Title: Nightmarish Daydream

Spoilesr: Eclipse
P.O.V: Third person, Jasper's P.O.V.
Time: Post BD.

A/N: This is a spinoff from my multi-chaptered, Carpe Diem. However, it can be totally independent from it, hence why it's not in the multi-chap, but in here. If anyone would like to go read and review, the newest chapter is up!

Before meeting Alice, darkness had been a synonym of danger.

Back when he had been a human, as a child, he had been terrified of monsters. The only idea of not being alone, in a room where he was practically blind, scared him like nothing else. He would always face the door while sleeping, so that he could sweep the room with his frail eyes whenever he wanted.

He brought his phobia of the dark through his teenage years, where his fears of monsters became the fear of thieves and murderers. He knew that his village wasn't safe, and most criminals acted in the cover of the night. Every time there would be a sound, when he had been in bed, he would cower in fear of being murdered in cold blood when his back was to the door.

When he became part of the army, his fears of murderers in the night only became more potent. Now, the dangers weren't outside locked doors; they were on the other side of the no-man's land, only minutes from him. This was why he would often be the one to volunteer for night patrols. This time, there were no doors for him to watch, nothing to shield him from the threats. He would ensure himself that others were safe, that the night would not haunt them like it did him.

Months later, he became a tool of the night. Not only did he need its cover, he had become the creature that he had feared throughout his entire life. As a child, he had feared a monster; as a teenager, it was about murderers; lastly, as a soldier, it had been an enemy.

He had become them all; monster, murderer, and enemy. A vampire, major of one of the most violent army in the South, ready to kill anyone who stood in his path. He wasn't proud of what he'd become, yet he was certain that he had no other choice. He followed the lone rule that his creator had told him: kill or be killed. The survival of the fittest.

But even a monster has emotions.

His fear of the night never left him. Now he was on the prowl, ready to murder, ready to become somebody's worst nightmare, because she had told him that it was the only way. He would have to show who he really was, under the cover the night. The moon would be the only witness to his true personality, the emotions of a coward. When no other were present, he could weep to himself, just like he had done all these years, and hatefully admit that he was terrified.

Peter crossed a line with him, once. He chose to defy his orders, to call him as the monster he never wanted to be. Then he ran away, leaving a broken man behind. His lone friend had left with his mate, running towards dawn as he remained locked in an eternal night.

His daytimes were spent in the dark chambers of his creator. There, he would pretend to be something he was not; a hateful vampire who lived for her and for battling. He would plot alongside her, pretending to revel in the thought of murdering, not admitting his nightmares.

Then Peter came back, and offered him the closest thing he could to a dawn. He could leave with him, where he would spend days outside and nights indoors. He could ignore the darkness with candles and lamps, instead of sneaking through it continuously.

He agreed.

However, he then realized that it just wasn't enough.

There can't be a dawn where there is no sun.

That's why, in the middle of the night, he sneaked out of his friends' home. Once again, he became the monster and the murderer that he had feared. However, never again would he be an enemy. His days as a soldier were long placed behind him, and he would be damned before he would fight another battle.

It was only then that his sun rose high in his sky.

He met her in a little diner. She almost ran him over, excitedly talking and grabbing his hand, as though he was the most important thing to her. He followed her everywhere, basking in her light as she introduced him to his new family. His new home.

She refused to let him call himself a murderer, since he had stopped killing.

She had asked him if she was a monster; when he had said no, she had replied that he was the same as her. Therefore, he had no right to call himself a monster anymore.

His roles during night and day never changed, though. During the day, he was still pretending; pretending to be human, to be a good person, to not want to drink the blood of the person sitting beside him in physics class. During the night, he was still being himself, witnessed only by his beautiful Alice. She accepted him; his fears, his worries, his weaknesses.

Regardless, his sun didn't stay long. Night comes by too fast when one is enjoying the day.

He became, in one instant, a monster, murderer, and enemy again. He broke the promises he had made to his sun, and had failed to keep to the rules. As his life had taught him, failures only meant nighttime.

Alice then taught him that after every night, the sun comes right back up. She stared right through his red eyes to see the broken man inside, the child who was scared of the darkness. He feared being alone, and never once did she let go of his hand when their entire family hugged him, one by one, to tell him that they would not give up on him.

They loved him.

Centuries later, his nights were different.

The monster became the angel.

The murderer became the protector.

The enemy became the lover.

His nightmares turned into daydreams.

A/N: Hi!

For those who are reading Carpe Diem, this is a little story that sprung from it. We all know what Alice's thoughts were about before she fell asleep, and these were Jasper's. Yet when I was editing the chapter, I thought that it was way too deep and metaphorical to be placed in there... So I cut it out and pasted it here...

You know, this is what happens when you tell me that I need to do my ISU. I'm currently doing it on Christopher Marlowe, and the possibility that he wrote Shakespeare's plays... So I read a lot of old English things, which is why I'm currently randomly writing deep things... XD

Hope you liked it!

Take care!