The Past Is Now
Disclaimer: I don't own Beyblade or its characters. I don't make profit from the writing of these stories and more often than not my stories will have a possibly upsetting and/or disturbing theme.
Special Notes: I actually don't even own this fic. With Iluvbeyblade 's permission I have decided to write a prequel to her story; The Past Is the Past. In this story I'll take you through what happened in the eight years that destroyed Kai. To read her story please copy and paste the following text into your URL bar, taking out all the spaces; http / www . fanfiction . net / s / 2819200 / 1 /
..::CHAPTER TWO::..
"Hey Ray?" A blue haired teenager stepped out of the dojo, fidgeting nervously Ray observed. It had been a year since Kai had left and he was a healthy sixteen going on seventeen year old. He and Mariah were still going strong and though he had no regrets over breaking up with Kai, he felt a little bit guilty that he was the one who had driven the stoic teen away.
"Ray…I know you're with Mariah and all but…I kinda need help."
Ray stood up from where he had been sitting on the bed and walked towards the door, opening it wider as an invitation for Tyson to come in. "What can I do for you Tyson?" He asked pleasantly, having a fair idea what it was about.
"Well…Max is out in America with his mother…Kenny…well I wouldn't go to him with homework issues, let alone this…and, seeing as Kai isn't here right now…"
"I know where our friends are Tyson. I also live in this house." Ray snapped, he had surprised himself at his harsh tone, that annoying twinge had been set off by the mention of Kai's name and had unsettled him but, being the calm-minded person he was, he smiled apologetically. "Sorry Ty. Had a bit of trouble sleeping recently…what is it you wanted?"
He could have kicked himself because now Tyson looked even more nervous. He placed his hand on Tyson's arm and smiled again, reassuring him that it was safe to go on. "Well…I…I just wanted to know…what's it like?" Ray furrowed his eyebrow in confusion. Before he could ask what Tyson was on about, Tyson had flung himself on Ray and was kissing him as only lovers should.
Ray sharply pulled away, as soon as his brain had registered what was happening. "Tyson what in hells name are you doing?" He asked angrily. He couldn't believe one of his best friends had just forced themselves on him, knowing full well that he was with Mariah!
Tyson's face showed how upset he was. "I'm sorry Ray…I just…I wanted to know what it was like…you know…kissing a guy…" He looked so dejected that Ray's anger virtually dissipated, virtually. It was well known that, like Max, Tyson was struggling to determine his sexual orientation, which was something Ray felt sorry for.
He had gone through the same thing while with Kai. Yes he loved Kai with all his heart but the one time they had slept together he realised it was something similar to sibling love and not…lover love. He had finally come to the conclusion that he was bi, leaning more towards the women, specifically, Mariah. "Tyson I know you're new to all this but…you can't just kiss anyone." He said softly, trying not to make Tyson feel worse. Sighing he stepped forward and repeated the kiss in all ways except this time he was prepared and willing.
Crimson eyes widened as lips meshed together. A dark figure that had just turned the corner of the dojo turned and ran back towards the entrance, his mind replaying the scene he had just witnessed over and over again. He didn't slow his pace until he reached the old abandoned warehouse that had once belonged to the Blade Sharks. Sinking to his knees just short of the huge battle arena in the very centre he gasped for air. "How could you Rei? You were with Mariah…you were with me…was I not good enough for you?"
"Thought I might find you in here Kai." An icy voice flowed through the darkness of the building. Tala stepped into the light portrayed only on and around the beystadium. "I saw you running away from Tyson's place…what happened Kai? You weren't enough for him? You can't have been…he chose both Mariah and Tyson over you."
Tala laid it on thick, he had been angry when Kai had just disappeared from Russia earlier that week. Overjoyed when Kai had turned up a year previously he had gradually worked out his feelings towards the stoic teenager. He'd concluded during the first World Championships that he felt something more than just brotherly love and rivalry but he hadn't been able to put his finger on what it was…now he just wanted to cause Kai enough pain so that he'd come willingly into his arms.
"You don't know anything Tala…go away." Kai hissed, he didn't want to hear this…didn't want to accept this.
Tala chuckled darkly. "I don't know anything? I know more than you know." He said smoothly. "How long has it been since you were last here? One whole year Kai. Bryan, Ian, and Spencer…even I have been here for at least a day in that time." Stepping back as Kai stood up his eyes widened until he decided to give Kai one final shove. "I heard that he was glad you were gone. You meant nothing to him Kai…stop living in delusions."
Next minute he was thrown back as Kai launched himself at Tala. "Don't! I don't want to hear it!" Kai exploded angrily, his fist pounding the ground next to Tala's head. "You're a liar Ivanov!" Tears poured freely from Kai's closed eyes, eyes snapping open in shock as something warm brushed his cheek wiping the tears away.
"Don't cry Kai…you're above him. He's nothing. I am all you'll ever need." Tala sat up, easily unpinning himself from Kai's defeated grip. When Kai shuffled to get off him Tala caught his arms and pulled him back to straddle his own legs. Enveloping him in a secure hold he smirked as Kai slackened against his chest.
He stiffened however when Kai next spoke. "I want to die Tala. All I ever thought I wanted was Rei…then he went to Mariah…I could handle that…I always knew he loved her…I just took what I can and left it…but then…just now…" He looked up at Tala in a child-like fashion. "Why? Why did…? What does Tyson have that I don't? He barely beats me in every beybattle…he's always joking…never serious."
Tala shook Kai to snap him out of this reverie. "Shut up Kai. Rei is an idiot…I've told you he's nothing." He shifts Kai so that they're both sat on the floor, him cross-legged, Kai kneeling. "He doesn't realise how good he had it…you're beautiful, strong…you're everything." He said leaning forward and kissing Kai, silently cheering as Kai returned his kiss. 'Like candy from a baby.' He thinks to himself before breaking the kiss, much to Kai's distress.
"What are you doing Tala?" Kai asked once collecting himself. "You shouldn't like me…I'm a waste of life…I should be dead."
A hard slap across the face sent Kai tumbling to the floor face down, his cheek reddening due to the force of impact. "Never say that again." Tala ground out, breathing heavily, his eyes wild, in a sudden transformation his eyes softened as he knelt next to Kai and. "I'm going to show you how much you're wanted." He whispered in a sudden transformation, taking Kai's jacket in hand and pulling it gently off the boy. He carelessly tossed it aside and lifted Kai up facing him.
"I want…no…need you so badly Kai." He whispers huskily, his fingers trailing down to the depressed boy's trousers, un-tucking the tight purple shirt that concealed so much, yet teased as to what was hidden underneath. Sliding Kai's shirt over his head, Tala trailed his cool fingers down the heaving pale flesh. "You're not eating enough." He chastised. "You're nothing but skin and bones." Kai made as if to get up and push Tala off but, Tala predicting this, pushed Kai back down, his hands pinning Kai's wrists next to his head. " I was only pointing it out." Tala's eyes roamed over the torso of the boy below him, noting mentally that Kai should be harder to pin down then he was.
"What's it really to you, Ivanov." Kai growled. He didn't try to get up again, however, despite the venom in his voice. Being in such a vulnerable state was doing a number on him. What had he always been told? Weakness is the first step towards your own destruction? He had to get the upper hand on this somehow, but Tala wasn't making it easy…when the hell had he become so strong?! Or maybe it was his own weakness that kept him down…maybe his time was up.
Tala frowned, feeling annoyed that Kai's mind was wandering. "Come back to me Kai." He ordered sharply. "You're not allowed to go there." In truth he was afraid of Kai's mind. It held dark secrets that no one could even imagine, secrets kept even from Kai…he was afraid that once Kai's mind got hold of him, it'd be virtually impossible to regain him. Seeing that Kai still wasn't responding he placed his finger tips on Kai's exposed chest, pressed in and dragged his sharp nails down the bulk of his torso, shocking Kai straight back into reality.
"Ivanov!" Kai growled, wincing as the pain settled in. Annoyed as he was with Tala he was startled to find that the emotional pain was lessening as the physical pain took prevalence. Maybe this was what he needed…maybe… He yelped very uncharacteristically as nails were once again drawn down his flesh. "No." Was all Tala said before claiming his body in a sense of lust and dominance.
..::END CHAPTER::..
zekesbabe 's comments
Well…Iluvbeyblade said I couldn't have any self-harming in here…she didn't say ANYTHING about someone else not being able to drag the sharp pointy things through his flesh! SEE! I FIND LOOPHOLES IN EVERYTHING! And this was originally going to be a lemon…but I thought to myself…why? That was such a good place to leave it! I mean…I spent ages trying to work this out because the last bit where Tala inflicted pain on him was KEY to the trigger of Kai's stability…it also brings in the whole idea that Kai's mind is really unbalanced…his own mind is dark and has its secrets…and it's WHEN those secrets become unleashed that Kai turned into the wreck he was! SORRY ILUVBEYBLADE! I wanted to send this to you before I put it up…but this way you get your own surprise! Little warning…next chapter is probably being updated to an M rating!
Iluvbeyblade 's comments:
(giggling fit) Like the loophole in Kai's belt? Tala found that, by the sound of things. (dies of suppressed giggles) Anyway, yeah. Lots of angst coming, guys, just to warn you! Though I did try to make sure the angst-mistress over there didn't lay it on too thickly just yet. And she's promised me that Kai'll only be uke for this chap, so that's great for me and bad for all you uke Kai fans out there! Mwahahaha!!! And personally, I want to kill Tala already. Don't know about you lot. Opinions? REVIEWS!!!
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