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I followed the sounds of Bella's cries. I found her sitting at the side of the wall. She had her arms wrapped around her legs and her forehead was leaning on her knees. The rain gently fell from the sky mixing with her tears. Her brown hair hung over her face.
I slowly walked to her and sat by her side. "Bella, don't listen to her. What she said, her words, they were the darkest of blasphemies." I sighed not knowing what to say. "You are worth so much. These people don't understand that. They are so caught up in themselves that they lose sight of true worth. The thing is if they had any sense at all they wouldn't say those things."
She turned to me. I really don't understand what came over me, but I pulled her close and held her. She cried on my shoulder as I hugged her. For a moment, I felt nothing of myself. My anger, my emptiness faded, being replaced by a deep concern for Bella. All I wanted was for her to be happy. I realized then that I would give up anything for her happiness, even if it meant my own.
After a while she looked up at me. "Do I know you?" She asked quietly."You seem so familiar."
Her words melted my heart, a piece of her remembered me. I smiled sadly. "No, you do not know me."
We sat in silence watching the rain fall. The fifth period bell rang but neither of us moved. After a while she looked up at me.
"Will you do me a favor?" She asked me, her eyes pleading.
"Anything. What do you want?"
"I want you to stay away from me. I want you to not talk to me again."
"Why?" I asked. I felt like the air was punched out of me. My heart shattered. I could tell she was serious.
She didn't answer me. For a while we just starred at each other. Her eyes were determined.
"Please." She pleaded. Her voice was so quiet I almost missed it.
"Do you really want this?" I asked.
"I do."
"As you wish."
She stood and walked into the school building without any backward glances.
I didn't move for a long while. I couldn't' move. My legs were stone as her words replayed in my mind.
"As you wish bella. If this is what you really want than so be it." I said to myself.
The door opened and I heard Alice's foot steps walking towards me,. She sat next to me and said nothing. She held an open hand out to me. I reached into my pocket and pulled out my keys. I dropped them into her hands without saying word.
"I'll tell the others so they know you won't be taking us home." She said.
"Thanks, Alice." I said as she gave me a hug.
"I'm sorry."
"It doesn't matter. Nothing really matters anymore." I said with a sigh.
She stayed seated as I stood. I began to run to the forest.
I stood motionless, with my eyes closed searching for prey. Different smells permeated the air as I tried to separate the smells. Different types of heart beats flew through the air. Finally I found what I was looking for.
I ran abandoning me self, my thoughts. I let my senses take over as I chased toward a deer. I pounced on its neck and tore into its throat. Its red blood flowed into my mouth lowering the severity of my thirst. Its heart beat slowly faded. My mind caught up with me and I looked at my dead prey.
The deer was lifeless starring out into the distance. Its brown eyes were dead. Those eyes were taunting me, reminding me of Bella. I threw the body into a tree and ran to my meadow.
I collapsed onto the grassy ground and screamed. I put every emotion I felt into it. All sadness, anger, confusion, despair, hopelessness, and hate I felt, I poured into my anguished cries.
I walked towards the pond and saw my reflection. It was distorted by the drops of rain falling from the clouds in the sky. Rippling golden eyes starred at me from the water.
I just want her to be happy. I sighed. if anyone in this world deserves happiness it is her. I am such a hypocrite. I am worse than Jessica, and Lauren. I abandoned her when she needed me. I have to go now anyways. My family is probably getting ready to interrogate me.
I ran back to home. My whole family sat in the living room. The moment I entered Rosalie stood up and walked to wards me.
"What was your problem today?!" She demanded, starting the interrogation before I could stalk off to my room.
"I looked around to see me whole family waiting for me to answer. All but Alice.
"She didn't deserve to be treated that way! I couldn't sit back and watch her be tormented!"
"She is only a human Edward." Jasper said from the couch. "You know we can't get involved with them."
"I'm not getting involved with them." I said quietly.
"Yea?!" Rosalie spat at me. "Where did you go then?"
"I don't have to explain myself to you!"
"You went to her didn't you!" She didn't wait for my answer. "You are risking our secret for some worthless human girl!"
"She is not worthless!" I growled. Her jaw dropped. "Hold your tongue on matters you know nothing about. Just for one day would you care for something other tat yourself. You –"
"Edward!" Esme yelled standing from the couch.
"What does it matter anyways." I said.
"Say away from her."Rosalie growled at me.
"Edward, I agree with Rosalie. You should stay away form her. Any unnecessary risks must be avoided at all cost. You do understand this, don't you Edward?" Carlisle said speaking for the first time.
"Whatever Carlisle." I said as I turned around and walked out the front door.
I wandered around Forks until I found Bella's new house. I climbed a tree near her window and looked through. Bella was sleeping peacefully. She turned over and what I saw shocked me. Bella was holding the angel teddy bear I gave her years ago.
"Angel" she murmured in her sleep."Where are you?." She sighed. "So alone."
I walked into her room. "I'm here Bella. You are not alone anymore. I'm not going to leave. This I promise." I whispered as I walked near her. I started humming her lullaby. She rolled over and with the sweetest smile she gave a sigh of contentment.
It started to make sense. I saw the reason I hurt so much when she was hurt, the reason I wanted to see her smile, the reason why the four years I was away from her was hell.
I was in love. For the first time in my life I was in love. And to be honest I was scarred.