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I sat in my room playing piano. The lullaby I wrote for Bella quickly became my favorite song. I played it but it always felt incomplete to me. It felt like the song wasn't finished and I didn't understand why.

As I sat thinking about this Esme came in and sat by me. "What is wrong?" She asked.

"Nothing is wrong Esme." I said as I started to play a different song.

"Don't give me that, Edward. Something is wrong. For the last four years I've watched you live your life more unhappy than normal.

I looked at her with surprise on my face.

"You thought I didn't notice?" She said with a sad, small smile. "You are my son, Edward. I know and love you. I can tell when you are unhappy and when your are miserable. It pains me, Edward. I want you to be happy, but you won't let yourself. You see yourself as a damned soul, a creature who deserves no happiness–"

"I am damned!" I yelled interrupting her.

"No! You are not. God would not damn someone like you."

It doesn't matter anyways I–"

I stopped when Carlisle came into the house. He was early which was odd.

"Everyone. We need to talk." He said. Everyone gathered at the kitchen table. "First off, I wanted to thank the Denali clan for having us here. It's been great being with all of you."

I looked at all of the clan members and saw them all say it was no problem.

"Next I wanted to say I think it is time to move. I have been thinking we should go back to Forks. I have had Alice watch the future and she says that we should have no problems."

"Why so early?" Rosalie asked.

"We all love Forks. To all of us, Forks has seemed more like a home than anywhere."

"But dear, don't you think sixteen years is a little early?" Esme asked

"There is no reason to wait. Most of the people in Forks' high school when the kids where there, have left the town. No one will know who we are."

"If you are sure, than great. I miss that old house." Esme said giving finality to the decision.

They kept talking but I walked away. It was twilight now. I walked to a rock a good distance away and sat. I would get to see Bella after four years. I didn't know if this was a good thing.

Alice came and sat by me.

"Is this the right thing?" I asked her quietly.

She sighed and put her hand on my shoulder. "You worry too much about right and wrong. What do you want? Sometimes the only way to know if it is right or wrong is to know what you want and why you want it. Sometimes there is no right or wrong answer. You just have to make a decision."

I looked at her. "You know that didn't help at all."

She smiled. "Oh well. Come on. We need to pack and load your Volvo."

We both ran home. We loaded my Volvo and drove all of the way back to Forks.

When we got to the house I moved the clothes I got in Denali to my room. When I got to my room, I saw my piano that had put there when my family was gone.

I sat and began to play Bella's lullaby. I played pouring my soul into the sound. When the song was over, I couldn't' play anymore. The sound of breathing brought my attention way from my piano to the person standing at my door. Jasper stood looking at me.

"Can I come in?" He asked.

"Yea." I said standing form my piano bench." What do you want?"

"What's going on with you?" he asked. "Your emotions are going haywire. Don't say nothing. We all know you are unhappy."

"How?"

'The way you act. You only laugh and smile when it is expected. You are a good actor ut you don't give us enough credit. When you smile it' is different than your genuine smile. It's the same smile you use when you turn down one of your admirers.' He thought.

"Am I that obvious?" I asked disappointed they knew.

'We all care about you. I'm your brother by everything but blood and I love you as a brother. So does Emmett, Rosalie, and of course, Alice. I don't understand, Edward. Why do you keep us at arm's length? You have walls that don't allow us near. Why do you guard yourself? I really am trying to understand.' He thought.

We stood in silence for a while, starring at each other. Finally he sighed.

'You hate yourself. We all know about your self-loathing. I just hope one day you will see what everyone else sees. You're not a monster.' He thought as he walked away.

I sighed and walked down the stairs. I ran out the door and hurried to Bella's house. I was beyond anxious. Just to see that she was okay would set my soul at peace.

I got to her house and inhaled deeply. My senses were assaulted with people's smell that I have never smelt before.

I climbed the tree near Bella's room and looked into the window. Instead of Bella there was a teenage boy laying where her bed used to be, listening to his ipod.

I breathed in deeply. Bella's scent was gone. Not a trace of it remained. I felt as if daggers were thrust into my soul.

I jumped off of the tree and started walking home. I saw a sporing good store. I walked into it.

I walked to the counter where a middle-aged women stood, filling her nails. She looked at me and smiled.

"Is there anything I can do to help you?" She asked.

"I was wondering if you could tell me where Isabella Swan lives?"

Her thoughts were surprised.

"She moved three and a half years ago. Charlie's mom was diagnosed with cancer. They left to take care of her." she said

"She's gone?" I repeated to myself.

"Yes," She answered.

I turned and left the store. My mind was swimming with thoughts. I ran to my house and saw Alice standing at the door waiting for me.

"I saw," she said." Are you okay?"

I walked forward ignoring her question. She hurried to me and wrapped me in a hug.

"She's not here Alice..." I mumbled.

"I know, I'm sorry."

For a while she held me while I thought. To be honest I didn't understand what I was feeling. I was sad. My heart was broken but I didn't get why. After a while Alice broke the silence.

"Esme is probably wondering where you are. We should go inside."

We walked together inside. I ignored everyone's stares and questions and walked straight to my room. I sat at my piano and played.