If I owned Grey's Anatomy, Patrick Dempsey would be getting sent to my office right now. He isn't here, so I guess I don't own it.

Meredith laid there for quite a while, trying to fall asleep. She rolled, she laid on her back, her side. She was exhausted. It didn't seem to matter. She ended it with Chase. That was a good thing. She saved them both. Did I really? He is a nice guy. But, I am done with men. This is a sign. I am not going to be hurt again. Never again. She she turned again, laying on her back, willing sleep to come. The door opened. She looked up, expecting it to be Chase. It wasn't.

"Oh, Dr. Grey." Derek said as he locked the door and took of his shoes. "Do you mind if I take the top bunk?

"No." She said quietly.

"You should be exhausted." Derek said, looking over at her.

"Should be." She moaned. She closed her eyes her eyes, not feeling his gaze.

"Are you okay?" He asked, noticing the stressed look on her face. He climbed up to the top bunk.

"I'm fine." She stated simply, covering her face with the pillow.

"Your Mom, she will be okay." She answered, hoping to make her feel better.

"First of all, I know that, and B I don't care. I do care, but-- She will be fine, I know that. I don't know you, and I don't want to talk about my mother." She snapped, immediately regretting it. She expecting him to get mad, her face grimaced.

"I do know you. We've talked in a bar. Twice." He chuckled, she did too.

"I'm fine. I just need some sleep. In order for me to do that, you need to shut up!" She joked. "Seriously."

"Okay, I am shutting up. But I don't think you are cold like your mother says." He added. She didn't answer him. What is it about her? He thought. Something draws me in. She's refreshing. Just looking at her makes me feel better.

Meredith fell right asleep after talking to Derek. He somehow comforted her. It was his voice, it was soothing. His scent, was just perfect. But she had no interest in him, right? No men. Meredith woke up and hour later to her pager. She threw her shoes on, and looked up at Derek. His eyes opened, her green eyed met his deep blue ones. She froze for a moment. For a moment, everything was right, she didn't worry. In his eyes, in that moment, life was perfect. She didn't say a word. She ran down to the pit. Immediately Dr. Bailey was ordering her to get tests for a surgical patient that just came in. She was breaking all records. It was her first day, and already she was in on three surgeries. The both go into the OR.

"Not that I care. Believe me, I do not. But, are you okay?" She asked, pretending like she didn't care.

"I am fine. It will not change my focus. I can still work." She answered immediately, while retracting.

"I can see that. She also insists that you will be fine. I am not going to even try to understand your messed up family." She snapped, and looked up at Meredith.

"It's not worth the try. Believe me." She answered.

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Meredith was happy to be home, in her own bed. The minute she laid down, she was out. She had the next day off, and she was going to take full advantage of it. She woke up in the middle of the night, half expecting to see Chase laying there. When she didn't see him, she was slightly disappointed. She woke up in the late morning. Her house was still full of boxes, but she wasn't in the mood to unpack. She had to get a new cellphone today. She took a shower, ate a quick breakfast and then headed out. She drove by the coffee shop that she met Chase at. Surprisingly, she felt a little sad. She felt like something had been taken away. She went on to the cellphone store, and picked out a new phone. When she got to the car, she dialed her voicemail. There were several from Chase saying that he had something very important to tell her. The last one said that he missed her, and he really wanted to talk to her. She shut the phone and drove home.

She got several calls about the poster she had put up at the hospital for roommates. Now she wasn't sure. It was stupid to keep the big house half empty. She needed room mates. She recognized three of the callers. She had to laugh. It was Alex, Izzie and George. She could have them move in, couldn't she? I see them everyday. I can not imagine seeing them at home too. But then again, I know they won't pull any shit. I will see them everyday. Maybe it could work. Maybe I should let them move in. She went ahead and called Izzie and George back. They both scheduled a time to come over and look at the house.

By the end of the day, it was decided. George and Izzie were moving in. She was desperately hoping she wouldn't regret her decision. The would start moving in on their next day off. This meant Meredith was going to have to start unpacking her own stuff. All of her things still hadn't arrived from England yet. She looked around the house. Yep, I'm getting roommates.

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"So we're moving in tomorrow, right? Izzie asked for the thousandth time.

"Yes, Iz. I told you, I won't change my mind." Meredith said rolling her eyes. George walked up.

"We can move in tomorrow, right?" George asked innocently. He had a huge smile on his face.

"Yes!" She almost shouted, they are both taken aback. "Sorry. I have a lot going on. I didn't mean to shout." She apologized.

"You aren't going to do that, are you? Yell." Izzie said, with a worried look on her face.

"No, I'm fine. It will be good. Tomorrow. You. Both of you. Moving in. Okay." She walked off, breathing out slowly. "It will be okay." She muttered to herself.

Meredith walked down the hallway. She had to find Dr. Bailey for a new assignment. Dr. Richard Webber passed by her. She sucked in air. She made it. He passed her.

"Meredith." She heard behind her. She wanted to hide behind the wall.

"Yes, Dr. Webber?" She answered as she turned around slowly.

"I need to speak with you. If you have a moment, of course." He said, looking into her eyes, unable to read them.

"Um, okay. I think I can talk." She answered. She was praying that her pager would go off. She nervously wiggled her toes. He pulled her around the corner.

"You need to talk to your mother." He stated, with his arms crossed.

"My mother is fine." She stated coldly.

"She just had surgery two days ago, and you haven't even checked on her." She goes to speak, he puts his hand up. "No. You broke her. I know your mother can be cold, but she does care. You left, without a word. All you said was that you weren't coming home. She worried a lot. It hurt her that you just left her the way you did. Why do you think she sent you the key? She made sure the house was taken care of, so if you did come back, it was ready. I told her to give up years ago, but she didn't. She said she would never give up. So, you need to talk to her. She would at least like to know where you have been, and so would I." He said boldly.

"First of all, I respect you professionally. But this isn't professional, it's personal. Secondly, I don't want to talk to my mother. It is none of your business where I have been. As for the house, I will move out!" She said loudly.

"No! Neither of us want that. The house is yours. We have been worried, for all we knew, you were dead." He said quietly, staring off down the hallway.

"Well, I am not dead. I am here. You are not my father. Just because you and my mom slept together behind your spouse's backs, doesn't make you my father. She was a fool to let you do that to her." She said.

"I am not your father, I know that! I love you mother. I'll have you know, a month after you left, I separated from Adele. She asked me to, and I did. I love her, Meredith. Why can't you just respect that?" She said, looking for hope that she was going to crack.

"I have to go." She said coldly and stormed off. What the hell? Why do people insist on trying to run my life? My father left because of him. My life would have been different if Richard Webber had never stepped into it! She continued walking quickly down the hallway. She didn't even notice that Addison was talking to her.

"Meredith!" She said loudly.

"Oh, Addison. Sorry, I didn't see you." She said quickly.

"Are you okay? No wait, I know the answer to that. Did you take lunch yet?" She asked, seeing the stress in her expression.

"No, I didn't." She said, looking down the hall. Richard Webber was talking to Dr. Bailey.

"Let's go." Addison grabbed her shoulder. "I am hungry." They walked down to the cafeteria. They each grabbed a salad, and sat down.

"So..." Addison started.

"Life sucks. I am beginning to hate Seattle. My mom is a bitch. I can't talk to her. I am really close to freaking out. Richard Webber screwed around with my mom for years while she was married, which is shitty. I should know. I have sort of been there. And I am not really sure if I want roommates!" She rambled quickly. She started violently forking her salad.

"Wow! This is good. You needed that!" She stated, while putting lettuce in her mouth. "So, Richard cheated on Adele. I never saw that coming. Really?" She said. Meredith shook her head yes. "It takes two, Meredith. I should know. I did it."

"You cheated?" Meredith said in shock. Her full attention was now on Addison.

"On Derek, yes I did. With his best friend." She said, looking down for a moment.

"Wait! You and Derek? Married? No way!" She said in utter shock.

"Yeah. We were married for three years, right out of college. I cheated on him with Mark, his best friend. Derek was never around. We weren't made for each other. I loved him, but not the way I should have. Luckily, we were all able to forgive and forget. Mark is still in New York. I got remarried to Stan, he is great. He's an accountant. And Derek, he's with Holly, which is a joke." She laughed, taking a drink of her water.

"Why is it a joke? He and Holly." She asked, not even knowing why she was.

"Holly is wrong for Derek. I was wrong for Derek. He needs someone like. Well, like you." Addison said, like she was stating the obvious. Meredith spit out her salad.

"Me?" Meredith said, laughing. "I don't think so. Derek Shepherd is an arrogant ass. Besides, I am done with men. I can't deal with men. I am not dating." She stated quickly.

"Why? You should never give up on love, Meredith. You are too young. Besides, don't you want to get married?"

"Yeah, I have been there, it's not all it's cracked up to be." Meredith said smoothly, taking another bite of her food.

"You're divorced?" Addison said in shock. Meredith nodded her head yes. "What happened?"

"It was a huge mistake. I was young. Ian never grew up. I am just glad it's over." Meredith said. Addison's pager goes off.

"Sorry..." Addison said.

"It's the job." Meredith responded, shoving more salad in her mouth.

"This is not done! I want to hear the rest of this story." Addison said as she walked away. Cristina walks up.

"What the hell were you thinking? Letting those two move in?" Cristina snapped.

"I screwed up, right. They are so fucking happy all of the time. Just wait, they don't know what it's like to get run over, to get screwed. They will get it, and their smiles will be gone forever!" She said angrily.

"I think I like you!" Cristina said with a small smile.

"Yeah, I think I like you too." Meredith responded.

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"Grey." Dr. Bailey yelled as Meredith headed towards the locker room with the other interns.

"Yes, Dr. Bailey?" She answered, praying that she didn't want her do anything else. She just wanted to go home.

"I almost forgot, the Chief needs to see you." She yelled across the hall.

"Do you know why?" Meredith asked. Hoping that it really was work related.

"No, I do not." She answered and walked away.

"The Chief. What the hell did you do?" Cristina asked.

"Nothing." Meredith answered.

She walked to his office quickly. She was worried. Any intern would be worried about getting called to the 'principal's office'. She wouldn't be worried, but she knew. She had that feeling, this was personal. The blinds were all closed. She walked up and knocked on the door. She heard him shout to come in.

"Meredith." He said smoothly.

"I was told you wanted to see me." She said, trying to be professional.

"Yes. I do. I--" He started to say.

"Please don't." She moaned. He walked around his desk and walked up to her.

"I can't do it. I thought I could, but I can't. I can not walk around here and not look at you. I can't lay in my bed alone every night. This thing with us, it's not done. I don't want it to be done. It's worth it to me. I want to be around you. I want to see you. I need you." He said. She started to protest, and he covered her mouth with his. She didn't fight it.

I like him. He is a good guy. He is kind. He wouldn't hurt me. I really don't think he would. Wait, you can't do this. No men! Oh shit.

"Chase." Meredith said, pulling away from him.

"No, I don't want the hear it, Meredith. You are special. Please, give me a chance. Just one. We can do this, no one will find out."

"Chase." He covered his mouth with hers, she kissed him back. What the hell, my life is a mess anyhow. She was sad, and vulnerable.

"I'll be over after I get off." He said, she shook her head yes, and walked out.

"What have have I done?" She said to herself. SHIT!

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Okay, she is back with Chase. Don't worry, It's not forever. I probably won't have time to update tomorrow. We shall see... Thanks for reading, and please review!