Is It So Wrong?
Chapter 4
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters in Ouran High School Host Club; if I did I wouldn't be writing fan fiction that's for sure lol!
The Host Club had been dismissed for the day and the twin boys hopped into their black limo and they were headed to their mansion. The two teenagers sat beside each other on the black leather seats. Hikaru smiled at his brother warmly and gently placed his slim hand on top of Kaoru's.
Kaoru could feel small fingers tenderly caressing his heated skin. The loving gesture made his heart beat a million times faster. He wanted to show Hikaru how he felt as well, however if he voiced anything at that moment he knew it would disclose how much his brother affected him. The younger simply chose to lean his head on Hikaru's shoulder.
After awhile Kaoru's eyes slid shut in a comfortable and content manner, breath now tranquil and relaxed.
"Kaoru…" the name quietly whispered in the recipient's ear, the breath caressing his skin.
Kaoru said nothing; he was too busy enjoying the company of the other boy; but something startled him out of his peaceful state.
A sure and steady hand found its way onto Kaoru's thigh. Apparently Hikaru was not satisfied with simply touching hands. He needed to feel more of Kaoru's beautiful and attractive body.
Two eyes flew open, looking down he noticed the caressing and stroking fingers moving leisurely upwards.
"Hi-Hikaru?" worry laced in his voice; he wasn't ready for…for this.
"Shh, it's okay, the driver can't see us".
That was not what he was nervous about though, actually it hadn't even crossed his mind. Kaoru's eyes were glued to the wandering hand inching closer and closer to that forbidden area.
Should he just let it happen or should he do something to stop it? He didn't want to hurt Hikaru's feelings but he wasn't sure that he wanted, or was ready to be touched like that, even if it was Hikaru's hand. It seemed as though Hikaru was completely unaware of his brother's nervous response to his bold actions. Clearly he could not see his hesitant younger brother's uncomfortable state.
Kaoru always admired his brother's talent for thinking cleverly on the spot and his desire to be forward and confident during nerve-racking situations, and he often wished he could be more like him in that way, but he just wasn't. He was more timid and needed to think things through before making an important decision or opinion on something. Hikaru was just moving way too fast for him.
Just as Hikaru's sturdy and secure thumb was about to stroke Kaoru's sensitive area between his trembling legs a loud ringing sounded throughout the back of the black limo.
To Kaoru's relief, Hikaru immediately retracted his caressing hand and proceeded to take out his cell phone that was lodged somewhere in his pants pocket.
It sounded like he was discussing something with the boss but Kaoru wasn't paying enough attention to know for sure, he let his fists slowly unclench and realized he had been biting his lip the whole time. Letting out a huge breath his body gradually relaxed into the leather seat. He didn't want to look like a frightened little girl in front of his self-assured older brother.
As soon as Hikaru hung up, the limo was already parked in the Hitachiin family's driveway.
Kaoru and Hikaru stepped out of the door that was politely opened by their tall and distinguished driver. When they arrived at their neat and tidy kitchen they were greeted with their middle aged male chef and one of their many female maids.
Usually the twins would eat dinner together in their bedroom while watching TV, and then they would take turns using their personal shower across from their room; today however was going to be different. Kaoru needed time to think…alone.
"Kaoru? Where are you going? We haven't eaten yet" Hikaru asked his brother looking a little perplexed.
"I just feel like taking a shower first today, I'll eat dinner after washing."
"Um, okay." Hikaru grabbed his dinner and headed up to their room.
Kaoru stepped into the steamy and hot shower; the heated water fell upon his lithe form giving him a certain kind of comfort. He grabbed the simple white bar of soap and ran it along his distressed body. Foamy clear bubbles began to slide down his chest and toned stomach; the soapy suds continuing their trail down the boy's groin area.
After he covered his entire body with the soapy substance he stepped under the cascading water that poured out of the silver shower head. Kaoru watched the soap suds descend down the drain; wishing all his troubles and insecurities would easily fall down the drain as well.
Squeezing a glob of apple scented shampoo into the palm of his hand Kaoru began to wonder why Hikaru liked him so much. He thought for a long time, for so long in fact that his skin began looking like a wrinkled prune. He came up with nothing, zip, nada, zero reasons for Hikaru to like him at all.
Wow, my self- confidence level is really up there isn't it?
I just can't tell Hikaru my problem, I know he would laugh and call me a girl like he usually does when he's joking around with me. I know he doesn't really mean it when he says that sort of thing but…it hurts when he does. It makes me feel weaker and less capable than him. I hate it.
Kaoru curled his naked body in a corner of the peach colored tub; the water still sprinkling at full force over him like a protective roof. The small body trembled and shook slightly from the cooling temperature of the bath water.
I won't cry, I won't cry.
He kept chanting the same thing over and over in his head while squeezing his eyes shut and holding his legs close to his chest.
Back in their bedroom Hikaru was almost finished with his dinner and was starting to get restless waiting for Kaoru to come out of the shower.
He pushed his plate and glass aside and glanced to the bathroom door.
Something's wrong with Kaoru, I know it. Why hasn't he said anything to me about it?
As soon as he finished that thought Kaoru came walking into their room with nothing more than a white bath towel wrapped loosely around his slim hips.
Hikaru turned scarlet red.
Kaoru however didn't notice the strong reaction from his brother. Kaoru was too busy thinking to even be embarrassed about his lack of clothing.
Hikaru's heart began to pound, his body temperature was rising and damn, it was embarrassing.
Hikaru couldn't take his eyes off of his nearly naked brother; his eyes tracing every curve, scar, and muscle Kaoru had to offer.
He's so hot.
"Hikaru you're staring".
"You look good naked".
"Hikaru!"
Hikaru grinned, "well you do".
"Yeah well turn the other way so I can get dressed".
Hikaru pouted.
"Why? We have the same body".
"Just do it" Kaoru stated tiredly.
"Alright alright, if you insist".
"And no peaking!"
Hikaru sighed, "fine".
Instead of simply closing his eyes he turned his whole body around so he was facing the headboard of the bed instead of his delicious younger brother's wet body. He never was as modest with his body as Kaoru, but if his twin wanted privacy he would give it, Kaoru was special to him. He would do anything Kaoru asked of him.
After a few silent moments Kaoru announced that he could now turn around.
"I'm gonna go down stairs and get my dinner, I'll be right back".
"Okay. I gotta take a shower now anyways" Hikaru responded.
Fifteen minutes later and both boys were back sitting on their bed.
"Kaoru, are you sure nothing is bothering you? If there is you can talk to me about it ya know" Hikaru asked while sitting crossed legged facing his brother. The elder gently picked up the younger's hands.
"I don't like to see you hurting; when you feel pain I feel pain".
"It's nothing, really" he gave Hikaru a small smile.
Hikaru still held onto his brother's hands, "I really care for you ya know, you're my little brother, my twin, and my partner. I admire your kindness and your modesty, not with just your body, but with your emotions, you always put others before yourself".
Kaoru stared at the elder in utter shock, he couldn't believe what he was hearing, Hikaru paused for a moment and began speaking once more.
"And I want you to know" his eyes bore through golden ones, "you're allowed to touch me too, you won't hurt me, and I won't laugh".
A moment of silence hung over the two boys, Kaoru didn't know what to say, but he had an idea of what he wanted to do. He took a deep breath and two graceful hands began to move towards the stunning boy in front of him.
Kaoru hesitantly brought his hands onto Hikaru's forearms. Unsure fingers skimmed the warm skin and moved up towards the other boys' shoulders; they continued their path until they reached two red cheeks.
Hikaru was on cloud nine, leaning in, Hikaru's lips met with his brother's supple ones in pure delight.
It was as if Hikaru knew exactly what he was worried about; Hikaru really did know him well, inside and out.