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Chapter Six

"Hagi…" I whispered, on my knees with him, holding him as he trembled and shook and sobbed.

Seeing this man of all people, sob, was harder than facing death itself. Harder than facing a deep sleep and awakening with a blank memory. "I don't understand what's going on inside my head…" he said gruffly, hand reaching my back. "I know you, think I love you, and then suddenly I don't even remember your face. Who are you? Who am I?"

He pushed me away now, staring intently at me. "Saya…" he mumbled, his hand trailing across my cheek.

Then abruptly he pulled away with a wince and a shudder. Staring at his wrapped hands, he looked back up at me. "And what is wrong with my arms? Something inside me tells me not to look, don't look," he said, expression no longer sorrowful but slightly demanding. "You know, don't you?"

His accusing tone hurt me, but I couldn't open my mouth to speak. With shaking hands he started to unwrap some of the bandages. I placed my hand over his. "Please don't…you aren't ready to see…"

But he ignored my gentle warning and proceeded. As the monstrosity of his true self was bared before him at last, he screamed so mournfully it came out like an anguished moan. As if someone had stabbed him in the heart. He stood up too quickly and stumbled, readjusting himself before turning away from me. And then he disappeared into the night. I stayed in place, hunched down on the street. This was my fault….all my fault. My Hagi…what have I done to you? Where did you go?

Again I saw the roof collapsing on him in my mind. Ah, that's right. That's where Hagi is. Buried in the rubble and the dust of my past. Our past. Or trapped, I suppose. Part of me said to stay put, accept that he'd probably be happier like this. But I knew the truth. Neither of us would. It'd kill us before we lived like this. I stood up, brushing the dirt off my knees.

I knew exactly where he was.

I didn't need to sense him to know. I could feel it, as certainly as the heartbeat pounding in my ears as I ran. Sure enough, when I approached the old, closed off building, he was there. Waiting for his memories, I suppose. But he would need me for that. I had to believe he needed me. He stared at me as I stepped over cracked boards and rock, a fearful yet expectant glint in his eyes. As I stepped closer to where he was, he started to move back, than changed his mind and remained still. Was he afraid of me?

Ignoring the pain that gripped me as he gazed at me like that, I stood before him. Standing on my tip toes, I kissed him and held his face with my hands. "You will remember me…" I breathed into his mouth as his hands shakily gripped me around the waist.

But I couldn't stay. He'd have to remember on his own. I pulled away from him reluctantly and walked out of the abandoned building without another word.

When I reached the bar, Julia had already left and Kai was struggling to stay awake in his chair. I tapped his shoulder. "I'm going up to bed, you should to, old man!" I smiled, shielding the sadness even from myself.

He looked worried but realized I probably wouldn't tell him what happened. "I'm glad you're safe…" he yawned, getting up and following me to the stairs. "goodnight Saya, we can talk in the morning…"

I expected that but I still groaned slightly. Kai went off to bed and I went to mine. Laying awake and staring at shadows on the floor. I touched my lips with trembling fingers. "Yow will remember…." I mumbled, before sleep finally overcame me and I drifted off.

AN: Review Please! They keep chapters coming even though I have Honors Writing homework….which I should be doing….Sorry short chapters are all I have time to write.