I Am so extremely sorry it took so long, I have had the worse writers block ever. I have also been going through some family and personal issues. Hope you like this chapter.

I own nothing except my characters.

Chapter 5

After we arrived at the motel, Caleb went off to shower leaving me alone with Dean and Sam. I was glad to see them both again, sighing I flopped down onto one of the beds and closed my eyes. There was just too much to handle at the moment, my brother barley holding on and Caleb knowing the truth. Why couldn't it be like it was before he knew, before I came back to Ipswich?

"Doll you okay?" Dean asked as he lay down beside me, I smiled and hoped he took that as I silent yes.

"You're lying to me Mara, you can lie to everyone else in the world but you can't lie to me." I sighed opening my eyes to look at the boy beside me. He was right, I couldn't lie to Dean it was like a problem I had.

"Okay so I'm not okay whatever." I smiled at him as Sammy rolled his eyes walking out of the room. I sat up in the bed and looked around the room, noticing that it only had two beds, looks like we were going to have to share.

"So what's wrong doll?" Dean's voice was warm against my ear and I couldn't help but smile. I shrugged my shoulders I really couldn't explain how I was feeling. "Come on." Dean encouraged.

"Okay, it's just Ryan being hurt and then some more drama." I didn't really want to explain the Caleb situation to Dean. All Dean knew about Caleb was that Caleb was my old boyfriend and that it ended badly.

"Right, you so love your little friend." Dean laughed but I turned around ready to punch him in the face, I was so not in love with Caleb.

"No way, I don't love him." I glared at Dean who just laughed and leaned down kissing me full on the lips. I was caught off guard but quickly recovered pushing the older boy off me. He fell off the bed laughing his ass off like it was funny. I glared down at him I couldn't believe the nerve of him.

"See told you." I shook my head at the boy before I lay myself in the bed. I did not love Caleb anymore, I couldn't love him. I heard Dean stop laughing as he laid beside me once more. "Sorry." He whispered. I nodded not wishing to fight with him now, there was already too much going on. Dean pulled me close to his body trying to comfort the sadness that was showing on my face.

"Dean, I'm fine." I got off the bed and went and sat on the messed up couch the motel provided for their guests. I heard Dean sigh and I could imagine him shaking his head at me, this was all just too much for me I should have never left my brothers side in the first place. I mean there was no point for me to go back to Ipswich; there was nothing left for me there. I put my head in my hands and just sat there thinking, I couldn't think of what to do first. I had to talk to Caleb, I had to at least attempt to fix things but I also had to call Julie to make sure she was okay. Not that I didn't trust the boys I just didn't trust that Chase character if he was still around. Deciding I had better call Julie first I took out my cell and dialed her number, after about four rings she answered.

"Hey, you okay? How's your brother, did you and Caleb fight?" Julie was talking a mile a minute and I couldn't help but laugh at her.

"Julie I'm okay, well as okay as I can be. Ryan's fine he's fighting hard you know how he is. And yes Caleb and I fought but it doesn't matter Julie I'm leaving Spencer as soon as Ryan gets better." When I finished speaking Dean sat up in the bed locking eyes with me. I shook my head at his questioning glance as I waited for her reply.

"No your not Mara, you can't always run away." I sighed, what the hell were those fucking boys telling her?

"I'm not running away Julie, I never do. I just do what's best for them. And what the hell are they telling you about me?"

"Their telling me the truth Mara, something you lacked to do in the past. And you know this isn't best for them, they don't want to lose their best friend, again." With that she hung up on me. Great, not only was my brother possibly dying now my best friend was mad at me. I closed my eyes and rested my head in my heads again just as the bathroom door opened.

"The shower is open if you need it Dean." Caleb's voice was calm as he talked to Dean who I could only guess got up and walked into the bathroom. I continued to curse myself for my stupidity, I should have told Julie all about the boys and my past with them but of course I just made up a colorful story for her to believe.

"Mara, hey you okay?" I didn't look up at him but I felt him sit beside me, warmth radiating from his body. He must have taken a really hot shower.

"Fine." I could barley hear myself speak I was so quiet. I heard Caleb sigh and move closer to me causing me to move farther from him.

"Mara, I know your upset. Please just talk to me, I want to help you." I lifted my head and looked him in the eye so he could see the tears falling from my eyes.

"I don't want your help, and why would you want to help the girl who ruined your perfect life." He shook his head at me telling me I was wrong but I wasn't, I knew what I did to him.

"Don't ever think that. I mean yea I was pissed and depressed when I saw you two but I figured if you were happy with him then I was okay with it. I loved you and I wanted you to be happy, even if you didn't want me." I shook my head, this was not a conversation I wanted to be having I mean it was not the right time, hell it would never be the right time for this.

"Not now Caleb please, I cant do this." He nodded understanding or pretending he understood. I nodded as well leaning back into the couch more.

"This guy that called Julie last week, he wasn't just an abusive ex boyfriend was he?" I sighed, this wasn't a better conversation but it was better.

"I kind of wish he was, it would be much easier to get rid of him. But no he's not. He's a vampire who loves to drain witches of their powers. He killed two girls who were part of the Salem covenant before he and his friend came after me and Julie."

"Why would you trust someone like that?" I looked at him, he had no idea.

"You don't understand, I met him soon after I left Spencer and he just made me feel like I belonged. After what happened that's all I wanted, I wanted somewhere that I wouldn't have to worry about what happened in the past. He was sweet, and he didn't pressure me to do anything I didn't want. In a way I guess he reminded me of you until we started dating a year later. He changed he started getting very physical and you know how I feel about that." I took a break from talking to look at Caleb who just seemed to be soaking everything in.

"Yea I remember how you were about your personal space." He laughed smiling at me for the first time really since he found out.

"Anyway, when he started doing that I pulled away from him a little, that's when I met Julie, and we became very close because she was with one of his friends. About three weeks before we came to Spencer, he got angry when I found out about him killing those other girls so he attacked me. Julie was also attacked but she was actually able to kill the guy where I failed. I couldn't kill him, it would have hurt too much at the time and he had too much power. I found Julie and we left." It wasn't that much of a sad story; I mean I didn't tell him all of it. I mean I really didn't want to tell him how I didn't fall in love with Ray; I just wanted to replace him.

"Well if he ever comes after you again like he said, I'm going to be right beside you no matter what Mara, I promise." I looked down at the floor; I didn't want him to say that. I couldn't let him do that it would mean him getting hurt.

"Caleb, your not part of this. I'm not going to watch you get hurt for me." My voice was firm and he knew better then to argue but I knew he wouldn't listen to me. We sat in silence for a few minutes before the motel door was flung open a worried Sammy runs in looking frantic. He began pulling out his duffel bag rummaging through it, just as dean walked out of the bathroom.

"What's going on?" He asked confused flopping down on a chair in a pair of jeans and no shirt. I had to avert my eyes to keep myself from blushing, it wasn't my fault dean was built.

"Dean, he is at the hospital right now. I went to go see if I could sneak into Ryan's room and I saw him dean." Dean shot up in his chair and grabbed a random shirt.

"Than let's go Sammy." Dean's voice was forceful and almost a growl as he grabbed his keys and headed out of the room. I looked over at Caleb who nodded and we followed the two hunters out of the room and toward the Impala.

"Mara your not coming, dude stay here with her. Do not let her leave the room." Dean called at us from the Impala as he locked the car doors preventing us from getting into the backseat. I wanted to go with them; I needed to help my brother. Caleb nodded grabbing my elbow and walking me back toward the room because he knew if I had my way I would walk to the hospital. Once we were back in the room I sat down on the bed and began to think. I had to find a way to get out of the motel and to the hospital but with Caleb on watch duty that'll never happen. Caleb sat down on the couch staring at his phone before dialing a number.

"Hey man.., yea everything's good. No we didn't really talk too much about it, no. Look I just wanted to tell you he's fighting hard, see you when we get back." He hung up the phone and looked over at me; I smiled forcibly before staring back at the ground. A silence fell over the room and it haunted me to no end.

"Say something." It was random but the silence was deafening. He stared at me before standing up and joining me on the bed.

"What do you want me to say? I don't know what to say to you Mara." His voice was so sincere he was stressed and I couldn't change that.

"I don't know, just say anything. I hate silence." He sighed as if searching fro the right words in his head.

"I missed you." Those three words hung in the air, and they stole the breath from my lungs. What was I supposed to say back? That I stayed up every night since I left wishing I hadn't, that I missed him more than I thought possible? I had no response and I felt horrible, I couldn't let him know that part of me still longed for him. He was happy as far as I could see, he had a girlfriend and he was doing great without me.

"I'm glad your back." His voice was colder this time, and it hurt to know that I had just hurt him like that. I should have said something back, just to let him know I cared. He stood up from the bed and walked toward the window that over looked the parking lot, taking a deep breath I spoke.

"I missed you too." He turned around in shock as if he didn't expect me to say that, hell I would have been shocked if I were him too.

"Do you mean that?" he asked coming to sit beside me once again, all I could do was nod, I really didn't want to say anymore, I couldn't. he had Sarah, I couldn't tell him what I was really feeling. I smiled at him just before the door to motel was kicked in.

"So sorry to interrupt." I didn't even have to turn around to recognize the sweet southern accent coming from the door way. Caleb immediately stood up, eyes flashing to black.

"Whoa hold up boy, this has nothing to do with you." I stood up from the bed and faced Ray, with a blank stare.

"Caleb, stay out of this please." I didn't even look at Caleb, I just stared at Ray.

"Yea just back off little boy." I glared daggers at the vampire in front of me, knowing it would do no good; both were too tough to back down. To my surprise though Caleb went and sat down on the couch.

"What do you want?" I knew why he was here; I just wanted to hear what lame ass reason he was going to give.

"I just wanted to see how your brother was?" I sighed we both knew how my brothers was and I knew he had some part in it so he couldn't even bullshit me.

"I knew you had something to do with it so shut up." He frowned at me before coming to approach me, but I just glared at him.

"Back the fuck off." I growled ready to defend myself but it was too late he pounced knocking me to the ground under him. He had this sick little smile on his face as he stared down at me.

"What makes you think I had anything to do with that angel?"

Calebs P.O.v

I didn't want her to do this alone but when she told me to sit down I couldn't disobey. This was obviously something I couldn't help with, but I knew that if things got out of hand I would jump in. I watched as they began to talk and I didn't like the hungry look the guy was giving her, I was jealous of him. I didn't want him anywhere near Mara for many reasons, my jealousy of course being on of those. It wasn't until the vamp pounced on her that I was ready to take action but before I could she sent the guy flying across the room.

"Mara." I rushed to her side as she stared up but she just looked at me with pale white eyes, I had never seen her like this. Before either of us could speak he was up again and he came charging at us but instead of hitting her like we thought, he speared me into the wall knocking away my breath. I was helpless as I watched this guy, Ray, and Mara go at it. I wanted to help her but she seemed to be holding her own for the most part. It wasn't till he was able to push her against the wall that I was once again overly concerned, I went to stand up ready to attack but in that moment a series of things happened. One, Ray leant down swiftly sinking his fangs into her neck causing me to run over eyes black pure power ready to kill him. Than just as I got close Dean came running in pulling the vampire off of Mara, Dean grabbed him by the throat and began his assault. I rushed to Mara losing my power. I took the bleeding girl into my arms and just held her in my lap rocking her back and forth.

"Caleb, I'm sorry." She went to get out of my lap but I wouldn't let her, I wasn't going to let her go again. I wasn't ready; I knew she planned on leaving Spencer as soon as we got back. I had heard her on the phone before I left the bathroom; I wasn't going to let that happen. I had to make her understand that I cared enough about her and so did the guys to make her stay.

"Just calm down, stay still." I grabbed the nearest thing to stop the bleeding on her neck which was worse than it should have been. I ended up grabbing a piece of paper which I used to slow the bleeding.

"She okay?" Dean asked bending down beside us, I guess he took care of the vampire, or he ran off. I nodded to him picking up the half-awake girl and placing her in a bed. I couldn't stop staring down at her as the blood trickled from the cuts on her neck. I failed her, I was supposed to protect her, it was just something I promised her when we were kids.

"I should have stopped him." It was more to myself but I knew that Dean heard because he sighed and sat beside Mara stroking her hair.

"If its anyone's fault its mine, when I pulled him off of her his fangs tore more into her skin." I shook my head, he did the right thing. He was able to actually do something to stop that thing from hurting her, I tried to help but I couldn't. I sat down on the other bed with my head in my hands staring and just thought to myself. I couldn't do this; I couldn't be her Caleb anymore. We both had to move on, and in the moment I decided two things. One I would be the best friend she ever had and I would die protecting her, that thing would never touch her again as long as I was around.