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Revised: August 22, 2006 (Brit-picked).
Chapter 3--Never Leave Your Heart Alone
Sirius awoke to an empty bed and the sound of dishes clattering in the kitchen. He rose slowly, stretching his body out luxuriously, and slowly trotted his way into the kitchen. He heard music coming from the same contraption that it had yesterday, playing softly. Man, she's always listening to depressing music, he thought drowsily.
What if there was no light
Nothing wrong, nothing right
What if there was no time
And no reason, or rhyme
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life
What if I got it wrong
And no poem or song
Could put right what I got wrong
Or make you feel I belong
Jessica moved expertly around her kitchen as she prepared her normal breakfast, a steaming cup of hot chocolate, a chocolate chip muffin, and a few pieces of bacon. She was by no means the healthiest eater, but, as she reminded her friends who harped on about her eating habits, you only live once.
Sirius sat in the kitchen silently watching her sip the chocolate from her mug, waiting for her to notice him. She finally looked up from her breakfast, a soft smile forming on her lips when she saw him. "Hi, sweetie, are you hungry?" she asked as she moved to the refrigerator pulling more lunch meats from it. She quickly made him breakfast, before returning to hers.
"Okay, I hope you can stay here all by yourself for a couple of hours, because I don't know anyone who can or will be willing to watch you," she said placing her dirty dishes into the dishwasher. "I'll come home on my lunch break, to feed you and let you out for a walk. Hopefully, you can hold your bladder until then," she said, the last part more to herself than to him. "I'll also run to the grocery store and grab some dog food," she said smiling at him, as if this was good news, mimicking her moves from before by placing his dishes into the dishwasher.
I won't be eating it, Sirius thought stubbornly to himself.
"Oh, and before I forget, I made you an appointment with my boyfriend, Fin, he's a vet, obviously," she said to him while grabbing her satchel, purse, and moving to the door. She placed the items back on the floor, patted her legs softly calling him to her. Sirius trotted over to her, and closed his eyes as she pleasantly scratched behind his ears, "Be good, okay, I'll be back before you know it," she said gathering her belongings once more and walking out of the door.
Sirius walked over to the window, standing on his back paws, peering out of the glass, making sure Jessica had indeed left. Once he was satisfied that she was gone he transformed back into his human form, giving a long stretch. He frowned slightly at the thought of Jessica having a boyfriend, but quickly pushed the thought from his mind.
Sirius casually walked into the bathroom to relieve his aching bladder, which Jessica had neglected that morning, "She better learn to let Padfoot out in the morning, if she doesn't want mess all over her floors," he said absently as he washed his hands.
Sirius then decided to take a long shower to allow his thoughts of the previous night to settle. Turning the water to just below scalding, Sirius stripped, and then quickly stepped in, groaning as the water beat pleasantly onto his back.
It'll be easy to get information from her, because she thinks I'm a dog, therefore she'll be willing to tell me her secrets, he thought because he knew she wouldn't think him capable of telling anyone her private thoughts. She's relatively clean; he thought as he grabbed her shampoo and began washing his hair.
As he washed the shampoo out of his hair, his mind drifted back to the prophesy and Dumbledore's words, 'Guided by the Dog-Star, Matrimony extends him...you'll need her,' What can I possibly need from her? She's a child, romance is definitely out of the question, I'm too old for her.
Although Sirius was physically 28, he still held the mind of a 40-year old, and it had become hard for him to think of himself as a young man.
Sirius stepped out of the shower and placed one of Jessica's towels snuggly around his waist. He looked through her drawers and cabinets, finally finding the item he needed, a toothbrush. He then performed a spell to switch clothing from his apartment to Jessica's and changed quickly into them.
Sirius then decided to investigate her apartment, Let's start in the bedroom, he thought walking towards the room. He decided to begin with this room because it would tell him more about her personality than any of the other rooms and it would help him get inside her mind and help him gain her trust once she found he was actually a man.
Sirius walked into Jessica's bedroom looking around at the eclectic master bedroom, taking in the artwork, which looked homemade, and the guitar sitting in the corner with a small notebook and pencil. He walked over to the notebook, debating about whether to look through it or not. Letting his curiosity get the better of him, he lifted the book and began to read. It'll help me get to know her better, he reasoned with himself.
Sirius sat on her bed reading through her inner most thoughts, which were written out in diary form and then rewritten as poems. He marveled at how one person could evocate their feelings so thoroughly. He sat reading her diary for hours, delving deeper into her mind and feelings with each turning page. He paused at one page in particular as the words burned into his mind.
And it's open
for distraction
you found all the words you need
Well I found nothing
I just grumble
'cause I don't know what I feel
The door opening pulled Sirius from his reading and he quickly put the notebook back in its place, before quickly morphing into his animagus form. He trotted into the living room, hearing Jessica call for him.
"Hey there, boy," she said greeting him with a smile, "I've got something for you," she said walking into the kitchen and pulling out various items consisting of two doggy bowls, numerous squeaky doggy toys and dog food.
Jessica washed out the bowls and began filling them with food and water, she sat the food down in front of him and she smiled down at him once again before beginning her own meal.
Jessica was halfway through her meal before she discovered that Sirius hadn't touched his food; he drank the water, but left the food alone. He sat staring at her as if to say I'm not eating that.
"Come on, you have to eat," she said taking another bite of her meal. Sirius only huffed at her, "What? The cashier said that her dog loves that stuff," she said taking a sip of her soda. Sirius growled at her making her eyes widen in surprise. "Fine, fine, here, you can have the rest of mine, you spoiled brat," she said placing her bowl in front of him. Sirius instantly lapped the meal up, giving a pleased sound once he had finished making her roll her eyes. Jessica walked out of the kitchen and towards the door, "I'll be back around five-ish or six-ish, depending on when that she-devil removes her claws from my back...and why I'm talking to a dog is beyond me," she said patting Sirius gently then walking out of the door.
Just as Sirius was about to transform the door opened quickly, "Sirius, come on, hurry, you need to use the bathroom," she said ushering him quickly from the apartment. She sat silently on the steps waiting for Sirius to relieve himself; he stared at her expectantly, "What? Okay, I'll turn around, seeing as you're shy," she said laughing and turning her back to him. You see if you like someone staring at you while you're using the bathroom, he thought while sniffing the ground and quickly relieving himself.
"Okay, in you go," Jessica said letting Sirius inside and then quickly locking the door and heading back to work. Sirius instantly returned back to her bedroom opening the diary to the page he read last.
The words Sirius read in the diary let him see inside of her soul and her heart. The words and dates on the pages let him know when she was happy, sad, angry, or apathetic, and at the moment he knew that she was nursing a broken heart.
The moral to the story goes
Never leave your heart
Never leave your heart... alone
Run for shelter
An umbrella
Fights the rain but not the wind
And I'd be silly
To start preaching
'cause I don't know which point to make
The moral to the story goes
Never leave your heart
In a box
Locked up
With cold cold ice
Never leave your heart
...Never leave your heart... alone
Am I frozen?
But its summer
Is that rain or is that me?
Yes I'm melting
Please be happy
One day soon
We might just swim
The moral to the story goes
Never leave your heart
In a box
Locked up with cold cold ice
Never leave your heart
... Never leave your heart
... Never leave your heart alone
Sirius wasn't sure if Jessica's current boyfriend made her feel this way or if it was the previous one, but he knew that he had a deep hatred beginning to form for whomever made her feel this way.
He couldn't understand where these feelings were coming from, because he had barely spent 24-hours with Jessica. And yet he was already glad to be the one given the assignment because he wanted to be the one to protect her.
He was again pulled from his musings by the door shutting. Once again he put everything in its rightful place; he transformed and made his way into the living room to greet Jessica.
"Ugh, that lady is psychotic," she ranted sitting her things down and throwing herself down on the couch. Sirius immediately jumped on the couch and placed his head in her lap to comfort her.
"Hi," she said a smile forming on her lips when she felt Sirius' head fall into her lap. She absent-mindedly scratched his ears earning pleased sounds from Sirius all the while bashing her boss.
"She's evil and cruel, ugh...today she said she needed a dozen sweaters," she said speaking to Sirius as if he were an actual person. "And, well I asked her what kind of sweaters, you know, like what kind of fabric, color, neck-line, and so on, but was she helpful? Noooo, she told me to bore someone else with my stupid questions," Sirius tried to listen and he normally would have added a soft growl of annoyance towards her boss, but her hands were so soothing, he found himself dosing off.
"Aww, crap, what time is it?" she asked looking at her clock on her cell phone. "Damn, its 6:30, we're going to be late," she said jumping up and grabbing her keys. "Come on Sirius, you've got a doctor's appointment," she said, ushering him out the door.
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I personally adore Coldplay and find their music refreshing and beautiful, but my mother finds it depressing, so that's where the line from the beginning of the story comes from.
Please REVIEW! Chapter 3-4 are finished (completely written and beta-ed). Chapter 5 has been written, but needs to be beta-ed, which I'll send to my beta-reader when she comes back from her vacation. And chapter 6 is almost completely written. Thanks.
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Song: "What If" by Coldplay on the "X&Y" album
Song: "Never Leave Your Heart Alone" by Butterfly Boucher on the "Flutterby" album