''You look tired Bella, you should go to bed now,'' Edward whispered gently.
I sighed and Edward took my hand to lead me up into his room. In front of the door he stopped took me in his arms and carried me through the doorway.
''We have to do this all right,'' he said smiling.
He carried me to the bed and let me rest there. I didn't know why but suddenly I was so tired. Edward lied next to me and sang me into sleep.
I woke up the next day. It was early and I was alone so I stood up, went to the bathroom and got dressed. Then I sat down and looked out the window again. There was no movement outside. I thought about the next day and I knew that my changing wasn't far away now. I was ready I knew it. But there was still the anxiety that I will be an uncontrollable newborn monster. The thought to kill innocent people was unbearable. But on the other hand I knew that Edward will look after me, take care of everything I will do.
And then my thoughts came to Edward and the night we will have together. He will try it, when I thought about that it made me nervous, it made my heart jump.
''Morning my wife,'' a soft voice whispered in my ear.
''Morning.'' I said a bit shocked because it was like he had appeared out of the air.
''Sorry. Did I scare you?'' He asked.
''No not at all,'' I lied.
He laughed and pulled his arms around me. After a moment of silence he said.
''You know that I will kidnap you soon''
''Kidnap me? What do you mean?''
''I thought you might like a small honeymoon.''
''Honeymoon?'' I asked in disbelief.
''Where to?'' I added.
''That's a surprise, I thought we leave tomorrow'' He said smiling
''Tomorrow!!! You don't waste time'' I said still in disbelief.
''It won't be a big deal Bella, just a small trip to a special place.'' He said and kissed my neck.
My things were packed and I stood outside the house. Renee was still here and so I could say goodbye to both of my parents. I could say goodbye for a very long time
''Take care Bella darling,'' my dad said.
''Bye Dad,'' I said silently.
Then my mom took me in her arms and said goodbye too.
After a short farewell I sat in Edwards car and we drove away from Forks.
He was driving very fast. Like always. But this time it was like he was escaping from something which lied behind us. I didn't know where we were going, it didn't matter the only thing which was important was the fact that I was alone with Edward. We talked a lot about the things that had happened and the wedding. So the hours drifted by. It was almost midnight when we reached a small bay deep down in Canada. The next town was far away. I recognized a small cottage between the trees next to the small beach. It was a beautiful place to stay.
''Well... here we are, this is the place I used to stay for a few weeks last year,'' He said.
''It's nice,'' I said happily.
Inside it was even more beautiful. The kitchen and the dining room were one room. It was next to the a small living room with a big sofa and a chimney. It looked really comfortable. Upstairs there were only two rooms, the bathroom and a room with a big bed and a closet. On one side there was a big window from where you could see the bay.
A few hours ago everything was unpacked. Edward tried to cook but I had to help him a lot though his cooking skills became better. The small cottage was very warm and comfortable now because of the fire in the chimney. Edward was happy and we laughed a lot while we were cooking.
''And this is really tasty for you?'' He said and looked down at the vegetable soup
''Try it and you'll see,'' I said laughing.
I took a spoon and a bit of the soup he was working on, and held it in front of his face.
He looked at me disgusted.
''Ew...I don't know if I really want to try th...'' He couldn't say anything else because I threw the spoon into his mouth. I laughed hard because he was looking as if I had given him dirt to eat.
''That's not funny'' He laughed
And so we tried to cook a meal. In the end it wasn't that bad.
An hour later we were sitting at the fire on the sofa in the living room. He had wrapped me into a blanket and held me tightly in his arms. We had no TV so we talked a lot. After another hour talking and laughing we went upstairs. I didn't know why but I was a bit nervous. I sat down onto the bed and he sat next to me.
''Will we try?'' I asked in a low voice.
''Yes we will.'' He whispered while he was kissing my neck and my throat.
I was sure he wasn't breathing now. I knew it was easier for him. He kissed my lips while he leaned over me. Then he was lying over me, I could feel his cold hands as if they were everywhere. His body tense. It was dark now and I couldn't see him but feel him, feel his bare chest, his hands and his lips kissing me again and again.
With movement it became harder for Edward to bear. I could feel that.
''I love you.'' He whispered again and again.
I couldn't say anything it was like my body was frozen. I couldn't think, I couldn't talk, I didn't even recognize that he undressed me. Then he lifted up his head and in the moonlight I could see his face. His eyes were as dark as night and his expression was strained, like he was fighting. I could feel that, he tried to keep control. Sometimes it was like he was loosing it, then his movements became faster and a bit rude. But he could contain himself again very soon. To be so close to him was wonderful, though he was cold as ice, it made me feel even better I liked his cold marble skin. His scent more intense than ever.
''I can't believe what I'm doing here.'' He moaned and laughed silently.
I didn't think that he could behave I thought while I sat at the open window and looked outside. The sunrise was beautiful and I thought about last night. He had behaved and it was great to be so close to him to feel his body and his skin it was all so intense. Now Edward was deep down in the forest hunting. He left early because he didn't want to risk anything.
There was one thing which bothered me. It wasn't the fact that he was gone now it was the barrier between us, the barrier between life and death. It was there and last night I felt it. I knew that I couldn't stay human if I wanted him, I knew this would always be between us. It intensified my decision to become a vampire and I knew that my time was over now. It was time to destroy the barrier between the love of my life and me.
''I'm sorry for leaving you Bella, but you know I had to do it.'' A soft voice said behind me.
''It's okay...thanks for last night.'' I said happily
''You're welcome,'' he said laughing.
''Sorry if I was a bit rude, I'm only human,'' he said jokingly.
We stood there in front of the window and looked out to the horizon. He held me tight and I knew that the last days of my human life had come. A new life was waiting for me a new life together with Edward.
The End