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For the first time in her life, Meredith found herself upset that her boyfriend was leaving. Whenever Ian would go out of town, she would be secretly relieved. And with Nate she was sad, but she survived. But with Derek, she was dreading his departure. She hadn't realized how in love she was with him until the day neared that he was leaving. It was only a few days, she knew that. Her insecurities were rearing their ugly heads again. A small part of her was worried that he would never come back. That thought, she could not bear. She looked over at him as he slept.

"Are you watching me?" He asked without opening his eyes.

"Maybe." She said with a giggle. His eyes opened, and blue met green.

"What's wrong?" He asked as he watched her expression change from happiness to something entirely different.

"It's nothing." She said, brushing it off, and not doing a very good job of it.

"Something is wrong." He said, giving her his signature smile. "You can tell me..."

"I'm scared." She said as her eyes welled up. "It's so stupid."

"Nothing you say or do is stupid." He reassured her as he rubbed her arm. She winced and closed her eyes.

"I have never felt this way before. I can't breathe." She explained. "I should not feel like a am going to die because you are leaving for three days. I have never--" She said, nervously. He cut her off with a kiss.

"Meredith, I love you." He said when he pulled away. "And I will be thinking of you every single minute that I am gone."

"Really?" She asked.

"Really." He reassured her.

"Please come back." She whispered.

"Why wouldn't I come back?" He asked with a puzzled look.

"Everyone leaves and they don't come back." She said softly as her eyes welled up again.

"I will come back as soon as I can." He reassured her.

"What time is your flight?" She asked as he wrapped his arms around her.

"Seven." He responded as he kissed her head.

"Can we just spend the day in bed?" She asked, as she laid her head against him.

"I would love to do nothing else." Derek answered, holding her tighter.

"Something happened with Anna's bone marrow donor." Meredith said sadly.

"Oh, that's not good." He responded softly.

"We have the same blood type you know." Meredith said nonchalantly.

"Oh?" Derek said, wondering what she was getting to.

"I think I'm going to see if I can be a donor." She said quickly.

"What?" Derek said in shock. "You don't even know her!"

"She's a little kid, Derek. She needs someone." Meredith said, looking into his eyes.

"It's a big step, Mer. And it hurts..." Derek said, trying to discourage her.

"You're right." She said, deciding to drop the conversation. "So what on earth could we do in bed all day?" She asked with a smile.

"Hmm, I don't know..." He said with a smirk and then pulled her on top of him.

"I think I have an idea..." She said as she began kissing his bare chest.

"I can kiss here." She said. "And here...Oh! And here." She whispered as she placed him in her mouth.

"Oh my God, Meredith." He moaned as she began licking him with her tongue. She looked into his eyes. She ran her teeth down his shaft gently. She could feel him growing. He tensed up, and she could see the need in his eyes.

"I need you..." He moaned. She smiled as she straddled him, and placed him inside her. They both paused momentarily. Derek let out a deep sigh. He placed his hands on her hips and grabbed tightly, but gently. She began rocking her hips slowly. She looked into his eyes, and all she saw was love, love that she had never seen in any other man's eyes. She began rocking harder and faster. "God I love you." He moaned, she just smiled a seductive smile. He could feel her beggining to tighten around her. He rolled over and pressed her knees up. She giggled at his need for control.

"Oh God Derek!" She said as she got nearer to the edge. He pumped into her harder with every moan she let out. She neared the edge. She could feel her orgasm toaking over. She felt a wave of heat take her whole body over. "Oh God!" She shouted loudly as he pounded into again. He felt as she came around him. Derek felt himself nearer to his own climax, and he realeased inside of her with a loud moan. They both collapsed against each other. They laid there listening to each other's rapid heartbeats, feeling their moist skin pressed against one another.

"I am going to miss you." Derek said softly.

"Me or the sex?" She joked.

"Now that is a hard decision to make!" He chuckled. He saw her wince as she turned over. "Are you okay?" He asked.

"Yeah. I'm a little still sore." She replied. He looked at her bruises, most of them were turning yellow. "I think I am going to take a bath." She said as she climbed out of their bed, wrapping a sheet around her.

"You know, I have seen you naked, right?" He stated.

"Yeah, I know." She smiled. "But I'm shy!"

"Sure you are!" Derek said, unconvinced.

She walked in the bathroom and began with water. She poured a generous amount of bubbles into the running water. She took a second to look at herself in the large mirror in the corner. She could see the remnants or her battle wounds. Her face was pale. She needed to soak, and rest. She needed to breath and think. She threw her leg over the large bathtub and lowered herself in the water. She let out a deep sigh and laid her head back. Now she was relaxed. She laid there for several minutes before she opened her eyes.

"Ah!" She shrieked when she opened her eyes to see Derek, inches away, looking into her eyes. "God, Derek! What are you doing?" She asked with an irritated tone.

"Watching you." He said softly. "I am memorizing every inch of you. That way I can picture you, whenever I want." She rolled her eyes and closed them softly. She felt the water rise and opened her eyes quickly.

"What are you doing?" She asked in sock.

"I am joining you." He said with a grin.

"Uh, no. No, you aren't." She said as she sat up.

"Relax!" He said quietly. "This is a good thing."

"I bathe alone." She stated simply.

"So do I." He returned flatly.

"Do you do this often? Get into bathtubs with girls?" She asked.

"Nope. I have to say this is my first time." He said with a faint smile. "Come here..." He said as he pulled her over to him. She turned and placed her back against his chest.

"I don't want you to go..." Meredith said softly.

"It's only for a few days, Mer." He said convincingly.

"You don't get it." She said with a sigh. "You will never get it. I don't want to be hurt again..." She said.

"I won't hurt you." Derek said firmly.

"You don't know that." Meredith stated dull-ly.

"I do. And someday. You will realize that." Derek said confidently as she embraced her.

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Meredith watched as the plane carrying the love of her life lifted off of the ground and into the clouds. She looked around the busy airport. She and Derek had spent the day together, just hanging out and doing all of their favorite things. Most of them in the bed. She slowly walked to her jeep and got in. She sat there for several minutes just thinking. Think that maybe she had gotten herself in too far. Maybe she shouldn't love him so deeply. The more she loved him, the more she could get hurt. She quickly pulled out of the airport parking lot, not knowing where she was headed. She found herself in Joe's parking lot. She walked into the familiar bar, hearing the ding as the door closed. She grabbed a stool and sat in a slump.

"What can I get you?" Joe asked, as he walked by. The bar was busier than usual.

"Oh, a shot of tequila." She mumbled.

"You okay?" He asked as he poured it.

"Yeah. I'm okay, I think." Meredith said softly. "Derek went to New York for a medical conference."

"Oh, I see. Missing McDreamy already..." Joe said with a chuckle.

"No. No. Not me." She said innocently.

"You want another?" He asked, lifting the bottle of tequila.

"Sure, what the hell." She said exuberantly. A man sat down next to her.

"Hey." He said. "I'm Greg."

"Hey." She said as she turned away and downed her shot.

"Can I buy you a drink?" He asked smoothly.

"Uh, no. I think I'm good." She said quickly.

"Come on." He begged. "One drink."

"Look, I'm seeing someone. Someone I love more than anything in the world, so...no." She said boldly. She got up and went to the bathroom. He was still there when she came back. She was debating where or not to sit back down next to him when she saw Alex walk in.

"Hey my good friend." She said as she walked up and grabbed him by the arm.

"What are you doing?" He asked, taken aback.

"That guy is hitting on me. Let's play pool." She suggested with a smile. "I'll buy you a drink..." She said, trying to entice him.

"Fine, one game." He answered, pretending like it was a chore.

"You rack them" She said. "What do you want to drink?" She asked.

"A beer." He shouted.

"You're a cheap date!" She yelled back. She quickly came back with their drinks.

"Go first. I want to see what you got." He said with a snicker. She took her shot, it was good. He looked at her with surprise.

"I'm good." She said with a smile.

"So I've heard." He laughed. "At many things!"

"Inappropriate, Alex. Very inappropriate!" She teased.

"Where's Shepherd?" He asked, taking his shot. She chuckled.

"The conference in New York. He left at seven." She whined. She took another great pool shot. "Where's Iz?"

"Bailey pulled her into surgery." Alex responded.

"Lucky bitch." Meredith chimed, Alex shook his head in agreement. "So it's just you and me?"

"Me and you, babe." He said with a chuckle.

"You want another?" She asked as she shook his empty bottle.

"Sure." Alex answered.

They both downed several shots of tequila and many beers. They were having a good time hogging the pool table. Both of them were getting a little tipsy. Meredith noticed that the guy who was hitting on her earlier was still sitting at that bar.

"So, she let you buy her a drink, but not me?" Greg said loudly as he walked up.

"He's my friend." Meredith boasted.

"I could be your friend..." Greg said with a seductive smile.

"I have enough, thanks." Meredith retorted at she bent over the table to take her shot.

"Nice, shot, Grey." Alex said loudly. She leaned of the table and Greg planted his hand right on her ass.

"Get your hand off me!" She shouted as she turned around.

"Come on, Baby. We could have a good time. Your boyfriend would never have to know." He said as he put his hand on her hip and pulled her near him.

"Hey! What did she just say to you?" Alex said as he walked toward him.

"I don't think it is any of your business." Greg yelled as he walked toward Alex and shoved him.

"Oh I think it is..." Alex said and immediatley punched him square in the jaw.

"You son of a bitch!" Greg yelled as he climbed to his feet and ran toward Alex. Meredith jumped on his back and began pounding on him. He reached behind and pulled her off of him. "Wrong move!" He yelled.

"Break it up!" Joe yelled as he ran over.

"Oh, come on. We were just having some fun..." Greg said, grabbing Meredith.

She hit him in the nose with the heel of her hand. Blood went everywhere.

"You bitch!" He yelled as he grabbed his nose. He looked and Joe, then turned and walked out of the bar.

"This is the second time, Meredith!" Joe yelled. "If you didn't buy a fifty gallon jug of tequila every month, I would ban you!" He said with a laugh.

"And you'd be out of business." She said quickly. "Call me a cab."

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"You take the couch!" She shouted as she stumbled in the door.

"The couch? How about your bed?" He said with laugh.

"In your dreams, Evilspawn!" She chuckled.

"What are you guys doing?" Izzie said, as she came out of the kitchen.

"We're a little drunk..." Meredith said, scrunching her nose.

"Just a little." Alex told her, holding up his thumb and pointer finger.

"Oh my God." Izzie said, rolling her eyes.

"Oh, and Grey got in a fight." Alex laughed.

"He did too!" Meredith said, pointing at him.

"Never again. You too are not allowed to be anywhere with each other." Izzie joked.

"Well, I'm going to bed." Meredith said, as she crawled up the stairs. She didn't even bother changing. She laid right down with her clothes on. She pulled Derek's pillow against her and took a deep breath. She never even heard her cellphone ring as she fell into a deep, tequila induced sleep.

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So a chapter of fluff. Something will happen in the next chapter. This was ready last night but I didn't post it. Wanna know why? I only got two reviews. Is the story getting sucky? I can stop writing...

I have been super busy with horses, so I can't guarantee daily updates. I will try really hard! As long as I get reviews!!