Hey everyone. thanks so much for the reviews last chapter. i ask that you review this chapter. thanks a lot.
The days passed. Ever since Bella learned of her adoption she was different. When she was alone she would cry. She began to withdraw slightly. She would play with her dad and she would say she loved him but something in her was broken. I could tell she loved Charlie. That never changed. Her eyes were what changed. There was a hurt I them that she held onto.
Charlie would try to talk to Bella, but every time the subject of her parents came up she would put up walls. Her eyes would gain a steely look that didn't belong on her face and she would avoid the subject.
Charlie was oblivious to the change. He thought her staying away form the subject meant she was over it. Oh how he was wrong.
Bella's birthday came. The night before her birthday I put the bear wearing the locket into Bella's arms. I hummed her my lullaby as tried to figure out what was going on with me.
This little girl captured my heart. All I wanted was for to be safe and happy. Every time I would try to leave all I could think about was Bella's safety.
The morning came and I jumped out the window. Bella's heart rate changed telling me she was a wake. I watched as she turned and pulled the bear closer. She opened her eyes and saw the bear. Her smile shone lighting her face like morning shone. She actually squealed with excitement.
She took the locket off of the bear and opened it up. She looked at the words for a long time trying to figure out what it said. She finally shut the locket and put it on her neck. She pulled the bear close and smiled."My angel." She said as she put the bear on her pillow.
She got out of bed and ran downstairs. Charlie was at the oven trying to make pancakes. There was a pile of black attempts sitting in the trash.
"Can I help, Dad?" She asked him.
He smiled. "Sure sweetie."
They worked on the pancakes for a good while they even got in a flour war while making the batter. For a moment her eyes were back to normal. There was no pain, no cold look. They were filled with pure joy. For a moment I thought she was back to normal.
"Hey sweetie! I'm going to the bathroom." He said wiping flour off of his hands using his shirt. "Do you think you can start you won Bath?
She nodded. He marveled at how mature she was.
Bella ran to the bathroom. I heard her start the water. Her foot steps ran to her room, paused and ran back to the bathroom.
She started to talk which surprised me. She didn't usually talk to her self.
"Hey there. I guess it is just you and me, Berry." I smiled when I realized she was talking to my present. "Do you have a mommy or daddy?" She asked her bear, her voice cracking at the end. "I don't. They didn't want me." I could hear the soft sound of her tears. "I don't know what I did wrong. I'm not good enough." She cried.
I didn't know what to do. She was hurt beyond words and I couldn't do anything. I sat listening to her cry with a broken heart. If only she new. If only she new her mother died, that her mother wanted her. But I couldn't tell her. As of now I can only protect her. I will give no evidence of my existence to her.
She got out of the bead and got dressed. Her dad took her to dinner and so life continued.
She started kindergarten and did amazing. She was the first child in the class to master the entire alphabet. The teacher was shocked and didn't know what to do with her.
She would give her first grade learning books and Bella would suck them dry. She loved reading with a burning passion.
Charlie started to take her to the library during the weekend. They would check out seven books at a time and she would read them over and over before they had to be returned. Charlie was positively thrilled with Bella's fascination for books.
She started to want to read harder books. Every time she tried she would end up throwing the book across the room crying angry tears. Charlie saw her on day throwing the book.
He picked up the book.
"The lion, the witch, and the wardrobe? You want to read this?" He asked very surprised.
"Yes, but the words are big." She said embarrassed she couldn't read it.
Charlie laughed. He sat on the bed and pulled Bella onto his lap. Eh read to her as I studied Bella's eyes.
The hint of pain passed as she passed into a world of fantasy. Her eyes gleamed as she saw the story play out in her head.
They read together for hours. Bella sat on Charlie's lap as he read.
Finally Charlie put the book down. "We can finish later. Right now we should get some dinner."
"But dad! I want to hear what happens next!"
"You will. Tomorrow. Let's go out to eat."
They drove off to a diner called angels and ate. The whole time she thought about Aslan, and how he gave his life to save Edmund. She imagined that she was with Aslan in Narnia. I could tell because she kept murmuring random things about the lion and her and of talking animals.
They went home. Bella went to bed. She began to talk in her sleep.
"Aslan" she kept repeating. She was smiling so I knew it was a good dream. She began to frown. I started to worry.
"Don't leave" she pleaded. Over and over she begged him to stay.
Her eyes flashed open. A single teardrop dripped from her face. "I wasn't good enough." She said. "Even Aslan wouldn't want me."
It was then I knew her scars ran deeper than I ever imagined.
A.N. okay i had someone say my story was creepy and in a way i totally agree. the thing is the way ive always seen Edwards relations ship with bella was like the werewolves imprinting. i mean Edward tried to Ignore bella but ended up watching her sleep (which by itself is creepy). he had an unexplainable attraction to her. this is like that but its not like a sexual attraction, more like a deep need to protect her and yea. hope that makes sense.