as coming, when he's all gentle and he loves me. He doesn't prepare me; we just did it a few hours ago so I don't really need it. When he's finally done teasing he pushes slowly in, he's groaning again, I can barely hear it because I'm so damn loud. He says he likes it though, and I can tell he does. He starts moving, still slow and gentle, and he's talking to me the whole time.

"I love you. I love you. I love you."

I can see his eyes, they're shining in the dark, people say it happens when you OD on mako but I know he wouldn't do that. He's smiling and looking at me and he can't stop saying it.

"I love you. I love you. I love you."

Just that's enough to drive me crazy, his hands on me and his eyes locked on mine while he's moving inside me. He starts stroking me and I lose control. I almost wish he would just hold still so I could keep it here, keep his eyes locked on mine, but I'm still begging for more. It wasn't much longer before I hit my climax, screaming and squirming. He kept going for a few minutes before I feel that familiar heat inside. He buries his face in my neck and I can feel his breath, warm and wet.

Eventually he moves off to lie next to me, one arm around my waist and the other petting my hair. I hope he'll stay this time, I love waking up next to him.

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I wake up to the sound of the phone ringing, I notice Riku's already showered and dressed so I guess he didn't stay. He picks it up then glares at me after talking a little. He walks over, his hand covering the receiver.

"Did you tell Kairi you'd be here?"

"No I just told everyone I'd be away all break."

I know he doesn't believe me. I'm not sure why. I mean why would I tell Kairi? I was going to see her pretty much all the time when we got back to school. But he doesn't think of that, just rolls his eyes and thrusts the phone in my face.

"Hello?"

"Sora?"

"Hi Kairi!" I have to sound cheerful or she'll feel bad… I think.

"I thought you'd be away all week."

"Yeah… turns out my mom has to go take care of my grandma so I'm staying at Riku's." I'm surprised I came up with that, I'm not usually good at lying.

She giggled. "Having fun over there?" I can hear the suggestion in her voice but she doesn't know that Riku and I have sex.

"Yeah, we've just been playing video games and stuff."

"Oh." She's relieved, why's she relieved? "When are you coming home?"

"I don't know. Break's almost over anyway."

Riku comes back in, grabbing the phone. "Kairi, he'll see you in school, alright?" He hangs up before she has a chance to say anything and turns to me. "What did you talk about?"

"Not much, just my being here and stuff."

"You still like Kairi don't you?"

"She's my friend Riku. That's all."

"Look, it's okay if you do like Kairi, I mean you liked her for a long time when we were kids."

"That was when we were kids, I moved on."

"It's not that easy."

"Do you still like her?"

"Of course not! I'm gay!"

"And I'm not?!"

"Look, I'll understand if you still like her. I just don't like you lying about it."

I can't take it anymore. He's messing with me again; he knows I hate that, when he treats me like a little kid. So before I know what I'm doing my fist is in his face. Because he does this whenever either of us talks to Kairi. Then he shoves me down and straddles me, one hand loosely around my neck.

"You didn't need to do that. Use words."

"I don't like Kairi. She's my friend, and I care about her. You're the most important one, Riku."

He slaps me. "You're still lying!" He shuts his eyes tight. I think he's crying, I'm crying too because it's the first real hitting fight we've had since we were kids, then I'm crying more because we promised Ven that we'd always smile but I'm not and Roxas doesn't much anymore. Not anymore.