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Chapter 4: Things left unsaid.

Slowly my eyes opened as my phone began to ring next to my ear, sighing I rolled over to answer it. As I did this I noticed it was late. Who would be calling me when they knew I was dead asleep.

"What?" I asked groggily as I sat up in bed, who ever was calling me better have a fucking good reason to.

"Mara, thank god I got you. I wasn't sure I would." The worried voice as it came through the phone shook me out of my slumber. It was dean, why was he calling?

"Dean what happened, why are you calling me?" He never calls unless something is wrong or he needs help. I could hear him sigh to him self as if he wasn't ready for what he was about to say.

"Mara, its about Ryan. He was hurt when we were on the hunt earlier, I'm sorry." I felt tears well up in my eyes, my brother was hurt. My only real family I had left, was hurt and I wasn't even there beside him in his time of need.

"Where are you guys, I want to see him now." I slide out of bed and began to look around for clothes to put on. I tried to stay quiet as to not wake Julie who I knew was a very light sleeper.

"Jersey, right out side Princeton. You know the Hospital there right?" I tired to think as I heard a long groan come from Julie.

"Yea look I will be there in a few hours, just tell him I love him Dean." The older male agreed and hung up the phone just as Julie rolled out of bed and faced me in the dark.

"Who was that Mara?" I threw the bag I had put some extra clothes in onto the bed as I began to change into my other clothes.

"Dean, Ryan is hurt." It was all I had time to say because just as I finished a loud knock come from the other side of our door. I looked over at Julie confused but she slowed walked over to the door to see four angry boys. I looked over my shoulder catching Caleb's biting glare which dissipated as soon as he saw my tear stained cheeks.

"Can we help you?" Julie asked politely but I could hear the nervous tone in her voice as the boys powers began to grow angry just as their mood was.

"Yea you can we need to talk with you friend." Tyler's voice was biting a tone I had never heard from the young boy, what had gotten into him.

"Well that's going to have to wait; I'm leaving for the weekend. So camping for me is cancelled." I spoke to them over my shoulder as I grabbed my bag and headed toward them.

"Run away as usual." Reid whispered so I could barley hear it and I almost didn't but his lips gave him away. What was he talking about?

"Wait, I'm coming too." I shook my head at my friend, I couldn't allow Julie to leave I had to do this alone.

"Julie its best you stay, I have to see him by myself." Julie nodded sadly as she glanced at the boys as if telling them to move out of my way.

"Where you going?" Caleb seemed to be the only calm one but his voice was still bitter as he spoke to me and he couldn't even look me in the eye.

"Not that its any of your business my brother is in the hospital I have to see him." with that I walked through the group of boys blocking my way and headed out of Spencer. What was with them, why couldn't they look at me with out glaring? Had they figured it out? There was no way I was extremely careful not to let on too much of whom I was. My thoughts dissipated as I approached my car, sighing I opened it throwing my bag in the back seat. Just as I was about to climb into the front seat my phone began to ring once more, sighing I answered it again hoping it wasn't dean with bad news.

"hello." I was leaned against the side of my car shivering from the Ipswich night air blowing around me.

"Hello darling." My voice was caught in my throat as a silky voice came over the line, no it wasn't possible I changed my phone number. I did everything in my power to make sure he could never find me again.

"Whats wrong Mara, cat got your tongue." I growled before I closed the phone tears coming to my eyes, it was all too much for me to handle in one night. Slowly I slid down the side of my car until I was sitting on the cold damp concrete of the parking lot, I couldn't take this. My phone rang once again but I couldn't answer it, I knew it was him again.

"Mar. Maria, are you still out here?" Caleb's voice was soft but loud at the same time, I at first debated weather or not to answer the boy. Sighing I wiped away my tears and stood up just as Caleb approached my car.

"What?" I cringed as my voice cracked. It showed my weakness something I no longer wished to do in front of this boy.

"You cant drive in your condition, let me take you okay, Mar..ia I want to help." I noticed that for the second time he had trouble saying Maria, was he thinking of me more and more like Mara, that wasn't good.

"I'm fine." I flared in the boy's direction and went to get into the car only to feel his tight grip on my wrist. I turned around and faced Caleb looking into his stormy eyes, there were so many emotions running through them that it was hard to tell what was going on.

"Look let me help you please." His voice was now pleading with me, I sighed it wasn't good but he was right.

"Fine." I handed him the keys before I walked over to the other side of the car getting into the passenger seat. Soon Caleb too climbed into my car and began to drive away from the looming halls of Spencer. The drive started out in dead silence until I turned on the radio drowning myself into the music. I closed my eyes listening to the lyrics of the songs only to b interrupted by Caleb clearing his throat and it was then that I noticed the car had come to a stop.

"Why did you stop?" I asked confused as I looked out the window to see trees on all sides.

"We need to talk." I glared at the boy who the hell did he think he was, but by the serious look on his face I could tell it was not good. I stared at him for a second before I looked down at the dashboard in front of me.

"Can it wait?" My voice was so quiet that it even shocked me, why was I being so quiet.

"No it can't." His voice was sullen but yet demanding at the same time, I didn't like it. I stared at the dashboard thinking about all the possibilities. Did he know who I was, or did he figure out about my powers? I leaned back against the seat and closed my eyes thinking, hoping that whatever had to say would be quick.

"Maria i…" Before he could finish though my cell rang cutting off his sentence, sighing I opened my eyes and answered the damn phone.

"Hello." Part of me was hoping it was dean and part of me was hoping it was anyone but the man who called earlier.

"Maria, we may have a problem." I was confused to hear Julie's worried tone on the other end of the phone. I could tell she was nervous because your voice was shaky and distraught.

"What kind of problem?" I asked quietly hoping Caleb wouldn't hear but of course he did, the boy turned toward me and starred.

"Maria they know." Before she could finish the phone was taken from her and hung up, what did they know. I closed my phone and locked my blue eyes with Caleb's brown.

"Caleb what do you know?" My voice was nervous and my hand was on the handle of the car ready to run if I needed to. If he knew something that I didn't like then I was going to run wasn't it what I did best anyway. He sighed before leaning back in his seat closing his eyes as if he was battling with himself. There was no fucking time to fight with himself I needed to get to my brother.

"Maria, I know who you are okay. I know your Mara, the girl I grew up with, the little girl that I fell in love with." I couldn't believe it how the hell did he figure it out, I didn't like it. Quickly I went to open the door only to find it locked by Caleb.

"I have a question, Why?" He practically yelled it at me, i had no answer. Well I did but it was definitely not an answer he would like.

"It doesn't matter, either way you're mad. If I had just shown up you guys would have been pissed, if you don't remember I left on horrible terms." I couldn't even look at him, I was guilty for hiding my secret but he should feel just as bad.

"There were no fucking terms Mara, you left in the middle of the fucking night. Leaving me and the boys to wonder where you were for three months. DO you know what that felt like Mara?" I shook my head, no I didn't know what it felt like but I lived my life with the guilt of hurting them.

"I'm sorry I couldn't tell you, but you're not as innocent as you think Caleb." I I finally looked at him, my eyes staring straight into his.

"What are you talking about?" He was generally confused; of course he knew nothing of what I was talking about.

"Your fucking powers ,yea I know about them. I fucking could feel it the minute you turned thirteen and I lived with you keeping it from me." He looked taken back, but his glare returned as he looked back into my eyes.

"So you had powers too and you never told us. Your such a hypocrite Mara." I glared at him fiercely I wanted out of here.

"Fuck this you bastard, just drive me to the hospital and I'll be out of your life for good this time." I closed my eyes and waited for him to start the car but he didn't, we just sat there in silence.

"Mara, I didn't mean it like that. Let's talk about it." I sighed I was so sick of talking to this kid; I never wanted to look at him again.

"No just take me to my brother." With a heavy sigh Caleb started the car and drove once again. I sat there in the seat just thinking about how I was going to leave this time, I couldn't stay they would hate me. Leaning back the seat I closed y eyes drifting off into my memory.

It was completely dark out as I stared out of my dorm room window. I was so guilty, so dirty. My boyfriend, the love of my life, caught me with his best friend. And it wasn't even like that, I didn't like Reid that way he was jus there for me. Sighing I took on look around my room before grabbing the duffel bag I packed with all my clothes and essentials, I was leaving. I debated weather to write a note but I knew the guys wouldn't care, especially Caleb. To him I was probably just another school slut. I frowned deeply as I glanced at the gift from Caleb still lying on the floor. He wouldn't want me to have it now. Taking a deep breathe I walked out of my room and down the halls for what I thought was the last time. I slowly walked down the road away from the looming building that I had called home; with one last glance I said my final goodbye.

I walked through out the night into the morning until I finally reached an inn on the outskirts of town, hopefully I could find a ride to anywhere but here. I could have called Ryan but that would lead to questions. As soon as I came up to the motel I walked into the reception area and asked for a single room, thank god they had one. After I had gotten my bag settled I headed out of the room in search of food, of course I didn't make it too far before I bumped into someone.

"Woah sorry there." I looked up to meet the eyes of a handsome stranger. He had dark hair and beautiful eyes that captivated me; the shocking part was he didn't look too much older than me.

"Its alright I wasn't watching where I was going." I smiled as the boy helped me to my feet.

"That's okay darling we all have our moments. My name is Ray, and your are?" I smiled at his southern accent it reminded me of all the cowboys in the movies I watched with the boys.

"Mara." He nodded.

"Where you headed Mara?" I shrugged I really had no destination; I wanted to get far away from here.

"Anywhere." I smiled, as Ray smiled down at me.

"Well then come with me, I'm headed home down south they'd love you there." I guess he knew I was running from something. So without a second thought I agreed to run off with the boy.

I was awoken from my memory by a gentle tap on the shoulder. Opening my eyes I came face to face with the hazel eyes of one Dean Winchester. I smiled and jumped out of my seat in order to hug the older boy.

"Missed you too, Mar." I laughed as he set me on the ground casting his gaze over to Caleb as he stepped out of the car. I took Dean's hand as he led me into the hospital where my brother was waiting.

"How's he doing Dean?" I asked unsure of my own voice when it came to the question, I was really ready for the answer.

"He's doing better then they thought but it must be the you know what, but other than that it's not looking too good Mar." I sighed before looking down at the ground; I should have been able to be there for him. The walk Ryan's room was dead silent neither of us willing to speak. As soon as we arrived Dean left me alone and went in search of something as usual, he hated hospitals. Slowly I walked over to my brother's bed, I knew he couldn't hear me but I sat down beside him and began to sing to him.

It's just a matter of time a few days ago
I saw you, you were fine
Remembering what you said
About the book you read
The one I got you
The Beginning of the End
Oh how we'd talk
For hours upon end
What I would give
Just to do it again
But you're lying there
In this hospital bed
Won't you open your eyes
And let's talk once again

I stared at him with tears in my eyes just hoping that maybe my song would wake him up but I knew better than that. It was like with our parents, I never got to say goodbye I hoped to god it wouldn't happen again.

If you fly away tonight
I want to tell you that I love you
I hope that you can hear me
I hope that you can feel me
If you fly away tonight
I want to tell you that I'm sorry
That I never told you
When we were face to face

I finally let my tears fall, the tears I had been holding in since the car ride, since I found out. I couldn't lose Ryan now, not when I needed him the most. I loved this boy he was my brother my flesh and blood. I held his hand in my just stroking my thumb across the palm like he used to do when I was upset.

"Mara how is he?" I looked over at Caleb not sure of what to say, I couldn't even tell what was wrong. I wasn't there.

"I don't know." I shook my head and looked down at the ground until I felt a comforting hand on my shoulder. I looked up to see Caleb looking down at me with concern.

"Its okay, your brothers strong he'll pull through I promise." I laughed through my tears how could he promise something he had no control over. I just sat there staring at my brother as he lay injured before me.

"Excuse me, but visiting hours are over." I looked to the doorway where a nurse stood looking at me with sympathetic eyes. I need her fucking sympathy. Nodding I stood up from the chair before taking one more glance at my brother as I walked out of the room with Caleb. Caleb and I walked down the hall in udder silence, when we reached the lobby I saw both Winchesters were sitting waiting.

"Mar, you and your friend can stay at the motel with us tonight and I will not take no as an answer." I smiled and nodded at Dean as Caleb and I followed them out of the hell whole.