CONQUEST Chapter 11, a high school musical fanfic

CONQUEST

Chapter 11: Pain

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It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck

It was Pay,I froze, I didn't know what to do, I had been caught out and I couldn't do anything now. It was solid proof that I was lying, but I was still gonna try my best to cover it up. I could say that we were practicing dance, learning about it, something, anything.

"Pay" I managed to get out

"You were lying" she said, anger present in her tone

"Pay-no-look I'm sorry" I tried, but she seemed so betrayed

"I told you about him" she sobbed "I warned you and yet you still did it"

Her eyes looked so hurt. Her body told me that she was very angry, betrayed, she really didn't want me to get hurt after all, she really did care, but why, we didn't know each other well. But I wanted to make my own mistakes if this was one, I was prepared to get my heart broken if thats what it took to be with him. She wanted me to be happy, didn't want me t be stupid, but he loved me, he seemed to anyway.

It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me

"Pay" was all I managed

"Forget it" she sighed "You'll just be another fuck"

Troy was livid by this stage. Though he had said nothing, he had become like stone underneath me. But he was keeping calm on the surface, so she didn't know. But I had a feeling it wasn't going to last much more.

"No she won't" he sighed finally

"What Troy once a whore you're nothing more"

"Pay I don't like hitting girls but I swear I will" he sighed, keeping cool and collected

"I love him" I said, jumping from his cub like protection

"Gabi" she scoffed "You're so dumb"

I was inches from her now "What"

"Nobody ever loves Troy" she laughed "They think they do"

"I fucking know I love him" i shouted, drowning the library in my screams

She laughed through her tears "I thought I loved the prick" she shrugged "Heck I really thought he meant it too, he gave me himself, he made me feel so special, you feel like that now Gabi, but please, don't be stupid, not like me"

It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time

"That was a long time ago Pay" I sighed, trying to reason with her

"He didn't tell you did he" she said, gesturing towards Troy

By this stage I was quite confused. He had told me, hadn't he?

"You and him" I said

"Have a son, a one year old Gabi, a fucking child"

I shook my head in horror, not looking back to him. "Liar" I answered "T-roy she's lying right"

"I'm sorry Gabi" his voice was breaking "I got her pregnant and I have a son" he spoke, almost regretting his words

I fell to the floor. I couldn't believe that he had a son. He could have told me. I thought that we told each other everything. I knew that they slept together, but I thought that was all that happened, why hadn't he told me that he had a child. It wasn't the kind of thing you could forget about. Nothing could forgive this. He was a liar and he took my love for granted, I couldn't believe how right she was. He was a liar and I was in love with a man whore, who never even told me about his past. Never told me that he had a son. How could I forgive that?

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

I looked at him. His hands were blocking his face and I heard sniffling. He was crying, acting again, but I wanted to believe that he was sorry, but this was the final straw. He didn't tell me the fact that he had a son.

"Gabi" he said, coming over to me

"Fuck off Troy, leave me alone" I shouted, he flinched backward and stayed frozen to the spot

"I-I-m so-sorry" he stuttered

"You're not" I glared "Bolton's are never sorry"

"I am" he sobbed "Please Gabi I am so sorry, Pay you're such a bitch, I was happy for once and you ruined it-I fucking hate you"

"Me-You're the one who's fucking some random girl after the other"

"I LOVE HER!!!" he roared

They were shouting over me and I didn't know which one to turn to. I wanted Troy physically, and emotionally, he was the one I was meant to be with, but he was such a pathogen, a disease, something that won't go away until you kill it, he was also a liar, a consistent liar, no matter how much I thought he was the one, was that lie forgivable. And there was Sharpay, fighting to save me from him, from the pain she had experienced, she did care, she loved me, as a friend and she wanted me to be happy, to have an easy life, like she wanted.

I didn't know anymore. I thought I had it all figured out but obviously I was wrong.

"You know what" I sighed "I need space to think, you two can kill each other, but I'm going"

It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone

I headed out the hall ways and into the nurses office. I was going to pretend to be sick, so I could stay home and get my head straight. I needed time to process what Pay had just told me, it was another ton of bricks. I knew life was too great, I knew that having sex before marriage would be a bad decision. My head hurt. Where were the painkillers when you needed them?

I headed into the nurses office, there was only one small little bed and a few pills, nothing much to cure this pain I supposed. This was a pain I needed to get rid of by myself.

And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now

"Hey..um..I don't feel well" I said, holding my stomach

The nurse nodded at me, she was a shapely woman in her early forties who wore the orthapedic shoes and the trusted bun of the nurses. She led me to the small bed and allowed me to lie down. Pressing a hand to my head, she frowned.

"You don;t feel warm" she replyed, looking into my eyes

"I have a migraine" I lied, though my head was part of the problem

She eyed me suspiciously, but nodded, allowing me to close my eyes for some much needed thought. Though I was constantly aware of her eyes on me, she was always checking on me, always looking at me. As I lay there though, I tried to get my head sorted. Though it didn't have much avail.

What Troy hadn't told me was so huge that I didn't really know where to start. It wasn't something forgettable I knew that, but it wasn't something that came up in a normal conversation. Maybe the time hadn't been right, I told myself, it wouldn't exactly have been appropriate to tell me during the night we had sex. Though, if he truly loved me he would have waited to see if I was okay with it.

My head spun. I needed to get things right.

I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it

Did he think I would love him any less if he revealed that awful fact?, did he think that I would leave him?, did he really think that I was going to reject him just because he had a child? How little did he think of me. I would have been shocked. Yes. I could admit it, but he wasn't the only person in the world who had a child, and I couldn't hurt him over that. People have children all the time. But this seemed to easy to be true, it had to be something more than that.

Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
I'm hooked on you

Or was it the fact that he just wanted to have sex with me and he was afraid that this would scare him off. I felt that this was the only option I could believe. It seemed the most like him. The others didn't really match up. It pained me to see him like this. It wasn't the way I wanted to think of him, this was the way Pay had seen him, through rose colored glasses, the way she had warned me about, the dangerous way, but I didn't listen. I too was blinded by the color of love. I didn't want to think about it, the pain that seared through me when I thought of a time without him shot through me like a bullet through the heart.

I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this

Tears stung the corners of my eyes, and I soon realized that I was in love with a player. And I couldn't stop. He had reeled me in, like he had so many others, but he had never gotten this far before, hurt someone this deep and cared. He would get over it soon, I knew that much. I wasn't anything special, I was just another notch on his belt, and with that thought I fell asleep with the pain knawing my insides.