GUYS!!! I TOTALLY SCREWED UP!!! I PUT THE NEXT CHAPTER B4 THIS ONE!!! EEEPPP!!! SORRYYY!!! SO I PUT UP THREE CHAPTERS. GOSH I'M SORRYYYY!!!!

Chapter Eight: Maybe I Don't Want to Remember

I ran at a human pace into town and to a book store. I skimmed the young adult section, but in the end, a classic called Wuthering Heights, caught my attention. I curled up on a brown leather couch and read.

About thirty minutes later my phone vibrated.

"Hey." I answered, coolly.

"Bella! Where are you?" Kaya concerned voice yelled.

"At a book store in town. I needed to get away."

"Yea, well, ten minutes ago Edward busted down your door and you were nowhere to be found. He is seriously going psycho," Kaya explained.

"Oh," I said quietly, fiddling with my bracelet.

"Should I tell him where you are?"

"NO!" I yelled, getting glares from other customers.

"We need to leave soon. We're heading to Chicago."

"Oh. Well, I'll make my way back."

"Okay, see you soon."

I hung up the phone and decided to get this book.

I went to the counter and pulled out a ten. The man behind the counter, who looked like he was in his early twenties, stared at me.

"I need to uh…go so…" I motioned towards the book.

"Right. Sorry." He said and looked down, ringing the book up.

"You are Bella Tate, aren't you?" He finally asked.

It was inevitable.

"Yes, I am."

"Wow."

He handed me my book and I hurriedly walked out of the store. I reached into my pocket and found my iPod, something I kept on hand. I slipped one ear bud into my ear and sang along to 'Love Story' by Taylor Swift. She was another 'chart climber' lately. She's around nineteen, close to my age. I'm around seventeen, well at least when I was changed. I, of course as with everything, don't even remember when my birthday is. So we guess about seventeen.

Just as I turned the corner to the last stretch, before the stadium, there he was; casually leaning against a tree. The look on his face was unfathomable and made me want to run up to him, give him a hug, and whisper that everything would be alright. But of course I did no such thing.

I stopped for a second and then tried to continue on my way.

"Bella…I'm sorry," Edward whispered weakly.

I stopped ever so slowly and turned around. I bit my lip, waiting to hear what he was going to say.

"Do you think you could ride with me on our tour bus to Chicago?"

"I…"

"If you regret it we can stop and you can switch buses."

"I'd have to talk to Kaya first."

"That's fine," He said quietly.

I slowly started walking again and he stopped me.

I jerked back at the sudden shock.

"I'm sorry if I'm scaring you. It's not my intention. I just want you to be happy," He smiled.

Gosh dang it he was dazzling me again.

"Breathe Bella," He smirked.

I pulled away from him, "I don't have to breathe. I don't breathe frequently."

He raised an eyebrow. I glared at him and stomped towards my bus. Along the way I quietly yelled, "Stupid Edward and his dazzling smile."

I swear I heard laughter but ignored it.

"Hey Steve." I smiled, walking up the stairs.

"How ya doin' Bella?"

"Uh…not sure."

I walked in the back and found Lilly and Kaya.

"Hey."

"Good, you're here!" Kaya smiled.

"About that…"

"Bella. What now?" Lilly asked.

"Well, Edward wants me to ride on his bus."

"Oh," They said simultaneously.

"I won't go if you want me to stay with you."

"No. You need to find out who you were… or are." She said sadly.

"I'm sorry."

"I just keep feeling like we're losing you."

"You're not losing me! It's just a ride."

"Did I just hear Bella say something about a ride?" Braden asked coming into view, "So who are you riding?" He asked with a suggestive smile.

Leave it to Braden to turn everything you say into something perverted.

*WHAP*

"Ow! What was that for?" Braden asked Kaya, holding his arm.

"Why do you have to constantly be a dumb fuck?"

Lilly and I's eyes about bulged out of our heads at this comment. Kaya never cusses. Let alone drops the f-bomb.

Braden realized he should probably shut up, so he sat down and looked out the window.

"Now, Bella, go! We'll see you when we get there."

"Alright. Thanks," I hugged Kaya and Lilly.

"Have a nice ride." Braden smiled.

I shook my head and ran out of the bus, towards the Forever Young tour bus. I'm sorry, but it put ours to shame.

I walked up to the door and knocked. The door swung open and Edward walked out.

"So you're allowed?" He smiled.

"Yea," I looked down.

God that smile!

"Well, we're not going to ride on this bus."

"This bus? You have multiple buses?"

He smiled and shrugged his shoulders, "Come on."

He lead me around the building and there sitting on the side was a midnight blue tour bus. It was unnamed and two-thirds the size of their official bus.

The bus door opened and Edward motioned for me to go ahead of him.

So he's a gentleman. I noticed quickly.

I stepped onto the bus and smiled at the driver who looked star struck, literally.

"Bella Tate! On my bus?" He smiled.

"Nice to meet you."

"It's an honor, miss."

"Thanks," I said, embarrassed.

"Thank you Jeff." Edward smiled, lightly took my hand and led me further into the bus.

His touch felt amazing but it frightened me. In the last five years, I have written about these feelings but have never truly experienced them. This was all new to me.

He led me to a room with a piano in it and a couch.

We sat down on the couch first.

I fiddled with my bracelet, determined not to look up and then blush.

He chuckled softly and I looked up glaring, "What is so funny?"

"You haven't changed," he smiled and ran his thumb over my cheek.

"You owe me some answers." I said sternly.

He sighed, "I knew this was coming."

"Knew this was coming? I'm the one who was alone when I woke up and haven't known who I am. You apparently knew me so please, answers."

"Apparently knew you?" He laughed, "You could call me the encyclopedia on everything Bella."

"I don't understand how did you know me exactly?" I asked, secretly hoping for one particular answer.

"I thought I've made it quite clear," he said softly.

"So if we were…um…together… then why was I by myself?" I stuttered, blushing again.

"We weren't when you were changed."

"Oh. Gosh, I'm sorry. Maybe I should-"

"Bella. I need to tell you the whole story. Okay?"

"Okay."

"Well, let's start with the basics. Your full name is Isabella Marie Swan."

"Swan?" I asked.

"Yes."

"Interesting."

He chuckled but continued, "You were born September 13, 1987."

"So that would make me eighteen when I was changed."

"Yes," He said solemnly.

"Go on."

"Your parents Charlie and Renee split up when you were a baby and you lived with your mother in Phoenix, Arizona until you were seventeen."

"I love Phoenix," I smiled.

"When you were seventeen, you moved to Forks, Washington to live with your father, Charlie, who was the chief of police."

"So that's who that was." I said quietly, remembering the man saying 'Bells'.

"What what was?" Edward asked.

"I've had three 'flashbacks'."

"Of what?" He probed.

"Well, the first was of me saying 'I'm betting on Alice.'"

Edward smiled, "I remember that."

"The second was of a middle aged man in a police uniform calling me 'Bells'."

"That was his nickname for you." Edward commented.

I got quiet not really wanting to reveal the next. The smile.

"What was the other?"

"Nothing of importance," I said quietly, feeling the blush.

He rubbed my cheek again, "Please tell me."

"Um…well it was you."

"Me?" He asked, raising an eyebrow.

"Yes, and you were…smiling?"

He laughed, "I do that frequently when I'm with you."

I blushed even more. He told me we weren't together when I was changed so why was he acting like this?!

"Please carry on," I insisted.

"Where was I? Oh yes, so you moved to Forks, so that your mother, Renee and her new husband Phil could go on the road."

"Go on the road?"

"Yes, he was a minor league baseball player. So the first day at school we had Biology together. That day I thought I was going to kill you."

"Why?" I asked.

"Have you ever heard the phrase 'La Tua Cantante'?"

"No."

"Well, it means 'they call her my singer'."

"Singer?"

"Yes, your blood sang to me. I remember sitting in that classroom, thinking of all of the ways to lure you somewhere and well…kill you."

"But you didn't."

"Obviously not," He smiled. "I ran to family friends and finally came back."

Edward explained everything. How we were so in love and then the fateful night at my birthday party.

After he explained what happened, I received another flashback.

FLASHBACK

"Come for a walk with me." Edward suggested in an unemotional voice, taking my hand.

He led me to the edge of the woods and then leaned against a tree.

"Okay, let's talk," I said.

"Bella, we're leaving."

"Why now? Another year-"

"Bella, it's time. How much longer could we stay in Forks, after all? Carlisle can barely pass for thirty and he's claiming thirty-three now. We'd have to start over soon regardless."

I suddenly felt very nauseated.

"When you saw we-," I whispered.

"I mean my family and myself." Each word separate and distinct.

I shook my head back and forth mechanically, trying to clear it.

"Okay," I said. "I'll come with you."

"You can't, Bella. Where we're going…It's not the right place for you."

"Where you are is the right place for me."

"I'm not good for you, Bella."

"Don't be ridiculous. You're the very best part of my life."

"My world is not for you," he said grimly.

"What happened with Jasper- that was nothing, Edward! Nothing!"

"You're right," he agreed. "It's exactly what was to be expected."

"You promised! In Phoenix, you promised that you would stay-"

"As long as that was best for you," he interrupted to correct me.

"No! This is about my soul isn't it?" I shouted, furious, the words exploding out of me-somehow it still sounded like a plea. "Carlisle told me that, and I don't care, Edward. I don't care! You can have my soul. I don't want it without you- it's already yours!"

He took a deep breath and stared, unseeingly, at the ground for a long moment.

"Bella, I don't want you to come with me."

"You…don't…want me?"

"No."

………………………

"Take care of yourself," he breathed and was gone.

FLASHBACK DONE

I shook my head trying to conceive what happened.

"Bella what's wrong?" Edward asked, putting his hand on my knee.

I jumped back and laughed nervously, "Haha yea, stay away from me. You left me. God, this is so confusing!" I yelled.

In a matter of five seconds I had texted Kaya and told her to stop the bus and was running out of Edward's bus into my own.

"Bella!" I heard him yelling but I could care less.

I jumped onto the bus and collapsed in my room. The sobs took over. Sure, I still hadn't remembered much else but that memory alone was as emotionally heavy as a ton of bricks.

Ohh no. She's starting to remember!

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